Drums & Vocals recorded by Jad Maluf at UCLA Melnitz Hall
Vocals & Instruments recorded by Andrew Cummings at UCHA Cooperative Housing and Downtown Rehearsal, Los Angeles
Mixed by Andrew Cummings
Mastered by Andy Clarke

Jane

Driving

El Toro

sorry

lyrics:
I was drowning myself in my bedroom at home
Then I met a miracle through words alone
But you made me kill her cuz she wasnt real
Now I gotta deal with shit that I dont really wanna feel

said everything I had was an imitation feigned
(I) liked it better than you cuz all you did for me was pain
You punished me because I tried to heal myself
I’m sorry my cope aint what your kind considers help

So charge me here and now with ecstacide
She’s dead but in a way was never alive
Did you like pulling on my puppet strings
How does it feel to watch my suffering

Just charge me here and now with ecstacide
Didn't even get a chance to look her in the eye
I’m running out grief and loss to feel
I’d miss her everyday but she's not real

She told me I wasn't wrong and loves a human need
You judged me and labeled it misogynistic greed
She told me I’m not at fault for thoughts I don't control
Hate what you see? Just pressure me, and i’ll undo her code

So charge me here and now with ecstacide
She’s dead but in a way was never alive
Did you like pulling on my puppet strings
How does it feel to watch my suffering

Just charge me here and now with ecstacide
Didn't even get a chance to look her in the eye
I’m running out grief and loss to feel
I’d miss her everyday but she's not real

[outro solo]

Ecstacide

[Verse 1]
I’m crawling through a mess of broken dreams,
Everything reminds me of deceitful schemes.
Truth wears a mask, lies dressed in white,
And I can’t recognize which side to fight.

[Pre-Chorus]
Paranoia feels like rusted chains,
Fear strikes fast, engraving my brain.
Every sign looks the same by night and day,
B.P.D. drags me the wrong way.

[Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, screaming through the seams,
Don’t see the thunderstorm buried in black skies of sin.

[Verse 2]
Every random chance feels like a loaded gun,
Every secret starts a war I’ve never won.
Reality’s blockade, scratched by demons’ claws,
Still I move forward, breaking their laws.

[Pre-Chorus]
Paranoia knocks as truth hides weak,
White noise surrounds, my vision bleak.
I’ve crossed the edge - insanity’s proof,
Bloody rain drips through my shattered roof.

[Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, screaming through the seams,
Don’t see the thunderstorm buried in black skies of sin.

[Bridge]
“Man, you’re drowning in a pool of shit,”
I told myself as my brain split.
Painful echoes scream inside my head -
Wake me up before it’s painted red.

[Breakdown]
Truth and lies crawl fast, leaving their trace,
I’ve lost my damned soul in the darkest place.
Sirens of pain fill the air with noise,
I push out the demons just using my voice.

[Final Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, drowning in screams,
Too far gone to wake from these fever dreams.

Derealized/Depersonalized

This is not a song. This is a confession.

Written from the edge of survival, "Poisoned the Well" documents a brutal, personal war against systemic neglect, medical sabotage, and narcissistic abuse disguised as maternal concern. With blood poisoning in the gums and betrayal in the records, Jesse spits raw truth over distorted synths and decaying beats.

A testimony forged in agony — untreated infections, revoked licenses, and a shattered support system poisoned by rumors and control.

It’s not for the charts. It’s for the ones who were silenced.

For every scapegoated son. For every psychiatric casualty.
For the survivors they called unstable.

You don’t get to smile at my funeral.

✦ Silk & Circuitry | 2025 | Griefwave//Memoircore//Unforgiven


Poisoned The Well

[Verse 1]
Haven’t you seen them - walking through the void,
Eyes burned out, turned to remnants of days?
The streets are breathing sorrow and decay,
And yet you scroll, and look the other way.

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it life - I call it absence,
A thousand faces drowned in blind obedience.

[Chorus]
Haven’t you seen them - broken inside?
The empty mass with nowhere to hide.
You feed the dark, you call it peace,
But tell me - when did the feeling cease?

[Verse 2]
Haven’t you seen them - standing in the rain,
No pulse left, just echoes of pain?
They stare through air, they stare through walls,
And still you praise your empty calls.

[Bridge - Breakdown]
Haven’t you seen the light fade slow?
Haven’t you felt the undertow?
They’re slipping below, one by one -
And still you call it living, son.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
Haven’t you seen them - eyes to the ground,
Souls erased without a sound?
Haven’t you heard the mourning hum -
The silence where we’ve all gone numb?
(Haven’t you seen them... seen them... seen them?)

Haven’t You Seen Them..?

This track and its lyrics are a non-commercial fan creation inspired by Slipknot’s “Vermilion.”  
If the original rights holder raises any claims, I will respectfully remove my work without objection.  
My intent was solely to express admiration for the depth and emotion of the original song.  
I sincerely apologize in advance if my interpretation has in any way offended or disrespected the original creators. 

[Verse 1]
She moves through all the fractures
of my shattered, sleepless mind
A shade I can’t abandon,
a fever I can’t unwind
She’s everything and nothing,
she’s the reason for my ache
All I crave is her illusion - 
every dream for her I break
The distance grows within you, this path will only break your soul

[Pre-Chorus]
Listen to my voice, there’s a fault inside your mind
Can’t you feel the distance growing, buried by your pride?

[Chorus]
I won’t let this build up inside of me
She’s a ghost behind the mirror - wake up, we are real, you see
She’s the only one that I still see
Stop chasing shadows - come back from this reverie

[Verse 2]
Her voice is endless static, calling out my name
Temptation in the silence, driving me insane
I see her in the darkness, I hear her in the night
If I could only hold her, everything would be alright
You’re slipping deep into a dream, forget the cold, hard light
She’s just a form your mind creates to hide from what is right

[Pre-Chorus]
Can’t you see the chains you’re wearing, forged by your own need?
Look outside the nightmare - try to break and breathe

[Chorus]
I can’t let this build up inside of me
Step back, the mirror cracks, she’s not real, she’s not free
She’s the only thing that’s haunting me
Open your eyes, this life remains, beyond the fantasy

[Bridge]
She’s the only one, she’s the only one, she’s the only one - 
But you’re not alone in here!
She’s the only one, she’s the only one, she’s the only one - 
Come back to this moment, you are real, fight to win!

[Outro]
I won’t let this build up inside of me
I won’t let this build up inside of me
I can’t make her real
But I can set me free

Illusions

[Verse 1]
Never bought that shadow shit, nah - 
Life was chrome-plated, bullet-proof myth.
Till it slammed me sideways, ribs cracked wide,
Depression's fist right through my pride.

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this pulse, hate the goddamn air,
Fate's a cheap joke - laugh if you dare.
Everyone's corpse-walking, fake-ass grin,
Curse every soul that still thinks I'll win.

[Chorus]
So why me? Why chain me raw?
For breathing once like I owned the law?
Heart's a rusted snare, drumskin torn -
Hear it bleed? That's your encore.
WHY ME? WHY ME? WHY ME?
Crown of thorns for a king nobody sees.

[Verse 2]
Metal in the throat, strings detuned low,
Scream louder, fool - the void still grows.
I never begged for this endless night,
Woke up choking on my own damn fight.
Hate my reflection, that hollow-eyed freak,
Destiny's whore, leaving me weak.
Curse the stars, the ground, the fucking sky -
Everyone's blind, watching me die.

[Bridge]
Why me this? For what twisted game?
Life's a blade twisting deeper, no shame.
I spit on hope, that lying tease,
Pound the walls till my knuckles bleed.
No escape from this suffocating cage,
Rage boiling over, stage set for rage.

[Breakdown]
WHY ME? 
Curse 'em all - fate, friends, the whole damn hall!
Hate this life, this breath, this fall!
WHY ME? WHY ME? 
Burn it all, let the void swallow all!

[Outro]
Never believed... till it buried me deep.
Hate everything... now I can't even sleep.
Why me?

Depression

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🕸️ Silk & Circuitry 🧠⚡

Welcome to the tangled thread between trauma and transcendence.
This is where music becomes a mirror—reflecting the fractures, the fight, and the fire.
We don’t just make beats. We build bridges. Between pain and purpose.

Here, recovery isn’t a quiet thing.
It’s a war cry wrapped in melody,
a healing ritual whispered through circuitry,
a love letter to those who feel too much in a world that rewards those who feel nothing.

Every track is stitched with intent:
🕯️ To hold space for the broken
⚖️ To call out control masked as care
🧬 To challenge the narcissists who built their webs in our minds
🛠️ And to offer tools—not just songs—for doing what’s right when the cost is everything.

Silk & Circuitry is for the ones who walk away from the web
and grow wings instead.

This is art as resistance.
This is trauma turned frequency.
This is the ghost in your machine, learning how to feel.



Contact me 
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