I've been listening to ambient music since the mid-2000s. As soon as I got a computer and an internet connection, this became my realm of escape for self-validation and finding soulmates. Throughout my career as a music explorer, both as a listener and a composer, I've had the chance to follow the careers of many musicians who all took different paths. In this way, I became particularly interested in the life stories of established ambient composers such as Tim Hecker, Lawrence English, Loscil, Ekca Liena, and Maps and Diagrams. I've studied and compared their music, trying to imitate it to understand how they manage to transpose those vague, indefinite feelings and emotions.

his album was composed in Snezhinsk of Urals in 2020, mixed in 2023 in Usti nad Labem, Bohemia, and the final edits were done in Freiberg, Saxony, in 2024.

released August 31, 2024

Mastered by Philip Fore
Dead Letters Archive // DLA003

Blear Moon - Light Traverse

Blear Moon - Iron Brooks

†reupload†

feat https://soundcloud.com/bleakboi
prod https://soundcloud.com/fubarcfg
mix & master by us


Ебаная Потерянность w/ bleaky (fubar)

prod: @tavi n @saeyxng

do you have tumblr? 

lyrics:
Y aunque duermo en 5 stars nunca pude descansar bien
Con marcas in my arm, yo no sé lo que es estar bien
Promises never last, in the shadows like a hunter
Crying in the darkness, save me from the sadness

Desde que no estas yo no paro de pensarte
I got Narcan by my side, mi mente está hecha un desastre
I stay up like every night, bring me back to real life
Shawty, hug me for the back, in the backseat for tonight
Rn

Si otro te llama honey, yeah, le voy a vaciar la forty, yeah
Me va a matar like Courtney love, tomando lean lo olvido
I feel like a omori, memento mori, Call me Dory
I got more ring, I feel in hinoni
La tengo encerrada like hikikomori

Yo me siento lil tracy viajando hacia lax
Fucking my brain, welcome to /r9k/
Tengo mi cora' marcado por shuriken
Con medio wockhardt ya me quedo stupid yeah

To' lo que decís yo antes lo escuche
Estoy drogado viendo My Dress
Esta sonando Mental n Emorave
Mi vida entera puesta en un >greentext

Shawty wasian, remember dream, plastic memories
Y aunque vayas al infierno yo iría tras de ti
Aunque vayas a dejarme like Toopoor a lil Peep
Solo quiero que suba al stage junto a mi

Si otro te llama honey, yeah, le voy a vaciar la forty, yeah
Me va a matar like Courtney love, tomando lean lo olvido
I feel like a Omori, Memento mori, call me Dory
I got more ring, I feel in hinoni
La tengo encerrada like hikikomori

Y aunque duermo en 5 stars nunca pude descansar bien
Con marcas in my arm, yo no sé lo que es estar bien
Promises never last, in the shadows like a hunter
Crying in the darkness, save me from the sadness

Desde que no estas yo no paro de pensarte
I got Narcan by my side, mi mente está hecha un desastre
I stay up like every night, bring me back to real life
Shawty, hug me for the back, in the backseat for tonight
Rn


Narcan

Legan

Lyrics:

No one else by my side
Thinking about the what if
not knowing what resides

I don't know where to go
looking straight to the ground
no one else is around

Now im brushin away
I don't know
I don't know

Heart splattered like some glass
oh baby, please dont cry
I don't know

I don't know
yea my heart splattered like some wine 
tell me baby please dont cry

alone again with you
just tear me apart on my heart and temptation
don't know

don't know
your heart means everything to me
yk I might die all again in my head

No one else by my side
Thinking about the what if
not knowing what resides

I don't know where to go
looking straight to the ground
no one else is around

Now I'm brushing away
I don't know
I don't know

Heart splattered like some glass
Heart spilling like some wine

I don't know

I don't know
yea my heart splattered like some wine 
tell me baby please don't cry

oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no
oh baby yea, oh baby don't cry
oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no

Temptation (kenji! & emmytorehands)

prod. nermal6

lyrics

me
in this fucking mansion, crying on the fucking floor
she jus wanna murder me, bby u a fucking whore
blood is on the mirror, haunted by the poltergeist
he just wanna take my soul, stab me with the kitchenknife

pretty pretty suicide, today i think im gonna die
stalking by the paparazi, camera flashin in my eye
i am full on xtc, bby imma addict
mom jus called the ambulance, omg its tragic

i want u 2 suffer, cuz bby i cant do no more
she jus wanna fuck me, bby u a fucking whore
walking by the cemetary, this is such a scary night
bby i cant feel shit, in my room, im getting fried

cant control my jealousy, i want u for my own
she dont answer while she on her phone
do you really love me? do you really need me?
bottles on da table, do u think im messy?

tnfmb

pretty pretty suicide i dnt wnna fucking cry btc u are so scary
ya u are so crazy cameras flashing in my eyes
paparazzi stalking me cant control my jelousy
cant control my xtc she dnt wanna answear
do u rlly love me do u rlly need me
did u wanna kill me pretty pretty murder
do u wanna kill me you thought i was prtty i think you r ugly

poltergeist feat. tnfmb

prod. kvader

bitch you gonna die tonight, why you look so horrorfied
dancing with the kitchen knife, now she really terrified
i just wnna fucking die, you can see it in my eye
im a angel in disguise, feel so lonely in those nights

i buy designer designer clothes, paparazzi i won't pose
hang me on the fucking cross, ketamine like im a horse
yeah im mixxing all these drugs, bby i cant get enough
mdma, bloods on me, bby set the final cut

bitch you gonna die tonight, why you look so horrorfied
dancing with the kitchen knife, now she really terrified
i just wnna fucking die, you can see it in my eye
im a angel in disguise, feel so lonely in those nights

i got hella drugs on me, drugstar till i fucking die
i just want you to be mine, pretty eyes like coraline

angel in disguise (kvader)

WHATTF (stalkerdotcom)

feat @m0rbidlikepoetry prod. @watchherfadeaway
stream us on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/4c0nHjuV5AzRvyqdtsN9d0?si=fa93bbb22c1b4a3c

i dont wanna fcking bleed, i've had enough
bby im a vampire i dont need no fcking love
bitch im doing drugs all day, that shit got me fcked up
blood is dripping off the walls, is it ever gonna stop
i dont wanna hurt u when im looking like a zomb
#BMV i'll make u cry, i think today im gonna die
overdose on ecstasy, my eyes lookin like coraline
make that pretty suicide, hope my name will last 4 ever
fell in love with cyanide, now we’re dying both together
upload all my tears online, i'll let em stream my final night
i don’t pray for paradise, i just wanna feel it twice

i rly miss my mother, my life is at the gutter
youre my dead lover, love me while i suffer
damn its not surprise, saw those twinkle eyes
i rly wnna die, got 100 ways to die
i just need another, designer makes me suffer
ill be ur dead lover, fell in love with murder
i can never sleep, Open your eyes for me
pretty on my screen, girl you make me scream

gutter w/ snuffcide prod. watchherfadeaway

belladonna

FREESTYLE by me RATE this STUFF (shit) 

yeah im gonna kill myself tonight, im going crazy
i dont fell okay, u cant see me lately
yeah i poppin' dis molly, ok dats fucking scary
tell me how to live, cuz my head is rlly hazy

yeah im gonna freestyle till i die
im so high im so high
yeah i took another pill i feel like im fly
let me drown to the sky

я записал одни тейком, мне поебать
я читаю потому-что они прыгают в кровать
я делаю это дерьмо и мне наплевать
i dont care, i dont care йоу
типа русский чувак, я делаю так
потому-что ты мне не брат, ты мне не брат
порежу себе руки, на меня смотрят суки
мои руки - базуки, но они все в крови

gonna kill myself tonight, im going crazy
i dont fell okay, u cant see me lately
yeah i poppin' dis molly, ok dats fucking scary
tell me how to live, cuz my head is rlly hazy

gonna kill myself (prod. by m1llyn + junoes)

shitty self prod </3

ILL ALWAYS BE AN ADDICT

one take type shi this mix is horrible

yeah
break my heart
i love to fall apart, ye idek why
i want ur touch so much more than i need to
four lines straight through my heart
yeah i don feel it at all
like i cnt feel when it stops n thats jus fine
idrc jus let me kiss the sky
say goodbye again one more time
i miss u more than my heartbeat
cuz all these drugs make that heart beat
its tragic but its so real
n its all ill evr need
"oh no shes bleedin"
thats what they say but they don feel it
i don feel anythin
my only love melts me into nothin
erase me, my life means nothin
i don wanna breathe, ill lose whats left of me
im fadin so slowly into only a memory
but please don remember me
its better for u to leave
n leave me here, ill disappear
overdose oh the end is so near
im so nearly there, please
18 years a waste, but no more
leave behind all my blood on the floor
girl u tried to save me but u cnt save what u cnt understand
n u cnt save a fuckin heart that is this fkn poisoned
u cnt stitch scars that fight back like mine
n from all these fkn drugs... u cnt reach me from the depths of time
yeah my love for u... its so fkn high
dont pick up my wings when i die

dont pick up my wings when i die

feature https://soundcloud.com/ewoft2k1 + https://soundcloud.com/12113215am
mix master by me + ewoft_2k1
lyrics:

https://soundcloud.com/danix2k1
feelin' only pain and i feel it every night
u said dat u dont love me now i got a frostbite
pull my stomach like a ribbon from the inside
from the inside

я задыхаюсь
когда вижу тебя с другим
и я расскаюсь
за то что так тебя любил

i cant sleep without u all night
something is killing me from the inside
i dont wanna fight
n baby i know the pain is only on my side

https://soundcloud.com/ewoft2k1
yeah yeah
When i wake up, i just need to reveal
my new adapt, every morning not ideal
The emptiness in my cup, my heart its like steel
I need to backup, my feelings can`t conceal 
U know thats a gonna be real
My soul changes from 
Cielo(another day)
anhelo(feelings fight)
despido

https://soundcloud.com/danix2k1
feelin' only pain and i feel it every night
u said dat u dont love me now i got a frostbite
pull my stomach like a ribbon from the inside
from the inside

я задыхаюсь
когда вижу тебя с другим
и я расскаюсь
за то что так тебя любил

https://soundcloud.com/12113215am
frostbite my heart
since we been apart
you were my sunshine
now i am in the dark
where do we go from here
or else ill just disappear
know you don’t want me here
and you know you made that clear
all in my dreams again
all in my dreams
want you to be with me
but it just cannot be
and all of these memories 
just don’t mean a thing
at least in my head
you’re still here with me

^-^

frostbite w/ EwofT_2k1 + 1:21 (prod. flesh)

@openpagesoul <3

finally posting this one!

blank spaces + openpagesoul (rainngod)

faceless prod. may3ke, axry

Written by me 1:54 am 11/18/2025
Lyrics:
Example of my neglect 
A consequence its no flex 
Im Tired im such a wreck
My stomachs full 
And my nose too
I pray that I can talk to you
Againx2
baby please come through
My phones on 1% 
These sales won't stop coming through 
I cant take this shit 
I made it to the top 
Its oh so cold 
I turned my back 
I guess i ran away 
Can you please stay 
Youre always moving far away 
From me
I turned my back 
I guess I ran away
Its my fault 
Example of my neglect 
A consequence its no flex 
Im Tired im such a wreck
My stomachs full 
And my nose too
I pray that I can talk to you
Baby please come through 
Batteries 1%
Sales won't stop coming through 
How can iget to you 
I was so foolish 
I guess i ran away from you 
Its all my fault 
You turned youre back 
I gave my all
It wasn't enough
Somber My mind 
Cold my spiritx2

@Creux7L-Consequence P.@Creux7L

exploring many sides of electronic music as a producer and a listener

#ZBC #sorrow #married
versatile
I am nobody till I make myself someone

artist/producer 
lost to time
dm for collab free just wanna create

dm for collabs u can send opens or beats or i can prod too :3 (free ofc <33)

18 🏳️‍⚧️ she/her

im a stupid junkie girl but i wish i could grow wings that arent fleeting... </3

n i just wanna say im not promoting any of the shit i talk about. this is simply my way of trying to survive through it all and i sing it as is. much love <3

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