feelin blue [lofi]

Kana Nishino - Wishing [MALE VERSION ]

Muppet Sadness - JkellxMusic - (Prod. Keano Quinn)

Muppet Sadness

MuppetSadness

D3N13D (prod. sleepy!) [mixed by zackya sabri]

I wish I could witness seeing without awareness. I wish the drugs and alcohol fried the light bulb chillin' upstairs. 
I wish I had my dad's ego back in his prime, driving a Trans Am.
Smoking marble lights,fleeing child support, dodging baby mamas on sight.

I guess some people are just blessed with confidence without knowing it
I wish I didn't have a stuttering fit. I had a standoff with myself while nervous
I wish I wouldn't have frozed on stage Feeling dumb after leaving my home state.
Pursuing a fresh slate with 50k would've been great.

I wish I wasn't mentally stuck in carbonite staring at the ceiling all night.
I wish I had waited till age 79 to commit my violent heinous crime.
By then, I'd have the experience to scream. Fuck this shit as I'm slapping the shit
out of Gen Z's grandchildren.
Simultaneously causing the world's extinction.

I wish I was in a coma, brain dead, a bullet missing my lung completely
At least I'd still be breathing fully right when you'd throw me in the trash bin still
bleeding.
I wish my conscience could aggressively fester
and manifest into a new vessel for vengeance. 
I wish I was an evolution of a screw loose
fuck that could hide like a politician in plain sight

I wish employers actually gave a fuck instead of the importance of a quota.
Preaching family orientation in every fucking meeting.
I wish I was more than a social security number drawn out of the corporate hat.

I wish I could find fulfillment in my environment. 
Something easy like a line I could just write on.
I wish I could find a chick instead of a bimbo
bitch 
That only has an idea of me raising her kids
Being the catcher's man providing peace of mind.
When I'm clapping her cheeks from behind

I wish I had the heart of greed so I could rob everybody of their material things
I wish God was real so they could prove it to me without a gender identity.
I'm tired of picking sides.
I could give a fuck less on who's right
I just wish I wasn't me.

I wish I had a million dollars just to rub it in my family's face, no matter the side. 
I just want to burn it all in one place.
I wish helping people was simple, like flipping tarot cards reading the reversal meaning.
I wish suffering was easy like an MMO, RPG
grinding my way through anything. 
I wish the memories were worth the journey.
I wish healing wasn't a process of waiting. wasting time writing everything that came
to mind.
I just wish I wasn't me.
I just wish I was somebody else.

Diary of an Alcoholic

I Wish

Needles (prod. by cannontoocoldXDynox)

Music by Big Bad Beats
Original Lyrics & Vocals by Jeaniene Green / Murphysturkey

A LITTLE BLUE - 10.08.23

“I Like The Night” out on Apple Music, Spotify, YouTube

Artist _ Producer _ Engineer >> Hip-Hop 
Moon Raiser II drops 9_22_24

Brilliance Runs Against Ignorance Negatively Dumb Em Down. This message was brought to you by Natural Fool's Production a Brain Ded creation. 

I'm an Odd Poet who likes to think outside of the notebook. I like experimenting with no experience in making music. My perspective is quite morbid as I'm twisting the lessons. My stories are conspiracies, so don't plot against me. I'm a knowledgeable geek, a big kid at heart. Surviving death left me with questions. So this is the best I could do in forwarding my message.

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