I wrote this song about the emotional toll of living in a system that seems designed to keep you down. About not having enough money to even support yourself with basic needs. About the mental issues that this lifestyle will bring along. The only thing you want to do is try to find ways to temporarily feel better.


produced and everything else by me

of what remains

ashes in the rain, i can't wash them off me

ashes in the rain

Summer nights in the burbs, reaching for my curse
Bloody nose on my shirt, I been feelin' the worst
Don't you know? Don't you know? Don't you know?
In the dirt, in the dirt, we lose control

It's the only thing that helps me lately
(It's the only thing that helps me lately)
The love I get from you, my gorgeous pretty baby
(The love I get from you, my gorgeous pretty baby)

Summer nights in the burbs, reaching for my curse
Bloody nose on my shirt, I been feelin' the worst
Don't you know? Don't you know? Don't you know?
In the dirt, in the dirt, we lose control

Honestly, lately I’ve been inside my head
Probably, maybe I think I might be dead
Honestly, lately I’ve been inside my head
Probably, maybe I think I might be dead

Looked into the mirror, said I need to make a change
And the shadow in the corner starin' at me all deranged
And my speakers still bumpin', you know I'll make that shit bang
All the shit I been doin’ is probably fuckin' up my brain

It's the only thing that helps me lately
(It's the only thing that helps me lately)
The love I get from you, my gorgeous pretty baby
(The love I get from you, my gorgeous pretty baby)

Summer nights in the burbs, reaching for my curse
Bloody nose on my shirt, I been feelin' the worst
Don't you know? Don't you know? Don't you know?
In the dirt, in the dirt, we lose control

Honestly, lately I’ve been inside my head
Probably, maybe I think I might be dead
Honestly, lately I’ve been inside my head
Probably, maybe I think I might be dead

Summer Nights in The Burbs (prod. pyctur)

Shout out halfhearted for working on this with me 🫶🏻

You haven’t seen the worst yet w/ halfhearted

unedited lyrics

Hook
What im doing wrong ye im standing still
everyone evolve while im standing still
never found my way so i take the pills
see how you live i dont have this skill

all what i wanna is family 
but i cant grow im the enemy
What im doing wrong ye im standing still
everyone evolve while im standing still

verse
took so many drugs, i tried to find myself
never broked more than i always was
took time to heal, just to broke again
but im standing still, im standing still yrt

every night  dream of a life thats mine
then im waking up and see sharps around
dreams goes to heaven but the dream not mine
ye and thats why im cryin

i dont know where i should go
i dont know who i am now
i dont know what i shoulda do.. 

Hook
What im doing wrong ye im standing still
everyone evolve while im standing still
never found my way so i take the pills
see how you live i dont have this skill

all what i wanna is family 
but i cant grow im the enemy
What im doing wrong ye im standing still
everyone evolve while im standing still



standing still (prod. uglystar)

im afraid of spiders jail and germs

prod. me :)<3

cute like her

Rollin’, rollin’, rollin’, rollin' — roll another one (okay)
Pain inside my body, smoke been fillin’ up my lungs (all day)
This is it, my apocalypse — goodbye (bye, bye)
You was playin' wit’ me, dafaq is wrong witchu? (dafaq?)
I would’ve died for you (dafaq?)
And yeah, I’ve cried for you (dafaq?)
Said this so many times (yuh)
Way too many times (yuh)
Put that on my life (yuh)
Put that on my life (yuh)

Lemme take a step back, back, back (back, back)
Big gun go rata-tat-tat (tat, tat)
Big gun to the brain — go bang (go bang)
Go bang, go bang!

It’s fuckin’ me up
I’m doin’ it tough
I tell ’em I’m fine
But that is a bluff
I’m rollin’ a blunt
I’m coughin’ it up
Hackin’ one up while I double my cup
Flippin’ my bitch from the back to the front
Yes, I’m a gentleman — I’ll make her cum
Feels like a venom, then mix wit’ adrenaline
Feel like a letterman on methamphetamine

I need peace
Peace
Please
Gotta learn to stand on my own two feet
What the fuck is wrong with me?

Rollin’, rollin’, rollin’, rollin' — roll another one (yeah)
Pain inside my body, smoke been fillin’ up my lungs (my lungs)
This is it, my apocalypse — goodbye
You was playin’ wit’ me
(I’m talkin’)
Dafaq is wrong witchu?
(About myself)
I would’ve died for you
(I live in hell)
And yeah, I’ve cried for you
(Somebody help)
Said this so many times
Way too many times
Put that on my life
Put that on my life

Lemme take a step back, back, back (back, back)
Big gun go rata-tat-tat (tat, tat)
Big gun to the brain — go bang (go bang)
Go bang, go bang!

Rollin’, rollin’, rollin’, rollin' — roll another one
I been overdrinkin’, overthinkin’ just for fun
I’m gon’ shoot your fuckin’ brains out
If you get in the way of my love
My love, my love, my love, my love

(My love, oh no)

My Apocalypse (Prod. AjoN)

prod. planet57

I smash my fist into the wall
They think that I don’t care at all
Tried Vyvanse, also Adderall
But nothing works at all
Works at all, works at all, works at all

Yeah


I don’t really know what I’m doin’ with my life
Fucked up but it feels alright
Weekdays are my weekends now
Bad bitch, she gon’ make that sound
It’s a Monday but it feels like a Sunday
Either way we gon’ make this shit a fun day

Go brazy
Go crazy
Stand up, even if you hate me

FUCK!

I smash my fist into the wall
They think that I don’t care at all
Tried Vyvanse, also Adderall
But nothing works at all
I smash my fist into the wall
They think that I don’t care at all
Tried Vyvanse, also Adderall
But nothing works at all

Woke up wishin’ I was dead again
Something is wrong with my head again
I need way more medicine, more medicine, more medicine
Amphetamine
I’m afraid of what I’ll be like without anything
Without anything

I smash my fist into your mom

I smash my fist into the wall
They think that I don’t care at all
Tried Vyvanse, also Adderall
But nothing works at all
I smash my fist into the wall
They think that I don’t care at all
Tried Vyvanse, also Adderall
But nothing works at all

Na na na nothing at all
Na na na nothing at all
Na na na nothing at all
Na na na nothing at all

I feel
Nothing at all
I feel
Nothing at all
I feel
Nothing at all
I feel
Nothing at all

nothing at all (prod. planet57)

its a pretty day outside, a lot on my mind
its a pretty day outside, a lot on my mind
its a pretty day outside, a lot on my mind, yeah

yeah, yeah, yeah

little did i know life gets hard
takin hella drugs numb my scars
i dont really wanna feel
cant tell whats real
shaking and crying like maybe im dying for real, for real

on the inside im broken from words left unspoken
never standing up for myself
thats why i live in hell

help
help
help me

please

begging and begging and begging for peace
pray to a god that i do not believe
my brother is sick
my mother is sick
my grandpa is sick
i feel so sick

i just want everyone to be happy
i just want everyone to be happy
i just want everyone
i just want everyone


sick (prod.neverforever)

prod. The Ushanka Boy
mix&master: nikadsretan

lyric

zelim pobjec iz tijela ne znam kako
nemam jednog prijatelja nije mi lako
mislis da lazem, ovo je stvarno
niko mi ne vjeruje da osjecam se ovako

ne poznajem nikog kada ulazim
ne mogu radit pjesme ne znam pjevati
ne zelim se za nikog vezati
ne znam zasto su mi svi poceli smetati

tjedan dana lezim u sobi - barikade
niko to ne vidi a ja sluzim kazne
mozda jer sam sve frendove otjero dalje
na kraju dana bolje je od previse paznje

previse paznje doslo do glave
bez ikoga tu, niko ne laze
ne mogu vise birati strane
slusati drame
a ja cijenim mir, kojega nemam
imam samo rane, koje svi brane
vec 6 godina cekam da svane
sve vase utjehe nis mi ne znace

zelim pobjec iz tijela ne znam kako
nemam jednog prijatelja nije mi lako
mislis da lazem, ovo je stvarno
niko mi ne vjeruje da osjecam se ovako

Kolaps

prod. dash

lately I been thinking about some things I probably shouldn't be
bad things, sad things, blame it on my anxiety
yeah, somethings wrong inside of me
yeah, thank you for inviting me

bad bitch, she's texting
baby girl, I miss you
sad boy, still flexing
baby girl, can I kiss you
evil reflection
beautiful connection
with you, so why the hell am I stressing

yeah, I don't wanna die anymore
yeah, I'm picking myself off the floor
Cuz I don't wanna die anymore
So I'm opening up a new door

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

New, brand new me
New, brand new me

lately I been thinking about some things I probably shouldn't be
bad things, sad things, blame it on my anxiety
yeah, somethings wrong inside of me
yeah, thank you for inviting me

bad bitch, she's texting
baby girl, I miss you
sad boy, still flexing
baby girl, can I kiss you
evil reflection
beautiful connection
with you, so why the hell am I stressing

yeah, I don't wanna die anymore
yeah, I'm picking myself off the floor

idontwannadieanymore (prod. dash)

remedies p. metlast x luffy

You tell me 
You love me
Isn’t it crazy
Cause the last one said the same thing

You’re slowly
Just falling
For a guy that you love
But it’s not me

I’m just a placeholder
Just in case you meet someone
Who makes you feel
There’s a swarm of butterflies
As mine die of pesticides
Their ashes fade and float away within the fucking wind of the night

I’m just a placeholder
Just in case you meet someone
Who makes you feel
There’s a swarm of butterflies
As mine die of pesticides
Their ashes fade and float away within the fucking wind of the night

I fell slow
You let me go
I'm down below
Buried in snow

Tell me what you want from me
I'll cut my hair or grow some wings
I'm fractured in my head
So tell me why I've been
Here crying in silence
While are just lying with him

You use me every chance you get
Hold me close until you hit the switch

I’m just a placeholder
Just in case you meet someone
Who makes you feel
There’s a swarm of butterflies
As mine die of pesticides
Their ashes fade and float away within the fucking wind of the night

I’m just a placeholder
Just in case you meet someone
Who makes you feel
There’s a swarm of butterflies
As mine die of pesticides
Their ashes fade and float away within the fucking wind of the night



Placeholder (p4ra)

I guess its over (prod. JascoBeats)

I'm constantly just running
my socks are getting bloody
I don't want to stop until i can no longer walk 
I know that this road leads to nothing
I find it kind of funny
I always fall in love but the drop always breaks my heart so I'm

so scared of the heights
why is it so high above
the lonely forest I reside
it used to be enough
I'm falling
oh I'm free falling

the wind in my ears 
it tells me many things
you should've stayed put
didn't have to climb the tree
you're falling
now you're free falling

I remember the first time I met her
she cut some holes in my favorite sweater
I spent some hours just writing her letters
all the weight on my chest turned into feathers

now she's really gone
left me on my own
I used to be alone but then she became my home
I have nowhere I can go
it's getting really cold
I think I left my coat up where she resides but I'm

so scared of the heights
why is it so high above
the lonely forest I reside
it used to be enough
I'm falling
oh I'm free falling

the wind in my ears 
it tells me many things
you should've stayed put
didn't have to climb the tree
you're falling
now you're free falling

freefall

It's been a while since I did a collab so I hope you guys like it!!

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