Step into a hauntingly beautiful and deeply personal sonic landscape, crafted especially for anyone who has ever felt the debilitating weight of chronic illness. This powerful and emotional ballad, reminiscent of the iconic style of Evanescence, delves into the darkest corners of the human experience, where the lines between physical and emotional pain are blurred. With poignant lyrics and soaring vocals, the song paints a vivid picture of the struggle to maintain one's sense of identity and self amidst the fragility and suffering that threatens to consume them. It's a raw, honest, and ultimately uplifting anthem for anyone who has ever felt lost, alone, or broken, and a testament to the enduring power of the human spirit.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Shadows crawl beneath my skin
Burning fever from within
Pale reflections of my pain
Breaking down, losing my frame

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Verse 2]
Whispers echo through my veins
Weakness trembles, breaks my chains
Fragile moments slip away
Fighting phantoms day by day

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Bridge]
Who am I beneath this storm?
Fading from my normal form
Healing seems so far away
Will I find myself today?

[Verse 3]
Silent screams behind closed eyes
Body crumbling, spirit tries
Fragments of my former self
Scattered like forgotten wealth

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Outro]
Fever's embrace...
Fever's embrace...

Fever's embrace...
Fever's embrace...

Thank you to the incredible @DJShAnkAri for remixing this track. ❤️ 
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Sickness Takes Me

Immerse yourself in a world where darkness and light entwine, and the boundaries between reality and dreams are blurred. This song is a sonic exploration of the human experience, where the turmoil and chaos of life are transformed into a celebration of hope and euphoria. With its lush, vivid imagery and soaring melodies, this track will transport you to a realm where the haunted and the beautiful coexist, and the silence is filled with the promise of joy and liberation.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Lost in the whispers of a silent dream
Shadows flicker in this jubilant gleam
Light breaks in patterns of ecstatic flow
Happiness in every darkened shadow 

[Chorus]
Feel the heartbeat of this wild parade
Joy found in every twilight cascade
Laughing loud across these haunted eves
We find our bliss in silent reprieves 

[Verse 2]
Serenade of stars piercing the black night
Chasing the echo of forgotten light
In every scream there's a song of hope
Happiness tied in a crimson rope 

[Chorus]
Feel the heartbeat of this wild parade
Joy found in every twilight cascade
Laughing loud across these haunted eves
We find our bliss in silent reprieves 

[Bridge]
Ethereal dance in the ghostly rain
Lost in sheer euphoria’s refrain
In ruins we build our kingdoms high
Happiness within the spectral sky 

[Verse 3]
Voices carry through the endless void
Bound by the threads of which dreams are deployed
Twisting in the storm of pure delight
Embraced by echoes in luminous night


Eternal Bliss

This song is a haunting and emotional ballad that delves into the darkest corners of the human experience, exploring the theme of mortality and the pain of letting go. With its soaring vocals and poignant lyrics, the song takes the listener on a heart-wrenching journey of sorrow, desperation, and ultimately, acceptance, as it confronts the inevitability of death and the longing for peace.

The song's atmospheric soundscapes and haunting melodies evoke a sense of eerie calm, perfectly capturing the fragile emotions and intense vulnerability that come with facing one's own mortality. As the lyrics weave a narrative of loss, regret, and resignation, the song builds towards a powerful crescendo, releasing a torrent of emotions that will leave listeners breathless and moved.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Shadows whisper secrets cold
Night descends the tale unfolds
Heartbeats fade the silence calls
From the abyss the darkness falls

[Verse 2]
Echoes scream in voids of black
Longing whispers won't come back
Lost in dreams where phantoms weep
Graves awaken from their sleep

[Chorus]
Embrace my soul take the pain
Falling faster through the rain
Tears like daggers cut so deep
In death's arms I find my sleep

[Verse 3]
Broken wings in moon's pale light
Angels fall from heaven's height
Crimson rivers running free
Binding chains that set me free

[Bridge]
Thunder roars in endless skies
Torn between the truth and lies
Ghosts of sorrows haunt my mind
In death's embrace what shall I find

[Chorus]
Embrace my soul take the pain
Falling faster through the rain
Tears like daggers cut so deep
In death's arms I find my sleep



Death's Embrace

This song is a haunting and introspective ballad that explores the depths of loneliness and isolation. With its soaring vocals and atmospheric soundscapes, it's a powerful and emotional expression of the pain and longing that comes with feeling alone. Inspired by the likes of Evanescence, this song is a cathartic and deeply personal exploration of the human experience.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Open the gate so I can close my eyes now
I broke my bones from bowing to the fire
Free from the hate and endless tribulation
Take off my mask and surrender to your god 

[Verse 2]
Gods are sad
But I'm in the bag
I can't get out
And I can't get back
I'm so lonely
I'm so lonely here
And I can't go
And I can't say no
Expensive price
And I just can't go
I'm so lonely
I'm so lonely here 

[Chorus]
I am holy
That don't mean much to me anymore
I don't know what the fuck I need it for
And I just want to feel all right
I am holy (I am holy)
One room
Only
I am holy (I am holy)
One room
Only 

[Bridge]
Gods are sad
But I'm in the bag
I can't get out
And I can't get back
And I'm so lonely
I'm so lonely here
And I can't go
And I can't say no
Expensive price
And I just can't go 
I'm so lonely 
I'm so lonely here
I'm so lonely here 
So lonely here 

[Verse 3]
Open the gate so I can close my eyes now
I broke my bones from bowing to the fire
Free from the hate and endless tribulation
Take off my mask and surrender to your god 

[Chorus]
I am holy
I don't know what the fuck I need it for
And I just want to feel all right
I am holy
One room
Only
I am holy
One room
Only



One Room

This song is a haunting and emotional exploration of the darker corners of the human experience. On its surface, it's a poignant portrayal of grief and loss, with lyrics that conjure images of a desperate search for a missing piece of one's soul. But as the song delves deeper, it reveals a more intimate and personal struggle - the fragmentation of one's own mind. 

With its soaring vocals and crushing instrumentation, this song is a sonic representation of the turmoil that can ravage the inner world. It's a cry for help, a desperate attempt to hold on to sanity as the darkness closes in. 

And yet, despite its bleak themes, the song remains strangely uplifting - a testament to the human spirit's capacity for resilience and survival. Ultimately, its meaning is left open to interpretation, inviting listeners to project their own experiences and emotions onto its haunting landscape.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
It's getting darker
Darker
Crawling under
Under
It's soaking through me
Through me
Straight into my head 

[Verse 2]
It calls my name
Whispers
But
No
That girl's not her
No agency
Soft murmurs
She might as well be dead 

[Chorus]
Covered in dirt and blood hazy
Trapped in anxiety plagued sea
In my chest, tic-ticking heart bleeds
Nevermore to be seen
Somebody help me 

[Verse 3]
Last time laid eyes sun 
was bright above the sky
And now
My bleeding eyes weep
As her visage strikes the air around her
It turns to dust
That girl isn't here
She's just in our head
And she... 

[Chorus]
Covered in dirt and blood hazy
Trapped in anxiety plagued sea
In my chest, tic-ticking heart bleeds
Nevermore to be seen
Somebody help me 

[Verse 4 X2]
She helped lost souls peering through
Layers of hell into you
And blinking eyes heaven sweet froze
The life from tissue
Now ice cold

Fracture

This song is a haunting and intense exploration of desperation, fear, and vulnerability. With its soaring vocals and crushing instrumentation, it's a powerful expression of the darkest corners of the human experience. 

The lyrics convey a sense of urgency and despair, with the repetition of "We need a miracle," emphasizing the feeling of being at a loss and needing something extraordinary to happen. The song's emotional intensity builds to a crescendo, with the pleas of "Please don't leave me here alone" and "Help me" becoming almost overwhelming. 

Musically, the song blends elements of gothic alternative metal, hard rock, and classical music, with a strong emphasis on haunting piano melodies and driving drum beats. The result is a sonic landscape that's both anthemic and intense, perfect for fans of Evanescence and other similar bands.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
There's nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
We need a miracle
A miracle 

[Verse 2]
We're past salvation by far
We need a miracle
No hope
No hope
No hope
We need a miracle 

[Chorus]
Please
Don't leave me here
Please
Don't leave me here alone 

[Instrumental] 

[Verse 3]
I'm terrified
Please
Don't leave me here alone
We need a miracle 

[Verse 4]
Help me
Please
Please
Don't leave me here alone 

[Instrumental] 

[Verse 4]
We need a miracle 
Help me
Please
Please
Don't leave me here alone




Shattered

Help Me

'Here With the Cats' is a hauntingly beautiful ballad that captures the poignant emotions of longing and separation. This song weaves a tale of waiting for someone you love, and the bittersweet comfort found in the familiar rhythms of nature and the unwavering companionship of our beloved pets.

With its introspective lyrics and soaring melodies, 'Here With the Cats' masterfully conveys the ache of absence, the patience of devotion, and the resilience of the human spirit. It's a powerful exploration of the human experience, one that acknowledges the pain of loneliness while celebrating the beauty of love, loyalty, and the transformative power of pets and music.

As you immerse yourself in this emotional soundscape, you'll find yourself reflecting on the moments of quiet contemplation, the solace of nature's beauty, and the unconditional love of our furry friends. 'Here With the Cats' is more than just a song – it's a poignant reminder that even in the darkest moments, we're never truly alone.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Here
I watch the seasons change too early
We wait
Impatient for no reason
And wait for you

[Verse 2]
Well
It's
Not like you're in a rush for nothing
And it's
No more full of life than living
I'm here for you

[Chorus]
So cannot you see?
I'm waiting for you
While you're there without me
I'm here with the cats

[Verse 3]
And now
Come and lead me up the garden path
And
With your rocks and your flowerwort
I'm waiting here with them

[Verse 4]
When it's
Too late to say goodbye
I know you're
Far away tonight
You're there without me

[Chorus]
So cannot you see?
I'm waiting for you
While you're there without me
I'm here with the cats
Can you not see?
I'm waiting for you
'Cause you're there without me
I'm here with the cats
I'm here with the cats

[Verse 3]
And now
Come and lead me up the garden path
And
With your rocks and your flowerwort
I'm waiting here with them
Yeah

[Verse 4]
When it's
Too late to say goodbye
I know you're
Far away tonight
You're there without me

[Outro]
I'm here with the cats
I'm here with the cats

I'm here with the cats

Here With The Cats

This song delves into the darker corners of the human experience, where the lines between love and despair are blurred. It's a haunting exploration of the doomed desires that consume us, and the fleeting nature of life and relationships. With its eerie imagery and emotional intensity, this song is a journey into the shadows of the human heart.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
When you're smiling
Shadow longer
I fear stranger
All alone 

[Verse 2]
When you're laughing
Children cry
I fear darker
All their smiles 

[Chorus]
Deeper doomed desires
It will never leave my eyes
When you're with me
Eternity will borrow 

[Verse 3]
Lightning crashing
Body still
Silent ears
Death louder 

[Verse 4]
Not the fire
Holding close
I will leave you by the river
Await richer 

[Chorus]
Deeper doomed desires
It will never leave my eyes
When you're with me
Eternity



When You're Smiling

This song delves into the darker corners of the human experience, exploring themes of obsession, revenge, and the toxic cycles of hurt and retaliation. The lyrics weave a narrative of emotional manipulation and control, where the lines between victim and perpetrator are blurred. 

The song's intense and aggressive tone captures the emotional turmoil and conflict that drives the lyrics. It's a raw and unflinching exploration of the darker aspects of human nature, and the devastating consequences that can unfold when we allow ourselves to be consumed by our darkest impulses.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake up
Dead dear
Reborn till we fall
Drag her down
Bring me her soul
Leech mine 

[Pre-Chorus]
How can I release the ropes
How can I beat the most
I can prove it
Take what is left and that's all
Till you're gone and I'm more 

[Chorus]
Revenge
On you
Sweet revenge
On you
(Blood's too sweet)
Sweet revenge
Ooh
How does it taste?
Not the same?
You won't get away
Not the same without you 

[Break]
First set 'em up
You get 'em all
You get again
Take it off and get it back and let's begin
Break the spell (hey!)
Break it again
Break the silence
Break a man 

[Pre-Chorus]
Reborn until we fall (fall)
How can I release the ropes?
How can I beat the most
I can prove it
Take what is left and that's all
Take what is left and that's all
Until you're gone and I'm more 

[Bridge]
(Nothing to do
Friends tell me you're dead
Where can I look for the ghost?)


Sweet Revenge

Lulu Miller is a Peabody Award–winning journalist, co-host of Radiolab, founder of the podcast Terrestrials, and author of the acclaimed book Why Fish Don’t Exist. She joins to discuss her career at the intersection of science, philosophy, and storytelling, inviting us to question how we understand the world and our place within it.

Lulu Miller

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Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'm at my limit of follows and I want to follow back everyone who follows me. Did not know that SoundCloud limits us to following only 2000. 😢













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