"Other You"  dives into the struggle of battling your own inner voice the angry, self-destructive side that refuses to let go. With sharp lyricism and heavy emotion, i confront the relentless voice in my head, the “other” version of myself that fuels doubt, anger, and self-criticism. The track flips between moments of chaos and clarity, painting a vivid picture of inner conflict while reaching for growth and peace. Both aggressive and reflective, “Other You” is an unfiltered look at the fight between destructive energy and the pursuit of self-control.

other you

“Silent but Wounded” explores the unspoken pain, hidden scars, and the quiet battles within.
This Deep House track with Darkwave undertones captures the depth of solitude, emotional struggle, and the haunting echo of silence.
Haunting melodies and immersive electronic beats take you on a journey through inner shadows and untold stories. 🌑🖤

Perfect for late-night listening, introspective moods, or anyone drawn to emotional, cinematic electronic music.

Silent but Wounded

“Walls of Silence” is a haunting journey through cold walls, unspoken words, and forgotten memories.
This track blends deep electronic textures with emotional vocals, creating a cinematic soundscape of solitude and inner struggle.
Perfect for late-night introspection, dark rooms, and moments of quiet reflection. 🌑🖤

Walls of Silence

[Verse 1]
Somebody else to be (oh)
Been down another road, yeah, for so long (yeah)
Another road, yeah, even potholes
In my life it seems these days
Bills, work, yeah — school is not enough
So many things that got me on my own
Yeah, I'm living now these lives
But I tell you what, I'm in doubt today
Better life than I ever knew, yeah, I live now

See everybody around me happy
Why am I so miserable?
Yeah, dealt the cards that I was dealt
I've been loved all my life
Now love’s dying inside of me
Trying to find a way to set it all free

[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah, looking at me, yeah, see it now
Yeah, smile on my face but pain’s underground
Yeah, take your time, yeah, you will realize
Now living, yeah, you're living to survive

Looking all the places, yeah,
Things in your mind, yeah, can’t be pleased
So matter of fact, yeah, you got so much beauty inside of you, yeah
Look at the words you say, yeah

[Chorus]
Even though you're crying in the back of your mind
You know the things that you’ve got to see, what’s on your mind
Things you love, things you hate, things you need to face
But you threw it in a box — now you’re lost in space

But the moment you live for, just to live
Yeah, you know I'm dying to live, yeah
Moment to live, yeah, take it, take every moment
Try to find a way — sin and salvation

[Verse 2]
I'm stuck in my own body, yeah, I know
I'm stuck in your own body, feeling your soul
I'm sorry girl but you got to find a way,
Find a way, son, yeah, to live in these days, yeah

Is it your music? Can you write a song?
Can you find a way to talk to other people?
There’s something inside of you, you realize, yeah
Yeah, it's gonna come right through

What’s up Travis D, how you doing there man?
So many times, you know, I'm lost
A moment of space and time, you realize
Yeah, I'm going to see you for you
I can feel your pain inside of you, yes
I feel everybody’s pain, that’s how I write what I write
Watch what I do with that piece that I'm going with it
I feel everybody’s everything
That’s my life, my purpose

[Bridge]
I’m dying to live, not living to die
Finding the truth in every tear I cry
All of these roads, all these scars I bear
I write them down so the world can share

[Chorus – Repeat, strong with harmonies]
Even though you're crying in the back of your mind
You know the things that you’ve got to see, what’s on your mind
Things you love, things you hate, things you need to face
But you threw it in a box — now you’re lost in space

But the moment you live for, just to live
Yeah, you know I'm dying to live, yeah
Moment to live, yeah, take it, take every moment
Try to find a way — sin and salvation




Dying to Live

[Verse 1]
Over and over, over again,
Same rat race you’ve always been in.
Every single time, every single morning,
The bottle calls out — I know now.
One shot, yeah, takes you a little closer,
Some days I question every moment.
Right now I’m sitting on the edge of the cliff,
Just trying to find a way not to jump off.
See, that bottle’s calling my name,
Every single one, every side of them —
I know what it’s gonna do for me.

[Verse 2]
Break those chains and try, yeah,
Many years, monster on my back, yeah.
Trying to get me to drink just one more shot,
I know where I’ve been — been down that road so many times.
I’ve pulled the same bottle, yeah, called my name before,
So many times I’ll give in to the beast within.

[Verse 3]
Times like this, I wish that I could, yeah,
Have a genie and ask him — grant me
One wish, make that bottle disappear from my lips.
Every time though I feel that urge, yeah, come over me,
Yeah, like a hurricane, an urge, and I won’t give up.
Through all the drink, keep hearing that whisper inside of me:
“One sip, as long as you need,” you know,
“Give in to the beast within me.”
I know one shot won’t ever free me, I know.

[Verse 4]
One more — I know that the days are...
There’s moments here in my life I don’t realize, yeah.
Hear the beast inside, yeah, calling for another drink.
Yeah, another shot, yeah — “One more won’t hurt you, man.”
I know, yeah, I’ve talked to him before, yeah,
He’s got a hold on me before, but I know
There’s a way that I can break this hold.

[Verse 5]
Looking at You, I know,
So many times You’ve blessed me though.
You said, “Don’t drink the bottle,” — I know, I should’ve known.

[Verse 6]
How many wants You said to me,
I saw the clouds are sending me.
I’ve seen You say, “Don’t drink that anymore.”

[Verse 7]
I keep on trying the urge to cross,
I know there’s things that I need so much.
But I know this addiction — I’m gonna kick its ass, I know.

[Verse 8]
Time, do You realize that the monster on my back
Got me, yeah, by the balls — maybe even more now.
Trying to find a way to shake him off my back, for
So many years, you know, this monster’s been claiming me, I know.
Taking me down roads that I don’t know,
Now I’m sitting here wondering — where should I go?

[Verse 9]
Times like this, no...
The bottle keeps calling my name, you know.
A whisper in the wind, yeah, I know —
Something I need though.

"The Beast Within"

“The Invisible Wall” is a haunting, emotional ballad about living with ADHD and the silent battle of executive dysfunction. It captures the feeling of wanting to move but being mentally frozen — the gap between intention and action that so many people misunderstand. 
Through raw lyrics and an intimate soundscape, the song gives voice to the frustration, shame, and quiet resilience of trying again when your brain won’t cooperate. It’s not about laziness — it’s about living in a world that wasn’t built for the way your mind works.

#ADHD #executivedysfunction #mentalhealth #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #adhdawareness #adhdlife #adhdmusic #overthinking #focusstruggles #motivation #selfacceptance #emotionalballad #introspective #healingjourney #mentalhealthmatters #invisiblebattle #songaboutadhd #innerstruggle #theinvisiblewall

The Invisible Wall

Cô ấy sống trong một thực tại đầy tổn thương mỗi lần trở về nhà là đối mặt với sự lạm dụng, bị đối xử như một người vô hình. Tình yêu thì mơ hồ, không chắc chắn. Cô không biết mình đang yêu ai, hay có đang được yêu không.
Để thoát khỏi nỗi đau, cô tìm đến những cơn say chất kích thích là lối thoát duy nhất, dù chỉ tạm thời. Nhưng giờ đây, một người mới xuất hiện. Anh ấy dịu dàng, khiến cô cảm thấy như mình có giá trị. Anh trở thành một “cơn say” mới một dạng nghiện khác, ngọt ngào hơn nhưng cũng đầy rối loạn.

English Translation:

She lives in a reality filled with pain every time she comes home, she faces abuse and is treated like she doesn’t matter. Her love life is uncertain, blurry. She doesn’t know who she loves, or if she’s even capable of being loved.
To escape the pain, she turns to getting high it’s her only way out, even if it’s temporary. But now, someone new has entered her life. He’s gentle, kind, and makes her feel seen. He becomes her new high  a sweeter addiction, but one that brings its own confusion.


Giữa Hai Cơn Say (Ft. NathalieDo)

"Suicid Brain" dives straight into the mind that’s on the edge.
Dark thoughts, sleepless nights, and the chaos inside your own head.
It’s not glamorizing pain—it’s raw, honest, and real.
A scream from the inside. A reminder: surviving counts, even when everything feels heavy.
Feel it, face it, and know you’re not alone.

Suicide Brain

"Tortured Soul " is a cinematic fusion of Alternative Rock and EDM. The song follows a struggling soul fighting inner pain and nightmares, building toward anthemic, electronic-infused choruses that convey hope and resilience.

Tortured Soul

No Enimes

I will be what some say that I can not be (zhake)

My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

Autistic Adult writing lyrics for songs for healing from PTSD, Domestic Violence, and Coercive Control and seeking Trauma Informed Care For Front Liners. All my songs are FREE, I invite artists to record my songs as long as words not changed and attribution given to AusticZone. Still building this platform so please be patient while I organise things. Bless you

MICCORE is an experimental artist and songwriter blending alternative rock, pop, and indie sounds through digital creation (using Suno and Audacity for the most part). Each song is an emotional journey inspired by my inner world — pushing the edge of what modern music can be.
I'm a published poet, who's been writing for the past 45 years (started as a young child).  Producing the songs I write using both AI and manual sound editing has finally allowed me to share my creativity, emotions, life experiences and memories in sound-form with the world.
https://miccore.bandcamp.com/follow_me

Khám phá âm thanh vượt lên trên biên giới và niềm tin.
Melodic techno hòa cùng cảm xúc nơi ánh sáng và bóng tối giao nhau.
Tạo nên âm nhạc cho tâm hồn con người, không dành cho hệ thống.

English translation: 

Exploring sound beyond borders and beliefs.
Melodic techno meets emotion where unity, light, and darkness collide.
Creating music for the human spirit, not the system.

German/English Translatet
I’m ChillPandaBeats. I’m someone who feels a lot — maybe too much. I draw, I paint, I build things, I make music. For me, it’s all the same language. I see things differently. I hear things differently. I pick up moods, emotions, the stuff people don’t say but carry inside.

I live with ADHD, depression, and that constant restlessness that never really leaves. I’ve been through a lot, and I stayed quiet for too long. You learn fast that if you don’t let what’s inside out, it eats you alive. So I started creating. With my hands, with sound, with whatever I had.

LoFi is my slow breath. My space to process.
Hip-Hop is where I speak clearly. Where I confront. Where I don’t hold back.
I make music because if I don’t, I break.

AI is just a tool for me. It helps me show the images I’ve had in my head for years but couldn’t put on paper the way I wanted to. Everything I do is art — sound, color, shapes, atmosphere. Nothing about it is fake. It’s just another way to make my world visible.

And then there’s Tyler — my panda.
He represents me. The calm and the chaos. The softness and the part that snaps.
Tyler can be quiet and sad — but he can also say:
“Listen. I’m here.”

Tyler wants to be seen. I do too.
I make music and art for the ones who are awake at night because their mind won’t shut up.
For the ones who feel too deeply.
For the quiet fighters.

I’m not perfect. I’m not healed.
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// C H I L L P A N D A B E A T S //

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"This collection is the narrative of a wound that has found a place in the heart of history and human souls, a wound that has passed through dark forests and heavy silences and has been formed in the form of sound.
Each piece is a silent cry and a frank confession, of the pains that were not seen, the tears that were suppressed, and the hope that is still alive with all the wounds.


In music and in life, I seek honesty — not noise. Silence speaks the truth words often hide.

I don’t make music for approval; I make it to breathe, to heal, to be.

New tracks tagged #InnerStruggle