ordinary love

when im wrong

paranoid

give a fuck

is it love

been?

@sky_ron
I been tryna stay afloat, but the waves hit different
Everybody say they care, but they never listen
Heart heavy in my chest, yeah, I feel somethin’ missin’
Tryna hold it together while my mind keeps driftin’

Late nights, starin’ at the ceiling I don’t sleep
Thinkin’ ’bout the ones I lost, promises I couldn’t keep
but the climb feel steep
cut so deep
rock gucci

Used to have a circle, now it’s only one
Funny how they disappear when the clouds block the sun
I been learnin’ on my own what it means not to run
Even when it feels impossible to see what I’ve become

I don’t talk about the nights when I break down alone
Or the weight of the choices that I carry like stone
But I’m learnin’ how to grow even when I got thrown
I’m hopin’ this pain gon’ be worth when I’m grown

Mom askin’ if I’m good, I just tell her “I’m fine”
But she know the way I talk that it’s eatin’ up my mind
Every day I play it off like I’m runnin’ outta time
Tryna heal from all the damage I been keepin’ inside

Some days I wake up feelin’ like I’m barely holdin’ on
Tryna fake a little strength just to make it through the dawn
All the pressure on my shoulders got me feelin’ like I’m wrong
But I learned the darkest nights always build you to be strong

I been keepin’ all my doubts in a place I never show
Actin’ like I’m solid, but I’m breakin’ on the low
Still chasin’ every dream, even days I move slow
’Cause I know the only way is to grow through what I go
Shot n i flee (3x)

stayin' afl0at (astrowbeatz)

@sky_ron
My thoughts keep dragging me under
These nights feel colder than ever
I write just to kill the pressure
My heart won’t hold it together

I hide everything that hurts me
These scars still talk in my sleep
I smile but nothing feels real now
My chest stays painful and deep

I’m tired of faking my feelings
I’m scared of what I might be
The mirror don’t show the real me
I break but no one can see

Dark roads feel safer than people
I walk just to clear out my mind
I’m trying to hold it together
But peace is too hard to find

I choke on words I don’t say
I pray for one silent day
My thoughts keep pulling me back
I fight but don’t know my way, way

Verse 4
I’m learning to breathe through the chaos
Even when I’m close to the edge
I break but keep moving forward
My pain don’t get to be said

I’m scared but still getting stronger
These nights won’t last forever
I bleed but don’t lose my purpose
I’ll heal, just give me the weather
(I write just to kill the pressure
My heart won’t hold it together)

dark r0ads (astrowbeatz)

I’m writin’ on these faded pages,
Heart broke, but it still rages.
150zxzxzxzxzx on the tempo, I’m pacin’,
all the thoughts I’ve been chasin’.
I don’t wanna lose myself again,
Feelin’ like I’m fallin’ with no end.
Tryna heal the pieces I can’t mend—
Tell me, will it matter in the end?

I don’t know what else to do
Wish I could erase all of you.

Dark nights, but the neon’s glowin’,
Tears dried, but the pain keeps showin’.
Act tough but the cracks keep growin’,
Tryna love, but I fear not knowin’.
Why every goodbye feel like fate?
Why every hope show up too late?
Why do I fold when I wanna be great?
Holdin’ on heavy, but I carry the weight.

I been stuck inside my head again,
Left on read again,
Tryna act like nothin’ hurts, but I pretend again.
These nights feel cold,
But I never let it show—
Took a shot to the heart, 
now it’s movin’ slow.
,.,.

t00 late (sleepyy & spaceboyry)

A dark emotional EDM-trap hybrid with heavy bass, neon atmosphere, and a heartbreak drop built for late-night DJ sets. JUJU blends melodic tension with cinematic EDM energy. Perfect for festival DJs, future bass fans, and anyone in their feelings.

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