holding on (sped up)

frozone (sped up)

labyrinth ft. Red AK (sped up)

all by myself (sped up)

no pain no gain (sped up)

"化け物 (Monster)"


君が語った理想郷
悠然と聞き入り、頷く
一歩一歩踏み切る間もなく
その眼差し濁っていた
あの日々までも、稀有と化けるか
燦々と宿り続ける呪いが滲む

理解されなくともいい、ただ
誤解されたくはない
少しはわかったフリをしてください。
疲れた頭で出せる答えは限りなく頼りなく
下らない

宿っている鼓動 切望
時計の針音が鳴っている
何を得てもゆきづり続く
滾っている衝動 絶望
自然の摂理を燃やしている
何を持って生き永らえる？

誰が唱えた理想郷
傲慢と思い込み、躓く
一歩一歩が重くのしかかる
この眼差し曇っていない
あの夢までも、見れなくなるのか
燦々と輝き続ける願いが残る

理解する気はない、ただ
誤解したくはない
少しもわかったフリは出来ない
疲れた頭で出せる答えは限りなく頼りなく
やるせない

願っている焦燥 競争
あなたの羽音が響いてくる
何を求め痛み誤魔化す？
覚えた蒼茫 暴動
誰かの泣き声が聞こえていた
何を焼いてそれを葬る

沈みゆく、夕陽はもう
明日がない様を伝える
まるで有限と語る
僕の目に映る化け物は
ただ、潜んでいる

翳りゆく、君にはもう
心が無い様に見える
まるで有毒と語る
君の眼に映る化け物が
ただ、一頻りに訴える様は醜くて


Vocal & All Instruments / Lyrics & Music / Mix / Cover Art : Toru Shimizu

化け物 (Monster)_demo

A raw, unfiltered reflection on pain, faith, and survival. Temptations & Tribulations dives deep into the mind of shakeonx, childhood memories, and the battle between hope and hopelessness. shakeonx paints a vivid picture of resilience through hard truths, unanswered prayers, and the weight of life’s lessons making and turning pain into poetry.

Temptations & Tribulations

"Library of False Memories" is an Indie Folk ballad with East Indian fusion, weaving together haunting strings, hypnotic percussion, and a voice that drifts between longing and surrender. Dark and melancholy at its core, the song tells the story of a narrator choosing to live inside imagined lives rather than face the stark clarity of reality. Each verse lingers in a dust-filled library where books hum with the echoes of lives never lived, trading truth for beauty, memory for dream.

Library of False Memories

"Talking to Heaven" was the first Official Single released off my debut EP and is very much the most personal song on the EP. It speaks to struggles we have all faced in our lives....and struggles that had before rededicating myself to my faith and religion. It's such a big part of my life and this song helped me to find my way back....I hope it might help some of you as well.

Talking to Heaven (LIVE Acoustic Version)

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[0:23]
I'm sort of secluded
I'm lost inside my mind
I'm tired of doing shit
And I can't even find the
will
the might
to set things right
I'm stuck under my blanket
doomscrolling at night
[0:35]

[0:44]
I'm stuck under my blanket
doomscrolling at night
[0:47]

[0:48]
You can't help, you entertain
the lifestyle I'm forced to maintain
I'm forced to maintain
You can't help, you entertain
the lifestyle I'm forced to maintain
I'm forced to maintain
[1:10]

[1:12]
I'm seeking dopamine
My sweet temptress 
Distracting, holding me
She's holding me
I'm seeking dopamine
My sweet temptress 
Distracting, holding me
She's holding me
[1:35]

[1:37] 
It just takes a bit of effort
locked inside my house
I won't get any better
I gotta focus on my purpose
The reasons that I'm here today
I've struggled way too much
just to throw it away 
[1:47]

[1:57]
I've struggled way too much
just to throw it away
[1:59]

[2:00]
You can't help, you entertain
this cycle I'm forced to maintain
I'm forced to maintain
You can't help, you entertain
this cycle I'm forced to maintain
I'm forced to maintain
[2:22]

[2:24]
 I'm seeking dopamine
My sweet temptress 
Distracting, holding me
She's holding me
I'm seeking dopamine
My sweet temptress 
Distracting, holding me
She's holding me
[2:47]

[2:48]
I'm sort of secluded
I'm lost inside my mind
I'm tired of doing shit
And I can't even find the
will
the might
to set things right
I'm stuck under my blanket
doomscrolling at night
[2:59]

[3:08]
Again I'm stuck under my blanket
doomscrolling at night
[3:15]
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DOPAFEIN (prod. DONTSAYGOODBYE) [demo]

Julia has been singing and performing pretty much since she could walk and talk. From early karaoke performances of Taylor Swift classics (2 years old) to singing the national anthem at professional baseball games, to numerous musicals, plays and showcases Julia has spent the majority of her life on one stage or another. Her voice is a blessing but her hard work and dedication to getting better every day and with every show is what makes us so proud.

Hi, Guys. やあ、みなさん。
I’m Toru, from boredom トヲルです。
Slow and steady, exploring what sparks my interest マイペースに興味のあることに挑戦していきます。

New tracks tagged #INTROSPECTIVE