why won't you
whisper in my ear just tell me something beautiful
your eyes a pretty chandelier, I really wanna get to know
you up inside my bed so comfortable, I really wanna know
what is it like to be your boyfriend?

pull up non-stop, baby I just wanna feel the love
make it drop-top, I just wanna be the one you want
but maybe I'm wrong, maybe I just wanna be your love
but maybe I'm gone, maybe I'm devoted past the fun

let me get this straight
people always seem so fake in your reverie
tell me why you seem to hate
every word I say
why you make it seem so fake?
in your eyes of grace
tell me why I can't feel safe
everything you do feels fake
why won't you just give me space
why won't you stop touching me

eyes of grace

make them pop like a bubble
watch them panic as they freeze
make them drop like the rubble
watch them all crush me
only four more hours 'till I can't bleed
only four more cycles and I'll be free

(If the effects of a particular drug are so bad that they need to be made illegal)
(Then shouldn't the negative side effects be enough of a deterrent?)
(Enough of a punishment to anyone who uses them)
(That we don't also have to begin involving everyone else in the community?)
(Police, Politicians, Lawyers)
(To stop the use of this drug)
(Shouldn't the punishment it inflicts on the person who use it be enough?)
(Apparently not)

how long can I go on?
these angels waiting for me to move right on
how long will I be me?
stuck in this paradise where you cease to be
how long can I go on?
these paper-thin razor marks make me feel wrong
how long can I go on?
within this paradise dream fueled the mirage

panic freeze

taking time to myself make me feel like your enemy
watch me burn on the steps of your door make me want to leave
you got me stuck inside your ways, just let me out
you never take the blame, when will you grow out? (of here)
I wanna leave you and this whole town
I'm sick of all this fucking around
just wanna leave you and this whole town
so sick of so sick of so sick of
just get me out

what is this feeling
I feel inside?
you come out
in front of me
and tell me
"It's gonna be alright"

feel me inside of your skin
don't you see when we pa-

get me out of here
don't you feel it dear?
feel the way I feel
burning holes in fear
get me out of here
your body's like the poison I take
you torture me to get to my brain
you paint me like a fucking maniac
feel the way I feel
I can't see the wings around you
you seem just like the devil-
I just wanna get out of here

get me out of here

tell me when it feels right
baby, you're my 9 to 5
tell me when I do this right
you're the only one that I satisfy
I'm sick of waiting for you
your emotions get me stuck up on you
I'm sick of waiting for you
I just wanna get on a move on a move

feel so sticky get a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how you want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
feeling at the cusp of dying
but you pick me up make me fine
feeling like I need some time
but you angelic let's take five
feel so sticky take a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how u want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad

I don't wanna break your trust
I don't wanna break apart this love
is it what you need?
am I really just a fantasy?
you took all my life
how could I enjoy in peace?

feel so sticky get a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how you want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
feeling at the cusp of dying
but you pick me up make me fine
feeling like I need some time
but you angelic let's take five
feel so sticky take a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how u want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad

9 to 5
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
bend it over-
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad
come- come-
want you bad
come- come-
come- come-
come-
baby, you're my 9 to 5

Feeling trapped inside the boundaries you set for yourself?

Imaginary Doors

lyrics:

Tokumei Gang

I dont get much of a feeling
i sit in my room, write, and sing,
cant go outside i feel something,
its freaking me out, please help me

tweaking hard i got paranoia,
dont stare at me, scopophobia,
im struggling hard, possible end of my era,
I cant go outside, Agoraphobia

i left my home, i feel nauseous,
i take nausea pills for my precautions,
pain in my throat to my stomach to my shins,
but I pray to god to forgive me for my sins.

i want to get help, SSRI’s
I wish to finish my game of Zombi
people question my disappearance, i ask why?
my illness has me down til i die.

Why can’t people understand, this is reality,
I’m not some jester, PLEASE dont make fun of me,
I dont think you know him, but who is he?
Once this song comes out my frustrations will be free.

tweaking hard i got paranoia,
dont stare at me, scopophobia,
im struggling hard, possible end of my era,
I cant go outside, Agoraphobia
x2

i want to get help, SSRI’s
I wish to finish my game of Zombi
people question my disappearance, i ask why?
my illness has me down til i die.

Why can’t people understand, this is reality,
I’m not some jester, PLEASE dont make fun of me,
I dont think you know him, but who is he?
Once this song comes out my frustrations will be free.

t-t-t-t-tokumei g-g-gang .  sharp eyes sharp teeth :)

[INSERT FAST LOWQ PART]
tweaking hard i got paranoia,
dont stare at me, scopophobia,
im struggling hard, possible end of my era,
I cant go outside, Agoraphobia
x2

i want to get help, SSRI’s
I wish to finish my game of Zombi
people question my disappearance, i ask why?
my illness has me down til i die.

Why can’t people understand, this is reality,
I’m not some jester, PLEASE dont make fun of me,
I dont think you know him, but who is he?
Once this song comes out my frustrations will be free.

t-t-t-t-tokumei g-g-gang .  sharp eyes sharp teeth :)

agoraphobia (Prod. walronD!)

eric north - agoraphobia v2 [deerhunter cover]

[Verse 1]  
Blackouts, memory gaps  
You said you never noticed, but I'm fading fast  
Where am I? Who was I?  
Staring back at myself, can't recognize the lie  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity pulling me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-infused nu metal flow)  
Heartbeat spikes, involuntary pain in my chest  
World leaking out my skin, what am I supposed to do next?  
No light in my eyes, pills do nothing to my mind  
Mixed in the sands of time, leaving it all behind  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity crushing me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth synths building to breakdown)  
I'm diagnosed with the void, fears flooding in  
Turn the hourglass, let the darkness win  
No more reflection, just shadows and sin  

[Breakdown] (Nu metal drop with growls)  
Blackouts! Gaps!  
Lost! Trapped!  
Agoraphobia! Panic! Escape!  

[Final Chorus] (Full band intensity, layered vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  
(Fade out with echoing whispers: "Who am I... who am I...")

Lost In Agoraphobia

Intrusively Careless (Prod CannonTooCold x ScarProductions)

Agoraphobia (MY ANXIETY IS KILLING ME)

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EcHoS N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Goshen, Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric  , Odium  or Void—this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

(PART OF PHANTOM CLIQ)

(Probs Talking with my girl Xerooo 🤘😛)

CORVU$ is a Northern Irish rapper who dicusses the effects of anxiety, mood swings and gore-porn addiction (Normally through graphic cover art off old gore websites).

"I hope to help at least someone realise that this world is screwed no matter what and there's no point worrying about anything, cos in the end nothing matters and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel."

"I do this to get my thoughts and bottled up hatred and anger out."

Aliases:
YUNG $PLATTER (Represents my former gore/porn addiction and horror obession).

CORVU$ THA CANNIBAL (Represents my anxiety more so my behaviour and thoughts when I'm nervous).

LIL ANARKY (Represents my fuck this shit attitude).


Producer Name:
The Postal Dude 

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