One thing I can't stand is a hypocrite. The only thing worse than a hypocrite is a religious one. This song is for a particular religious hypocrite who I spent half a lifetime trusting and protecting the reputation of, only to have them take the wrong side in a crucial moral battle, siding with abuse, adultery and alienation, proving that blood IS indeed thicker than water. Even when the blood is thinned out by booze and pain killers. And despite who was actually the one in the wrong (in life AND on those permanent court records). To the point of even breaking federal law and tampering with the mail to prevent a certain letter and packet of evidence from being delivered to the meal-ticket/golden-goose.

It's only just beginning, after all I've been put through. But a little punk rock is a nice start now, innit?

And yes, lose the peroxide job. It's hideous.

Anyhow, the music itself was another song "reclaimed" from a failed, defunct project where it never got to live up to its full potential, like several others I have already begun re-forging into songs I don't see as "C-list" or "throwaways". I rerecorded drums, and added some tasty, raspy, fuzzy, pissed-off little guitars, screamed myself into a headache, and voila! So here it is, the way it always should've been.

Bottle-Blonde Julie Marie

BOTTLE-BLONDE JULIE MARIE

FFFFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

preface: everything in this description that is written in between [brackets] is not true anymore as the song has evolved a lot since i initially wrote this description. i could rewrite it but i'd like for you to know my thoughts during the process of making the song. you'll just have to imagine how whatever i'm referring to sounded until i (maybe) someday publish an earlier version of the song :D
ps. dates are written mm-dd-yy

the idea behind the lyrics and song title is the lack of meaning, and the creation thereof when first listening to the song. say a song has a sad or dark title, you'll have the foreknowledge of it being a sad song before ever hearing it (obviously). 'Yuawa Iguo' is meaningless, written in a non-existent language. someone listening to it for the first time will have no clue of what mood the song will be.

when i first listened to lingua ignota (aka kristin hayter), i had no idea what to expect in terms of sound, because of the name. when i think of "lingua ignota" now, i think of literal agony and desperation. it's the feeling and meaning i subconsciously added to the name after i heard her music. that's what Yuawa Iguo is supposed to be.

funnily enough, this song started out as easily one of my calmest (unreleased) tracks ever. it was supposed to be a nice ambient piece... it's safe to say it didn't evolve into one. the initial concept was made on 6-10-25 [, that being the deep strings you hear with the weird noisy pluck with an insanely long tail, around the start of the track].

the next day, i worked on it some more and added some weird noise synth... just to forget about the entire project until the end of the following month. until i found it again, i forgot it'd ever existed, haha. i was scrolling through my projects on 7-30-25, because what's the point of starting a new project with older unfinished song ideas already sitting there, yk. i opened the project and i continued working on it, still with the ambient idea in mind.

the exact part where the the transition between calm and loud [is] (was, at the time of writing this), was supposed to transition into... the same calmness, just with more instruments. i laid that exact thing down, but then removed it and added the aggressive drums you hear now. i don't know what made me refrain from the initial idea, but i'm glad i did. i myself love the route this track took more than whatever ambient thing i could've made it to be in some alternate universe........

oh yeah, fun fact, most of the screamo background vocals were not recorded for this track! i recorded them a whiiiiile back, inspired by 100 gecs, believe it or not. specifically the outro to 800 db cloud. that part is so cool.

total time spent on the project: 15 hrs, 25 min

thanks for reading :)
much love, georges 

Yuawa Iguo

Let your freak flag flow, songs about being a freak, being broke, being a loser. being a degenerate. being X'd out of society (like me) not being a part of this sh1t show

let my freak flow

let my freak flow x Young Death

AT THE BOTTOM

FAR FROM OVER

I LET YOU IN

BETTER THAN THIS

My head is spinning 
don't know why I'm still here
humans they make me sick
I'm just so tired of it    

I can show you it all
something that will make you crawl
you won't do shit I fucking know it
Doesn't it make you feel hopeless?
like you wish you were never born

My head is spinning 
don't know why i'm still here
humans they make me sick
I'm just so tired of it   


still here

Songwright? Songmaker? Sonic Machinist? Dithyramber? Just don't call me a "songsmith". Seriously though, multi-instrumentalist (I play them all), vocalist and all-around creator of memorable musical compositions.

Young Death x Underground legend x Trap metal artist x I post memes for promo x I make gross music for gross people x 2 tracks over 100k

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