(what is real? what is real, what … is real, what is wrong, what is real, what is real, what is real, what is is wrong?...) 

I want to die while I’m in my prime 
And not be taken by Mr. Evil. 

Goin’ outside for a little wonder 
Don’t think I’ll live to be a hunderd.
 But I don’t care
No one will 
Still be real by that time
I want to die while I’m in my prime
And not be taken by Mr. Evil
Yeah, there ya go. 

Goin’ outside for an over-under 
Before the world is ripped asunder  
But I don’t care; no one will 
Be able to feel; it’s a crime! 
I want to live while I’m feeling fine, 
And be gone before I’m unreal. 

Going outside for a little blunder 
Might as well take a little plunder. 
But I don’t care, i hope I get killed 
Be able to die on the hill I climb 
You won’t find me about to whine 
That I’m getting under-tilled. 

This whole world is all inside 
Everyone is trying to hide. 
Mr. Evil don’t care; he’s got nano gel. 
You know he is coming after 
Us all with Digital ID disaster, 
Take our avatars to virtual hell.

(want to stay real, real,  real, really, really real)


(what is real? what is real, what … is real, what is wrong, what is real, what is real, what is real, what is is wrong?...) 

I want to die while I’m in my prime 
And not be taken by Mr. Evil. 

Goin’ outside for a little wonder 
Don’t think I’ll live to be a hunderd.
 But I don’t care
No one will 
Still be real by that time
I want to die while I’m in my prime
And not be taken by Mr. Evil
Yeah, there ya go. 

Goin’ outside for an over-under 
Before the world is ripped asunder  
But I don’t care; no one will 
Be able to feel; it’s a crime! 
I want to live while I’m feeling fine, 
And be gone before I’m unreal. 

Going outside for a little blunder 
Might as well take a little plunder. 
But I don’t care, i hope I get killed 
Be able to die on the hill I climb 
You won’t find me about to whine 
That I’m getting under-tilled. 
This whole world is all inside 
Everyone is trying to hide. 
Mr. Evil don’t care; he’s got nano gel. 
You know he is coming after 
Us all with Digital ID disaster, 
Take our avatars to virtual hell.

(want to stay real, real,  real, really, really real)

  (want to stay real, want to stay real, real, real,) 

Really, really really real. 

Really, really really real.


Many people are concerned about the ongoing biodigital transhumanist agenda and thus may appreciate the metaphoric concept of this song. 

While some of the basic lyrics are sung, most are spoken, because it's basically a Trap song. Trap music has a specific drum beat, and it's about Trap Houses, in which denizens are stuck there, unable to work any longer or maintain a normal life, desperately addicted to the street drugs sold to them by the criminals who feed off them for profit, becoming wealthy themselves. 

The addicts living there, and visiting to purchase, very often become criminals themselves in order to pay for the drugs, and this many times involves gang murders. 

Other than living in a neighborhood that surely has some of those, I've never been associated with anything like that in a literal sense. I do feel compassion for people who have been deluded by such places (including musicians such as Paul Kossoff.)

My vision for this song and other Trap music is that we are all forcibly stuck all in a kind of Trap House in our current society. The criminals are corporations such as BlackRock and Vanguard, oligarchs, global elites, Big Pharma, the WHO, and so on, who are destroying the harmonious planet, our natural bodies and innocent ways of life. Constantly mandating more control, surveillance, propaganda. Turning everything into a fake pixilated version. 

This song is an expression of what it's like emotionally for many of us to struggle inside that situation. Determined to stay whole as we were originally created, even if that means the wish to die when it's time, in order to maintain our principles and integrity.

Glitch in the Dominatrix

Wish To Stay Real

Oh My Flower

Midnight Plans

Hisssstory, you'll do what I say to do.
Hisssstory, you'll be what I say.
Hisssstory will come true today.

Pet me. Pet me. Pet me. 
Pet me now.
Pet me now, pet me now.
Pet me now, history.
History. Hisssstory.
Pet me. Pet me. 
Pet me pet me pet me pet me pet me pet me.
Now. 
Raow. Raow, Raow. Raow.

Ah! Ahahaha! Ah!

Transformed History

As with all the songs in this album, the spoken voice snippets are public domain. Cheers to Mrs. Magillacutty!

Can I Get You

Music To The Matrix

What can I get you, sir?
Can I get you, sir?
Get you, sir?
What can I get you, sir?
Can I get you sir?
Get you sir?
Get you.
Get you.
Get you, sir. 
What can I get you, sir?
What can I get you?
Can you.
Get you. Sir.
Get you, sir. 
Get you.
Get you.
Get you.
Get you, sir.
Get you, sir.
You won't know what's coming.
You won't know where you've been.
Like you ever knew before.

As with all the songs in the album, other that my voice, the speaking snippets are public domain.

Glitch In The Dominatrix

Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk us if ya got us.
Milk you if ya got you.

Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk us if ya got us.
Milk you if we got you.
Milk'em if ya got'em.

Milk milk milk milk away
Squirt squirt squirt squirt 
Squirt squirt squirt squirt 

Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk'em if ya got'em.
Milk me if ya got me.
Milk you if I got you.

Milk'em squirt squirt squirt squirt squirt squirt squirt
Milk milk milk milk milk milk aday.
Milk milk milk milk milk away.

The land of milk and honey
Is knocking on the door today.
The milkman wants his money
And the bees won't go away.

The land of milk and honey
Is knocking on door today.
The milkman wants his money
And the bees just won't go away.

Milk squirt squirt
Milk'em if ya got'em, yay.

Milk'Em

Uploaded 09/19/2025
"So Let Me Go"


Enjoy!

Tokinai - ZEN (Ghost Song Contest)

Experimental music that ranges feral beyond constraints. 

The music covers a lot of non-genres. Multiple resonances include Dark/Ambient, Psych, Doom, Drone, Noise Rock, Kosmische, EDM, Trapwave, and Romantic Era and Post-Romantic, with special nods to the bands Swans, Earth, Caspar Brotzman Massaker, Godspeed You Black Emperor. Dystopian Inspirational for noble outlaws.

Electric guitar, bass, drum kit, lap steel slide and electrified dulcimers played with a violin bow, bodhrán, Peruvian triangle drum, snare drum, silver flute, double shepherd's flute, regular duclimers, spring reverb tank, suling, jaw harp, pungi, khaen, melodica, harmonica, broken cymbal, double wind wand, recorder, boatswain's pipe, penny whistle, slide whistle, MIDI controller to trigger computer's internal synth, voice, found objects, electric tennis racket...

Labels: Kryrart Ambient, Kryrart Records, Camembert Electrique, Cousin Silas Emporium, Dark Stereo, Sounds for the Soul Records.

My name is Rosemary Bensko, and SA is my artist name. While most songs are just me, and I do all the production, when other contributors are involved, they become part of the band for those songs.

Collaborators who contribute a stem to a track or were involved in a jam are always credited: XAW, Igor Iofe, Chris Nolte,Tom McCarthy of TM's Sundae Sauce, Steve Gilmartin, Psychedelic Mayhem, The Fall of Saigon, A.J. Kaufmann, with remixes by The Infinite Wimshurst. There are also joint ventures and SA playing and singing on other people's music.

Lots of music here you won't find elsewhere. Smaller amount is also on Bandcamp, Spotify, YouTube, Pandora, Last.fm, Instagram.

New tracks tagged #Experimental Trap EDM