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Hab Scheiß gebaut, die Frau betrogen,
Familie, Freunde, alle belogen.
Hab nichts mehr, Frau, Kinder, Job - alles weg,
Leb an der Tanke, betrink mich und sing, der Schmerz ist Dreck.
Die Gitarre klappert, mein Herz ist leer,
Hat alles kein Zweck. Selbst der Hund mag mich nicht mehr.

Ich will zurück ins Leben, will nach Haus,
Wieder Vater und Mann sein, ich halt’s hier nicht aus.
Ok, ich war Scheiße, das jetzt ist nur fair,
Will auch kein Mitleid, ertrag’ das nicht mehr.
Ich will zurück ins Leben, zurück zu dir,
Ich werd mich auch ändern! Darauf trinken wir!

Mein Sohn guckt durch mich durch als wär’ ich aus Glas,
Die Tochter hasst mich und fragt: „Alter! Was sollte denn das?“
Und mein geliebter Schatz?
Enttäuscht! Verbittert!
Sie flennt nur noch rum!
Reden geht auch nicht! Sie bleibt stumm.

Ich will zurück ins Leben, will nach Haus,
Wieder Vater und Mann sein, ich halt’s hier nicht aus.
Ok, ich war Scheiße, das jetzt ist nur fair,
Will auch kein Mitleid, ertrag’ das nicht mehr.
Ich will zurück ins Leben, zurück zu Dir,
Ich werd mich auch ändern! Darauf trinken wir!

Ich weiß, Reden ist billig,
Und das Vertrauen ist tot,
Doch ich lieb Euch richtig,
Ihr seid mein Halt in der Not.
Hier stinkt’s nach Benzin, Pisse und Rauch,
Ich werd mich ändern – ich steh wieder auf.

Ich will zurück ins Leben, geb’ nicht auf,
Ehrlich, ich halt’s hier nicht aus.
Ich war 'n Betrüger, ein Clown, ein Idiot, 
Ich will leben! Das hier ist Tod!
Ich will zurück zu Euch, raus aus'm Dreck,
Ich geh dann auch nie wieder weg!

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, DALL-E, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

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En busca de la felicidad
(In search of happiness)

Instrumental

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Arrangement: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Sound Studio, Ozone 11, GarageBand
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

En busca de la felicidad

The kids don’t run, they float in chairs,
With VR pets and pixel stares.
Recess now is ranked online,
And hopscotch got replaced by "Grind XP+9".

It’s so easy to die,
When you stop being alive.
When your thoughts are streamed and pre-approved,
And every word is auto-moved.
Why read a book or draw a line,
When AI paints and plots just fine?
It’s so easy to die—
Just lean back and comply.

No more guitars, no dancing feet,
The bots perform, and always beat.
Diabetes hums like static buzz,
And no one asks the reason—just because.

It’s so easy to die,
When you stop being alive.
The mind’s outsourced, the body's still,
Fed by pills and Dopamine will.
Why make, or move, or feel, or try,
When machines just do it better, their way?
It’s so easy to die!

We built the future not to dream,
But to avoid one single scream—
The sound of effort, fear, or pain,
Now gently silenced in the rain.
And in this padded, glowing cage,
We scroll ourselves out of the age.

It’s so easy to die,
When you stop being alive.
No thoughts to think, no hills to climb,
No messy love, no loss, no time.
It’s so easy to die—
So sweet, so soft, so sly.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye…

We let the machine decide!

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

So Easy To Die (When You Stop Being Alive)

Rambock 2025 (prod. Pumpbeatz) | Instrumental Hip Hop x happy x uplifting

You lied last year.
I lie today.
You broke the rules,
So I'm okay.
You yelled at work,
So now I scream.
Don’t call me out —
We’re on the team.

You did it too!
You did it too!
Why blame me
When you did it too?
Point your finger,
I’ll point back.
Truth is gone —
Let’s just attack!

You skipped the line.
I cut it now.
You cheat in love?
Don’t raise your brow.
You drove too fast.
I crashed the car.
You lit the match —
I burned the bar.

You did it too!
You did it too!
Why fix things
When I can blame you?
Logic’s boring,
Blame is fun.
I’m not the worst —
We both are, hun.

Yeah, I know it’s wrong.
But like… so were you.
So I win. Obviously.

You did it too!
You did it too!
So nothing counts —
It’s déjà vu.
Truth’s too heavy,
Shame won’t stick.
Just play this card —
I’ll win real quick.

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Sound Studio, VirtualDJ, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

You Did It Too

The gentle whisper of the free,
A hallowed silence, meant to be.
This tender peace, a fragile grace,
Reflected in each human face.
But when the shadows fiercely grow,
And ancient fears begin to flow,
A different strength, a stern command,
To guard the dream, in this dear land.

The sword we draw, a painful gleam,
To save the light, dispel the dream
Of slumbering souls, in twilight deep,
While sacred promises we keep.
But when the shadows fiercely grow,
And ancient fears begin to flow,
A different strength, a stern command,
To guard the dream, in this dear land.

An angel's tear, a silent fall,
For what is lost beyond recall.
The price of safety, stark and bare,
A sorrow that the heavens bear.

Hear the silence, feel the ache...

And when the shadows fiercely grew,
A heavy price, we saw it through.
This weary strength, a solemn hand,
To shield the dream, in this scarred land.

Oh, freedom's breath, so pure and bright,
And peace's embrace, in fading light.
Must beauty bleed, for truth to rise?
Reflected in the watchful skies.
The spirit weeps, the spirit fights...
For freedom's dawn, and endless nights.
Must beauty bleed, for truth to rise?
Reflected in the watchful skies.

But when the shadows fiercely grow,
And ancient fears begin to flow,
A different strength, a stern command,
To guard the dream, in this dear land.

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

Guarding The Dream

Day: 68 of teaching myself how to make music
Tried a variety of pluck layers to give it some punchy low end, just experimenting.

Feel The Tension

The days are sinking, a final gold,
The world grows silent, a story told.
The trees stand lonely, their leaves a-flight,
Lost to the wind in the fading light.
A quiet season, a solemn grace,
A fading smile on a tired face.

Summer is gone
Summer is gone
Summer is gone
The bell tolls soft for the sun's last glance.
Summer is gone
The world retreats in a final dance.
Summer is gone
My soul remembers a vibrant hum.
Summer is gone
A different time, a season numb.

The empty rooms where the laughter lay,
Are filled with shadows that come to stay.
The open fields where the warmth once shone,
Are now a whisper, and soon are gone.
A stranger's hand, a gentle touch,
Unlocks a door, you need so much.

Summer is gone
The bell tolls soft for the sun's last glance.
Summer is gone
The world retreats in a final dance.
Summer is gone
My soul remembers a vibrant hum.
Summer is gone
A different time, a season numb.

The quiet season begins its reign,
Washing the world with a gentle rain.
A whispered promise, a secret kept,
For all the times my heart has wept.

Summer is gone
But a new light rises, a truth so deep.
Summer is gone
And in the silence, new promises sleep.
Summer is gone
I turn inside, a sacred home.
Summer is gone
No longer lost, no longer roam.
A different love begins to grow.

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

Summer Is Gone

The room begins to close its eyes
The sun has left the empty skies
No word will come for us again
The heart is filled with cold, old rain

You love me no more, Angelina
The sky has lost its light
A bird flies past the door, Angelina
Into eternal night

A bird appears against the glass
A fleeting sign of wind, to say
A love like ours could never last
A world that had to fall away

You love me no more, Angelina
The sky has lost its light
A bird flies past the door, Angelina
Into eternal night

No angel takes our hand to guide
No star to light our lonely way
A love with nowhere left to hide
In words we find we cannot say

You love me no more, Angelina
The sky has lost its light...
This chapter ends now, Angelina...
In our darkest night.

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

Angelina

Two voices in the dark. A cold lead circles E minor, then the floor tilts into B minor—same palette, different gravity. Sparse drums and air between hits keep the vocal lane wide; low, ominous synth beds glue the switch. Eerie, hypnotic, minimalist at 140 BPM.

Track facts
• Tempo/Keys: 140 BPM • E minor → B minor (dominant pivot)
• Palette: two synth leads (call/response), sub/808, tight kick, dry snare, minimal hats, small-room verb tails
• Structure: 8-bar intro (Em) → 16-bar verse (Em) → hook (Bm) → verse 2 (Em) → alt hook (Bm, thicker bed) → outro

Notes on the key change

Use F# as a common-tone pedal to sell the pivot.

Let C → C# motion announce Bm without adding clutter.

Keep drums identical across sections so the harmony shift feels bigger.

Cold Mod (140 BPM E minor → B minor)

light refraction

An ancient longing, rising from the ocean's depth
Where all our fears and all our hopes are kept
This feels like Atlantis, the climax of a time
A fleeting wonder, our culture’s fragile climb

We trade in wisdom, and we speak in light
But our own shadows turn the day to night
A promised land, right here beneath our feet
But still our souls feel hollow and incomplete

We are Atlantis. The clashing of the spires.
We are Atlantis. Burning in our fears and our desires.
We are Atlantis. A final, fleeting breath.
We are Atlantis. Celebrating our own death.

The promises of heavens, cold and bare
This feels like Atlantis, an orphan’s whispered prayer
Our shared possession, this fragile, wounded planet
We search for warmth in a world of cold granite

Our highest art, our most profound design
A bitter farewell on this final line
We’re all connected, yet we stand alone
On a global island we’ve come to disown

We are Atlantis. The clashing of the spires.
We are Atlantis. Burning in our fears and our desires.
We are Atlantis. A final, fleeting breath.
We are Atlantis. Celebrating our own death.

And an angel waits, a hand that longs to guide
The lonely spirits with nowhere left to hide
A distant shout, a sound you can’t ignore
A call that’s been forgotten on the shore
The silent cries of a world that lost its way
Lost on the tide, to a final, tragic day

We are Atlantis. A planet on the brink.
We are Atlantis. Let us fight, instead of sink.
We are Atlantis. The effort is worthwhile.
We are Atlantis. The final, sacred trial.

We stand so high, but we’re a world away
From all the beauty that we throw away

We are Atlantis. We choose the path of grace.
We are Atlantis. And claim our rightful place.
We are Atlantis. We won't just stand and watch.
We are Atlantis. We'll stay alive on our last watch.

We are Atlantis.

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Photoshop, FLUXpro

We Are Atlantis

I attended my cousin's funeral yesterday. Despite her difficult childhood and youth, she was a cheerful, life-affirming, and very empathetic woman who was taken from her life and ours far too early by cancer. We will all miss her affection, her helpfulness, her encouraging and thoughtful manner.
During the funeral service, I was struck by the thought that we humans are like mayflies, ignoring or not wanting to acknowledge that the gift of life is very brief and very finite.
On the other hand, that's a good thing. How else would we cope with it?

This song is for Annette. Rest in peace.

Life and Death of a Mayfly

Beatproducer - Beats your neighbors will hate...

"Redder" is a palindrome. Like "racecar" or "level". These pieces of music ain't.

My name is Volker Redder, online I go by "docredder." It all came about because I studied biology and computer science for a long time and received my doctorate as the crowning achievement of my academic career.
As a child, I sang Bach in the church's „Knabenchor Unser Lieben Frauen“ because my mother thought it was good for my soul. And it was, until, thanks to an excellent teacher, I realized that music is like mathematics. After that, I loved not only music but also mathematics and all sciences based on mathematics: physics, biology, chemistry, computer science. So, I went straight into the natural sciences and engineering. Yes, I studied a lot. However, a university career wasn't for me. I wanted to monetize the findings of the various sciences (you can't live on air and love alone) and founded over a dozen companies. Because who wants life to follow a clear formula? I certainly didn't. In addition to adventurous entrepreneurship, the subsequent career in politics (German Bundestag), and a growing family, I was constantly picking up the guitar or keyboard, which is what you do when you want to escape the chaos of everyday life.
Should I say I'm a virtuoso? No. That would be a lie. I'm just too lazy for that. Laziness, or in modern parlance, "efficiency," is a principle for me. And so I founded my "own studio," consisting of a lot of electronics and software. The hipsters call it DIY. I call it "not wanting to act like a big shot and book expensive recording studios." I'm a one-man orchestra, a chef-d'oeuvre who spends all day producing pop, rock, indie, and ambient mishmash until he finally finds it he likes. My menu? Pink Floyd, Genesis, Supertramp, Muse, Zappa, Miles Davis, and many more. Yes, all at once. I told you: mishmash.
There are guys who write music to become famous. Then there's me. I write music to keep myself from going crazy. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes there's melancholy in it, sometimes it's stories from literature or something sci-fi. Or from Tinder dates my daughters have told me. I mean, who hasn't wondered what "being in Tinder light" is? Exactly. I wrote it down. I use everything I can get my hands on: GarageBand, samples, my voice, AI voices, Udio, VirtualDJ, everything! I don't care if purists say it's no longer art. It doesn't matter, the main thing is that my music feels like a window you can look out of and discover something new again and again.
Every song becomes a little adventure. Sometimes I start with a line, sometimes with a feeling I can't shake. It's like an escape from reality, except in the end, there's no escape. And that's a good thing. This is how I stay grounded. Okay, grounded isn't the right word either. Let me put it this way: I've stayed true to myself. And I'm grateful for everyone who listens, shares, or comments.
It makes me feel like I'm not completely alone in this madness. So if you also like songs that don't follow the rules, I'd be happy if you joined in. After all, the world is crazy enough.
You have to fight that with music. I mean, that's logical, right?

Insiriping Producer, Started teaching myself how to make music at the start of May 2025

Kick & Bass member

Still in my learning era
Experimenting / Limit testing to improving with each track.
(Some of my tracks are still rough on the mixing and mastering)


San Diego, CA

New tracks tagged #E-minor