that shit fake
that shit fake
that shit fake
that shit fake

my diamond's a gift from my mother
she got it straight out of the Phillipines
my Ate wanted a sister
and the guilt just kept on killing me
the white man want me dead
and the brown kids ain't really feeling me
my home town love the feds
ain't got no friends til 16
twitter activist, bitch dont piss me off
i wanna know who miss me
my funeral's looking quite misty
i think there's something in the fog
meth in my X with my office dog
missing my ex, this feels like a job
no bust down on my watch
just another reason to clock in
where the fuck would i be without fin?
probably stuck in 2020 with a bullet in my noggin
my mental lowkey worse than stockton
i ain't better than any other man
i don't know shit but suppressing
i tear you down with a half assed apology
when shit get depressing
i take a cue from my father
to my liver and lungs
i take a... fuck, man

i can't let go
i haunt myself
just like a ghost
am i ghost? am i?
ketamine therapy, i know she there for me
what's there to talk anymore?
ketamine therapy, i know she there for me

CAMERON COUNTY COWBOYZ

i don't eat i don't sleep
a wave of my sins wash over me
i don't eat i don't sleep
i pray that the devil fortifies me
i don't eat i don't sleep
i'm living in a nightmare, no sweet dreams
i don't eat i don't sleep
is it too late for the Lord to forgive me?

Lord forgive me
Lord forgive me
Lord forgive me
Lord forgive me, Lord

forgive me, Lord

LORD FORGIVE ME

just shut up and listen to me
you're in pain
you're lonely
no one likes you
so you try to dull it all with violence and hate
it's okay
you're not the only voice in my life anymore
i've spent time with others
i'm a curse, a freak
i know that
and he knows that too
but guess what?
he still accepts me
he still forgives me

TAKE ME TO HEAVEN, TRACEY

march 14
im in california
type shit
let's go

i apologize to all the women that've left
no, i ain't perfect, hope your king's up next, like
i ain't bitter bout the things we used to do
i'm just praying that you're better with another dude
soaking california sun
i ain't worried if imma find the one
ultralight beams, i'm just having fun with it
you bums can't fuck with it , yeaaaaaa

these whore ass soundcloud rappers can't fuck with me
them beats trash and them hooks never stuck with me
diet jack harlow, you was never funny
white boy think he bladee, bitch you ain't really silly
i just killed my egobaby
i still like my [REDACTED] but, i don't need her to save me
high fashion, no designer, posers wanna hate me
when im around she don't need roses, that's my amy
no brat, this just how i been feeling -
no brat, this just how i been feeling lately
5 grammys in my hand, tryna be like k dot
i ain't lying bout throwing hands, bitch it's always your loss
feelings in my notes when i read em and i toss em
i get what i want when i want cuz i boss up
you could never be me on my best day, i'm so toxic*
how are you mad that you not on my list?
you was always not it
showing up as a kid, you milonakis
even at my worst, i'm still a king of my world

im just better
im just better
baby i'm just fucking better, yea yea
im just better
im just better
im just better
go!

album's done man go home
thank you

* this line is a mistake
it was supposed to say "you could never be me on my worst day, i'm so toxic"
but somehow i just forgot to redo the line and fix it until it was fully mixed
and i was already out of the airbnb in LA so i couldn't capture the same feeling

PIXILATE

she really don't like me
but she loves me right now
what she doing last night?
don't let me find out
i'm just living life in the moment
had a heart once, luci' stole it

devil don't wear prada, just stillett's and nada
she and i both too alike, we ain't got no father
devil don't wear prada, asking if there's others
these men can't hit it like me, but i'm the worst partner

i look at her, she look at me
i wanna fuck this club up
any position, whatever you like
we go til the sun up
all these rapcaviar ass hoes
i spit filthy tongues like dalek
going downtown right on that memphis
i like her tennessee dialect
she ain't your average freak
she ain't your average
out of love every day of the week
every second, we still in heat
all these hoes come with a cost
but for you, it's lost
angels watching me with a mirrored grin
hand on the bible and hot plates, my silent sin
wstdyth and Bad Habits, no self reverence
i keep blowing your phone up
maybe it's my lucky strike
crushing camels for distorted feelings
and another line
angels watching me as i kiss the lighter
tongue on both your lips
we just getting higher
you lick off my candle wax, my admirer

i love it on you

SACCHARINE SWEAT

dark clouds rain over my head

my liver, my lungs
hate the way food feels on my tongue
swap it out with molly and rum
im boutta go crazy, go dumb
my liver, my lungs
hate the way food feels on my tongue
cigarettes, no sex, i'm fucked
i use my pain as a crutch

wake up, wake up, first of the month
everyday winter solstice, no fun
balanced diet got me rolling for lunch
bourbon breakfast, for dinner, kill my lungs
last september, i had trouble forgetting you
blocked the whole month out with my favorite juice
throw me to the crows? bitch please
i don't rehab cuz to me that shit pussy
i might call up my homegirl for an 8 ball
need my boy to get me in a K hole
heard your lil bro huffin' on canisters
i get it, life's short, whose gon' finish first?
gun to your head, slit your wrists, it's too easy
my dark twisted fantasy, ya'll never see me again
posted with some friends or family
mama stopped calling, always mad at me

half a pack in a day, that's nothing
2 packs in a day, that's something
balance in the red, now we talking
all i ever do is lose in the end

only fun when the drink's involved
only like fucking when the drugs ain't small
self destruction's only way to write songs
im the king or im nothing at all
winter in a zip, turn the table to a snow globe
made a promise to God i'll never lose hope
i guess i'm just a fucking liar

you should call me one more time
you should call me one more time
why won't you answer?
why won't you answer me?
i'll come clean, i'll come clean
i know this is ain't what you wanna see
i'll come clean, i'll come clean
i know this ain't what you wanna see

MY LIVER, MY LUNGS

these homophobes pussy moving weird with they rhetoric
how you let this fairy hunt you down for your @ dearsqn
i want all the smoke, i don't need no sedatives
express shipping with these bullets, they'll be here soon
1grand a dual threat, i feel like mysta rias
they not fucking with the vision, they ain't really see us
but give it 5 years time, actin like they knew us
my future haters try and do me like C.K. Louis
i just count up my money, bitch i don't count up age
your favorite rapper's fucking kids, but he's all the rage
ya'll aint run him off the scene, he's still on the stage
get the fuck out of my chapter, we not on the same page

my stomach ain't sit right with me in that same old place
im a ghost with no scene, please blur my face
10 songs, 2 months, yea i need a new deal
but i hate "girl talk" with these companies
but you normies still ain't worth a dime to me
you think you know my fears? what you tryna see
ain't got shit to live for, you drown in ecstacy
unblocking all my opps for my exes to see
what i been on, that's life baby
off beat, off key, please stick to tweets
you be living off clipping, i compress my schemes
scene is so saturated, you'd think we was a team
but that mix got me feeling so gray
tapping into your collective, i'm the CIA
shooting all your loopmakers like JFK

DEER SKIN

"PRETTIEST PINK (2022 DEMO)" - co-written and additional vocals by finorend

collar, collar me, oh baby
it's a lot of, lot of lust in you, oh
there's nothing i can do
that will come close to
this feeling of sin
hope your lover's not in

i press the buttons in the game of life
i told you not to
worry about the girls i see at night
they always tell me
all good, yea it's all good
all good, yea it's all good
i've always had my heart with you
at least, that's what i've told you
but for the night, my body's
on display for someone other
all good, yea it's all good
all good, yea it's all good

just leash me up
and leave me fucked
it's not enough
not love or lust
i need your touch
it's getting rough
i'll bleed to death
with any luck

what can we do with just the lights on?
i like your style, i love your hair
don't put a fight on
i see you sweating all the time
take off the nylon
i'm driving miles to see your stare
hope she don't mind it
what a waste of half a year
can you make it up to me
whisper nothing in my ear
Holy Mary, make this right
tainted love, it'll always be
you're still always behind my sight

it's been like this for a while
innocent just like a child
it's been like this for a while
such a shame cuz i'm such a good liar

PRETTIEST PINK (2022 DEMO)

and i'm still crying, crying
over you
it's not what you would've
wanted me to do
i still miss you every day and night
i still wanna give you all of my time

i know i'm just a number on your board
i'm just here to take off what you wore last night
von dutch, i just wanna be your number one
you know what they say, if they could then they would
but you just leave to burn in the summer sun
as you should
is it something not too serious for you?
(i know you want it all)
don't you know i adore you?
(but i can't give you up)
parasite in my mind
parasite in my life

and she sees what i've become
it's no surprise
you won't fall for another
trick like me
i know it's not alright
but i, but i
wanna tell you something
on my mind

just give me an inch
i'll run with a mile
i'd kill myself
to see you smile
i love the thought of you
more than you know
all my eggs in your basket

THROW ME TO THE CROWS

"I FEEL FANTASTIC" - guitar by Anvil 

i just curb stomped a nazi
throwing fists at his posse
word on the street you like little kids
you better pray that my glockie bricks

you fuck with my office dog, you fuck with me
nobody getting a pass
if i see that bitch boy [REDACTED]
i'll catch a case, he catching hands
my whole roster snow white
this my historical revenge
i kill a fucking proud boy
and party at the pen
hold on, wait
i spread the hate, yall love the beef
none of my exes are finer than me
yall so worried bout money
spiritually broke and turning on me
how could you hate on someone this gifted
in this economy?
yall keep fucking on men that are one bad day
from turning to Ye
ain't no roman salutes in this bitch
yall let em get away with the hate
liberal tears my favorite drink
yall cant differentiate race
was that fireworks or gunshots?
shut the fuck up, stop playing
born in the Phillipines, but im american made
what can i say?
brown, pretty, and im talented
i could never fake it
had that white bitch giving me face
how could i ever be racist?

like why would i die for this country, baby?
kids at school was going home hungry, maybe
yall could make a change but yall too passive
i cant wife a bitch if she's not an activist
my distrust for the feds still massive
turn a centrist bitch right into past tense
yeaaaaa, yeaaaaaa

I FEEL FANTASTIC

*aggie* #1grand #bide

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