I Miss Her

second finished song. still no idea what i'm doing, i just play with fl until things sound good to me.

ty to 5head for producing such an amazing beat that i could really enjoy writing to.

lyrics:
i'm so lost in the void in the void
they cant rip me from the background noise
i can't seem to make a choice

look ahead to the abyss 
this is where i live 
every single person that i've met here on this earth
not a single one i can help with all my worth
all i do is walk and talk i lose them on this ground 
falling into the gutter rats running all around
hurting people left and right's a specialty by now
i swore to protect and yet i behead all these feelings that they hold towards my soul
digging up what's left 
it's not much but flesh and bone
emotions gone and in place i'm drawn
to the cave 
i'm a gutter dweller 
living underground 
fucking leave me alone 
i'm just an echoing sound
worthless piece of shit i was put here just to drown
blood from my eyes 
welcome to demise
hell on earth
worthless fucking birth
take me in my sleep and feed my body to the crows
the blackened deadness of my body reaches to my toes

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

burning in my chest
and aching in my brain
the clock on my dresser counts down time till i'm insane
i don't want to think no more i'd rather take the blame
lately life just eats at me in this weird kinda pain
i scan the tree line in search of what is tearing out my heart 
skin walkers roaming on this ranch of cerebral parch
cordially they tear me limb from limb 
i don't know bout you but this is looking kinda grim 

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

in my sleep i hear you calling out my name
the nightmares take me to this special place
darkness encroaches creating never ending flames
this reality is choking me no fun and games
all this that i speak of is really just a metaphor 
i do all this shit to myself i'm not a pity whore
i should've known this outcome you have nothing to forgive me for
screaming to the clouds god just help me i am wrecked and sore
voices from above crashing down
face what you have done right here and now
this is the path you walk from here on out
my primitive brain devolves and removes my crown

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

loss (5head)

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numb the pressure (p. doublemydose & hxrxkiller)

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Retribution- the act of taking revenge

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Retribution

Moon

track 3, starting to play more with adlibs and backup vocals
ty heydium for the prod track

lyrics:

i look beyond this frail place
isolated out here by deep space 
the earth is ravaged by our kind 
yet still we don't really seem to mind
i can't seem to shake the thoughts in my head
lately all i can hold is fearful dread 
i awake to screaming neural bots 
and dreams that never seem to stop
these dreams they aren't the kind i like
or those that most people see at night 
they dance around inside my brain 
and ravage me till i'm numb to pain

corruption lays the foundation of what is yet to come
lately when i wake up i can hear the approaching drum

would it really be that bad 
if the rapture came upon this land 
god takes us by our souls 
and leaves behind these burning holes
these pits we call our valuables 
that we think makes us feel full
i write this song in a sober place 
about terrors daily that i face

i wake up
in a city that never sleeps
sirens by my feet 
and explosive negativity 
they summon all this energy 
no focus on the entropy 
just on inclusivity 
but it's really not that deep
just be urself in peace (peace is never free)
i'll lay here in a rot (in a rotting world scheme)
but my focus never drops
and my goals remain the same
i still struggle through the pain 
even good men 
they stray away
i await the day

would it really be that bad 
if the rapture came upon this land 
god takes us by our souls 
and leaves behind these burning holes
these pits we call our valuables 
that we think makes us feel full
i write this song in a sober place 
about terrors daily that i face

late night thoughts (heydium)

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what if i made u a promise 
to always be faithful and always be honest
would u have matched me and would u have meant it
i know when u lying girl don't even try it
i take agreement from out of the silence
i hope that u know just how serious im about it
if i should die here im haunting the grounds
and if i should die here im taking you off it

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