Embers of Gloom is a dark, haunting anthem that dives deep into the shadows of despair and the struggle to reclaim light from the depths of darkness. With vivid, poetic lyricism, Jonnathan Strawthorne paints a world where sirens wail, whispers call from the abyss, and icy fingers of fear press against the soul. The track balances raw vulnerability with a fierce resilience, exploring themes of loss, temptation, and the quiet war waged within the human spirit.

Driven by heavy synths, atmospheric instrumentation, and a pulsing rhythm that mirrors the heartbeat of survival, the song unfolds like a cinematic journey through nightmarish corridors. The verses evoke imagery of shadowy mazes and burning pyres, while the soaring chorus demands to be felt — a cry against the consuming void.

Yet, within its darkness, Embers of Gloom burns with defiance. The outro rises in triumph, transforming anguish into flight, reminding listeners that even in the bleakest of nights, sparks of hope can ignite into flame.

This is Strawthorne at his most evocative — blending gothic intensity with a cathartic, almost spiritual release. Embers of Gloom is not just a song; it’s an experience, a confrontation with shadow, and a testament to the resilience of the human soul.

Embers of Gloom

Verse 1
Been held back so long, tied to what they’d do
Things done when we were young, shaping me and you
Now that I’m older, I’m learning to see
I’m a person too, breaking free
All those feelings, all that pain
Done with letting old scars remain
Done, done, done—feeling everything here
Seems like those voices, always in my ear
I’m done carrying what isn’t mine
God, I’m done giving them all my mind
All the fighting just to feel okay
I’m giving it up—I need you to know

Pre-Chorus
Moments in my life, I’m down on my knees
Pray you’ll help me break everything I need
The things in me that gotta change
Whispering softly, hope you can hear
It’s complicated, God, I know
Tried to decode every message you throw
Tell me straight, don’t keep me lost
God, lift me out, break every chain they tossed

Chorus
Break the chains, God, break them for me
All the wounds, all the voices I carried
Pull me out, let your power surround
Give me the strength to tear it down
Break the chains, God, break them for me
I’m done with the history they buried
Pull me out, let me breathe
God, I need you—set me free

Verse 2
God, I said I’m done now, I’m done
Done with the fighting, I’m gone
Gloves off, armor down, I surrender now
If you need me, God, I’m standing here
Seen so much you can do—hearts you’ve made new
But the things they did back then, the marks they left too
Other people praise you, but still hurt the ones beside
Not all wonderful, and God, I try

Chorus
Break the chains, God, break them for me
All the wounds, all the voices I carried
Pull me out, let your power surround
Give me the strength to tear it down
Break the chains, God, break them for me
I’m done with the history they buried
Pull me out, let me breathe
God, I need you—set me free

Outro
In my hands is the cross I hold
God, I’m tired, I’m letting go
You know everything, you know my fight
Can you hear me now, can you bring me light?
Only you can break these chains
God, I lost it all
Break the chains, hear my call

Breaking the Chains

[Spoken Word]

I'm bound to broken—you know the saving of my time.
I've seen the chains holding me… so many times.
Things I could say, things that I can't—
So many things been pushin’ on my brain, you know the monster wants to bleed.

A dream across… a motion that you don't know,
Yeah, the chains hold me down, they hold me back in everything I know.
Hold me in the moment—yeah, into the time,
I come a-talkin’, I'm part of even a time.

Lost in space—you know, I drifted alone,
My destiny? You know, I'm driftin’ past my knowns.
Absolutely disappear… yeah, to an eternity.
Yeah, the chains—they're wrapped around my arms, my neck, my face… even my feet.

I've seen the chains down in hell—you know, they're tryin’ to pull me in.
Every temptation, every tug—oh my God, the chains are tryin’ to break.
Chains inside of me… moments that I know
The monsters were takin’ over me—
But I try not to give in to everything they ever need.

But then I sit here, lookin’ on my side—
Every single chain, yeah, every single part
Connected to hell… and even parts in heaven.
Locked in two places—you know, I belong.
A soul in heaven, and a soul that's lost inside of hell.

I'm tryin’ to find the place in the medium…
Can I get there too?
Can I find a happiness—
You know, where heaven just dwells upon me?

Am I resting inside of hell, that I know even I was born in?
The chains… you know, they were deep down inside of my soul—
They pull me deeper… deeper… deeper…
Into the pits I don't even know.

Try to control everything that I want—
Oh my God, you gotta let me go.

Chains of what?
A moment in my life, yeah, that I'm supposed to… yeah, what? Contained.
And still—another chain drivin’ me today.

I know I can't give in.
I know I can't even shake.
And I can't even give in to the things that I want today.

I know the chains you bound me with, you know…
I know they’re strong.
And every single time I try to break them—
You show me where I was wrong.

Break my hands, give me an axe, and take out my sister—
Whatever you want—
You control me every moment.
Yeah, I know you got…

Is it your chains, or the hell I was bound to from the moment I was born?
You knew what I was gonna be,
But you still let it come past…

But you didn’t ever let me become the monster
That was confined inside of me.

I know the pressure.
I know the chains.
I know the things that dest me.
The things that I need.
The things that please.
The things I always wanted to be.

But I give up—
No.
No, I can't give in to everything that I need…
Because I’ve become
The monster
That was fed
Upon me.

Chains of Me

Verse 1
Been held back so long, dreams I wanna chase
Feels now that I’m gone, I’m more than just a face
Done with all the feelings, tired of this pain
Done, done, done, feeling everything in vain
While it seems you’re always there pressing on me
I’m not doing it anymore, God, I’m
I’m done, done fighting for a place to belong
I’ll give it up; you need to know
There are moments in my life, God, when I fall on my knees
Praying, hoping you see the things I need
And the things I need to change
I whisper softly, but you never hear the words
It’s complicated, you know
I tell you one thing, you’re just sending codes
Like Morse code, throwing language I can’t decode
I’m done with all the frustration, you know
Either tell me straight or say I’m wrong,
But God, quit leaving me in confusion
I’m on your side, but it feels like I’m losing
I know what I’ve done, I know what’s wrong
My mind just wants to explode

Chorus
I’m done now, God, I’m done
Lay my fighting spirit down
Take these gloves, take my pain
Let me rest, free from chains
I’m done now, God, I’m done
Can you hear me, can you see
Every scar, every doubt in me
I’m done now, take me home

Verse 2
God, I said, I’m done now, I’m done
Done fighting, I’m worn
I’m giving up, dropping my guard
Hands in the air, heart scarred
God, if you need me, I’m done now
I’ve seen wonders you do
Lives you touch, hearts renewed
But some praise you with empty words
Some leave love for the few
Not always wonderful as the world believes
But I tell you, I believed in you

Chorus
I’m done now, God, I’m done
Lay my fighting spirit down
Take these gloves, take my pain
Let me rest, free from chains
I’m done now, God, I’m done
Can you hear me, can you see
Every scar, every doubt in me
I’m done now, take me home

Outro
Only in this destiny, you’re the cross in my hand
God, I don’t want this, I don’t know
What’s in my hands, give me a sign
God, I don’t know, I don’t want to be
It’s just you, oh my God
Can you hear me?
God, I lost it all

Done Now (God, I’m Done)

[Chorus]
I'm a broken man from a deal with the one that tried to confuse me, make me a monster
Who changed my whole childhood long ago

[Verse 2]
Keeping them in my mind, yeah, I hear them talking on so many times now
They're saying about me, I'm gone, no more

[Chorus]
The power that's taking out over me, yeah, from my childhood, tried to confuse me
Taking everything that I was inside of me, just to make me, I feel like I'm worthless and I was in the dirt, yeah
I don't even think that I deserve love
So many times they buried inside of me, yeah, I'm in the grave, it's lost, please

[Verse 3]
Looking down on my knees, you see
Every moment and a time now, you see the pain, you see the aches, you see the needs, you see the growth, you see the
Yeah, I see your needs, yeah, I see your pleasure, yeah, I see your gifts
I see your body radiates everything, everything that I need from God, yeah
So refrain everything in my mind
Don't know where I'm at now, oh God, yeah, I'm going down the road that I'm sure now, yeah
I need you, yeah, right here with me, yeah
Father God, walk with me

[Chorus]
Some days I'm trying to get into a boy now, yeah, give now
So much is telling me, oh Lord
Nobody wants to give in, naturally
You know you got a purpose, oh God
I never asked for this, I don't
One day you got to prove it

Im a broken man

Chorus
I’m a broken man from a deal with the one
That tried to confuse me, make me a monster
Changed my whole childhood long ago
Left me cold, alone in the shadow

Verse 1
Keepin’ them in my mind, yeah, I hear them talking
On so many nights, those voices keep stalking
They’re saying about me, “He’s gone, no more,”
Can’t escape the echoes behind closed doors

Chorus
The power that’s taking hold over me
From my childhood, tried to confuse me
Took everything that I had inside
Made me feel worthless, driven to hide
Don’t even think I deserve love
Buried so deep, I’m lost in the mud
Some days I’m in the grave, it’s lost—please
Father, forgive me, set me free

Verse 2
Looking down on my knees, you see
Every moment and every need
You see the pain, you see the aches
You see the growth, you see the stakes
I see your gifts, I see your pleasure
Your body radiant, holy treasure
So I refrain, retrace my mind
Don’t know where I’m at, I feel blind
Walking down this road, gotta be sure
Father God, I need you here

Chorus
Some days I’m just trying to be a boy again
So many voices telling me, “Oh, Lord, give in”
Nobody wants to surrender, naturally
But you say I’ve got a purpose, led by destiny
I never asked for this—never chose the pain
But God, won’t you show me, help me rise again?

Bridge
I’m tired, I’m worn, my heart feels torn
Every dream, every hope still bruised and worn
If there’s a reason, if there’s a sign
Father God, won’t you help me find mine?

Chorus/Outro
I’m a broken man, but I’m reaching for light
Trying to heal, trying to do what’s right
Father God, walk with me through this night
Show me love, help me win the fight

Broken Man Walk With Me

Verse 1
Yeah, God, you can see everything that I am
Everything that I need, every broken part and plan
Stuff that shattered long ago, deep inside
Family curse, yeah, now I see, nowhere to hide
Every spirit connected, tied to you
Thinking 'bout the origin, hoping to break through
Trying to fix the turn-around, spinning in my mind
Don’t care what they believe, leave my soul behind
It’s not fair—just a child, thrown into the fight
Another life for Satan, stolen from the light
So long ago, shadows creep and grow
Got so much on my heart, things you should know
Enemy keeps circling, trying to steal our love
Father, break it, smash these chains from above

Chorus
Everything’s gotta be broken, every curse, every chain
Father God, do your healing, wash away the pain
Save every child, lift up every soul
Come down, change the story, make the broken whole

Verse 2
Not everything’s heavy, but the burdens still remain
I carry too many, some aren’t even mine, just pain
Each face I see, praying hard for clear vision
Calling out for mercy, for hope and provision
So many souls need you, Father, hear this call
Father God, Father God, come lift us all
I need you now, make that change deep within
Every single one, I’m lifting up to Him
Father God, show your power, break through the need
Make a change in us all, let your love lead

Chorus
Everything’s gotta be broken, every curse, every chain
Father God, do your healing, wash away the pain
Save every child, lift up every soul
Come down, change the story, make the broken whole

Bridge
Break the curse, break the sin
Bring the healing, let new life begin
Give us hope, give us strength
Father God, make a change

Chorus/Outro
Everything’s gotta be broken, every curse, every chain
Father God, do your healing, wash away the pain
Save every child, lift up every soul
Come down, change the story, make the broken whole

Break the Curse

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Shadows & Sunlight

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Heck Vs Hell Ep 73 - The Sin of Pride

[Verse 1]
(Ooh)
(Ooh)
(Yeah)
See I was at a place you know I talked to people there
Yes, some, they told me so many advice, no
There was a little crazy little lady over there, I was sitting there so many days
She was sitting there three weeks, four weeks, I don't even know
She was crying out for God, you know, in the distance
In the moments I could talk to her, my music radiated inside her soul, yeah
I don't like this piece
[Verse 2]
(Oh no)
I was sitting there with a girl, my own for you now
My back here on the police and all the day
Jumping down, coming against the cars
I'm on my pants off and then I wasn't back there
I saw my feels inside my head
The doctors asked me, son, what did happen here?
I stopped telling them, I got locked into the vibe
Moment, God, are you taking my life?
So many pills they would got me addicted to
Yeah, I was off a diet, I've been so long
Yes, I was
I didn't even talk to her
Only when I even wear now
Then all the monsters that always seem to follow me
Seventeen, yeah, I know it's even not me
The music flow in the night
I'm addicted to so many things now
I was addicted to music, just the words I wrote
Yeah, my soul, God, I know I was on and on
Yeah, I passed and I didn't know how to read
He said in the distance, he told me he needed me, yeah
I sat to throw the guy
I sat there so many days, didn't know how to even feel
Man, I kissed him, yeah, I took a hold of two days
I had a feeling I had enough, I started throwing it up, yeah
You didn't even realize
I won't just to stay in everybody's life
I wanted to make me feel like every drug it gave me
I tried to fly, the sun is seizing within me
Won't cause it's faded in the courtyard of yesterday
I heard no music in the moment, Jesus, I
I looked up into the heavens, even not a cloud
Made a sound, I could always have seen light
No more music in my mind, I couldn't reach it
Like a song that's blocking every single feeling there
Yeah, I saw my girl crying last night
She was crying, yeah, yeah, you were
I started by, I just walked to her, didn't care
[Verse 3]
(Damn, it does have that, this is a beautiful song, yeah)
I saw her standing there, she was crying now
She's losing, yeah, children, yeah, I know now
I couldn't help her, but the medication depressed many in me
The song is gone, no colors could be found
It made me feel, yeah, I must have been found, yeah
But the difference is, I thought the pain
But it made me not give a shit about the freaking pain
The man in me, I just needed to feel
I needed to understand the people that were really real
That needed God, but I told him I know he would let me in there
For a little bit of longer, I know I got out
And private too early

monsters follow me

Welcome to the shadows — where pain becomes rhythm, and hope hits harder with bass.

I'm Blak Mirage — blending pop, sad rap, and rock-rap into cinematic soundscapes made for the ones who feel too much and say too little.

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My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

Hello to you all, I am a lover of life & passions, Spiritual Minister, Life coach, photographer of nature, Author and songwriter/artist. A Goddess & a Queen of many wonders. Through the years I've helped hundreds of people discover inner breakthroughs. Filling the spirit is what I help others find more of within themselves as we are all meant to find.. Bringing life into things and people from all walks in life and spreading the true nature of each note in melodies. My purpose is to lead the way for others and the inner beings in us all, to create a path of profound enlightenment that teaches us in the journey's we make. -We all have a melody that yearns to be heard..So let us play out our hearts song. -Lex & RDDC

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I am a music producer and lyricist and occasionally play the synthesizer,  guitar, and piano. I have been doing this since 2012. People from all over the world make all the sounds used in my music, and some A.I. Most of the time, I write the lyrics and music; I'll hire professionals for the specific instruments I need and then pull them all together to make the final production I want. It is a complicated process to ensure the masters and the stems flow evenly to the beat. Each genre has its own movement, for example, Rap to Rock or Country to Orchestral, which also adds to the complexity. I hope this gives you an idea of what goes on behind the scenes.

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