an excerpt from my diary for my mentally ill angels <3

Puppy Luv

Just Like The Other Girls

Tried to recreate the symptoms of BPD (albeit not too greatly).

Bantering Palettes Dissection

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Performed by AREUDIE
Mixed & Mastered by AREUDIE
Produced by Liltama

Intro & Outro by Ida Ayu Putu I Manik
https://www.instagram.com/idaamnk_

LYRICS:

[Intro: Ida]
(dan memang itu tadi yang penting "kamu harus menerima diri kamu, kalo kamu itu adalah orang yang baik, kamu orang yang tulus")
(hanya saja kamu itu salah mencintai orang, tapi itu bukan menjadi alasanmu untuk jadi melakukan hal yang sama)
(dengan kayak gitu tadi, mungkin kamu marah ke orang lain, melampiaskannya ke orang lain, menutup diri)
(no, gitu, sama aja nanti kamu jadinya kayak si cewe itu, gitu)

[Verse: AREUDIE]
tak bisa selamatkanmu
ini hanya tentang diriku
maafkan semua salahku
yang selalu salah di matamu

tak pernah ada niatku
untuk sakiti hatimu
tapi kau selalu begitu
tetap selalu begitu

dan saat kau butuh aku
aku selalu di sisimu
temanimu sampai baik
lalu kau tinggalkanku

ku tau matamu buta
karena kau saking cintanya
kau milih dia
yeah, ku jadi gila

semua hal ini sakit, ku harap berakhir
dan jika ku tau begini, ku tak ingin terlahir
namun apa boleh buat? semuanya telah terjadi
ku jalani saja walau harus sambil menangis

[Outro: Ida]
(itu yang selalu aku pikirin, luka semakin dalam semakin lama sembuhnya)
(jadi emang kita ga bisa memaksakan diri kita untuk langsung 100% bisa melupakan dia, engga)
(tapi, cuma 1 hal yang aku mau bilang ke kamu)
("sekalinya seseorang mau dia npd atau engga, dia udah berhubungan dengan lawan jenis lain, please, tinggalin")

-

Lagu "Borderline" menggambarkan rasa sakit hati dan frustrasi setelah mengalami hubungan yang penuh konflik. 

**[Intro: Ida]** memberikan nasihat introspektif, menyarankan agar seseorang menerima dirinya sendiri meskipun telah membuat kesalahan dalam cinta. Ida memperingatkan bahwa melampiaskan kemarahan atau menutup diri tidak akan menyelesaikan masalah.

**[Verse: AREUDIE]** mengekspresikan penyesalan dan sakit hati AREUDIE. Ia merasa tidak bisa memperbaiki hubungan yang rusak dan merasa kesalahannya selalu dianggap buruk oleh pasangan. Meskipun tidak berniat menyakiti, AREUDIE merasa pasangan lebih memilih orang lain, yang membuatnya sangat terluka. Ia mengungkapkan keinginan untuk menghindari penderitaan tersebut dan mengakui bahwa semua ini sudah terjadi dan harus diterima, meskipun sulit.

**[Outro: Ida]** menekankan bahwa luka hati memerlukan waktu untuk sembuh dan memberi nasihat praktis untuk meninggalkan seseorang yang sudah terlibat dengan orang lain, daripada terus terluka.

Secara keseluruhan, lagu ini mencerminkan perjalanan emosional dari rasa sakit dan penyesalan akibat hubungan yang penuh masalah.

Borderline

Borderline (Prod. Liltama)

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I've got a new podcast for you that's here by popular demand. The last podcast I did was with the honest psychopath Jackson Noble, and I got a lot of inquiries about his partner Teagan.

People wanted to know what it was like for her to be with an open psychopath, to be in a loving relationship with him, to observe him as a father and a partner, and to know if it's possible to have a healthy and loving relationship with somebody with Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD).

Well, Teagan has gracefully agreed to be interviewed and to talk about her experiences openly and honestly. She also identifies as neurodivergent and believes she has Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). And yet she says their relationship is "99% healthy".

Together we explored what it means to love when you don't experience emotions deeply, how safe it is to be in a relationship with a psychopath, and how that compares to her previous relationships with neurotypical men.

Let's meet her and hear her fascinating story.

[#246] Neurodivergent Love: Psychopath (ASPD) x Borderline (BPD) Relationship- Teagan’s story

In 2020 I released my first book  - Butterfly Dreams - Poetry of Hope and Recovery - an autobiographical journey through my own battle with mental illness, addiction and recovery. 

In honor of Borderline Personality Awareness Month this May, I am releasing my book for free, one chapter at a time to help raise awareness for BPD and those still fighting their own battles.

Where there is breath, there is hope.

Butterfly Dreams   Poetry of Hope and Recovery Chapter 1 - The Beginning

Made this while on probation, passion peace more so, then a validation thing

cyber girl

i'd do anything for your love

do the time

something special

pep talk

Archive Anonymous - BPD (ជំងឺបុគ្គលិកលក្ខណព្រំដែន)

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BPD (ជំងឺបុគ្គលិកលក្ខណព្រំដែន)

In this engaging conversation, Collin and Heather from the Hot Mess Espresso podcast explore a range of topics centered around mental health, particularly focusing on borderline personality disorder (BPD). Heather shares her personal experiences with going viral on TikTok, the challenges of understanding and living with BPD, and the misconceptions surrounding it. The discussion delves into coping mechanisms, the therapeutic benefits of travel, and the emotional complexities of relationships and divorce. They also touch on the significance of pets as emotional support and reflect on their nostalgic experiences with social media. In this engaging conversation, Heather and Collin explore the complexities of toxic relationships, the healing power of music, and the importance of mental health advocacy. They share personal stories of growth, the challenges of self-doubt, and the journey of building a community through podcasting. The discussion also delves into the realities of navigating social media and the significance of finding the right support in mental health treatment.

Find Heather here:
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MDOT with Heather Herington

Wrote this song about being neurodivergent, made everything myself (Beat, lyrics, vocals, mix). On my youtube channel (https://www.youtube.com/@DorianWinterMusic - Dorian Winter Music) I uploaded a Joker music video to go with it.

I'm different

Intro)
Borderline insanity what the hell is happening the world is love or hate devotional or a deep burning hate 
What is happening to me 
I cant stop whats happening to me
I cant feel a thing I feel nothing but something crawl deep down inside me its crawling it screaming it trashing at the 
Frantic efforts to avoid abandonment 
Patterns of behavior unstable intense extremes of idealization devaluation 
Black White 
(Verse 1)
Panicking just woke upset I hate myself
Identity disturbance body Dysphoria 
Gender Dysphoria Female trapped in a male living life in a silent mental hell
Dead self image 
I'm so ugly no one could love me not even myself I just turned my flesh into art work just to move the pain out of my brain
My sense of self is emptiness I want feel loved to feel that I could trust people again tried to buried it all deep inside my head but its splitting open I'm lashing out I scream and cry fucking crash out just to clean it up before the next morning feeling so
impulsive addicted to self harm self damaging relationships 
Spending money like it nothing 
Sex with anyone who said they loved me
Just to be used up and abandoned before I wake in the morning
Substance abuse
Reckless driving 
Binge eating 
Starvation I must eat something 
But I just feel sick think of it swallowing all the bullshit
anorexia hot me so quick
Razor blades stuffed animals stained red wrapped me up in white bandages 
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 2)
Suicidal day dreams fighting at school got bullied my whole childhood jist because I was different 
Behaviors gestures threats self mutilation
What a disturbing horrorshow when rip out your stitches 
Insomnia Dysphoria 
Irritability 
Anxiety 
Intense 
Chronic feelings of emptiness 
Inappropriate 
Intense 
Internal Anger
Must keep control 
Why do I always feel alone in a ropm full of loved ones
Stress related paranoia ideation 
Are people plotting against 
Does everybody hate me
I hate me I never wanted to be alive living like this
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD

BPD 6

Official SoundCloud of AREUDIE.

AREUDIE is an Artist from Palu, Central Sulawesi, Indonesia. AREUDIE performed the lyrics of an Emo-Rap themed song with a melodic sound, Inspired and influenced by Juice WRLD. AREUDIE started recording cover songs and started composing his own songs in March 2022.

The first song was titled “Malam” which was produced by Indonesian producer, sadface and American producer 5head, Make sure you follow AREUDIE at @areudieofc.

In his work dorian strives to write music as spicy as salmonella, yet as cantankerous as hamburger meat. And does so successfully, according to many!

Other jobs Dorian has taken in his career include: an ass double for kim kardashian, will smiths anger management Councillor, the man who makes the dead body disappear when caitlyn jenner runs someone over, the man who's been poking holes in nick cannons condoms, and his toughest role, the man who's been convincing Kevin hart all these years that he's funny.

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For Business enquires please contact DorianWinterBusiness@gmail.com

Welcome to REAL TALK – a space where raw, authentic, engaging lived conversations come to life. Hosted by Michelle Budiwski, these podcasts bring you unfiltered discussions with people with diverse personal journeys, motivations, and experiences as well as Michelle’s personal insights, thoughts and opinions.

Here, we dive into meaningful topics that matter – from mental wellness and family dynamics to health, finance, politics, and current events. You’ll hear powerful stories, valuable insights, and expert advice, all shared with honesty and openness. Whether you’re seeking inspiration, guidance, or just a real conversation, REAL TALK is where you’ll find it.

Join Michelle as she connects with guests who are not afraid to be vulnerable and share their truth, offering a supportive space for growth and empowerment. With a mix of guided meditations, coaching, and conversations with real people, REAL TALK is your go-to place for motivation, inspiration, and connection.

Get ready to hear it all, no filters, no judgment—just real talk.

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Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

Are you a Nice Guy or people pleaser looking to build masculine confidence, healthier romantic relationships, and live with integrity? The Brojo podcast, brought to you by Dan Munro (Nice Guy Confidence Coach since 2013) will show you how to be more assertive, confident, charismatic and honest without harming others. We cover how to save your marriage, improve your attraction and dating options, and build integrity through living by your core values to build masculine integrity.

Modern Day Overthinker is a podcast focused on topics less discussed in our society that should be. Most importantly, we talk about Mental Health.

Just a silly individual. Did some tracks for Ezrahite, and got into a lot more cinematic productions. Man, I gotta update this more…

New tracks tagged #Borderline Personality Disorder