This Is Me (Still Here)” is a raw, grunge-emo trap confession from a man who survived everything he shouldn’t have. It’s the story of a kid who grew up wild, ran from God, broke his own mind, faced death more than once, and somehow woke up still breathing. It’s about psychosis, addiction, guilt, rebellion, losing friends, losing himself, and finding Jesus in the middle of the darkest nights.

This song is real pain, real scars, real honesty.
The kind of honesty most people are scared to say out loud.

It’s for anyone who’s ever lost their way, fallen apart, or felt like they were too far gone. For anyone who thought they were dying on the inside but kept waking up anyway. It’s a reminder that if you’re still here, there’s still purpose — even when you don’t know why God kept you alive.

“This is me. Broken but breathing. Surviving when I shouldn’t. Still here

This Is Me (Still Here)

Been to the Edge

Halfway to Heaven

“Last Vice” is a dark, honest emo-trap confession about addiction that never really leaves. It’s about nicotine being the final chain you still carry — the one habit that stayed after you walked away from everything else that almost killed you. The song captures the late-night shakes, the stress, the comfort, the guilt, and the truth that sometimes the smallest addiction feels like the hardest one to quit. It’s not about glorifying it — it’s about admitting how real the struggle is when you’re trying to change your life but one little vice won’t let go. If you’ve ever tried to get clean and found one thing still gripping your mind, this song is your truth.

Last Vice

“Scriptures in the Dark” is a raw, honest emo-trap confession about fighting every battle in life by getting closer to God. This song is about the nights when anxiety hits hard, old habits try to drag you back, and the past won’t let go — but instead of running to drugs or destruction, you run to the Bible. It’s about opening the Word when the fear kicks in, praying when the darkness feels heavy, and letting God’s voice drown out the lies that used to own you. The war is real, but so is the strength you get when you read His promises. If you’ve ever been trapped in your own mind, fighting addiction, guilt, or spiritual fear, this song reminds you that God is still right there in the dark, pulling you through it verse by verse.

Scriptures in the Dark

“Buried but Breathing” is the deepest song I’ve ever written about myself — a confession of every scar, every mistake, every dark night, and every moment God kept me alive when I shouldn’t have made it. This song tells the truth about growing up broken, carrying guilt from things I did as a kid, losing myself in sin, fighting addiction, surviving psychosis, and feeling abandoned by the world and by my own mind. It’s about the nights where I thought I was gone for good, and the miracle that I’m still here breathing anyway. This isn’t a song to look cool — it’s a song to show what real survival looks like. If you’ve ever felt too far gone, too guilty, too messed up, or too ashamed to believe God still wants you, this song is proof He never stopped holding on. I’m buried in scars, buried in memories… but I’m still breathing. And that means my story isn’t over.

Buried but Breathing

If you’re fighting depression, addiction,
or feeling far from God — you’re not alone.
I’ve been there.
My music is for the ones trying to survive their darkest moments.

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