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Slippin

iniquitous of being a selfish fuck, but if you only knew now much i truly think most of y'all suck 
know that when i say i love you my heart stays stuck 
i let so few in
my heart a hard metal tin can
open it and it's abundant
but most i find redundant no it's not my ego being too big it's reading energy
it's being tuned into a frequency witnessing true human decency but sometimes i fall short
i get stuck in a hell too dark to sort 
so i disappear and i abort
mentally physically 
whatever the port
i take the rare few for granted by becoming aloof
days fly by
chain smoking on my root
if you only knew how many times i debated coming back
to the corner pad that saved me where the lights are always on no longer singing the same song 
i replay the days i was gone causing pain so fucking wrong
rain fall, yeah
is it the end of the specialist?
what's there left to be?
i can't not be me
if i tried i'd be lying
i ain't that breed
because every word i meant it and the couple souls i met along with the ones that inspired me 
best passed the test to unlock the chain that also holds the key to tear my insides apart
radio silence
i been stuck in hell
 i look through a sea shell and realize i'm stuck in this cell 
i never trust anyone but here i take the blame
i sit here with my mind lost
I've gone more insane
the rain fucking freezing
as i sat at the bus stop on hollywood blvd 
i spent many days at soaking in the sunshine not realizing there wouldn't be more time
it came full circle
the destruction of my reality
the forced causality by none other than me i miss you two,
and the select others that knew by the sparkle in my eye
none of it was a lie
i would have never done this i would have never said goodbye 
this summer i lost my mind
my sanity
mistaken as vanity 
thanks for listening to all the craziness it's never ending
ima mess i sit in my empty ,vacant
wondering what could have been if cancer wasn't real
and i didn't let people steal my conscience ideals 
everyday i miss y'all and i miss you too
did you ever get the hamster does it even matter?
sadly the truth is-
i never did heroin with street kids
i got stuck at 99 looking at candles, legit, 
how stupid shoulda been more considerate 
yall the only ones who ever gave a shit since i had become a hit 
you found me ig (instagram), and helped me grow you don’t even ugh-

cursed by the evil darkness

to allow and to like
you were a ten in my life 
i hate people the same mundane convos
like shut the f up they suck but y'all different
raw and real like me
i'm the destruction truck
im sorry
you don't believe what he did to me on your street
july 4 he followed where i escape
into your roof i would never jeopardize your house
but i realize now we were mind control , undeniable
i sit alone i'd rather do o o there ain't a damn clone
that could replace y'all
i fallback in my black pit alone in my pile of shit i lost it all
i'm to blame apologizes meaningless even tho i don't play games, but shame

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