KEY (feat. Anki)

Dive into a hypnotic spiral with "Everything Is Louder When I'm Empty," a psychedelic fusion of alt-grunge, trap-metal, and dance that captures the raw chaos of emotional burnout and identity erosion. Heavy bass pulses beneath cracked guitars and glitchy atmospherics, creating an immersive soundscape that mirrors the internal collapse behind forced smiles. Let yourself fall into the trippy depths of distorted thoughts, relentless tension, and fractured self-worth, where every whisper echoes louder in the void.

Lyrics:

I lost the map
But kept the weight

I don’t sleep—I just shut down
Eyes open, but I’m blackout bound
Thoughts crawl like wires in my veins
Looping errors I can’t name

The mirror doesn’t flinch anymore
It’s learned the ritual too
Dress the wound, fake the form
Then bleed where no one moves

My chest hums like a siren
But no one's ever warned
I scream into my own skin
It echoes back: “Be more.”

Everything is louder when I’m empty
Even silence starts to drown
I’m a grave with moving pieces
Smiling just to hold it down
It’s a hurricane of whispering
Saying I don’t get to heal
Just a body full of static
In a world that won’t stay real

I fake momentum like a drug
Chase the high of being “fine”
But every yes I give away
Just rewrites my crooked spine

Hope hangs like rusted ceiling fans
Spinning lies above my bed
And I’ve made peace with all the voices
That convinced me I was dead

I dial in for rescue
But the signal’s just my breath
Tangled up in memories
That never let me rest

Everything is louder when I’m empty
Even stillness shakes my frame
I’m a storm with no direction
Just the guilt that wears my name
It’s a flood that has no mercy
Built from things I didn’t say
Now I’m drowning in the silence
Of the life I gave away

I am rust in motion
I am fire with no heat
I am teeth behind a smile
I am cracked beneath your feet

I am songs I never finished
I am doors I never shut
I am trying just to function
While my soul leaks out in cuts

Everything is louder when I’m empty
And I can’t find mute or pause
I’m the ghost that no one noticed
Wearing skin that still applauds
It’s a riot made of nothing
But I feel it every day
And I’m screaming through a whisper
That forgot what hope could say

I forget who I was
But I remember the weight

Everything Is Louder When I'm Empty

I can’t get high, not even on hope
Tied up the truth with a worn out rope
Hung my regrets from the back of my mind
Swung in the silence, waiting for a sign
But I still wake up low
And I can’t get high

Yeah
I keep the fan on just to hear it spin
It’s the only thing here that won’t cave in
I pace like the floor might say something new
But it just creaks like, “Yeah, me too”

I got pictures I don’t hang up
Can’t look back if you tape it shut
I light that candle, watch it drown
Pray to wax, and I let it run down

I ain’t slept, I just blink too long
I ain’t strong, I just live too wrong
Bite my tongue ‘til it bruises guilt
Swallow silence like it pays the bills

I can’t get high, not even on hope
Tied up the truth with a worn out rope
Hung my regrets from the back of my mind
Swung in the silence, waiting for a sign
But I still wake up low
And I can’t get high

They say hold on, it gets better
But better’s a myth with a silken tether
And if that fan keeps spinning forever
It’s the only thing here that handles pressure

Got meds in the cabinet I don’t even touch
Not scared of dying, just scared of too much
I lie when I laugh, I flinch when I trust
And I ghost my own life like, “This ain’t us”

Put a chair in the hall, face the wall like art
Don’t sit in it. Just like the part
Where I pretend I’m not staging a scene
With nothing but silence and dopamine

I can’t get high, not even on hope
Tied up the truth with a worn out rope
Hung my regrets from the back of my mind
Swung in the silence, waiting for a sign
But I still wake up low
And I can’t get high

I said “I’m tired”
They said “same”
But they meant “need a nap”
I meant (check the drawers)

Left the window cracked again
Let the night decide
If I stay
Or float

I can’t get high, not even on hope
Tied up the truth with a worn out rope
Hung my regrets from the back of my mind
Swung in the silence, waiting for a sign
But I still wake up low
And I can’t get high

Still can’t get high
Can’t get high

I Can't Get High

Kirstin Glover, a captivating duo from the heart of the Midwest. With a fusion of gritty grunge and vibey lo-fi Guitar, Kirstin Glover deliver songs are adorned with saturated textures, spacey vocals, and crisp riffs, creating a sound that's both nostalgic and refreshingly modern. Explore the depths of their supersonic universe and let Kirstin Glover take you on a journey of raw energy and soothing shoegaze.

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LEAVE MY LIGHT ON
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