some experiment in dissonance. After Break up from painflul 7 years save up some tears letting go unhealthy fears.

End Of Mine And Your Try

lyrics...

Alright check

What am I to do
I’ll walk the forest pretending 
I never wanted you 
Can’t bring myself to remember 
The fucking thought of you
I know that forgetting’s better 
But I can’t bring myself to do it
I’m foraging letters that I

Strung up with love that then turned into hate huh
The moment your message turned green
My reality turned into grey huh
When I showed my true colors is 
When the blue stayed and the others were drained huh
But I still take away everything I said
And what I should have told you to your face yeah ye-
But I know it’s too late

Things die
But eventually decay
Return their state to the earth
And every memory fades

When everything dies
Thought my feelings the same
“It’ll get better with time”
But this shit won’t go away
I’m fucking done 

Time after time after time after time
I was thinking of you as the one
Night after night I’m awake
Cause this petty ass sun hasn’t shown up in months
My house has been covered in dust
The passing of time
Reminding me of
In seven years I
Will be someone else
Replace every cell
Of someone I was
I can’t forget you
Huh
But I’m too tired to move
Ninety six million a minute I’m scared
Huh
Tell me what I am to do
Every memory that we had shared is invaluable
Now something part of me too
Ninety six million cells taking over
Huh
Part of the person I knew
Every memory that we had shared
Is now something I never had wanted to lose

yeah yeah
yeah yeah
yeah yeah

Never wanted to lose
But I don’t got a choice
Cause I’m stuck moving forward
And even then
If I do happen to see you
It won’t be the same
As the person that borders
My mind and my thoughts
It infects every corner
I sit in my bed
Feel it spread
Like a poison
I hate it so much
Losing rest is annoying 
The chirping is vivid
Don’t sleep till the morning

That's all because of you
I overthink 
Everything 
To the point that I can’t move
Scrolling my feed
Hoping you’d see
That I’m so much more improved
I lie though my teeth
I tear at the seems
A broken façade that’s black and blue
Can’t even take me for a fool
Nah nah

Things die
But eventually decay
Return their state to the earth
And every memory fades

When everything dies
Thought my feelings the same
“It’ll get better with time”
But this shit won’t go away
I’m fucking done

Time after time after time after time
I was thinking of you as the one
Night after night I’m awake
Cause this petty ass sun hasn’t shown up in months
My house has been covered in dust
The passing of time
Reminding me of
In seven years I
Will be someone else
Replace every cell
Of someone I was
I can’t forget you
Huh
But I’m too tired to move
Ninety six million a minute I’m scared
Huh
Tell me what I am to do
Every memory that we had shared is invaluable
Now something part of me too
Ninety six million cells taking over
Huh
Part of the person I knew
Every memory that we had shared
Is now something I never had wanted to lose

Rupture (prod. immortal)

this is the first released anything from the Inkstøp band ourselves! we are sorry that there is no lyrics but it's the best we can do at this time.

Failing Oxygen

Takedown

Late Night Streetlights

Railway Grind

Double-Shot Expresso

prod me

i jus wan b like every other girl 
i don't wanna fight to exist in this world 
i wish i was out my body but i been out my mind 
the windows always closin n im runnin outta time 

everyone is giving hope to me but i'm gon lose it all
everyday is like my breaking point but i can't stand to fall 
n i kno u need me strong but i can't do this shi no more 
i can't do this shi no more 

i cant be the girl i see in the mirror 
no i can't be her , no i can't be her
and everyday its getting jus so much clearer 
i can't be her n ill never be her 

no i'll never be her 
no i'll never be her 
no i'll never be her 
no i'll never be her

i cant be her + i'll never be her <prod stokahr>

im aware that this is very very short, but i wanted to upload it anyways because why not. might do something like this again some time that will be a bit longer.

hoping for change (prod. neverforever)

WHEN I FALL - STUCK IN THE LOOP

prod by @ waves1088 on youtube

|Lyrics:

It was just like any other day
But you left me to rot away
I don't know-
-How to make it out of here
And I keep on ponderin' 'bout the things
we did and we once had
And I miss the love I had, but it's over now
so please forget

Let me fade into the shadows
Please just forget all about me

Fade into the shadows
Fade into the shadows
Yeah you left me down in the gallows
Down in the gallows
Knew I shouldn't trust you

Fade into the shadows
Fade into the shadows
Yeah you left me down in the gallows
Down in the gallows
Knew I shouldn't trust you
Knew I shouldn't trust you

It was just like any other day
But you left me to rot away
I don't know-
-How to make it out of here
And I keep on ponderin' 'bout the things
we did and we once had
And I miss the love I had, but it's over now
so please forget

Let me fade into the shadows
Please just forget all about me

Fade into the shadows
Fade into the shadows
Yeah you left me down in the gallows
Down in the gallows
Knew I shouldn't trust you

Fade into the shadows
Fade into the shadows
Yeah you left me down in the gallows
Down in the gallows
Knew I shouldn't trust you
Knew I shouldn't trust you |


this is a re-upload bc I wanted to change some stuff

Shadows [prod. Waves]

prod by neverforever, recommend checking em out

Lyrics | You never fail to
Haunt me in my
Dreams

.....

It's so hard, to let go
Don't know where to fuckin' go

Want to stay, go insane
All these voices in my brain

Feel alone, got no hope
Might just go slice up my veins

......

I'm so tired of sayin' the same things in my brain
Know it gets so lame, but this is how I'll stay

This is how I'll.. stay.
I can't handle.. change. |

holding onto memories that hurt (prod. neverforever)

|Lyrics:
Sittin' in the darkness of my room
Sittin' quietly, thinkin' what I ever do to you
Sittin' in the darkness of my room
Burnin' down the letters that I wrote for you

Burnin' down the letters that I wrote for you
Every day I feel so terrible
What I ever do to you?
I'm just kiddin' I know I'm a liar

(I will never learn from it, no
I will never learn from it
I will never learn from it, no)

Tearin' down the bridges that I built for you
Shoulda guessed that it would never work
Tryna move on, but it feels impossible
I will never be able to get away from you
Should of guessed that it would never work

Now I'm sitting on my own I feel alone
I don't know where to go, I've said this shit a couple
thousand times but feelin' happy feels impossible.
-And I truly feel like there's no fuckin' hope.  |

I'm A Never Learning Liar (prod. sundwn x autrioly)

Haven't been the most energetic lately, but I still wanted to make something.

Don't forget to check out Boyfifty, fella makes really good beats.

Lyrics:

I can tell when you wanna be left alone
I can tell when you want some room
I can tell when you wanna be left alone
I can tell when you want some room

Feel it in my chest
Feel it in my heart, don't know where to start (..where to start)
I don't think that I'ma make it far (..make it far)
I don't think that I'ma make it far (...far)

Feelin' all these emotions (..-motions)
Drownin' in an ocean (..in an ocean)
Demons comin' for me, oh shit (..oh shit)
You know I didn't want this (..didn't want this)

Never wanted you to leave, yeah
I never wanted you to leave, no (..leave, no)
But I couldn't have it any other way
Never wanted you to leave, yeah
I never wanted you to leave, no..

I can tell when you wanna be left alone
I can tell when you want some room
I can tell when you wanna be left alone
I can tell when you want some room

Feel it in my chest
Feel it in my heart, don't know where to start (..where to start)
I don't think that I'ma make it far (..make it far)

Pretty Sure I'm Cursed [prod. Boyfifty]

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

I‘m just a random dude from Germany that occasionally uses FLStudio. I‘m not really talented, but I still make music for the fun of it. I mostly do like emo stuff, trying different genres and styles.
Lil Peep, X, Juice WRLD and $uicideboy$ are my inspiration. I feel like I can really express myself through music as I struggle to actually talk about what's going on. 
It's almost therapeutic for me, and even if my songs aren't anything special, I still love every second of making music.
It helps me clear my head a little.

linktr.ee/SEMic0l0red_v00d00cVlT = xplore branches and  leaves of the Voodoo Cult; 
Go Down up in here to hit the trunk of the tree :
Hamburg BasEclecticmperfectpersonABrAiNsTOrM; {BEABANTOM}

Djaying Conzeptualized 
genre bending Jamz&Gems; 

Doing Hardcore Rap; 
Metal Vocals;Guitars; 
Recording and
all that Jazz!

Yes indeed: 
Full Production Chain 
is hanging on the neck,
well, like a champions Belt; 

Visuals Video 
and Light tech; 
shining bright
like the sun right?;

That is what i call 
jacking of all trades 
like textbook entry checks;

Annehmen, abgeben, abgehen 
statt angeben und langreden!

Auflegen, raus gehen, bounce leben 
statt saufen und blau an nem baum kleben!

Lately leaning again Heavy into DJaying Mixing 
Blending Everything with Harder Technoid Styles; 
Monthly Mixes; 
Releasing old Material from time to time; 
hence;

all from the past after change to here yet is evolving now:   
Making all different kinds of Music since my early youth in many different ways.

alles jetzt schon damals nach dem hier erst wird:
Ich mache seit meiner Jugend Musik in vielen Stil richtungen und auf diverse Arten.

lets get soaked into the insane contra main stream
of extreme sounds and pictures
distorted like in the wiildest 
misfits nightmares scenes
you entering in stages
is it in (t)his dream?

"Den am Anfang der Neunziger blieb ich hängen, wollte brücken sprengen,  mit heftigten rap lyrics die bangen!" 

Musikalische Sozialisierung durch Platten und Demotapes Sammlung des älteren Bruders in der zweiten hälfte der 80er. Punk, Heavy und Death Metal aber auch Liedermacher Rock`n`Roll und Blues Legenden. Erste eigene Erkundschaftungen führten dann zu House, Techno und vorallem Rap Musik insbesondere Deutschprachiger die schnell zur Obzessiven Sammel leidenschaft hinzukamen. Breakbeat/Bigbeat/Trip-Hop, Drum`n`Bass, Industrial, Dancehall, Soul&R&B folgen später sukzessive. Mainstream Pop hat natürlich inherent und immanent die gesamten Phasen mehr oder weniger begleitet und teils als brücke zur überwindung von grenzen fungiert. Björk, Jamiroquai, Red hot chili Peppers, Elton John, Madonna seien exemplarisch beispielhaft erwähnt. Grunge und Punk Wellen der 90er Nirvana, Green Day, The offspring begleiteten den wunsch einer eigenen Band und die ersten versuche welche jedoch nie mehr als diese bleiben sollten. Der erste eigene Computer mit dem magix music Maker 1.0 sollte alles ändern. TBC

🏳️‍⚧️ 21.
"stock-uh" 💜👾
they/she ^_^
still. not. bitten. ✨
#TRANSDANCE #SMNDIF #GMODMUZIC

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