This is a project I have been working on for almost three years. It's a very meaningful album, considering it's the first one I have made so far. I couldn't be happier with how it turned out. Each song talks about a hard to speak about topic. Giving hope in a sense for a better tomorrow. I hope this album can help someone through a rough time they may be going through. Just try to remember you're not alone, keep doing the best that you can. One day at a time. Mental health is extremely important to me. If you took a second to read this, thank you. I hope you enjoy the album.

Weighting To Exhale

Anxiety.

Caged Prisoner.

Scratching Below The Surface

Trauma.

One Day At A Time..

Mirage In The Mirror

Eating Disorder.

Inner Core Substance

Addiction.

Ever Changing Frames

Schizophrenia.

Blanket Of Shame

Depression.

TW: Mentions of ED and CSA. Dréa is truly the proof that shadow work can keep your heart strong. She opens up about her hiatus and how she conquered her 7-year long secret. In her true fashion, she keeps the laughter count high in a painful time. WHO DO YOU THINK SHE PLAYS IN BRIDGETON?!?!?!? 

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EP21 — Conquering My ED & I’m in Bridgeton?

i been dropping less not by choice ima try bein more consistent i’m just always busy ahhhhrhrydytixkxcchcmdkssksjsmdkdnd

prod deadyami again 

turn around, ion see no1
& idec i just wish i could see uuu ):
do u look for me
prolly not yk i’ll always pick up
like u’ll ever reach out
up all night like i’m at a stakeout
like what do u think about, do u miss me now
leaning when i’m rlly rlly feening for ur hugs <\3
losing blood oh nooo yet again
vics to erase da thoughts in my head
OD on my floor yet again
ik it hurts my head but i miss the smell of ur room
short nap after short nap
hour 48 no rest 
ur all i dream abt & i hate it
ya i wanna escape it

chorus:
i’m tired of faking who i rlly am
no i don’t accept me, you should understand
degrading myself when im pouring my heart out
i needa shut up i just keep sounding more dumb 
& if u disagree baby please tell me i’m wrong
im starting to come down im getting less calm
my ribs are starting to pop out, im still living somehow
no more in my comfort zone, that was YOU
yeah nowhere else to go 🖕🏼

biggie:
bby you know i been dyinnnng 
faster than i can re-gen HP
hold on my hand like ya held on to all of my lies
i’m not right nooo
i was high again yaaaa 
just let it go -___-
new 57 w cupids amo
palmetto in the prada thru da palm trees 
sippin yak in da morn like coffee 
roll up for me bby will u do dattt 
miss the way you would puff in the honda 
saratoga ya i’ll battle for freedom
can’t get away from u - liam neeson (taken reference)
i wanna break away from you
you the only 1 w the key but u gone 🥲

comfort zone x biggsgon2far

"Doctor in the Dugout" is a radio show on KLAA Angels Radio AM 830, hosted by Dr. Alan Beyer, Executive Medical Director and orthopedic surgeon at Hoag Orthopedic Institute (HOI).

This week, Dr. Beyer spoke with Alice Merryweather and Dr. Mark Allen.

Alice is an Olympic skier who received treatment for anorexia. Dr. Allen is the Psychiatric Medical Director at EDCare and the Athlete EDGE program. The two will discuss the dangers of disordered eating for elite athletes and why eating disorders should be considered as serious as physical injuries.

To learn more about the "Doctor in the Dugout" show, visit: am830.net/show/doctor-in-the-dugout/

October 26, 2024 - Doctor in the Dugout with Alice Merryweather and Dr. Mark Allen

this is the song’s ghost.
the voice is still catching up.
it will arrive in time. 
(currently working on vocals!)

made quietly.
for the girl who turned hunger into ritual.
for the ache that wanted to bloom.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. 

mother, 
make me something clean. 
scrub the roots beneath my teeth. 

(there’s) sugar rotting in my chest. 
where love once slept, 
and made a nest. 
i lit a candle in the sink. 
watched it melt like all i think. 

lilly pilly, 
pink and sour. 
i picked you in my final hour. 
bled a prayer into your skin, 
to cleanse the rot i held within.

my bones are soft, 
they speak in mud. 
the garden swallowed all my blood. 
(and) still i bloom, 
a blushing bruise, 
a prayer that time refused to use.

i dream of mouths that do not bite, 
of hunger shaped like holy light. 
i dream of mouths that do not bite, 
of hunger shaped like holy light.

lilly pilly, 
pale and torn. 
from every ache that made me worn. 
my body bowed, 
my breath unspooled. 
a prayer half-heard, 
a girl unruled. 

in dirt i carved a final plea, 
(please) make this hunger holy.
i curl like fog beneath the sun. 
a breath, 
a bruise, 
and a loaded lung.

mother, 
if you can hear me still. 
plant my heart in lilly pill. 
mother, 
if you can hear me still. 
plant my heart in lilly pill. 

lilly pilly (a prayer) - [instrumental]

Doctor in the Dugout is a radio show on @AngelsRadioKLAA hosted by @HoagOrthopedic  surgeon, Dr. Alan Beyer. Email questions to doctorinthedugout@gmail.com

This is the official Soundcloud account for Dezerted Plane. ⏏️🎶

The only podcast you need in the background of any activities. Dréa’s wild mind juggles topics from her ridiculous encounters, music, that weird smell on the train, to spirituality and her craziest thoughts of the week. Join her while she sips on life and lets her brains bring us a great comedic relief.

New tracks tagged #EatingDisorder