Original Spoken Word written and performed by Casey Renee Kiser. 
©️RaVenGhost Press 2023.
Words:

I remember Him, Him 
and him 
They'd beat on their chests 
and claim my swirling-drain heart;
Claim me with echoed ego,
Mark me as 'rescued'
But every branch I'd reach for 
after that    would snap
So many branches
while they all just kept a one-track mind
...AVOID EMOTION...
I remember myself too-
Me, myself and I reporting for duty
Surely, with all my personalities,
I can get one of these motherfuckers 
to warm up around here, ha!
(words directly from my childhood trauma)
I'm lost again in my constant need to mother!

(oh, you're such a good little boy....)

Emotionally unavailable men-
sexy hearts in barbed wire lace
lit up my black hole
Can't commit, can't decide on anything
except to hold back? Well honey, 
you've got a chance with me!
Feel nothing (give a bit) Say nothing (give a bit)
Admit nothing, push-pull, PUSH-PULL
And I laugh at the fact that I never believed 
in wearing a watch
'Cause all I get is motherfuckers wasting my time

Turns out, a jungle man is an idealized good time
but they get boring faster than I can say,
OH, MY HERO...
Wearing their mommy issues like animal skin,
so they can pretend they've conquered them
Protecting the "honor" of their toxic mothers
while attempting to dodge every call, every visit
Soaking up mommy's gossip gush and rumor rush
I'd blow kisses 
while they'd throw banana peels at my feet. 
Trained monkeys!

Still, I'd wrap myself around their thumbs
(when they weren't sucking them)
Gimme more, gimme more baby, 
ANY DAY NOW...
OH YEAH, I was Jane of The Jungle,  
swinging from tiny moment to tiny moment
of which I related
Grasping tight to the in-betweens, 
the bones they threw, I'd bury deep

Getting fucked till I was pretty
by distant eyes, 
I remember when I had the energy
But I am choosing now to forget

Finally, clean and dry, I wave
good-bye to the spin cycle;
to the mucky jungle

with pitted eyes
from a cloud
above
the asylum

Yeah, 
I wear the 'crazy ex' labeL proudly.
I WORKED HARD FOR IT.



photo credit: CRK by JTG©️RaVenGhost Press2018
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Jane of The Jungle

Hot heavens / what'll I do with all this glitter? / Synchronized darkling clouds / happy tears-litter / Homerun; threw the bat down, a heavy hitter / Yeah, I can make it reign / all that gutter glitter / Changed your name from Candy Cane / to useless pain / Now, I'm reeling from feeling / so fucking sane / And I'm wet enough / don't need your dull-drip stain / Yeah, I can make it reign / gutter glitter / Swept it from under my rug / bitter bitter bug / I don't need YOU / I don't need you- bitter bitter bug / got a glitter-glitter shrug / I don't need you / 'Cause I can make it reign / all that gutter glitter



Written & performed by C. Renee Kiser 2023

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Casey Renee Kiser's work (a.k.a. snail viXen) closely examines mainstream’s distorted ideas of beauty.
Always quirky and armed with bold confessional dynamite, her humor is uncompromising, often abrupt and unsettling. Her poems explore identity, emotional abuse, and healing from complicated relationships. She resides in a magical place called The Crystal Garden. Come on over, we have cookies ;) and healing, through dark poetry.
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