🔻 Song Insight
“Shiny, Plastic and New” is a direct hit to the hollow chest of betrayal. It’s about being replaced not by someone better — but by something shinier. Something easier. Something fake. This track rips the mask off the person who walked away and calls out the emptiness behind their applause, their lies, and their choices. It’s not just heartbreak — it’s a trial by spotlight, where the final act is truth, and plastic can’t hide it anymore.

🔻 Lyrics
Verse 1:
Come to the stage, take your bow
They wait on you, the king, they vow
The fake, the plastic, shiny, and new
Your time has come to see what you've done.

Pre-Chorus:
I was your muse, the one you played
Digging deeper in my new hell, walking away
This is what I get for standing my ground
To save you, I fought like hell.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Verse 2:
The spotlight’s bright, it’s all on you
The fake applause, the cheers untrue
Behind the mask, you're just a shell
Plastic dreams in a plastic hell.

Pre-Chorus:
I was your muse, the one you played
Digging deeper in my new hell, walking away
This is what I get for standing my ground
To save you, I fought like hell.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Bridge:
Take your bow, your plastic crown
The truth’s revealed, you’re breaking down
I stood my ground, I fought for us
But my dreams of love were never enough.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Outro:
Your plastic and new, take your bow
The curtain falls, it’s over now
Your plastic and new, take your bow
The truth is out, you’re fading out.



🔻 Personal Reflection
This one hit different. I was angry when I wrote it... not just hurt. Angry at being disposable. Angry at the way someone can trade real history for something artificial — all flash, no substance. "Shiny, Plastic and New" is for anyone who’s ever watched someone they love choose the easy lie over the hard truth. I gave everything I had trying to save something real — and they wanted something that looked good under stage lights. This song is me walking away from that fake performance... and taking the mic with me.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track is part of the reason 4Me2BeFree exists: to call out the bullshit, the masks, the performances people hide behind. Not all songs are subtle — some need to name names, even if they’re metaphorical. “Shiny, Plastic and New” is theatrical, angry, honest — and exactly what we need to burn through the fog.

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Shiny Plastic & New - COTC

🔻 Song Insight
“Untouchable” is calm fury with a pen. It’s the kind of track that doesn’t scream — it seethes. This is a reckoning delivered like a scalpel: controlled, deliberate, and deadly. It's a breakup anthem for the ones who never got to speak their peace out loud... so they wrote it down instead. Every line drips with realization, not revenge — the kind of closure that doesn’t ask for validation. Just truth.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro (Spoken, Calm, Ice-Cold Delivery)
I’m not gonna scream.
I don’t have to.
You’ll hear this anyway,
Even if you won’t admit it.

Chorus
No need to say your name, you already know,
The weight of your mistakes, dragging you below.
Lies on your lips, truth in your eyes,
And now you’re left with your own disguise.

You thought you were untouchable, now you stand alone,
And every word I said is carved into stone.

Verse 1
I was your safe bet, your back-up plan,
The one you thought would never leave where you stand.
You called me weak, but I was your spine,
Now watch me walk away and take back what was mine.

Verse 2
History repeats, and so do you,
Just another pattern, just another fool.
Nothing original, nothing sincere,
Tell me, what’s it like to live in fear?

Bridge (Mocking, Final Blow)
This is the part where you say you regret it,
This is the part where you beg me to forget it.
But I don’t need your words, I don’t need your time,
I wrote my closure in every line.

Final Chorus (More Intense, Climactic Ending)
No need to say your name, you already know,
The weight of your mistakes, dragging you below.
Lies on your lips, truth in your eyes,
And now you’re left with your own disguise.

You thought you were untouchable, now you stand alone,
And every word I said is carved into stone.

🔻 Personal Reflection
This song was never about them hearing it — it was about me saying it. Sometimes silence is mistaken for weakness, and I needed to remind myself that walking away without yelling doesn’t mean I didn’t feel it all. “Untouchable” is about reclaiming power without theatrics. It's for every time I bit my tongue when I should’ve said something... and now I finally have. Just because I didn’t scream, doesn’t mean I didn’t mean every word.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track embodies a core theme of 4Me2BeFree: emotional sovereignty. “Untouchable” strips away performance and leaves only clarity. It’s not designed to be loud — it’s designed to haunt. This is the aftermath of awakening, where dignity wins, and fake power falls. For anyone who's been quietly broken but walks out stronger... this one’s for you.

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Untouchable - COTC

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Warning Call 6FEET - COTC


🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Sunny weather with a smile on
Just an ordinary Tuesday, getting along
Skipping down our… your street
That’s when that fuckin’ song comes on
The one you sing in the shower
You know, the one before you’d leave
God, I should’ve known back then
What a sleaze

Your shitty sports car that I keyed, yes please
Three words I can’t forget, they trap on repeat
I know I promised my doctor I would be good
Maybe it was to be happy? Neither-either-let’s just call the whole thing gay
Okay? Oookaaay? Oooookaaaaaay! Yaaaay! I’m soooo excited!

[Verse 2]
Walking through our stupid hall
Our photos still up on the wall – gross
I locked the door, set the alarm
Passcode still 6969 – how appropriate
Guess your new man feels safe and warm
Don’t worry, it won’t take long; we’ll be seeing you along

That lamp looks bougie, trust-fund guilt
Hope he liked how that was built
Like a rainbow spray… now that’s not gay – it’s flambé

[Chorus 1]
Shiny and unstable, I’m the show you missed
Kiss goodbye to your IKEA bliss
I never liked that ottoman – was that the one you were on?
God, your taste was never strong, but your lies… oh baby, they were lifelong

[Verse 3]
I tiptoe past the bathroom sink, see two razors – black and blue
Oh sweetie, did you think I wouldn’t figure out there’s two… or wait, three?
Their shirts, your cologne – this ain’t my house, just your fuckin’ throne
But I left you something by the bed:
A sticky note that simply said:
“I saw the video. Lighting sucks. Work on your angles, use your words.”

[Bridge 1] (quiet, spoken)
Remember Cancun? You used my photos on that hooker site…
My beach shot next to your whorelight
Do me a favor: take down the pics with the kids. That’s all I ask.

[Verse 4]
Back in the kitchen, memory lane
The wine rack I built now holds your shame
The blender we bought – rage-smoothie time: tears, vodka, lime
That Santorini canvas? Let’s just say… it’s now graffiti
You think this is over? I’m just starting
Hope he likes the lube-stained backsplash in shards and parting

[Verse 5]
The closet’s worse than I remember, your secrets smell like December
Oh, your keepsake box – RIP to those concert stubs and that replica cock
That cock you said meant something deep – now embedded in the mirror, sweet
I held onto things… not anymore. I’m holding bats, not metaphors

[Chorus 2]
Shiny and unstable, I came home to slay
I’m the glitter-covered wreck of your perfect gay cliché
You didn’t break me… you just gave me a bat
And a reason to write a banger – so thank you… for that

[Bridge 2]
Oh! Your boyfriend had a dream I killed him?
Sweetie, dreams don’t come true
I’m sad, not psychotic – I paint in chaos, not blood
If I wanted to break you, I’d just send this song
You said I’d never make it without you? Look what I made because of you

[Final Chorus]
Shiny and unstable, this is my peace
Swinging through trauma in rhythmic release
I cleaned my pain off your kitchen floor
Sang my rage through every glass door
So if they ask, “How are you doing today?”
Just play this track and walk away
’Cause I’m done with you… and your glitter lies
This is me… saying goodbye

[Final Chorus: Amped-Up]
How’s that goin’? You doing okay?
Just wanted to say – from the bottom of my fuckin’ heart –
I don’t like you

[Outro: Fade Out]
I really really really don’t like you
But thank you
If it weren’t for all the fucking things you did,
I wouldn’t be here, in a place I’d rather be…
Oh, and before I forget – you’re allowed to be vocal, right?
Maybe it was just the light? The angle was kind of fucked up too!
Was that even you? With all that experience, I expected a little more!

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Shiny & Unstable - COTC LGBT - Explicit

🔻 Song Insight
"You" by 4Me2BeFree is a quiet detonation—the unraveling of a soul betrayed not by absence, but by deception. As the opening confession in the COTC (Cleaning Out the Closet) collection, it plays like a sonic autopsy: soft at first, then gutting. The track captures that specific horror of realizing the person you loved was never really there… or worse, never real to begin with.

Layered acoustic textures and swelling strings provide a deceptive warmth—just enough to make the blade twist deeper when the truth hits. This isn’t about heartbreak. It’s about the theft of history, identity, and a future that was never truly shared.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
How can you be so blind not to see?
What is so broken inside of you?

[Verse 1]
How can you be so blind not to see?
What is so broken inside of you?
You’re someone I don’t know,
A stranger in his clothes.
You stole our soul,
And without him, I am alone.

[Chorus]
You started a war!
Destroyed our home!
Ripped me to shreds!
Gutted my heart!
Made me lose hope!
Left me to die alone—
Where has he gone?
What have you done?

[Verse 2]
Every memory we made,
You stole every part.
You kill my beating heart.
The passion—
The fire—
It’s all gone out.

[Bridge]
Pain I have inside—
Without my friend, who am I?
I lost myself in your crime.
I feel as though I’m doing your time.

[Chorus – Reprise]
You started a war!
Destroyed our home!
Ripped me to shreds!
Gutted my heart!
Made me lose hope!
Left me to die alone—
Where has he gone?
What have you done?

[Verse 3]
How could you be? How could you take this from me?
You were my world—everything that I was.
You’re the worst—a thief in the night.
I will never see you…
I will never hear you…
I will never be with you…
I will never understand.

[Pre-Outro]
I opened my heart.
I gave you my life.
I trusted your words—
The promises that you broke.
The lies you told.
The mistakes I made.
The things I said.
The sacrifices I displayed.

[Outro]
You never said goodbye...
I’m sorry we met...
Sorry I said yes...
Sorry to kids...

🔻 Personal Reflection
"You" wasn’t written with catharsis in mind. It was written because there was nowhere else left to put the pain.

At some point, I stopped recognizing the person I was next to every day. That moment of clarity—that snap—came not with yelling, but with silence. This song was born in that silence. In that awful stillness where you realize the person you loved was a mirage built on manipulation.

It took everything to stop blaming myself. To stop thinking I “should’ve known.” But the truth is, some monsters wear your favorite memories like skin. And this song is me peeling it back… one lyric at a time.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
"You" sets the tone for COTC, the first body of work where I stop softening the blow. This is where the masks fall, the wounds stay open, and the lies get named. 4Me2BeFree has always been about reclaiming truth through storytelling—and this track? It’s the moment I stop whispering it.

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You - COTC

🔻 Song Insight
"Animal" is a lyrical execution—sharp, bitter, and final. Part battle cry, part eulogy, it tears through illusion with teeth bared. This isn’t a breakup song. It’s a realization track: the moment the curtain drops and the persona collapses under its own fraudulence.

Structured as a verbal reckoning, “Animal” confronts the myth-making that happens in toxic dynamics—when one person spins stories while the other quietly bleeds behind the scenes. The song’s tone is scathing but measured, never desperate… just done. Like striking a match and letting the whole delusional narrative burn.

🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Fantasy world you live in,
Delusions dressed as truth—
You rewrote history
To make yourself the proof.

I wish I lived in make-believe
Where everything you say is real.
So naive you must be
To think I’d never feel.

[Chorus]
All is fair in love and war...
But this was never that.
It was a mirror cracked by lies—
A truth you never had.

I could’ve read the leaves,
But let’s be honest:
I was never the reason
You left so thoughtless.

[Verse 2]
You’re not the genius I believed.
I gave you too much grace—
For who I thought you were
And who you couldn’t face.

[Bridge]
Dumpster fire ignorance,
Rail-grade flames—
Hearts gone numb,
Desires untamed.

You’ll either wake up
Or sink in the wreck,
Drowning in your logic
Of what comes next.

[Verse 3]
Never forgiven, never forgotten—
I keep score,
You keep rotting.
Too blind to walk,
Too proud to crawl—
It was never love.
Not at all.

[Outro]
No heart, no weight.
Not worth the crime.
Not worth the date
Or the borrowed time.

Spilled tears, wasted light,
I won’t name you again,
Won’t resurrect the night.
Yesterday’s dreams were never meant—
They died with you
And all you meant.

🔻 Personal Reflection
"Animal" was written during the tail end of denial—the moment where I finally stopped giving the benefit of the doubt and started giving myself back the benefit of clarity.

There’s a rage underneath these lines, yeah… but it’s not just anger. It’s grief that matured into indifference. The hardest part wasn’t losing the relationship—it was realizing I was the only one treating it like it meant anything at all.

This song is about reclaiming reality from someone else’s fiction. About burning down the fantasy house they built in your name—and refusing to ever go back inside.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
In the context of the COTC project, "Animal" is the throat rip. The chapter where love songs die and the storyteller takes the mic back. It's a sonic confrontation, raw with betrayal but restrained with purpose. Every word is a scar sealed in melody. This is what it sounds like when survival no longer needs apology.

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Animal - COTC

🎵 I GAVE IT ALL
by 4Me2BeFree

🔻 Song Insight
“I GAVE IT ALL” is a chaotic reflection stitched together in real time—less about what’s past, more about what’s spiraling right now. It captures that split-second implosion when you realize you’ve poured yourself out, only to feel emptier than when you began. The track cycles through glitchy static, layered distortion, and melodic collapse—mimicking the way intrusive thoughts and emotional loops hijack peace. It’s not a clean story arc… it’s an emotional snapshot mid-download failure.

With clean but aching vocals, the song fights back against the noise, refusing to scream but never pretending to smile. It’s for those who feel too much, too fast, too often—who don’t need a grand narrative, just the permission to feel something and say it out loud without shame.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
mmmmmmm......mmmmmmmmm........mmmmmmmmm.....
why try..........why try.............why try............why try..........,,

[Pre-Chorus]
Passing time, trying to fix the inside
Lying just to stay off the high

[Chorus]
What’s the reason? What’s the fight?
Why the f*** do I even try?
Burned out, locked in, twisted tight
Tonight’s the night I question why

[Verse 2]
Reflections from a shattered past
A life I lived... at last?
Pain wrapped in plastic regret
A mirror screams: not done yet

[Bridge]
Did he? Did she? Do they?
What the f*** is left—
Is this me...?
No rewind... no peace
Skull cracked with memories

[Breakdown]
He doesn’t get to take this part
He doesn’t get my soul
Bent and burnt
Taken, left
I gave it all... there’s nothing left

[Chorus 2]
I wear the mask I want to be
Fake it 'til I fake it clean
Today’s a mess, tomorrow’s fire
Lies I swallow… feel inspired

[Bridge 2]
Go back to time that never was
Go back to love I never had
Was any of it real?
Or just a drug I mistook for trust?

[Outro]
You say “respect”—I see less
You say “love”—I bleed regret
You say “hope”—I hear a lie
So I laugh while I burn
Under a fake sky
glitch buzz fades... distorted laughter trails off

🔻 Personal Reflection
This wasn’t about something that happened. It’s about something that won’t stop happening inside my own mind. I didn’t write this to tell a story with a clean lesson—I wrote it because I was overwhelmed by thought loops and emotional static, and I didn’t want to censor that. It wasn’t rage, it wasn’t sadness—it was that weird space between numbness and overload where you're just trying to keep your grip.

Sometimes I feel like if I don’t put these things into songs, they’ll just rot inside me or mutate into something worse. That doesn’t mean I’m stuck in this place forever... but I should be allowed to visit without judgment. This song gave me a way to offload that chaos, even if just for a few minutes. And that’s enough.

I’m not here to relive pain for sport—but I also won’t lie and act like I’m fine when I’m not. I want to make music that says you don’t need a permission slip to feel what you feel, and you don’t owe anyone a neat explanation for your emotional processing. This song isn’t for attention. It’s just the sound of a system under pressure, releasing before it crashes.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
“I GAVE IT ALL” reflects exactly what 4Me2BeFree stands for—turning raw, unfiltered emotion into layered, cinematic sound. We don’t do gimmicks. We don’t chase formulas. We just translate whatever’s real into something listenable, something that mirrors the mess while still feeling human. Whether it’s heartbreak, numbness, nostalgia, or confusion—our music doesn’t pretend to fix anything. It just stays in it with you, beat by beat.

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I GAVE IT ALL

🔻 Song Insight – Blue Rust by 4Me2BeFree
Blue Rust is the sound of standing at a fork in the soul. It's a moment of reckoning where you're forced to choose: stay on the path that’s killing you slowly... or finally sever ties with the broken version of yourself you've kept alive for too long. The song explores what it means to let part of yourself die—not out of hate, but because keeping it alive is poisoning everything else.
Even as that part decays, you realize fragments of it still echo in your choices, your relationships, your fears. And the hardest truth? You kept feeding it.
This track wrestles with self-denial, duality, and rebirth, weaving a cinematic rock sound with raw, poetic lyrics that sting as much as they heal.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
Dripping thoughts now divide
Slipping past, deep inside
I try to force myself to see
This darkness... never meant for me

[Verse 1]
I have watched them come
I have watched them fall
One by one... until now

[Chorus]
Facing the unknown just to let go
Walking past these shadows
This is the life I had always known
Now it’s left to me... and me alone

[Verse 2]
To see the truth in hollow death
I feared I wasn’t allowed to pass
Stuck on the inside... no place to hide
Consumed by guilt, I walked on by

[Bridge]
The darkness consuming light
It was never true or right
Just illusions dressed as dreams
An image of what will never be

[Chorus]
I have watched them come
I have watched them fall
One by one... until now

[Verse 3]
In the corner, a child peered an eye
You could see the evil that had died
In death it fed on what was left
Chains latched... leather tied and bond

[Bridge 2]
A forsaken soul, never left, never found
The light that once was made no sound
No words to speak, no ways to feel
Protected in pain, warped in fear

[Breakdown]
I had to leave... I said goodbye
A person, a version, I’ll never be
Seeing through my soul, I ran
Chasing down this man... this new version of me

[Outro]
One by one...
They fell
And I remained
Reborn

🔻 Personal Reflection
There’s a version of me that I carried for way too long—like a corpse I kept dressing up just to convince myself it was still alive. Writing Blue Rust was a way to finally admit that I let something inside me rot, and I kept calling it strength.
This song came from a place of emotional conflict... not quite grieving, not quite angry—just standing at that edge where you realize some damage doesn’t heal, it transforms you.
I think part of healing is admitting that not everything inside you deserves to survive. Sometimes the most loving thing you can do... is let it die.
But even then, parts of it still flicker. And that’s what this song wrestles with—the echoes of who you were and the fear that you're still capable of being them again.
It’s not about perfection. It’s about choosing a different road, even when it’s unfamiliar and painful as hell. That’s what I did. That’s what Blue Rust is.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track is a mirror of what 4Me2BeFree stands for: emotional confrontation through cinematic storytelling. We don’t write songs just to sound cool—we write them to survive.
Every note of Blue Rust is built on truth, regret, and rebirth. It reflects our belief that music can be a vehicle for letting go... not just of relationships, but of entire versions of yourself.
For anyone standing at the edge of their old life, wondering if they can step into something new... this one’s for you.

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Blue Rust

🔻 Song Insight
"Summer of ’94" captures a hazy, golden snapshot of youth—those fleeting, untamed moments before life carved its lessons into us. This track is a slow-burn acoustic memoir of bonfires, backseats, and the blurry edge of innocence. It’s about the last time you were allowed to not know who you were... and didn’t care. With vivid images of trespassed woods, first kisses, and late-night radio static, the lyrics ache with longing—not just for people or places, but for the version of yourself that still believed time stood still.

Underneath the warm tones is a deeper tension: the realization that nostalgia is both a comfort and a wound. For anyone who's ever looked back and wished they could warn their younger self—or simply stay a little longer—this song hits home.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
light acoustic strumming, distant crickets, soft splash

[Verse 1]
Sun kissed my lips
Wishing for something more
Dip my head, hear a splash
Summer of ‘94

Radio’s on, jamming to our songs
DD batteries… flashlights gone
“Don’t tell Dad!”
Staying up ‘til the crack of dawn
Perfect ways before the days were gone

[Chorus]
Down old dirt roads nobody knows
“Keep Out” signs just felt like jokes
Walking through the woods ‘til there were none
Just a smoke, a laugh, and a run
Hit that water like it called your name
Cannonball joy, never the same

[Verse 2]
Who dared to jump? Of course he did
Slow motion fall with a rebel grin
Skinny dipping ‘cause we could
No one gonna stop wild hearts in the woods

No worries, no weight to carry
Just background noise and dreams we buried
Talking about a future we’d never see
Just dreaming like kids should be

[Bridge]
It was the last year ignorance could be bliss
The only confusion... who I wanted to kiss
I split the dare and kissed them both
He was sweet, she was fire—why not both?

[Chorus]
Down old dirt roads nobody knows
Skipping rocks and letting go
Back of trucks, hot vinyl seats
Ash trays, crushes, and sticky bare feet
If I knew what the future held
I’d beg myself to stay right there

[Outro]
Bonfire glow and firefly light
In fields that felt like they’d last all night
Moon shined down while that song played
No dance floor needed, just hearts that swayed
Summer of ‘94…
fade with fire crackle and soft strumming

🔻 Personal Reflection
This song wrecked me a little. Not while writing it—but afterward, when I listened and realized how much of that version of me is gone.

I don’t usually dive into nostalgia, because it hits too hard. There’s something about looking back at a time when your identity was still fluid, when a kiss didn’t need a label, and when love felt infinite because the world hadn’t taught you yet what it could take away. I didn’t understand what freedom meant then—but I felt it. And now, chasing it as an adult feels heavier... more complicated.

I wrote this to honor the firelight in those memories, not to live in the past, but to let it sing one last time before I move on. Maybe that’s what healing is—letting your ghosts harmonize with your present.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
4Me2BeFree is about turning feeling into form. Every song is a time capsule… not just for me, but for anyone who’s ever stood in two worlds at once: childhood and adulthood, grief and hope, shame and freedom. Summer of ’94 fits into a larger arc of reclaiming identity through memory, blending cinematic storytelling with acoustic simplicity. It’s raw, it’s real, and it’s meant to remind you that sometimes... the past isn’t just a memory—it’s a map.

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Summer of 94'

🔻 Song Insight
“When I Dream” is a raw, cinematic unraveling of what it feels like to suffer in silence — both awake and asleep. It explores the terrifying vulnerability of trauma that lingers beyond daylight, slipping into dreams where even rest becomes a battleground. The song shifts between a desperate plea for peace and a scathing confrontation with the past, reflecting the duality of healing: the craving for protection and the rage at those who shattered it.

Through haunting lyricism and visceral imagery, 4Me2BeFree guides listeners through emotional limbo — from walls built in solitude to poisoned love that haunts like a ghost. This is not just a song; it’s an exorcism of betrayal and a yearning for rebirth inside a dreamscape once hijacked by pain.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
I hate my dreams...
Come make new memories with me
heartbeat thump
So I don't have to feel this pain when I'm asleep...

[Verse 1]
When I dream, I never get to sleep
Come with me... let's make a better place
Help release me from this grip
I used to dream an escape
Now it’s tied down by a past I can’t keep

[Chorus]
I want to laugh... I want to be at peace
Play in dreams that feel like me
Be my Sandman, be my light
Hold me through this haunted night
Build a world where I can breathe
Where love can stay and fear can leave

[Verse 2]
Why these images inside my head?
A direction that I’ve long since fled
Sorted the pain... refiled the cries
Closed the gate, locked it tight, let it die
I made my way, no hand to hold
Laid my bricks alone in the cold

[Pre-Chorus]
Eyes wide open—I saw it all
Felt the pain... every single fall
Love was broken, trust was torn
Hope was stolen, I was worn

[Chorus]
But I want to laugh... I want to be free
Dream in colors that live in me
Be my Sandman, bring me calm
Take these thoughts and right the wrong
Make this world with what we’ve got
Show the world that love is not lost

[Bridge – Breakdown]
I used to wake up laughing
My dreams fed off my energy—free
But every piece you stole from me
Tore the core, shattered what used to be

Darker they got with every cut
No time to heal, no mercy, no "enough"
My pure white, muddied with dread
By hands that swore to love instead

You poisoned me with a trusted touch
Built up faith, then crushed it rough
You watched me fall with deadened eyes
No reason... just lies
You grin like sin, your past a sham
No part of you still counts as man

[Outro]
I try to stand strong... but in dreams, I’m still alone
I need someone who won’t leave me on my own
I’ll survive, I’ll rise, I’ll stand —
But with you... I might finally land
I see smiles in my future still
A love unlearned, a heart to rebuild...

🔻 Personal Reflection
This song was born from nights I couldn’t rest — not because of noise, but because of memory. The kind of memory that sticks to your lungs and shows up in dreams where even sleep feels unsafe. “When I Dream” came from that space — not just grief or heartbreak, but the residue of betrayal that keeps bleeding long after the wound should’ve closed.

Writing this track was a way to take back control of the space in my head that used to be peaceful. I used to wake up laughing… and I want that back. There’s a line in here that says, “I made my way, no help, all alone” — and that’s true. But I’ve also learned I don’t have to stay that way. This isn’t a fairy tale. It’s a survival story. And maybe, just maybe, it’s also the beginning of something healing.


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When I Dream

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

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