Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare

And I feel so sorry, cause my-
Personality feels like-
Cigarettes and cheap plastic toys I used to love.
It never made sense to me so,
When I come back around please be patient now.
And I'm~, Just so sorry, For-
How I ghosted again,
I don't know where I am,
I want you to know,
You're my best friend,
I know I'm not the one you think about,
When you look back on happy memories,
And fond times and everything around my mind,
It always comes and goes,
I can't tell the time anymore, so I-
I'm sorry my personality feels like-
Cigarettes and cheap plastic toys that I used to love,
I don't know what's wrong I've been trying to make it alright,
But I know-
I've~ been,
Distant lately I've been waiting for a chance,
Just to apologize one more time,
The word, "Sorry," comes right to my lips,
Like water melds with wine,
I don't want you to see me cry,
I've been waiting for the chance to say,
I'm sorry my head doesn't work right,
I can't get it out of bed,
My mind's muddled covered in dirt,
Tell me how to make it better,
I just wanna sit with you,
And talk about the same old shit that we used to.

Cigarettes And Cheap Toys (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://www.instagram.com/prodbyzbeatz/

Oh, no, I can't sleep at night,
I wonder if it's cause I stopped telling lies,
To myself about my future,
using bitter tones and ice,
I thought that I'd be alright,
As long as I held my morals tight,
But now as more time seems to drift drift by,
I don't even care what it means to be, alive,
I've been waiting another another way just to survive,
I never thought that I~

Would be happier all alone in my room,
Looking through the mirrors,
And all I see is you,
The one who held me down, I know~
Now all I have is love~

And I know in the end it won't matter,
As long as I can hold my own~
Nothing in my head will matter now~

Cause when I go to lay in bed at night,
I'll be the one to cast the sails,
Drifting into shallow waters,
Hoping I don't run aground,
But now I know that I~

I was made for more than this,
Born to be without this bitterness in me.
But now, oh no~

Oh, no, I can't sleep at night,
I wonder if it's cause I stopped telling lies,
To myself about my future,
using bitter tones and ice,
I thought that I'd be alright,
As long as I held my morals tight,
But now as more time seems to drift by,
I don't even care what it means to be, alive,
I've been waiting another another way to survive,

Shallow Waters (Prod. ZBeatz)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I don't remember how I got here once again,
A gentle boy with stars in his eyes,
Lost in the afterlight,
Street lights wasting all their might,
Watching me drift by,
So,
Let me~ Waste another day where I never know how to stand,
I feel so empty on demand,
So, If it's all the same to you,
Let me waste my time,

Drifing inbetween my thoughts,
Through different lands, but I'm always at a loss.

Now I, Feel like I can't come home ever again,
I've been wasting all my time,
Losing what it means to be a man,
So~,
If it's all the same to you,
Let me waste my time,
Drifing inbetween my thoughts,
Through different lands, but I'm always at a loss.

I can't sleep anymore, I don't know where it all went wrong~
I don't remember how I got here once again,
A gentle boy with stars in his eyes,
Lost in the afterlight,
Street lights wasting all their might,
Watching me drift by.

Let Me Waste My Time (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Well maybe I'm just different this time around,
But I can't seem to get it right,
Something in my mind's, been, fighting me at night, but,
That's how I know I'm alive.

Pick it up again, another chorus in my head,
Something that'll let me get through this resent,
For myself another reason I can lament,
But I won't judge at all my friend.

Mirrors are finally becoming my friend,
I don't see malice in those eyes,
Something's different this time around,
And I don't know if it's just me...

But when I wake up, I don't feel the same dread,
Something's better off in my head.
A lullaby I made just to go to sleep now,
If it can help you that's alright.

Let me know if I hit a wall,
I can't tell at all,
Between the darkness and the numb in my veins.

but maybe, I'm not what I used to be~...
I've been getting more sleep,
And I don't cry at all,
Until it all comes down again,

Well maybe I'm just different this time around,
Mirrors are finally becoming my friend,
I don't see malice hidden in those eyes,
Just confused and needing a rest...

Mirrors (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare

Mmmmmh~,
I know that you're just as surprised,
Something hidden deep in your eyes,
I know you don't wanna see it,
But when I say, "Bye".
Know that it's only temporary in my mind,
I can't let it go this time,
One more night will pass,
Where I won't see your eyes,
I won't mind at all,
Cause when I wake,
Every morning greeted by the sum of my mistakes,
Something in the mirror is telling me that it's okay,
When i see you next time,
I'll make it fine,
I'll let you know how hard I fell this time,
Head over heels,
Stuck in the after-reels,
Playing back highlights of every time...
That you smiled my way.

I Hate Saying Goodnight And Goodbye (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Wait,
I've been trying every single day for something new,
Hoping that you'd see me if I really came through.
I don't want you to go away,
I wanted you to stay,
Waiting for the chance just to make you say,
"Oh no, I fell in love again, waiting for that bitter end,"
I know you don't trust it,
But you need to understand...

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Lower your guard a little, I've been trying my best,
Just to show you that I really meant well,
But lately I've been wondering if you really feel the same;
I can feel you watching me,
It's always the same-
I know you're confused,
I know you're scared,
One more time you're not prepared,
I know that you saw it coming,
You just don't know how to feel.

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Scared (Prod. Autrioly)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

Oh, I, know you think that I'm so tough,
But baby please I've had enough,
And lately I hate the sound in my head,
Ringing between my ears bleeding out,
One more time back down I felt alive,
Now I don't know how to part the tides,
Now when you see me I know you cry,
I know you hate me but I think you needed to see,
Baby, I'm not just for free,
I know there's something wrong with me,
Now I don't think you can leave, please don't leave,

One more time back down I waited for more,
Waited for you just to open the door,
Now I'm just waiting alone on the floor,
I think you hate me but I needed you just to see,
Baby I know it's for me,
I've been selfish from the start,
You don't know how I feel apart,
Oh, my, heart just won't let go,
I know I, hated this sound just so long ago,
Now I can't live without it,
Oh I hate it.

Free (Prod. Autrioly)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Hiding~ away~, again,
It's back where I started,
Laying on floors, watching as everything opened the doors,
I know that I had closed it off, but-

Nothing ever stays the way it should,
One more time back down I wished you would,
Break down again, Lose all your friends,
Now I won't be there to catch your fall,
I lost it all when I went back,
Waited for every simple attack,
Now when I wake up I dream all the same,
Hoping that you'll say my name,
Mmmmmh-mmmmmmh-mmmh-mmmh....
It's not what you wanted I know,
But someone had to go and steal the show,
Why won't you let it be me...
Mmh...

Steal The Show (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

You told me not to worry,
But that doesn't mesh well with me,
Baby I'm just a fool you see,
One more time I'm back down where I started again,
I'm just thinking of the memories I had with friends,

Sitting in the back seat of a car, I don't remember anymore,
Once more I felt alive with the window down,
But it was one more white lie,
I was nauseous and so lonely,
I wished someone would just hold me,
But now when I think back,
I'm worried,
I never cared at all, Oh no~

I wish you'd just come with me,
I hate this scene I've seen it play out too many times,
I know what you see when you look at me,
It's never changing anything but I've been waiting for you
just to see that I'm not what I-
Promised I'd be,
I lost it all again and I think maybe you know...

You told me not to worry,
But that doesn't mesh well with me,
Baby I'm just a fool you see,
One more time I'm back down where I started again,
I'm just thinking of the memories I had with friends,

Laying on the couch waiting for the time just to pass right by,
I know you see it-
One more time I watched as everyone faded out,
You know that I love you,
But I don't know how to stand on my own,
So forgive me I need to go...

A Fool (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

Always a lie inside my head,
I'll dream again.

I'll dream again of your voice when I go to bed,
But I don't know how my head just always goes through
these same old sounds.
I don't know how I got here, one more time left for dead-
Now-I'm-Fine.
I'll dream of all the nights that I could have had,
Wait for the mornings that made me so sad, and now...
I'll wait for you to call me back,
Oh~... Oh~...

You know I was never meant for this,
I always wanted you to test the limits
of what's in my head and inside my heart,
I was just lost, I lost all my blood,
And now my veins open up easily whenever you say my name.
I hide in my place, waiting for you just to tell me it's okay.
But I know that it's never so easy now,
Wait for me when that final sounds comes, like- Oh~
Oh~, Oh~, Oh~...

One more nightmare come to pass inside my head,
I wished that everything would always go back the way I left it,
But it never does at all, I saw you through all the Adderall~
I waited all this time, just for you to seize my mind.
I don't need thoughts, I don't need feelings,
Take it all and hide in the ceilings~...

Break the walls again, I'll see the sky and know your face,
Know it's never going away.
I'll dream of stars, and think about Mars,
Waiting for you to come back down,
I think that if I go to bed,
I'll soar through space, and wait for you instead.
Oh~...

Dream (Prod. Boyfifty)

Surf Trash - Jam in the Van (Live Session, Los Angeles, CA)

Spice It Up (Live)

Friends (Live)

Hello Again (Live)

Pre- Save my next album, 'Now Lie In It' Releasing January 24th, 2025!

https://share.amuse.io/album/scarfac3-tha-misfit-now-lie-in-it

This is a Souncloud exclusive. I recorded this a few years ago for an album and unfortunately discovered the beat is no longer available for purchase.. Enjoy!

https://youtu.be/cVO0CbzDqzU?si=WeXJNE2-So_vKOrC


SCARFAC3 THA MISFiT- Don't Look Back prod. imsoproudofyou

inspired by long summer days on the French Riviera. when the livin is easy but the heat is a little too heavy. 

summer sombers

Lyrics: 

[Verse]
Just like the movies.
I could see the man, unfold.
With his eyes, lost in hers.
They would always fall in love.
A happy ever after.

[Verse 2]
I wish you would glance at me.
Those golden, brown eyes. 
To be the center of your gaze
My life would have some meaning.

[Bridge]
I'd smile from my heart
I would be the only one you see. Really could be yours.
  
[Chorus]
To be loved, to be someone's daydream.
oh the way i'd melt, understanding how your presence would shift my being. 
Those Amorous eyes, softening my heart.
But the mirror breaks. it's always been me.
I'm nobody to you. Not even a glance.

[Verse 3]
Like the movies, I want you to fall for me.
My hands, caressing your soul
Letting you dream of me, just once is all I need.

[Bridge]
I'd smile from my heart
I would be the only one you see. Really could be yours.

[Chorus]
To be loved, to be someone's daydream.
oh the way i'd melt, understanding how your presence would shift my being. 
Those Amorous eyes, softening my heart.
But the mirror breaks. it's always been me.
I'm nobody to you. Not even a glance.

(Instrumental)

[Chorus]
To be loved, to be someone's daydream.
oh the way i'd melt, understanding how your presence would shift my being. 
Those Amorous eyes, softening my heart.
But the mirror breaks. it's always been me.
I'm nobody to you. Not even a glance.


Amorous eyes

Lyrics: 

[Verse]
i'm used to this by now.
my dreams never seem to work.
i see the repetition in my life.
Every day feels like it's just a lie.

[Verse 2]
I want things to align in life.
Why must i try to change?
What is wrong with me?
I can't keep up with this smile.

[Bridge]
I don't want to lose more of my time.
To be lost, broken, and still wishing good things to be coming my way.


[Chorus]
I'm so sick of myself.
I want to be a millionaire.
So that I can live my life, give my love, give more than my heart can hold.
Stone cold broke, always getting help.
I'm such a loser.
Don't say i'm good, when i'm just trying. 
i'm just trying.

[Verse 3]
Home is all I have.
I just want to be able to share what i've made with all i love.
Never trying to be selfish.

[Bridge 2]
I don't want to lose more of my time.
To be lost, broken, and still wishing good things to be coming my way.

[Chorus]
I'm so sick of myself.
I want to be a millionaire.
So that I can live my life, give my love, give more than my heart can hold.
Stone cold broke, always getting help.
I'm such a loser.
Don't say i'm good, when i'm just trying. 
i'm just trying.

[instrumental]

[Chorus]
I'm so sick of myself.
I want to be a millionaire.
So that I can live my life, give my love, give more than my heart can hold.
Stone cold broke, always getting help.
I'm such a loser.
Don't say i'm good, when i'm just trying. 
(i'm just trying)
I want to be a millionaire. So that I can live my life.
(but i'm such a loser)

Sick of Myself

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Fighting myself from me.
Leaving my hurt to my mind.
Killing my soul, heart, and being.
Somebody save me from me.
Who am I if I can't even be me.

[Verse]
I'm sorry i couldn't hold it.
My pain, turning into bits.
Hiding away is all i've known.
To be alone is what i've honed.
tomorrow is what i look for.
But i'm defeated with hate down to my core.

[Verse 2]
I need a clear path to light.
Even if all I could bare is this sight.
Just torn down by mistakes.
Slowly drowning in heartbreaks.
How can i live like this?
Do all i need is just a true love's kiss?

[Chorus]
Fighting myself from me.
Leaving my hurt to my mind.
Killing my soul, heart, and being.
Somebody save me from me.
Who am I if I can't even be me.

[Verse 3]
Dripping in sad blood.
My thoughts raining and turning into a flood.
My dreams never make it out alive.
It's always me fixing me like i'm a hard drive.
Legs shaken, mind taken, i'm so lost.
Tears fall, heart stops, is this my cost?
Never seeing my future.
All because my mind is eaten up like the virus on a computer.

[Verse 4]
Choking on my own spit.
I have to try harder to quit.
Nothing's working, what am i?
I'm all alone and have to realize.
No one will come save my heart.
Does that mean, i'm destined to fall apart?

[instrumental]

[Chorus]
Fighting myself from me.
Leaving my hurt to my mind.
Killing my soul, heart, and being.
Somebody save me from me.
Who am I if I can't even be me.
(somebody come save me)
(somebody save me from me)

Save Me

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An innovative rap artist Leader/Creator of the duo, MISFiT NATiON alongside his brother, DegenerateZ
Upstate NY

Chillwave + alternative indie <3 (more tunes on Spotify)
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