homesick tonight
oh something doesn't feel just right
i drift into dreams of another time
my eyes glaze over and lock me inside

it doesn't really matter i can stay up late again
it doesn't really matter i can drink alone again
hazy memories of beheaded barbie and ken, christian school 1997

in this valley
there's a place for me

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
this shit's already inside
pictures you hide in the back of your mind

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
the grapes are falling off the line
pictures you hide in the back of your mind

birthday cake with the pale pink frosting
vhs it was so awesome
ocd made me so sad
but i guess that we shouldn't talk about that??

i was so cold back then
happy holidays in michigan
it's swiss miss and a faded sweater
my little pony was soo much better..

in this valley
there's a place for me

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
this shit's already inside
pictures you hide in the back of your mind

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
the grapes are turning to wine
pictures you hide in the back of your mind

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
this shit's already inside
pictures you hide in the back of your mind

i'm frozen in time
i'm frozen in time
though it's a blurry outline
pictures you hide in the back of your mind 

Nostalgia

hello i'm a nihilist with no will power
the broken clock strikes 13 the final hour
and i'm just taking what i can get
hot on the breadcrumb trail to your fly trap

and you've got no plans to catch me
you just like to see me falling
i'm playing the long game
though it probably won't play out at all

i'm getting weak
i'm getting weak
i'm desperate for a precious hit of dopamine
and baby we go together like peanut butter and kerosene!
just like peanut butter and kerosene! 

i miss when i had control
well i'm back with a faulty plan to mine your fool's gold
we are both as good as dead inside
the things you hear have gone away
and i swear nothing is sacred these days

i'm getting weak
i'm getting weak
and we all know i was desperate for a precious hit of dopamine
honey we go together like peanut butter and...

i'm getting weak
weaker by the day
aren't we terrible people?
let me count the ways

what you'll do next there's no telling
and baby we go together like dynamite and jelly!

i know
i know you are the one who will set everything on fire
and now everything's on fire!

Peanut Butter & Kerosene

my hollywood ending is never happening
these disney dreams are sharp broken pieces
i will be sleeping till u love me at last
holding dead roses in a coffin of glass

as i drink expired wine alone
i make myself sick with one million sorrows
i bet she's dead asleep in ur arms looking beautiful
i wish u had to hear me crying to the angels

my little snow globe shattered on the ground
toxic chemicals leaking out
dollhouse dominoes all fall down
run for cover under the temple mount

my little pony dying on the ground 
im crying until my eyes fall out :(
without a veil to hide behind
erasing the cartoon flowers inside

1 2 3 die!
1 2 3 die!!!

my hollywood ending is never happening 
these disney dreams are sharp broken pieces
i will be sleeping till u love me at last
in a dress of lace, with a beautiful face
my hollywood ending is dead on arrival
nothing more than an escape from tomorrow
i will b sleeping till you wake me with kisses
on sheets of linen in a story of fiction

i will be sleeping
i will be sleeping
i will be sleeping 

escape from tomorrow
escape from tomorrow
escape from tomorrow

Escape from Tomorrow

don't i know better?

you finally broke my heart
do it again
i know i was asking for it
and i am again

you finally left my life
i'm impressed, i'm impressed
dragged me through the mud and stained my dress

you never want to see me again
but i'm still your dog and i follow your scent
you know i'm scared of the world (break me again)
oh no you're making it worse 
(but i said) why's it always everything on your terms? (like you said..)

left for dead
side of the road with a rose in my hand
vines wrapped around my legs
pale pink babydoll dress

left for dead
hollow eyes, that's what you like right?
nothing left to do here but beg

you snow me in
and ice me out
but i'm still your doll
and i wait on the shelf (real stuff, despite myself)

you know i was scared that you'd do this
oh no you're making me lose it
oh i can't let this go unpunished

if you don't think i can be cold and unfeeling honey
then you've got another thing coming!
i'll be the reason you drink today
as i crawl back to you out of the drain
oh, wanna show off, i'm insane..

eft for dead
side of the road with a rose in my hand
vines wrapped around my legs
pale pink babydoll dress

left for dead
hollow eyes, that's what you like right?
nothing left to do here but beg and sing it

left for dead
side of the road with my heart in my hands
there's thorns in my wrists 
and cheap red wine on my lips

left for dead
hollow eyes, that's what you like now
nothing left to do here but bleed out!

that's the way you want it
and don't i know it
but i'm still your doll

that's the way you want it
and don't i know better
but i'm still your doll baby ah

Left for Dead

to me it's always seemed
nothing but a fever dream
eyes are not believing
"welcome to uncanny valley," my reflection softly speaks
can you see me?

over the horizon
i look on from above
and do you think an android could have a hand in love?

are we living in a simulation?
are we really real?
without a proper explanation
but we really feel

we're living in an animation
crazy cartoon tv
at least i've fallen deep in love with discovery

brain in a vat
commands a hand to tap on the glass
and the droplet on the window 
evaporates when i approach
where does it go?

bad moon rising
i look on from below
it's well after midnight (nocturnal, baby!)
but in the dark u glow

are we living in a simulation?
are we really real?
without a proper explanation
but we really feel

we're living in an animation
crazy cartoon tv
at least i've fallen deep in love with discovery 

Are We Living in a Simulation?

abandoned places from my dreams
faded plastic color schemes
with a hint of neon so i can see in the dark

buried in collective consciousness
these liminal spaces have a certain essence
these pictures are haunted with the ghosts of the past that we can't stop searching for in mirror images 

now does it give your heart a twist
does it make you feel like you don't even exist?
well i don't
i don't
i don't exist

i don't
i don't
i don't exist

years of running in these halls
fluorescent bulbs buzz a lifeless song
i haven't seen the sun since my past life 

(the backrooms)
the backrooms of reality
is it naive sometimes i think maybe you could find me in this endless maze
we could walk out together or at least share this pain

does it give your nerves a jolt?
does it make you feel like girl it's all your fault?
well it's not
it's not 
it's not at all

it's not
it's not
it's not at all

abandoned playland ball pit
a vacant mall at 3 am
hotel with no one in it
pool with no one swimming

empty arcade still in tact
classroom lights off, chairs all stacked
i didn't slide down a rainbow to get in
you'd never guess the hell and a half it's been

well i don't
i don't
i don't exist

well i don't
i don't
i don't exist

i don't
i don't
i don't exist

i don't
i don't 
i don't exist

Liminal Spaces

who the hell am i and what the hell is this place
i don't know your mind but i sure love your face ;)
you're a pretty boy
i die when u look my way
only to come back to life and re-download my brain
i'm insane..

zombie star
fading away
zombie star
fading away

who the hell are you and what do you want from me?
my whole body knows when you're approaching me
(like soul) (here he comes) (yeah..)
you're my limerent object
and if you know anything
you know i'm undead and way beyond soul-searching
that's for sure

i'm your zombie star
fading away,
zombie star
fading away

trying to explain
why things are this way (i die when u look my way..)
but i'm insane
i'm insane

i'm your little philosopher
writhing in existential pain
demented little philosopher
breaking your brain

Zombie Star

control was my first love
control from the first blush
and the very best part is
even i don't really understand it

robot girl
my head is filled with numbers and commands
getting small
i look up at you like a dead doll

i throw my head back and laugh
look at me, there's nothing left
bows in my hair and the blank stare
look at me, i'm barely there

i throw my head back and laugh
look at me, there's nothing left
just bows in my hair and the blank stare
look at me, i'm barely there

what you don't see
is that i see everything
but my exiles would like a word with me, would like a word with me

what i never showed you
is my fantasy castle with curtains of lace
but my inner child is just trashing the place, yeah trashing the place

i flash you the sickest smile
you'd recognize it anywhere
bows in my hair and the blank stare
look at me, i'm barely there

i flash you the sickest smile
slip into white mesh stockings over-the-thigh
bows in my hair and the blank stare and sheer pink panties, barely there

control is my husband
we're locked inside the chapel of love
against the wall
i'm on my knees for him like a dead doll! 

Barely There

i've got more stuff than i know what to do with
the walls are closing in
i'm digging through the piles of paper
there must be a doctor doll in here somewhere..

can anyone hear me?
how long have i been here?
and why do i feel like i don't think i'm anywhere?
can anyone hear me?
how long have i been here in hell?
i don't think i'm anywhere 

this room is cluttered with pink plastic wrap
piled in front of the doors i'm trapped
reality splitting the hairs in the drain
the clock says it's 8:88
nothing sense makes?

can anyone hear me?
how long have i been here?
and why do i feel like i don't..i'm trapped...
can anyone hear me...reality splitting..in hell..nothing sense makes..

can anyone hear me?
how long have i been here?
and why do i feel like i don't think i'm anywhere?
can anyone hear me?
how long have i been here in hell?
i don't think i'm anywhere

i miss being your headless doll dressed all in pink..
i've been reading your mind and i know you never think about me 
at the bottom of your toy box 
smothered nearly to death with my chastity belt locked!

Name One Object in This Picture

this isn't real
this is a sign
i know by now
i know by now
what to expect
when i lay down

enter here
somehow nothing looks quite right
i know by now
what to regret
when i close my eyes
just tell me why..

in this blank suburbia
anything could happen
we could even be happy
whatever that means

in this world of make believe
we could stay here forever
i could even get better
whatever, whatever

and sometimes to make it make sense
we appeal to nonsense
yeah this is where eyes fly
and portals open up in the sky (this isn't real..)

here's to this graveyard of our innocence!
it appears to be endless
yeah this is where i slide between your reality and mine

and this isn't real
so wake up
wake up
oh so finally disappear
wake up
wake up

and this isn't real
so wake up wake up wake up!
we've been waiting for you to come home..

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