They all treat me as a villain
Like im constantly
In crisis mode 

Well who are you
To tell me 
Whats on my mind

I shape shift daily
Never know what side of me
That youre gonna get

Im a crisis kid
Im a bad influence 
Dont know who i resent more
The man in the mirror
Or the man i could have became
One day 

Thats a long way down 
Im not ready to fall

Im not ready to go
Please dont make me

Dont look at me
With those teary eyes 

I was mystified 
At your ability
To change the topic 

Is this where it stops
Or are we just getting started

I dont wanna fall out
I just snorted half a sumn sumn

You just kept it coming
Till i fell in love with numbing 

I had fell in love with subbing
Cuz it made them hit
Harder 

Im so sorry to my siblings
Yeah I know that this isnt right
You shouldnt have to see
The dark cricles
Round my eyes

bad influence (crisis kid)

If youre reading this
I think that you
Know the rest 

Im a man of my word
I promised you the world
And i will love you
Till my very last breath

You dont look down on me
Like all the others did 

Its kind if scary
Dont know
How i should react 

Cuz now youre part if my soul
I put your heart in my songs

I wonder if you were here
If you and i would 
Sing along together 

This is a cycle to break
I cant lie
I cant wait
To be the man youve 
always needed around 

I just cant figure you out 

I can
Feel the water
Running past your bones

I wonder if your familys
Given up yet
On tryna find your body 

Its not fair
I want you all to myself
This is where
You will remain 

This is the result
Of what would happen
If you had fed
Into my games

Im sorry
Its just not my fault
This time

And maybe you were better off
Not getting in the car
That night 

Im feeling hopeful
That your memory
Is shot
And you will not recognize 
My facial hair

Bah duh da duh da duh

I would be lying
If i put the blame on 
You again

Bah dun da dun
Da duna da
Bah dun da dun
Da duna da 

Im so dramatic
Youre annoying
Im a loser
Why do you love me

Circle round my body
Like the vulture
That you are

This aint no science fiction
You do not get to put
Me in a spell

And i hope that you
Think if me
When youre unwell

sunny day

As i fumble around the dark
My head feels 
Heavy and hallow 

I just couldnt
Stomach
Thinking about 
Going down a path
Where i see the paint peel off 

Dirty bathroom stalls
Where i used to meet the dealer 

This pill looks a little off
But i still think 
Ima eat it 

Anything to curb
The sickness 
I’ve been feeling

What you know about
6 am at the dennys 
Coffee cup shaking
Cuz i ran out of my bennies 

Dollar bills scrolled up
Ready for the candy 

Nother line down 
I can feel my chest caving

They say that its 
a hard pill to swallow 
Well then ill crush it up
And add it to the drink
In my styro

Ill just add it to the drink
In my styro

I can hear the whirring
From the ceiling fan

Told my friends all not to worry
As i took my another xan

Pill after pill
Pop it till my liver 
screams for mercy 

I take drugs to feel good
Theres no way 
That theyll ever hurt me

Thats what i had always said
Until they found me in the cell 

The way that i was ostracized 
Youd think i crawled up
Straight from hell

Surrounded by the roaches
All these poor decisions 
Broken dirty dishes
Moldy bathroom walls 
I wake up sick
Im feeling anxious
Maybe i just need another pill

Thats what i tell myself
I am not an addict though 

Im not decaying yet
Maybe in a couple years
Necrosis setting in 

All the pain inside my body will stop
And i can be okay

Bring me back
Way back to the day
Where i didnt need a substance
Just to face the day

to my dear friend Benny

Dont you shy away
Things were just about
To get so good

I heard your name
From the woodland creatures

They all speak about you
Very highly 

But what do i know
Ive been suffering

Ive been hiding
Dont you see me

Didnt i say
Everything would work out
In the end 

You aint believe me though
You thought it was just a lie

Its not a process
You could trust

Dont be putting up a fuss
About this
Anymore 

Jesus
Will you please 
Try to release me

The shakles on my arms
Dug way too deep

This is my fault
For not believing 

And maybe thats why
Im on the ground bleeding

I did whatever i could
To repent for my sins

And still thats just not
Good enough for you

Can i talk my way out if this
I just do not know 

Its been a very long time
Since i had a place
To call my home 

Maybe i should call my mom

Wonder if my dad would care

I wish they could get along 

But i know that 
Way of thinking
Isnt fair 

Im a junk yard dog
Dont you look at me
The wrong way
Or i might attack 

Im too easily attatched
And it causes me
So many different
Issues in my life 

All this pain 
And all this strife 

I just take it 
In my stride 

Baby strap in for the ride
Its a little bumpy
In the road ahead 

Maybe someday
I will wake up
From the nightmares
In my head 

Maybe someday
I will realize
That i died that night in bed

the call of the wild things

I cant even tell you
What it was 
That made me
Wanna break down
This hard 

Can you tell me
What it was about
My appearance 
That made
You seem to love me less

Ill wipe the makeup off
If that means
I get to speak
To you again

But honestly
Im hoping that
You take me as i am

I was never that
Comfortable 
Posing as a man
But thats all you ever 
Wanted from me
Ill give you what i can 

Im so disgusted
I dont even know if i
Can function anymore 

Im just a baby boy
Daddy why can you
Not look at me in the eye 

Why would you just
Walk away
When i started to cry
My love for you is unconditional 
Im in for the ride 

But with the way
That i been feeling
Im just better off
Rotting 

Can we ralk about it later
I dont really have the time

Now the damage is done
Ill just say that im fine
But in the back of my mind
Im decaying 

What was it
That you always 
Said to me in these dark times

I must have forgotten
All the words that were nice

common misconception

There was a shooting
Down the road

You had blood
All over you

All the parents were scared
Of this alleged evil presence 

What can i do
To make this right
To make you feel
Like you are safe at home

Theres just not
Enough of me to go around 

Cant you hear me 
Begging for substance

They say what goes around
Always comes around
But i still have yet
To see karma

Am i done yet
I dont know
I am stuck here
All alone 

I I
Dont go
I heard
That were closer in age
Than we think 

Youre not
I cant 
Do this 
Anymore 

Someone said
Mind your manors kid

Maybe soon
Everything 
Will be okay

We can go to america
I heard the grass is greener
Over there 

Just hold on tight
Its a hell of a ride
Where were going

Dont look now
But the film is still rolling
Capturing everything weve done

I suffocate you
With all of my love

Feel the fluid
Entering your lungs

And drown here

ellis island diary entry no. 3

This is my final breath

This is my final resting place
If they let me 

I am so
Sorry for the mess

Ill clean it up
When i get home 

No this is not enough for you
To wait up for me

I been dragging my feet
Im a mess 
I cant tell you 
How many times i skipped
A shower this week

No i have not been
Keeping up with myself
Like you want me to

Man that must be a drag
All you wanted to do
Was tell me that youre proud
Of the things
Im accomplishing 

But i have not done shit
I am not done here
Watch how i go up

Its an honest mistake
All these pills
That i take
Habe you so damn worried
Bout when im gonna die

Baby dont you worry 
Bout a thing
Im a fuckin veteran 

Ima catch this nod
When i lemontek 
My medicine 

I know you hate
On the life
That im livin

But since i was a kid
I been killin my liver 

Its just way too scary
I cant stop 

Please just let me
Catch this nod

Just watch your tears fall
As they lay down my body 

Was it ever enough
For you

I was never enough
For you

I can not wake ip
From this mess

I dont wanna go back down

can never kill this feeling

Back when
My mother got sick
My father was absent
God love him though

I always just thought
That he did not know
Any better 

I just cannot 
Think of any 
New solutions
Except hurting myself

I do it every day
With the pills and the liquor 

Are you proud
Of me daddy
Look im just like you 

And i dont plan
On staying long
I was just passing through 

Could you ever look 
At me as a son
That you can tell 
All of your friends about 

Did you know
That i tell all of mine
About you 

Hey can you hear me daddy
Ive been screaming 
From the other room

I feel so tired
Now this pill 
Is startna
Rip up all of my insides 

My head bleeds when i sleep
I just dont know how to describe
the pain im feeling on the inside 

Daddy can you hear me
Ive been crying 
Ive been hurting

my father's son.

Hard rock cover of ''Too Sweet'' by Hozier. Re-imagined by Twelve XII

Twelve XII - Too (f'n) Sweet

rolek_ - fehér, hullámzó fodrok (hardcore v03)

Leave Me Alone

LYRICS 

make up stupid allegories 
for ur bullshit stories 
go an start a podcast 
yk that shit wont last
no one will listen
find a spell to cast 
maybe u’ll grab my attention 
but i don’t believe ur witchcraft 

i can’t go back 
i can’t change the past 
i’m dressed in all black 
puff puff pass the whole sack

when the night falls 
i fall to the asphalt 
i’m too damn drunk 
it’s all my fault 
lemme assault my lungs 

i’m up all night 
getting fucked up till sunrise 
i’m an animal, when i’m crossed 
new horizons come to me 
there ain’t a fee to make me bleed 
baby 
when the night falls 
imma ignore your calls 
there just false alarms 
i sleep thru them all 
an a fall asleep in my own arms 

fucked up off sum wax 
bad bitch in the back 
of my camry 
i’m so suprised u can stand me 
i barely can stand on my own 
u can hit up my phone 
but imma stay alone 
all night 
till i see sum sun light 
got me feelin like a vampire 
i want ur blood 
you want my love 
ion got no love 
unless i hit this one more time 

i can’t go back 
i can’t change the past 
i’m dressed in all black 
puff puff pass the whole sack

when the night falls 
i fall to the asphalt 
i’m too damn drunk 
it’s all my fault 
lemme assault my lungs 

she say i should b a creative writting major 
say she love how my writing go sum flavor 
well baby do me a favor, and nvr txt me back 

make up stupid allegories 
for ur bullshit stories 
go an start a podcast 
yk that shit wont last
no one will listen
find a spell to cast 
maybe u’ll grab my attention 
but i don’t believe ur witchcraft

U Should B a Creative Writing Major -SOCIAL SITUATIONzzz

its all the same in the denny's cup

twin size fantasy

Glass Hearts Demo

Schemes (Prod by KelvoBeatz) (Original Edit)

Dead Spring is a multi-genre band that blends elements of metal, punk, indie and emo, as well as many other genres alike. Consisting of guitarist and main vocalist Willow Carlson and drummer Owen Vaughn, Dead Spring is dedicated to breaking traditional genre barriers and giving a sense of community and belonging to those who have been robbed of such. The journey has just begun and we at Dead Spring are very excited to have all of you here for it!

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