hi <3 this is a song i wrote about suffering for love and wondering if it is, after all, worth it. can you guess i still don't have an answer? hope you like this one!

Worth It

Discuss attachment styles, emotional healing of wounds, practical techniques for healing and daily practices.

Book Review: Healing Your Attachment Wounds

teenage bedroom melodrama

Produced by @t.murp
Mixed and mastered by @idreaminstereo

Losing Me

snap back quick
get into it

kerosene oil pour a bit
and i like how the flame jump
i told you not to wait up

interstate speed, how i like to leave
and i let them question the key to me
“how do you keep company?”
well i thought i was easy to read

be so seen, and i recoil in it
you catch me staring at the gas pump
told you not to show up
now watch how i leave, how i split

interstate speed, how i like to leave
and i let them question the key to me
“how’s it feel to be free?”
well i thought i was too easy to read

the flashback thick
i can’t admit

kerosene oil pour a bit
(and i like how the flame jump)
strike the match head, now the shit’s lit
(i told you not to wait up)
well i thought i was easy to read
(the flame is the true key to me)

interstate speed, how i  tend to leave
before they stick their knives in me
“how do you keep any company?”
well i thought i was easy to read
i was too easy to read

Key2Me

A home demo from 2025. From the EP Phantasies.

Kathryn (Demo 2025)

Beatscapes 1128

Faceless Mind - 16 Steps At Byfogde O (Fundamental Records) (2015)
Baby T - I Wish (Central Processing Unit) (2020)
Human Rebellion X Shun - Dosage and Capacity (Ovelha Trax) (2023)
Kafkactrl - XOR Calculator (Gladio Operations) (2024)
Luke Eargoggle - Freaks Are Spinning (KONDI) (2004)
Sound Synthesis - Nexus Of Dark Energy (Orbital Mechanics) (2021)
Transparent Sound - Pissing Against The Wind (CRC Yellow Snow Remix) (Exalt Records) (2024)
X-Truder - M4NIAC (Borg Recordings) (2024)
Go Nuclear - Respond 2 Techno Sound (Ovelha Trax) (2022)
Somnolent Works - Lost Transmission (Ovelha Trax) (2024)
Sound Synthesis - Deep Space Scanner (Orbital Mechanics) (2022)
X23 - Can You See (Battery’s Park’Studio) (2024)
Generali Minerali - Mars Generation (RFR) (2021)
Heliopause - Lights Flicker (Robotmachine Records) (2024)
Mr Gentle - Cyber Arps (Lloyd Stellar Remix) (Preset) (2020)
Neonicle - New Culture (Feat. Dyroplane) (Electro Music Coalition) (2024)
Sigma_ALgebra - Cauchy Schwarz  (Science Cult) (2024)
SOD-90 - Carousel (Strange But Dance Music) (2024)
Zadig - Circular Causality (Oscar Mulero Remix) (Sotor Records) (2021)
G303 - Acid Dropping (Zodiak Commune) (2024)
Parand - DATA03 (Nurse) (2020)
Turk Turkelton - Sugar (RAIDERS_RECORDS) (2020)
Zobol - Retrofuturism (Tiger Weeds) (2024)
Dirk Wiertz - Girl Scout (LDI Records) (2025)
Jadzia - Triple Check (Kosmodod Remix) (Ovelha Trax) (2024)
Mayo - Frenemies (Danny Daze Hell Mix) (Fides) (2022)
PRZ - Lazerton (Cultivated Electronics) (2024)
Helsmoortel - Violance (Avoidant) (2021)
Cyborg Rhetoric - Ventilate (Ovelha Trax) (2022)


Beatscapes 1128 - www.radiocentraal.be

Do you crave connection but keep everyone at arm's length? You might be what Tracy calls an "accidental asshole."

You're not trying to be a jerk. You built that wall as a kid to survive. But now it's blocking the very thing you want most.

You date with one foot in, one foot out. You need drama to feel anything. When someone actually wants to love you? Boring. Or terrifying.

Stop waiting for someone who won't trigger you. That person doesn't exist. The work is dealing with the discomfort of letting someone in.

In this episode, Tracy explores:
* Why you need tension to feel attraction
* How the "perfect person" fantasy keeps you unavailable
* Why you get pissed when you actually get attached
* Why you contact exes months later
* How to feel without the protective facade

"Emotionally available people do not seek out unavailability." ~ Tracy Crossley


#816: The Truth About The Accidental A$$hole

Are you exhausted from forcing everything to happen? From pushing through goals that leave you feeling empty once you reach them?

Most avoidants live like they're perpetually on fire—reacting, controlling, forcing outcomes because "easy" feels dangerous. But here's the thing: all that forcing keeps you from the very flow state that would actually get you where you want to go.

In this episode, Tracy explores:
* Why ease feels dangerous when you're avoidant
* The difference between forcing and allowing
* How perfectionism keeps you stuck in empty cycles
* Sitting with discomfort instead of reacting
* Recognizing when you're escaping versus flowing

"When you're forcing, you're coming from a state of lack. You can't force a healthy relationship. You can't force anything meaningful. But we keep trying because we're afraid to let go of the false building we've created that everyone can admire." ~ Tracy Crossley


#617: How To Stay In The Flow As An Avoidant

thinking if i did right while i write this song
do i really see fine, is my vision flawed
doubting if i played my moves or if stalled
now i cant call, anxiety. mask on

my vision is blurry
i was such in a hurry
that i called out for help
to a person that couldnt
and wouldnt at all
not because its their fault
but cuz all their traumas created them from
the ground up
now im in the honda
elements in body rocking like thunda
ponder why i tried it at all
wishing for a last date near the pond

Avoidant detachment

We are from the Banksy school of bios.....

Welcome to the Mindful Book Critic where our blog is about share the love of insightful knowledge to our listener.

The Aquanaut drifted.
Bass in it's wake.

An Ambassador at the helm,
Spinning Electro into the void.

A Black Hole opened.
The Rhythm answered.

Mushrooms fell.
The Universe danced.

Vincent Russo has been composing music since 1988. He is a self taught musician on both guitar and keyboards. While growing up on Long Island, Vincent explored rock, blues, jazz and western classical music. Over the years Vincent has produced a wide range of works from chamber, symphonic, choral as well as more pop oriented and electronic styles of music.

hi 🌹
i write songs that make you feel less alone ❤️

A lot of us live in our head, disconnected from our feelings and intuition. This podcast touches on releasing insecure attachment, accepting your authentic self and getting “unstuck” by connecting to how you FEEL instead of how you THINK. I’ve been there, and discuss sensitive subjects using my own experiences with a lot of laughs and even more empathy… because we’re all flawed humans.

New tracks tagged #Avoidant