Efrain Hernandez - Guitar, Bass, MIDI Drums, Vocals, Synths

Defile

Vesania

I Was So Strong That...

Unknown Suffering

Abuse

Intro

You Said You'd Kill Yourself if I Left

Imprisoned

I Didn't Know What to Do

An Excuse for What You Did

Lovesick suicide demo

Deciding to go through with it

Suru - Deciding to go through with it (intro)

Betrayed

Suru - Betrayed

In my fractured heart

Suru - In my fractured heart

Catharsis

Suru - Catharsis

Wasted youth

Suru - Wasted youth

In the window

this song is probably the most intimate one i've ever done. its about missing someone close who passed away by terminating their own life.

† in memory of my cousin †
i miss her so much

Lyrics:
Why did you go
(Why did you go?)
(Why?)
Why wasn’t I there
(Why wasn't i there)
Your name still burns
(Your name still burns)
I can’t let go
(i can't let go)
(i can't)

Why?
(Why?)
Why?

Why did you go
(Why?)
Why did you go
(I miss you)
(I miss you bad as fuck)
I miss you
(I miss you)
(I miss you)
(Why did you go?)
(I miss you)
(I miss you)

Written, composed and produced by John (why...)
© all rights reserved

i miss you

Khuth (Александр Танцырев)
В седьмом кругу безысходности
2011

В седьмом кругу безысходности

experience emptiness through this noise-filled blackened post-hardcore
Lyrics
Devastated,
A husk of a worthless being,
I loathe everything i am.
There is nothing, left of my empty self
I can't stop failing
As I watch, my world, crumble, apart
[scream]
IM FALLING
ZERO
IM EMPTY
AND I WANT
TO
DIE
[scream]
Dissociated,
Phasing through the void,
My body's falling through the static,
My mind fractures into dust
And i am all alone
ALL I HAVE IS NOTHING
ZERO
ZERO
ZERO
[scream]
[scream]

zero ∅

i hold no rights for the music i upload. it's not made by me

on soulseek (at) ausaiac

mainly known as @lungslaash

On hiatus. Will return to work on music next year.

Blackened doom, Black metal, and Ambience.

DrownedxInxFluids
San Diego Slamming Goregrind


I WORK ON MULTIPLE PROJECTS (they are all just me and im looking for bandmates)
-DxIxF (grind)
- >stxtic. (electronic)
- mcmxcii - variety of noise-filled blackened songs




im open to most genres
dm on instagram if ur interested in any or if you wanna work on a new one  @andraesparza06 

Born from solitude, why... is the vision of Portuguese producer John, created in 2024. A one man project inspired by depressive black metal, it gives voice to the silence of despair and the weight of unspoken thoughts. The songs are reflections of depression, isolation, betrayal, loneliness and the endless struggle within. They are not simply music but confessions that echo in the dark, carrying the sound of wounds that never heal.

New tracks tagged #DSBM