HULT HEAVN. Slowed.

original desc:
pronounced  sha-ma
Lyrics :

[Intro]
(szama)

[Verse 1]
If I cut my hands off, you'd still expect me to play
I wish for just one fucking second you'd get off my case
But I don't have the strength to tell you off
And I don't have the heart to give it up
But I don't have the stats to show it off
I'll take my fucking head and blow it off

[Verse 2]
I don't know why I'm still here
The sound's too loud, it hurts my ears
I'm a payload brimming with toxins and anger
Man down, enemy spotted, in danger
Aim up, hitting the target like a ranger
Halo sit on my head so disgraceful

[Verse 3]
Way too demanding, I can't fucking stand it
Take one, pass out, then everybody vanish
Take five, brеak a leg, break into a panic
Stop tryna relatе to me, you'd never understand it
You couldn't comprehend it, no, no, you could never get it
You take my life into your hands then ask how I'm affected
Ask a different question
How have you been holding up?
Not what I expected
I might have to dead it
You really threw a wrench in my plans
You put a metaphorical gun in my hand
Another four years 'fore I'm falling again
And another lifetime 'fore I know what it meant

[Bridge]
I've been known to disappoint, but you knew that
I can't even seem to find my voice
I guess that I don't have a choice, but I knew that
So I might as well just go for it
Fuck this and all the rest of that dumb shit
Work me so hard, now I can't even function
Crown with no king, all flash, no substance
No motivation, waste time in abundance

[Verse 4]
I'll drown in the lake and get burned by a matchstick
I've got no sense of hate, but I hate how you're acting
I fell on my face and now everyone's laughing
Make my choice, get upset and then wonder what happened
I'll fail anyway, I can't even fight back
Name one fucking quality, I probably lack it
And I can't work I'm too distracted
Tired of these people talking down, man, I had it (szama)
If I cut my hands off you'd still expect me to play
I wish for just one fucking second you'd get off my case
And when it's all said and done, I still really have no clue
Who to blame for it all, I don't know what I should do
And when I'm homeless with a needle in my arm
I really hope that you move on
And forget that you're the one that made me lose

survivorsguilt

Eli vandimion / Szama - survivorsguilt / Reupload

(heartinloveee)
Love’s a twisted game, got me feeling lost,
Drowning in the highs, I’m payin’ the cost,
Pop a truffle, it’s a wild fuckin’ ride,
Mind’s trippin’ hard while you’re messin’ with my pride.

Caught up in the dark, but I’m searchin’ for light,
Love’s a vicious cycle, keeps me up at night,

You with your lies, You with your lies

Love’s a twisted game, got me feeling lost,
Drowning in the highs, I’m payin’ the cost,
Pop a truffle, it’s a wild fuckin’ ride,
Mind’s trippin’ hard while you’re messin’ with my pride.

You with your lies (fumiko! + elxnce)

specchio standard

1: 4getabit prod elseen takecare04
2: devil (alt) prod safetyafterlife
3: nevr b the same prod odihu
4: glock stupid w xheri p heavn0
5: prey prod takuori
6: same prod me
7: trackudown w xheri p heavn0
8: my Every Move w xheri prod grolth
9: walls w starxvi prod idk im sorry
10: maroon
11: loser's reaction prod a bitch
12: disgusting prod a bitch
13: feelin right w landonvvs prod landon
14: rot4ever w cupid 
fuck u cupid but this song is hard so wtv
15: patiently w xheri prod heavn0
bonus: girk w xheri prod no idea (early 2023)

heavn (zero) the comp tape

new me

lyrics:
psycho maybe im just psycho 
did you have to lie though
maybe i dont like you
put up with your attitude
like wheres my gratitude
im so over you
n im so glad were through, oh woah

lovers to nothing 
thought i was bluffing
you should think before you speak
im tired of your assumptions
maybe we could be something
if you actually liked me
you shouldnt worry i should be
im tired of trying

and you think that its a joke
why you laugh
you think that i am trash
i know that i lied
i made you cry
but if you opened your eyes 
you wouldve saw right through me

psycho maybe im just psycho 
did you have to lie though
maybe i dont like you
put up with your attitude
like wheres my gratitude
im so over you
n im so glad were through, oh woah

psycho (akira + max vossberg)

for alice <3

spotify link ---> https://open.spotify.com/album/4gOGjjyKkdDYW1fLqsq4Bv?si=qsefkmOOQwiakOdSQo-58A

prod. // mixed by: newport motel 
restructuring/master: @wowkt1000

i can’t keep wastin, the moments aren’t worth chasin 
i can’t keep digging holes up 
to bury and replace 

to relive every second, and every little moment 
it can’t be beneficial 
to dote on what you hate 

tell me is it a bad thing?
because i know that you’re not 
i fear the shape and the color 
i think i’ve seen it before, say i aint seen you before round here

i’ll keep on writing
poetry on her skin
lessons to weave the quilt 
crumbling from within 
i’ll write you once i vade the guilt

you can try, but you can’t clean me up
plastic words off a rim, soothe and empty the cup

baby, i’ll join you sometime
girl if you’re lonely
cuz if you’re lonely, i guess i’m lonely too

i want your everything
it’s all i ask, i do
been waiting my whole life
to run right into you

i think it’s better, think it’s ok 
i think i’ve found my place to hunker down
i think my head is in a good place
let’s see the one who’s going crazy now?

you’ll be my healing, and i’ll be the cancer
hun, i’ll be the dollar and you’ll be the dancer

because you are
the ends
to all the means i wish to take
the static
and the shock 
stays piercing through all my tv screens
it is 
the sum 
the touch 
the very wake i hold 
of when the heart pumps blood and flutters out to shake, so shake i will

so i'll shake down on your command
ask me to sing, i'll sing it all
hang my head there as i stand
mumbling and facing towards the wall

skin

TwoSeat

UP (top)

at the end you decide

Talk

Remix of Awaken from Damien Escobar and Trade it for the Night by HAEVN.
Enjoy !

Awaken x Trade it for the Night - PEPITO REMIX

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see through

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