[Verse]
I watch you smile beneath the fading light
You talk of love but he's still on your mind
I nod and laugh
Though my heart’s on the line
A secret burns in the chambers of my spine

[Chorus]
If only you could hear the words I hide
A melody that aches but won't collide
My love for you
It blooms in silent shade
Forever bound
Yet doomed to never fade

[Verse 2]
I take the long road just to walk with you
A silent shadow in the morning dew
Each whispered joke
Each sigh
A blade anew
For every joy
My heart still breaks in two

[Chorus]
If only you could hear the words I hide
A melody that aches but won't collide
My love for you
It blooms in silent shade
Forever bound
Yet doomed to never fade

[Bridge]
I dream of worlds where I could hold your hand
But I’m the ocean and you’re made of sand
Too close
You slip beyond my desperate grasp
A fleeting hope lost to the hourglass

[Chorus]
If only you could hear the words I hide
A melody that aches but won't collide
My love for you
It blooms in silent shade
Forever bound
Yet doomed to never fade

If Only You Could Hear

[Verse 1]
I see you laugh under twilight skies
The way your smile brings me back to life
But every word I want to say gets trapped inside
A secret burning that I cannot hide

[Chorus]
What if this feeling breaks us down?
What if we lose what we’ve always found?
But what if you feel the same way too?
What if falling for you sets us new?

[Verse 2]
Your quiet moments tell me more than loudest speech
Like ocean tides that pull you out beyond my reach
I second-guess and wonder if you ever see
The way my heart is tethered endlessly

[Bridge]
I’m scared to shatter what we’ve built so strong
But maybe
Just maybe
We’ve been here all along
If I hold your hand
Will the world stay the same?
Or will it all vanish when I whisper your name?

[Chorus]
What if this feeling breaks us down?
What if we lose what we’ve always found?
But what if you feel the same way too?
What if falling for you sets us new?

[Verse 3]
You’re my safety
My light through the haze
But dreams of love cast shadows that amaze
If I leap
Will you jump? Catch me too?
Or will our friendship fade into the blue?

[Verse 3]
You’re my safety
My light through the haze
But dreams of love cast shadows that amaze
If I leap
Will you jump? Catch me too?
Or will our friendship fade into the blue?

Just A Maybe

[Verse]
We sat beneath the painted skies at dusk
Our laughter filled the air like fairy dust
You leaned in close I froze but felt alive
A moment hung between us sharp as knives

[Chorus]
Oh what if I could tell you my heart bends
Each word you say it plays and never ends
I’m scared to break the bond we’ve gently made
But what if love could bloom in this cascade

[Verse 2]
The way you speak it pulls me like a tide
I’m drifting closer though I learn to hide
Will you still anchor me if waves collide
Or will I drift away left unsupplied

[Bridge]
The things I want to say are stuck inside
A language made of courage I’ve denied
But when you smile it cracks the case I’m in
You make me wonder how to let love win

[Chorus]
Oh what if I could tell you my heart bends
Each word you say it plays and never ends
I’m scared to break the bond we’ve gently made
But what if love could bloom in this cascade

[Verse 3]
I see the years unfold within your eyes
The story's there it catches me by surprise
A future big enough to hold our dreams
What if it’s waiting right beyond these schemes

Bloom in Cascade

[Verse]
I see the light in your smile tonight
Your laugh feels like a spark in the quietest night
I tell myself it’s nothing more
But my heart’s been knocking on a locked door

[Pre-Chorus]
What if I lose you if I let this show
What if I tell you and you say no
But what if you feel the same as I do
What if we fall and find out the truth

[Chorus]
I’m falling into you
There’s no escape
Caught in the rhythm of a love that waits
You’re the dream I’ve held back
The one I can’t lose
I’m falling into you
Just hoping you’ll choose

[Verse 2]
You tell me your secrets
Every fear you bare
I hide my own beneath a fragile stare
Hoping you won’t see the way I’ve changed
From a trusted friend to a heart untamed

[Chorus]
I’m falling into you
There’s no escape
Caught in the rhythm of a love that waits
You’re the dream I’ve held back
The one I can’t lose
I’m falling into you
Just hoping you’ll choose

[Bridge]
If we step
We might shatter or we might soar
I’d write a new chapter if you'd open the door
I’m scared of the fall but I’m braver with you
So tell me
My friend
Do you feel it too

Falling Into You

[Verse 1]
Your smile's a sunrise breaking my night
I’m lost in your voice it feels so right
We laugh until the stars run dry
But I’m drowning in this secret lie

[Chorus]
Can’t tell you what I feel each day
If I speak the truth you might walk away
I’m holding on but it’s tearing me in two
I'm in love with you and you have no clue

[Verse 2]
You tell me about the hearts you chase
I play along keep a steady face
But the cracks are wide they're hard to mend
When you’re so close and just my friend

[Chorus]
Can’t tell you what I feel each day
If I speak the truth you might walk away
I’m holding on but it’s tearing me in two
I'm in love with you and you have no clue

[Bridge]
Every lingering glance I hold inside
These brittle hopes I have to hide
But what if one day you see me there
Would you dare to take my hand and care

[Verse 3]
I dream of a time where this can be shared
But the risk is too much oh my heart’s unprepared
So I’ll keep you near in the way that I can
A friend unspoken a quiet young man

Secret Wishes

[Verse 1]
You laugh and the world feels lighter,
One look and the clouds roll away,
I hide all the words I can't say,
'Cause I'm scared you might turn away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every heartbeat pulls me closer,
Every moment feels so right,
But if I speak, will I lose you tonight?

[Chorus]
You're closer than a dream,
Closer than the stars above,
Right here with me,
But just out of reach of love.
I’m holding my breath,
Afraid to let you see—
You're closer than a dream to me.

[Verse 2]
Your hand brushes mine and I'm reeling,
I smile but I’m falling inside,
If I could just tell you the truth,
Would you still stay by my side?

[Pre-Chorus]
Every heartbeat pulls me closer,
Every whisper sounds like fate,
But one wrong word, and it's too much to break.

[Chorus]
You're closer than a dream,
Closer than the stars above,
Right here with me,
But just out of reach of love.
I’m holding my breath,
Afraid to let you see—
You're closer than a dream to me.

[Bridge]
Maybe someday you’ll know,
How much you already mean,
Till then, I’ll just keep you...
Closer than a dream.

[Final Chorus]
(You're) closer than a dream...
Closer than a dream...
To me.

Closer Than a Dream


I saw your smile beneath the rain
Like sunlight breaking through the pain
A fleeting glance it stole my air
Yet you walk on unaware

Your voice it lingers in my soul
A melody I can’t control
Each word you say a sweet embrace
That fills the quiet empty space

But I’m just a shadow
You never see
Hiding these feelings
Locked in me
The world may whisper
But I stay still
Loving you safely
Against my will


The evening sky mirrors my ache
The stars reflect the path I take
To hold this love in secret's bloom
In silent hope it lights the gloom


What if the breeze carried my name
Would you turn or stay the same
A step away feels worlds apart
Would you catch the whispers of my heart


But I’m just a shadow
You never see
Hiding these feelings
Locked in me
The world may whisper
But I stay still
Loving you safely
Against my will

Smile Beneath the Rain


We talk about forever like it's easy,
You laugh and all my fears just fade away,
But I'm standing at the edge of something deeper,
And I don't know the words to make you stay.


I hide it every time you look at me,
Afraid of losing what we’re meant to be...


If you only knew the way I’m falling,
If you only felt the way I do,
Every time you smile, it's like I'm dreaming,
But I keep it locked inside so I don't lose you,
If you only knew...
If you only knew...

I see you chasing dreams, and I'm just cheering,
Your happiness is all I wish for you,
But somewhere in the spaces left unspoken,
I wonder if you’re hiding feelings too...


I’m scared the truth would tear us both apart,
But still you hold the pieces of my heart...


If you only knew the way I’m falling,
If you only felt the way I do,
Every time you smile, it's like I'm dreaming,
But I keep it locked inside so I don't lose you,
If you only knew...
If you only knew...


Maybe someday you'll see it in my eyes,
Maybe someday you'll hear it in my sighs,
But until then, I’ll be your silent light...
Standing by...


If you only knew the way I’m falling,
If you only felt the way I do,
I would give it all, risk all the breaking,
Just to be the one who's right beside you,
If you only knew...
If you only knew...

(If you only knew...)
(If you only knew...)
Mmm...

If You Only Knew

[Verse 1]
Late-night calls and secret laughs
We talk like we’ve got forever
You say I know you better than the rest
But not the part I’m hiding clever

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Every time you say my name
It sounds like a maybe, but I don’t claim
'Cause if I say too much, you might walk away
So I keep the truth at bay

[Chorus]
If you only knew what’s in my heart
How I fall harder with every start
Every time you say “you mean the world to me”
I smile, pretend I’m fine
But you’re everything quietly
If you only knew—if you only knew me

[Verse 2]
You talk about someone you might like
And I rehearse my smile again
I cheer you on while I fall apart
Still playing the part of a friend

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I wish I could turn back time
To a moment where maybe the stars aligned
But I sit in silence, scared of the cost
Of telling you what I’ve lost

[Chorus]
If you only knew what’s in my heart
How I fall harder with every start
Every time you say “you mean the world to me”
I smile, pretend I’m fine
But you’re everything quietly
If you only knew—if you only knew me

[Bridge]
I’ve written songs I’ll never share
Poems burned in midnight air
If you ever feel the same, don’t be afraid
I’ll still be there

[Final Chorus]
If you only knew what’s in my heart
How I’ve loved you right from the start
Every word I didn’t speak still rings true
And I’d give the world just to tell you
If you only knew… if you only knew

If Only You Knew Me

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 Four women

Annie has brought her three best friends and their families together for a long weekend away in a gorgeous seaside Airbnb. It should be idyllic – sun, sea, sand, cocktails and laughter.

One shocking secret

But below the surface, none of these friendships are quite what they seem. And Annie has a secret – and an earth-shattering favour to ask of one of her friends.

A life-changing decision

As the idyllic weekend turns sour – arguments, grudges and a boat trip that goes awry – Annie must make her devastating decision – and change everyone’s lives, forever.

The Last Weekend, By Hannah Begbie, Read by Helen Colby

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