찬바람이 불어와
기다리는 너는 오지 않고
-
찬바람이 내 곁을
아프게 맴돌고
난 어디에도 없는
사람이 된 것 같아
이런 나라는 사람은
바람처럼
스쳐지나 사라진다
홀로 운다
난 사람이 내 곁을
떠나지 않기를
난 버림받는 것을
당연시하는 걸까
이런 나라는 사람은
바람처럼
스쳐지나 사라진다
홀로 운다
-
이 외로운 나날 속에
네가 찾아와
잠시 동안은 정말
아늑함을 느꼈어
이런 나라는 사람은
바람처럼
스쳐지나 사라진다
홀로 운다
이런 나라는 사람은
바람처럼
스쳐지나 사라진다
홀로 운다
-
찬바람이 불어와
기다리는 너는 오지 않고
바람은 날 비웃으며
텅 빈 내 마음
공허한 마음
차갑게 날 아프게 해요

바람 커버_attst(원곡)

HATE exclusive premiere.
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GCOD makes his debut on the Label with “Quicksilver”. A sharp, organic minimal-minded release, exploring the push and pull between space and energy. Built around the balance of tension, these tracks, fuse precision, restraint and purpose.

Artist: GCOD
Title: Quicksilver
Label: Bipolar Disorder Rec.
Catalogue: BDd038
Format: Digital
Genre: Electronic
Style: #Techno | Groove
Release date: April 25, 2025

Mastering by: Charles Accarisi
Artwork by: Giorgi Grdzelishvili
 
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Tracklist:
1. GCOD - Moodymann (Original Mix) 06:19
2. GCOD - Moodymann (HIGHLIMITER REMIX)
3. GCOD - Moodymann (Raredub Remix)
4. GCOD - Squash the Spiders (Original Mix)
5. GCOD - Squash the Spiders (Gene Richards Jr Remix)
6. GCOD - Bitter (Original Mix)
7. GCOD - Bitter (The Chronics Remix)

Influenced by time on dancefloors and long walks away from the screen, the EP reflects GCOD’s changing workflow: refined & direct.

Remixes from Raredub, Gene Richards Jr, HIGHLIMITER and The Chronics add new layers of energy and pressure, each taking the foundation into their own territory.


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Quicksilver

Moodymann (Raredub Remix)

Premiere: GCOD — Moodymann (Raredub Remix) [BDd038]

in this special mother’s day edition of deverde greene’s mental health podcast brain fruit, deverde conducts the show’s first ever interview with their own mom. 

with banh mi sandwiches and some shiny new recording gear in tow, deverde ventures out to the atlanta suburbs where they grew up to have an intimate conversation with their mom. the pair discusses deverde’s childhood eccentricities — like creating a cartoony, other-worldly alternate persona and sporting the nickname “mopey” throughout high school — and take a deep dive into how deverde’s bipolar diagnosis and subsequent psychiatric hospitalization affected the family. 

along the way, this mother-child duo investigates with tenderness and curiosity shifting generational attitudes about mental health, the subtle (and not so subtle) ways that mental health conditions influence family dynamics, the terminology we use to refer to people living with mental illness, & the complexities of sharing diagnosis stories outside the family unit. 

Topics discussed include: families, parent-child relationships, mood disorders, psychiatric diagnosis and hospitalization, bipolar disorder and manic-depressive illness, & so much more. 

this episode was originally produced in fall 2019. it has been remastered and includes a new introduction by deverde.

brain fruit | ep. 0.2 | moms

Bipolar Disorder

A raw voice memo entirely self written in under an hour and recorded in one take during a breakdown from my hospital bed, while dealing with chronic illness, severe pain, and a mental health spiral. Melody was created exclusively from my voice and emotions. No studio. No instruments. Just me, my voice, my pure, raw emotions, and everything I’ve been feeling for years that I finally found the courage to say. 
This is Makeupless Heart.
Here are the very words that kept me functioning and alive… they’ve already changed one life due to its resonance and vulnerability, I truly hope they can change yours too! Thank you so much for listening! 

V1: 
The clock was set an hour ahead 
Daylight savings, confined to a bed
Passage of time as fast as spilling wine, 
My brain diminished in size four fucking times 
Degradation of me compromised
In the mirror I see a ghostly spy, 
Gone in color, trying to find the brushes to fix… 

Pre Chorus: 
If I turned off my makeupless heart 
Would my care resuscitate me with a spark?
Would turning off the bright light my dark? 

Chorus: 
The empathy that’s within my veins, the love overflowing within me 
The hunters and foxes are stealing my youth 
Fish stuck on the line you can’t let loose 
The nightmarish echoes, that scar me from truth 
If I turn them off, will my dreams come true? 
Or will I lose all point of view, and strip everything that was my glue 

V2: 
The past tense turned to present tense 
Metastasizing my depleted head 
Looking through contacts, a viewpoint that can’t be hid 
The bear that saved its cub rips off my flesh
Verifying the reality in my knotted head 
The song that was irrelevant, years later gained recognition 
Isn’t that what led to gunshots in the head? 
No one listens, until lowering you in the grave bed. 
Scared shitless, wrapping their mind around any clues that led. 

Chorus: 
The apathy that’s within my veins, turned to ice from bloody hands of chivalry. 
Dinosaurs reversed extinction just for me 
Being left in the world I’m held captive in by my fucking feet
The nightmarish screams, that deformed my proof
That existence is more than an immortal shattered roof 
I turned them off, my dreams never came true
I lost all point of view, I stripped everything that was my glue

Outro: 
I put makeup on a makeupless heart.. 
I put makeup on a heart that’s torn apart.

Tags: singer-songwriter, raw vocals, folk, emotional, voice memo, chronic illness, mental health, depression, suicidal ideation, grief, poetry, alternative, lupus, disabled, heartbroken

Makeupless Heart (Voice Memo)

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Atlantica Night Ride is a vivid snapshot of Kaltblume’s world, shaped by a journey through Brazil and long nights along Copacabana’s Avenida Atlântica. It’s a work born from contrast: the buzz of crowded streets and the calm of remote nature, fleeting encounters and solitary stillness.

Artist: Kaltblume 
Title: Atlantica Night Ride
Label: Bipolar Disorder Rec.
Catalogue: BDd039
Format: Digital
Genre: Electronic
Style: #Techno | Groove
Release date: July 17, 2025

Mastering by: Charles Accarisi
Artwork by: Giorgi Grdzelishvili
 
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There’s a quiet pressure at play here. Built on intricate, rolling rhythms, looping fragments of Carnival, distant voices, and tribal percussion, all stitched into a framework that never settles, only evolves.

Kaltblume moves instinctively, drawing from the mood of clubs, sidewalks, and sky, his sound sharp and restrained, yet emotional in its weight. The EP unfolds slowly, not in peaks, but in shifting tension, immersively present.

As he continues to shape his own direction, Atlantica Night Ride stands as a bold and fluid step forward, alive in every detail, yet grounded in the moment.

Tracklist:
1. Risky Delight
2. Atlantica Night Ride
3. Defective Memory
4. Fiebre
5. Fleshure
6. Atlantica Night Ride (GLIA Remix)
7. Defective Memory (Mython Remix)
8. Fiebre (Uväll Remix)
9. Fleshhure (The Chronics Remix)


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Atlantica Night Ride

Fleshure

Premiere: Kaltblume — Fleshure [BDd039]

In a world that often demands perfection, showing up real is an act of courage—especially when mental health challenges are part of your story. This episode dives deep into how embracing vulnerability and prioritising genuine connection transformed not only my sales but my entire approach to leadership and life. Discover how discipline and authenticity work together to help you show up fully, build trust, and create lasting success. With the rise of AI-generated content, now more than ever, it’s the human stories that cut through—because people don’t connect with perfect, they connect with real. If you’re ready to lead with heart and resilience, this episode is your roadmap.

ABOUT SARAH ANNE

Sarah Anne is the founder of Million Dollar Groups, where she teaches coaches and entrepreneurs how to build and monetise online communities filled with their dream clients. Her path to success was anything but conventional. After being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder, Sarah spent nearly a decade navigating mental health challenges. Rather than let those struggles define her, she used them as a catalyst for transformation. Through deep personal work and a passion for meaningful connection, she rebuilt her life—and developed her extraordinary sales skills—on her own terms. Today, she helps others create high-impact group programs with authenticity and alignment, showing that it’s possible to turn your hardest chapters into your greatest purpose.

CONNECT with SARAH

INSTAGRAM: http://www.instagram.com/sarahanne0
FACEBOOK GROUP: https://www.facebook.com/share/g/19FKBAptMc/?mibextid=wwXIfr
FACEBOOK: http://facebook.com/sarah.anne.011/

Mental Health, Connection & the Courage to Show Up Real with Sarah Anne

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For its third VA installment, we present a 14-track collection shaped by the label’s evolving pulse.

Artist: Various Artists
Title: BDVA003 (Side A) 
Label: Bipolar Disorder Rec.
Catalogue: BDVA003
Format: Digital
Genre: Electronic
Style: #Techno | Groove
Release date: September 12, 2025

Mastering: @chlaer_
Artwork: @ggrdzelishvili

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The VA spans the full spectrum of energetic techno, capturing both the intensity of peak-time moments and the depth of late-night introspection.

This carefully curated release brings together friends of the label, some invited, some discovered through open demos, reflecting a shared vision and mutual inspiration. A balanced showcase of emerging talents and established names, offering a dynamic narrative across its two sides.

Tracklist: 

SIDE A
-
Elisa Bee - Data Bloom
Shanda - Just a Little More 
Aidan Rudd - Tarnished
Bondarük - Solos como Tony Dize
Marcos Fagoaga - Club Therapy
The Chronics - Silent Voltage
Franz Jäger - VR01

SIDE B
-
Glia - Undefined Truth
Oculus - The Heretics
Unconformist - Postive Wave
Josh Heywood and Molly Lollen - Temptation
Ebass - Phaeton
Bogmudd - Sleep The Data
DSC7 - Rare





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BDVA003 (Side A)

Club Therapy

Premiere: Marcos Fagoaga — Club Therapy [BDVA003]

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For its third VA installment, we present a 14-track collection shaped by the label’s evolving pulse.

Artist: Various Artists
Title: BDVA003 (Side B) 
Label: Bipolar Disorder Rec.
Catalogue: BDVA003
Format: Digital
Genre: Electronic
Style: #Techno | Groove
Release date: September 12, 2025

Mastering: @chlaer_
Artwork: @ggrdzelishvili

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The VA spans the full spectrum of energetic techno, capturing both the intensity of peak-time moments and the depth of late-night introspection.

This carefully curated release brings together friends of the label, some invited, some discovered through open demos, reflecting a shared vision and mutual inspiration. A balanced showcase of emerging talents and established names, offering a dynamic narrative across its two sides.

Tracklist: 

SIDE A
-
Elisa Bee - Data Bloom
Shanda - Just a Little More 
Aidan Rudd - Tarnished
Bondarük - Solos como Tony Dize
Marcos Fagoaga - Club Therapy
The Chronics - Silent Voltage
Franz Jäger - VR01

SIDE B
-
Glia - Undefined Truth
Oculus - The Heretics
Unconformist - Postive Wave
Josh Heywood and Molly Lollen - Temptation
Ebass - Phaeton
Bogmudd - Sleep The Data
DSC7 - Rare





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BDVA003 (Side B)

The Heretics

Premiere: Oculus — The Heretics [BDVA003]

This song is about how it feels for me personally when I split. I'm diagnosed BPD and splitting is different for everyone, but this is my experience. I almost lost my family because of my disorder so this song is also about taking ownership and not letting splitting be an excuse for bad behavior.

Lyrics;
Oh my god
what have I done?
This thing I love
is bleeding out
on sacred ground
where we would keep
our memories.
They're burning but
I cherish these.

And now my body's
keeping score.
My chest has been
a leaderboard.
And now I'm trapped
deep in a maze,
and I'm afraid
I can't escape
what's in these veins.

Cause I,
I am just a comet falling through the clouds. 
It'll be a moment before I hit the ground.
Then they'll all be screaming and when I look around
everything will be gone,
tumbled to the ground.
Then it is just me and I listen to the sound
of fire and ashes everything is coming down.
And it's all my fault,
now I'm laying in the ground
just listening to the sounds.
Can I just listen to the sounds?




Listen to the sounds

BLADE$ is an independent artist, working in hip-hop, cloud rap, rap, and emo rap. A young composer, beatmaker, performer, and producer who fully creates his own sound — from production to final mixing.

My sound is a reflection of inner struggle, pain, and hope. Every track is a story built on personal experiences.

Raw and real conversations on courage, consciousness and leadership.

Makeupless Heart (Voice Memo) OUT NOW! 

Hi, I’m Amber Thompson and I’m 23 years old from Southern California! I’m a chronically ill and bedridden singer-songwriter and poet whose lyrics are my lungs and only coping mechanism. I write all my songs from my hospital bed, using nothing but my notes app, voice memos, and a body that’s constantly in agonizing pain, but still fights everyday to create art to help me survive. I write lyrics that many others can relate to, but some songwriters may be too afraid to say out loud. 

Everything you hear on this page was written and created in a matter of 45 minutes to a few hours. No instruments, no studio, just pure, raw emotions transformed into song. I compose melodies with my voice alone, channeling grief, desire, chronic illness, mental health spirals, trauma, sexual assault, heartbreak, religious struggles amongst suffering, and love so powerful it can awaken and restructure someone else’s nervous system permanently. My songs are made to be felt in the bones and heart, by a voice that makes you feel seen and less alone. That’s why I’m releasing voice memos with my raw vocals and no instruments: I’m not chasing trends. I’m pulling truth out of the void and helping people understand themselves better. 

Some of my influences musically and lyrically are: Taylor Swift (especially her Folklore, Evermore, The Tortured Poets Department eras), Lana Del Rey, Hozier, Fiona Apple, Florence + the Machine, Ethel Cain, Julien Baker, Gracie Abrams, Noah Kahan, Phoebe Bridgers, etc, and many years of unspoken pain, illness, trauma, and hardship. But most of all, I’m influenced by what hasn’t been said yet, including the topics millions silently carry everyday. The things that live beyond genres and inside existential crises, grief, and the dark corners no one else dares to touch lyrically. 

I’ve written over 30+ fully finished songs (and counting) that span alternative to country, folk to indie, singer-songwriter breakdowns and acoustic ballads, with many songs written that don’t seem to fit in an existing genre because they’re creating one. My debut track that’s out now, “Makeupless Heart (Voice Memo)”, is a raw voice memo recorded during a breakdown. No production. Just pure heartbreak and feminine rage. Its vulnerability and resonance already changed one life. It could possibly change yours.

I write and sing not just for myself, but for survivors everywhere. My future vision includes starting a foundation for chronic illness and mental health support, and donating proceeds from certain songs to suicide prevention, sexual assault healing, and invisible illness advocacy. Because music should do more than entertain, it should rescue and heal. 

If you’re an artist, label, or collaborator who hears what I’m doing and feels it in your chest.. please reach out to me, let’s talk. Because I’m just getting started, and can’t wait to see how far this music can reach.

For labels, artists, producers, or anyone who feels this in their chest…: 
📩 amberthompsonmusic@gmail.com
📷 @ambertthompsonn

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Mix series, born in October 2016, includes works from artists who are involved in the development of our channel and provide the tone of HATE Collective for a long time. Past records from them you can find on our YouTube channel.

After only one year from its birth, HATE podcast series was mentioned by Telekom Electronic Beats as one of "10 Techno Podcasts Every Techno Head Should Know": http://www.electronicbeats.net/the-feed/10-techno-podcasts-every-techno-head-hear/
 
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New tracks tagged #Bipolar Disorder