Video: https://youtu.be/A0AZWNKiDPE
Music, lyrics, art by me
Vocals with Synth V Eleanor Forte Lite

Lyrics: 
The world isn't safe
And I don't know the rules of the game
That everyone plays 
So I watch my step and count my days

I make myself sick with concern
But the hard way is the only way I learn

There's so much I don't notice
I know only hypervigilance can save me
I'm alone and all I know is
There's just nothing that I'm able to do bravely 
When flight is not an option
And to fight would be obnoxious
I'm forced to proceed with caution
Stars will never grant my wish
To feel at ease and protected
So I wield my only weapon
It's all I've known ever since
Hypervigilance 

I've never found my place
Always a wannabe in any seat
I keep my eyes on the escape
Always have a plan B just in case

I break myself to carry the burden
Of being the one to get the last word in 

There's so much I don't notice
I know only hypervigilance can save me
I'm alone and all I know is
There's just nothing that I'm able to do bravely 
When flight is not an option
And to fight would be obnoxious
I'm forced to proceed with caution
Stars will never grant my wish
To feel at ease and protected
So I wield my only weapon
It's all I've known ever since
Hypervigilance 

But at a certain point I have to tell myself 
"Relax
You'll miss out if all you ever do is watch your own back
What exactly does people thinking mean thoughts at you do
If you assume the worst do you get a medal if it's true" 

But there's so much I don't notice
I know only hypervigilance can save me
I'm alone and all I know is
There's just nothing that I'm able to do bravely 
Flight is not an option
And to fight would be obnoxious
I'm forced to proceed with caution
Stars will never grant my wish
To feel at ease and protected
So I wield my only weapon
It's all I've known ever since
Hypervigilance 
Hypervigilance 

Although I can't do it bravely
Hypervigilance can('t) save me

Hypervigilance feat. Eleanor Forte Lite

No video yet (It will be a PV collab!!)
Music, lyrics by me
Vocals with Synth V Eleanor Forte Lite

Lyrics: 
Wasn't I supposed to learn
From painful partings of ways 
How did I somehow get worse
All that it taught me is I can't be trusted 
So instead of speaking I feel myself shake
Like I'm cursed 

It's moments like this when I realize I did it again
Treating all interactions like battles 
I let out a breath 
Tell myself they're my friends
But ask
Why am I still so fragile
The question
It's shameful 
So I try to hide all the evidence that this is something I grapple with
Even with time having healed me
I'm wondering why am I still so fragile

I dream that I'll confess that I fear you hate me
And you'll sigh and kiss me just to prove me wrong
Even then all that my brain will concede is that
Maybe it's only 99% sure and not 100% that you've wanted me dead all along 

It's moments like this when I realize I did it again
Treating all interactions like battles 
I let out a breath 
Tell myself they're my friends
But ask
Why am I still so fragile
The question
It's shameful 
So I try to hide all the evidence that this is something I grapple with
Even with time having healed me
I'm wondering why am I still so fragile

At least I never deluded myself 
Into expecting any of this to be enough 
I swear I won't be surprised if wealth
Nor fame never make me feel loved 

Looking back what did I learn
From painful partings of ways 
Other than how to be worse
What did it make me except for mistrusting 
Of everyone even though it's me that's cursed

I tip toe waltz through rooms as if there is glass on the floor 
But how did it get there
If it even matters
What shattered 
Is my fragile ego of course

Fragile feat. Eleanor Forte Lite

Gir Backpack

bomb threat to hell prod. hottub johny #lifeskills

original by:
https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

shinigami - Don't Go (Still Thinking of Mercury WIP Remix)

sampled a classic iphone ringtone and used legacy garageband presets and loops to make this 

created entirely on august 12th, 2024

i remember 2012 playin w garageband
didn’t kno how it worked but it was amazing
i remember the first time i saw ios7
thought it was amazing 
now i miss ios 6
now my brain sick
i wish i could go back but i kno i cant
i never had a care
now i never feel like that
i miss those old days when im livin this life today

garageband 2k11 freestyle  prod. gl0wplatinum

2.23.23 @luustra @passafiume @remainstation
prod. paradise_esc

f*ck an american dream

Solo estoy buscando mi paz
Master: Alejandro Javela 
Portada: https://www.instagram.com/javejavejavejave/

Fríos

new album dungeon cats caught in windcastles out now:)
https://tibslc.bandcamp.com/album/dungeon-cats-caught-in-windcastles
<3
artwork by Angela 
 https://www.instagram.com/qiaoyiornotqiaoyi/

dungeon cats caught in windcastles

ext.(my heart)

(quick and silly one for the cloud/ girls on speedy trains)
```'´´´´´´

day off

welcome to my chinese tavern

tape recorder

Cancer of the Spirit

Memories Fading(Demo)

hottub johny / ravesaboutmandy

yearofthehottub@gmail.com

https://www.instagram.com/hottub_johny/?hl=en

https://www.instagram.com/ravesaboutmandy/#


https://open.spotify.com/artist/5ukBtdsgQ1nJh9ulDQrLMx?si=j6FZfw9LRzK8iBtizUzhzQ

https://traktrain.com/hottubjohny

An alternate account for Vocaloid/Synth V music I make.
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIr9R4F2JmLTZ87mxB2fsgg

Me gusta hacer ruido.
Ceo: @geist-records
Curador: [000] @user-595727652

Strange songs from other worlds...
Listen & click follow...

iona (she)

europe tour 2025::::

28th of March,,,Paris,,,festivalmofo,,, mainsdoeuvres , FR
30th of March,,,Barcelona,,,tba , ES
3rd of April,,,Lisbon,,, living____room , PT
6th of April,,,Porto,,,hotelier_0 , PT
17th of April,London,texturemag,spanners.club, UK
1st of May,,,Glasgow,,,co:clear_ , Apollo Bar , UK
4th of May,,,Brussels,,,dm for info:), BE
16th of May,,,Cologne,,,SPA Records,,Projektraum Ebertplatz , GER
29th of May,,,Prague,,,Punctum , CZ


'dungeon cats caught in windcastles' just out via bandcamp 

https://tibslc.bandcamp.com/album/dungeon-cats-caught-in-windcastles



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