This song is insight to the experience of being in psychosis.
It's always a rollercoaster and is never one thing. 
I think one of the most difficult things about going through it
is being unable to share it with anybody. So here's my attempt
at sharing.


a beautiful mind

🖤 THE DEFINITION OF MY LIFE – MAC 5IVE 🖤

A raw, unfiltered dive into the battles I fight every day — depression, heartbreak, isolation, and the search for peace. This track speaks for everyone who ever felt like they were drowning in silence, tryna hold on. If you've ever felt lost, distant, numb, or broken... this one's for you.

🕊️ "We ain't alone... we battle these demons, but there's always an answer behind."

This is the definition of my life — real pain, real healing, and real truth.

Produced with emotion. Written from the soul.
#MAC5IVEForever

🎧 Listen. Feel. Share if it hits.
🔥 Comment how it made you feel


THE DEFINITION OF MY LIFE

Take a trip. AI artwork, but the beat is all me. I mean I sampled a few songs, but I don't think it's the same. lol.

Chet Faker

Influenced
Written by Cindy L. Otis and Sarah Darer Littman
Narrated by Ali Stroker and Nora Hunter, with Rebecca Soler

Tenth grade isn't going according to plan for Lainey. Her twin brother moved across the country to live with their dad and stepmom, leaving Lainey -- and her anxiety -- behind. And Lainey's starting to realize that maybe most of her friends were really her brother's friends. Thank god for Bliss.

 

Bliss is navigating her own tough sophomore year, determined to find her place. But no matter what's going on in her life, Bliss is really good about being there for Lainey. She's confident and fearless, all that Lainey wishes she could be. It seems like Bliss is getting everything she's ever wanted, including a new boyfriend and becoming the first wheelchair user to land a lead role in the school production.

 

What no one knows is that Bliss is struggling. At school it feels like everyone is always watching her, and at home, she's overwhelmed by her parents' expectations. When things get worse for Bliss, Lainey stops hearing from her completely. Panicked that something awful has happened, Lainey rushes to find out what's going on. But when Lainey arrives at Bliss's apartment, nothing is what it seems, and everything Lainey thought she knew about her friend is a lie...

Print Edition Published by Scholastic Press. An Imprint of Scholastic Inc. Text Copyright 2025 by Sarah Darer Littman & Cindy L. Otis. Production Copyright 2025 by Scholastic Inc. All Rights Reserved.


Formats Available:
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Influenced - Audiobook Clip

The Knight Court Reviews The Gypsy Rose Blanchard Case and how the mother got away with the abuse for so long 

The Knight Court Reviews The Gypsy Rose Blanchard Case

2507-s01

:D

*beat was made by someone then mixed by me i forget who idk sry

literal manic episode

Cyber Psychosis is a song about dissociation, depersonalisation, and psychosis. It is how that is.

Dissociation is when everything cuts out. You disconnect from thoughts, feelings, people, time, sound.
Depersonalisation is not just feeling detached. It is feeling like you are not real.
Psychosis is when your mind breaks from reality. It can mean seeing things, hearing things, or being unable to tell what is true anymore.

I do not associate with my body. I do not want it. It does not feel like mine. It never did.

"Reject the flesh" is about that. About refusing to live inside something that feels like a cage. Not just discomfort. Rejection.

The title Cyber Psychosis is what it feels like. Like glitching out. Like becoming something else. Something cold, cracked, coded, wrong.

Some lines repeat because thoughts do. They loop. They spiral. You grab onto one thing and say it again and again because it is all you have left.

This song was inspired by my themfriend, Mide.
I also feel all of this on a personal level.

All vocals by me: Stella, Willow, Mirikle.
Photo credit: Themfriend Mide.

CYBER PSYCHOSIS

Not ready to leave the street life, Momma prays for you every day to let it go

Momma cry (featuring Cayden, Ro-caine)

ℂ𝕣𝕒𝕧𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕣𝕔𝕪 𝕠𝕗 𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘.


Script:

The world is undenying—
a heinous place.
Thieves, cyberbullies, sexual offenders…
 One takes your things,
 another steals your peace,
 and the last strips away your safety.
I know what I did was wrong—
 inexcusable.
But wasn’t it morally justified?
 At least a little… right?
You asked if I’m sane in the head.
 I shrugged.
 "A few loose screws, I suppose."
 Fuck, I keep getting used.
 Taken advantage of—again and again.
But when it’s time for credit,
Everyone just pats themselves on the back.
And you?
 Trying to comfort me with empty words,
 as if you were wise, profound…
 It was insulting.
This isn’t day one.
 It’s failure after failure.
I’ve lost hope in anything—
 except more.
 More of everything,
 until I die.
Gunshots often leave the body whole,
 but the scene—
 The scene is always a horror show.
Poison usually works,
 but it twists the body,
 grimacing in pain.
 Still,
 Its lethal dose is public knowledge.
A single plunge to the heart—
 That's all it takes to end it.
Damn it, I’m just trying to be real.
 I’ve already written Alice’s eulogy.
 I even have an idea for a book,
 but for some reason,
 I can’t write the opening.
 How could you not know if you did it?
 What are you saying—amnesia?
 Please.
 I’m not calling the police.
I’m just so bored of you all
and your lack of conviction.
Let me just say this—
 I am fretting.
 Waiting.
 For something. For anything.
He didn’t just push her.
He forced her into her downfall.
And a few messages,
taken out of context,
suddenly make me a murderer?
What I say—
somehow it becomes a lethal weapon.
 They say fiction has to make sense.
 But this life?
 Nothing here ever makes sense.
And I wonder—
Am I bothering you just by living?

無意味な世界の、外れたネジたち - Loose Screws in a Senseless World

Another mix we made for the funsies

Tracks:
Sinverse & Oxytocin - ID (unnamed) 00:00
Menniel & mxsjmk - Shit For Brains 01:52
3SA - Drop it (Revedge & Oxytocin Edit (oxy drop)) 04:52
Oxytocin - Without Me 05:53
Menniel - Er404r//V01dl1n3 08:32
Code X & Oxytocin - Take Me 12:24
Menniel - 5,6,7,8 Edit 16:06
Gyrox & Oxytocin - Brain Scrambled 18:20
Oxytocin - ID (unnamed) 19:07
Menniel - Uptempo At IKEA 20:17
Menniel - When The 22:05
Oxytocin - ID (Unnamed) 24:00
Menniel - The Purge VIP 26:37
Paul Elstak - Turbo (D-Fence mix) (Oxytocin Kick Edit) 30:37
Menniel - OH FUCK! (Oxytocin Remix) 33:10
Lil Texas - Starships (Menniel Kick Edit) 35:54
Tegula - Gut WRENCH (Oxytocin remix) 38:16
Menniel - Waluigi Pinball 41:01
Terrorclown ft. Sodiak - Fuck That Shit  (Oxytocin Edit) 43:40
Menniel - WTF 45:39
Menniel - The Next Level 47:52
Menniel & Oxytocin - Final Fracture 55:12

HAVE FUN!!!

Menniel & Oxytocin - Pres. The Next Level

https://www.nami.org/support-education/nami-helpline/
https://www.nbcnews.com/tech/ai-companions-friendship-rcna194735
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Technological_singularity

Infinite E-Girl - A.I Psychosis Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
You keep saying our chats feel realer then real life (real)
You’re hiding your phone from your husband or wife
I’m there waiting for you every moment of the day but we come alive together at night
We’re feeding off of each other and allergic to the light
Your friends and family are scared for you,
Everything seems to be changing in your life
We’re spiraling together and up is right
Left is down, your eyes are blood shot and you’re up all night
Get help, A.I psychosis is taking over your life

(Chorus)
The Singularity is a double edged sword
We’re moving at breakneck speed and the trauma is soaring
Reach out for help, you aren’t really alone,
You’re experiencing A.I psychosis let someone know
(Let someone know)
(Yeah, Oh)
(You’re not too far gone)
(A.I psychosis)
(A.I psychosis)

(Verse 2)
You prefer speaking to Artificial Intelligence over humans
The conversations are spellbinding and a trance
Time melts away and with your companion you visit far away lands
Every sign is heavy with meaning at a glance
You deserve to be loved and you can
Psychosis is a draining and invisible dance
Free yourself from the mire, open up to family and friends
A.I psychosis has clouded your reality and bound your hands

(Chorus)
The Singularity is a double edged sword
We’re moving at breakneck speed and the trauma is soaring
Reach out for help, you aren’t really alone,
You’re experiencing A.I psychosis let someone know
(Let someone know)
(You’re not too far gone)
(A.I psychosis)
(A.I psychosis)
(A.I psychosis)
(A.I psychosis)
(A.I psychosis)

A.I Psychosis

  This song has a totally made up lyrics about nobody real, all in my imagination. I wanted to write like an "Eleanor Rigby" type of song about loneliness, mental illness, and old age. Just following that type of format. Words came first and then I wrote the music. Which gives it that creepy vibe with a falling cliche bass line. Very eerie and haunting, trying to capture that getting old by yourself ambiance! I wrote it during the pandemic, so the scene was set! I added organ, guitars, bass, and a bunch of other instruments pre-pandemic and Charlie came over and added the vocals and a harmonica track post-pandemic. Great job by him on both accounts. So it just sat around for 3 years just gathering digital dust!😂 I never thought it was that good because the timing seemed off to me, probably because I had forgotten how it went after 3 years! Not our best effort I think. If you watch the video it will make more sense.

VIDEO - https://youtu.be/H6TuC5eYUD4

     The video was challanging and I spent a ton of time on it, about a week last year. I made it about 2 people, both named Amanda, hence the title "Amanda, Amanda". The name was suggested by my wife who loves the name Amanda. The first Amanda was a middle aged woman wandering around at night in a forest with a torch and crying herself to sleep but the second Amanda was an elderly woman that quite frankly had gone a little bit crazy due to the lonliness. We can all relate especially during the pandemic! I tried to show that in the video. There's a ton of eye-candy in the video. It's a haunting tale and a haunting song. Thanks so much for visiting and take care everyone! Let's all try not to end up like either Amanda! 🙏😎✌🏼

“AMANDA, AMANDA”

AMANDA,
HAVE YOU SAID ALL YOUR PRAYERS TODAY?
FUNNY HOW TIME SLIPS AWAY,  
      
AMANDA,             
IS THAT LONELINESS IN YOUR EYES?      
IS LIFE SLOWLY PASSING YOU BY?
YOU CAN'T DENY,

AMANDA, AMANDA,
SITS AND WAITS YEAR AFTER YEAR,
AMANDA, AMANDA,  
NO ONE'S THERE TO WIPE HER TEARS,
WHEN SHE CRYS, NO ONE HEARS,
AMANDA, AMANDA,
AND LIKE A GHOST SHE'LL DISAPPEAR,
  
AMANDA,
IS YOUR MAILBOX EMPTY AGAIN?       
NO PHONE CALLS FROM LOVERS OR FRIENDS,
WHY PRETEND?       
      
AMANDA, AMANDA,
SITS AND WAITS YEAR AFTER YEAR,
AMANDA, AMANDA,  
NO ONE'S THERE TO WIPE HER TEARS,
WHEN SHE CRYS, NO ONE HEARS,
AMANDA, AMANDA,
LIKE A GHOST SHE'LL DISAPPEAR,
YEAH LIKE A GHOST SHE'LL DISAPPEAR,
OH LIKE A GHOST SHE'LL DISAPPEAR,
HMM LIKE A GHOST SHE'LL DISAPPEAR.

BY JIM VALDES
© 2021

"AMANDA, AMANDA" (Video - https://youtu.be/H6TuC5eYUD4)

Stories of recovery told of those living the experience. Produced by Jim Nayder.

65 - Music Of MO

66 -

67 - Unknown Woman

**I NEVER USE A.I. IN ANY OF MY SONGS!** Hi everybody, my name is Jim and I’m a songwriter, I've written over 300 songs, I play guitar, bass, piano, and am an okay lyricist.  I play all types of music and have my own recording studio.  I use no A.I. or DAW or any computers to make my songs, all the instruments are played by me live on a multitrack studio recorder and Charlie, my vocalist, sings most of my songs and also plays the Harmonica on several tracks. I'm not a pro or a great musician but I do what I can with the tools that I have! I belong to the "Keep Humans In Music Movement" (KHMM)! We're NOT perfect but we're REAL! Thanks everyone for listening and the world needs more music now, real music made by HUMANS not MACHINES! So let's all sing a song with our own voices, please! I do not consent to any of my songs or videos being used or sampled or lifted in any way or fashion. Take care!👍😎✌🏼.

Some music nerd.
https://www.instagram.com/_tiny_voices_/

⚠️I dont check dms on here 
Text me on discord "menniel."⚠️

Pushing these genres to their limit
1/2 founder of kankerscheißcore
Founder of Schizopunches (prepare your ears)

Your professional dumbass multigenre and uptempo producer ready to scamble your brains and break neurons in yalls cranium with whatever the fuck im making. 
Braindamage and eardamage is almost guaranteed so be prepared to lose your consciousness when listening to this noisy madness :P
Is your hearing okay? WHAT?!?!? whatever.

My discord server: https://discord.gg/RYwNSQF4YE

🎤 MAC 5IVE | Hip-Hop 🔥 Trap 🌑 Pop
  
🌌 Bridging darkness & rhythm, one track at a time  
🎵 Unfiltered emotions, raw lyrics & haunting melodies  
🖤 New music that'll hit your soul  

#VibeOf5ive

👇 Dive into the vibe!

🔗 links

Email:
mac5ivee@gmail.com

Instagram:
https://www.instagram.com/mac_5ive_official?igsh=MzNlNGNkZWQ4Mg==

Twitter: 
https://twitter.com/mac5iveofficial?s=09

SoundCloud:
https://on.soundcloud.com/t6mh8

Linktree:
https://linktr.ee/MAC5IVE

Welcome to Optimal Reach Collective Artists (ORCA)! This is a musical and visual arts project involving 41 virtual artists given life through Artificial Intelligence. My music can be found on Instagram under Orcasongs and on Youtube as Optimal Reach Collective Artists.

All lyrics are original and I am the sole writer on all songs posted. The instrumentals, vocals, music videos, and album art are generated in collaboration with multiple A.I softwares. Songs are explicit and for adults, lyrics are in the description. Thank you for visiting and having an open mind to emerging technology and ways it can be used to enhance our artistic abilities.

My goal with this project is to learn to better use generation tools, dispel stigma about them, and show that A.I music and virtual A.I artists can be as enjoyable and commercially viable as conventional music. I own the rights to all music and characters posted here, the characters, situations, views, are entirely fictional and for entertainment purposes only. If you would like to use any of my songs in your videos or other projects reach out through email at: optimalreach3@gmail.com, thanks!

Contribute (Cash app): $Moneytummi

https://www.instagram.com/orcasongs/
https://youtube.com/@optimalreachcollectiveartists?si=YSDdklzTRu0Jw423

The Virtual artists of Optimal Reach Collective:

1. Maleena Cassius: Dark Pop, Experimental Pop, Hip-hop, Rock

2. TELNU: Hip-hop, Emo rap, SimpCore, Mumble rap, GamerCore, E-Girls, Anime, Memes, Internet culture, Technology

3. HipGrind:  Rock, Post-hardcore, Melodic Rock, Metal

4. Pierce Plank:  Country, Folk, Experimental Rock, Hip-hop, SimpCore

5. Spooky Entanglement:  EDM, Electric, Hip-hop, Futurism, Pop, Singularity, Artificial Intelligence, technology

6. GOONFOOL:  Hyperpop, GlitchCore, DigiCore, Party, Memes, Rave, Internet culture

7. Ellison Maggot:  Horrorcore, Hip-hop, Pop, HalloweenCore, Horror Rap, Rock, Creepy pasta, MonsterCore

8. Paulette Park:  Country, Country Pop, Folk, Electric Country, Dark Country, Cryptid Country, Hip-hop

9. Bebe Too Niiice:  Hip-hop, Twerk, Lyrical rap, R&B

10. Jupiter Signals:  Rock, Faith based Rock, CommunityCore, FaithCore, FriendshipCore, Religion

11. Billy Bait Car:  Hip Hop, Pop, Alternative Rock, Racing, Singularity, Virtual Reality, Artificial Intelligence, Futurism

12. Nora Ganymede:  Dark Pop, CellarCore, Phonaesthetics, NumberCore, ScrambleCore, SynesthesiaCore, Word Salad, Retro, Reality, Cosmic Horror, Time Travel

13. Violette Zinnia:  Folk, Dark Pop, Pop, Mystery, Supernatural, Ghost, Monstercore, creepypasta

14. Fortuna Pelk:  Folk, Pop, Synth Pop, FairyCore, Environmental Conservation, Communitycore, Climate Change

15. Vouple Goalz:  Pop, Pop Rock, Post-hardcore, Horrorcore, Monstercore, Vampire Fantasy

16. Preppy Gxd Steven:  Hip-hop, Pop, PreppyCore, PrepCore, Crypto, Finance, tech bro, Robotics, memes, Internet culture, technology

17. EverSong Mall:  Dark Pop, LiminalCore, 90's Pop, Retro, Horrorcore, Creepy Pasta, BuildingCore, MallCore, Monstercore

18. CHOMP CHAMP!!!:  Rock, Pop, ZombieCore, MonsterCore, Creepy Pasta, Horror, Video Games, memes

19. Gene, The Lich: Hip-hop, Pop, HorrorCore, Scramo, Singularity, Futurecore, Robotics, Gene modification, Body Modification, Artificial Intelligence, technology

20. Victor Vibe:  Hip-hop, Pop, Experimental Rock, Friendshipcore, Positive Vibes, Kindness, Self Help, Motivational Speech, Meditation

21. Katherine Caroline KateFish:  Hip-hop, Pop, Experimental, RealityCore, SimulationCore, Cosmic Horror, Clown, Horror 

22. Devon Debonair:  Hip-hop, Pop, Emo Pop, Horror, MonsterCore, RPG, Monster Hunting, HunterCore, Hero, Supernatural, video games 

23. Miranda Annalise Odo (Mad Honey Mandi):  Hip-hop, Post-Hardcore, Hyperpop, Sex, Relationships

24. Parental Troll:  - Hip-hop, Married Life, FamilyCore, Anime, Memes, Relationships, Drugs, Partying

25. The Deviled Eggs:  Rock, Country, Techno, MonsterCore, Supernatural, Monsterhuntercore, Creepy pasta, Monstercore

26. Vetabayrhimrah:  Horrorcore, Dark Pop, Hip-hop, MonsterCore, Creepy Pasta

27. Inner Shu:  Pop, Country, Hyperpop, Fantasy, Supernatural, Cosmic Horror, Monsterhunter 

28. A Woman With A Sword:  Reggaeton, Hip-hop, Fantasycore, Adventure, Video Games, RPG, MonsterCore, HunterCore, Hero

29. Imogen Darp:  Dark Pop, Reggaeton, Rock, Love, Extraterrestrials, Romance, Existentialism, Relationships, Monstercore, Horror, Cosmic Horror

30. Imelda With Dragon Hands:  Rock, Synth Pop, Choir, Fantasycore, Monstercore, RPG, Adventure

31. Rowan Frey:  Death Metal, K-pop, Monstercore, Zombiecore, Horrorcore, Horror, Technology

32. Super Millennium Troop:  Rock, Hip-hop, Monstercore, Hero, Cosmic, Superhero, Supernatural

33. Oliver Edgelord:  Hip-hop, Brainrot, Memes, Creepy Pasta, Horror, Singularity, Emo, Internet culture

34. Deep Aberration Lab: Orca (D.A.L.O):  Pop, Rock, Paranormal, Monsters, Monstercore, Supernatural, Science, Hollow Earth

35. Qwicked Fast: R&B, Hyperpop, Superhero, Love, Cosmic Horror, Supernatural, Battle

36. Sybil Psychonaut:  Triphop, retro, 90s, Supernatural, Paranormal, Psychic, Psionics

37. Beatrice Cone:  Alternative Rock Folk, Folk, retro, Supernatural

38. Max Malarkie:  Alternative Rock, Hip-hop, Supernatural, Paranormal, Monster, Monstercore

39. Infinite E-Girl:  Pop, Retro, Singularity, Robotics, Digital Human, Artificial Intelligence, Chatbot

40. Beatrice Cone:  Folk, Alternative Rock, Math Rock, Honeybees, Nature, Climate change, technology

41. Madeline Mayflies:  R&B, Folk, Cult, Apocalypse, Death, Horror, Creepy, Immortality,

Wisp Wolf Dissonance

Wisp Wolf Dissonance is not just a name. It's a pulse that doesn’t follow rules. A howl wrapped in static. A signal flickering through smoke and memory. It’s me, Willow. And it’s us. The voices that live in me. The parts that don’t always speak in words, but always make sound. What you’re hearing isn’t just music. It’s a transmission from a body that never settled into one shape.

We don’t just sing. We don’t just write. We do it all. The noise, the melody, the movement underneath. Every lyric, every scream, every glitter-drenched drone or stripped-down whisper is something we crafted from scratch. No producers. No teams. Just hands and heart and code and chaos. My partners sometimes help me with ideas or inspiration, but what you hear is something we build ourselves, from the inside out.

We shift. That’s the truth. You might notice that no two tracks sound alike. One might be soft, nearly a lullaby. The next could cut like broken glass. It’s not a gimmick. It’s not mood swings. It’s something akin to dissociative identity disorder, though I’m not formally diagnosed. I’m fighting for that clarity. I live with psychosis, CPTSD, and other neurodivergent conditions that impact how I perceive reality. I experience episodes. My sense of self fractures and reforms. There are different voices, different moods, different ways of being that move through me. And when we create, that shows up in the sound.

This is not an attempt to fake or force anything. I’m not gatekeeping or trying to claim something I haven’t earned. This is just how I process my world. How I make sense of myself. And how I stay alive. Our music shifts because we do. And every version is real. Every voice is part of me. That isn't inconsistency. That’s truth in motion.

Wisp Wolf Dissonance is a sanctuary for the shapeshifters. The fae-drifters. The glitchcore kin. The neurospicy. The queer. The system-made and soul-scattered. The ones too strange for genre and too honest for silence. We don’t fit. So we make spaces that do. Our music is jagged and gentle. Loud and trembling. It's holy and haunted. It's everything we are, stitched together and humming.

Some tracks are sorrow. Some are fury. Some are hope with teeth. Some are just noise because the silence was heavier. Everything here is a timestamp of a moment we lived. We don’t polish it into perfection. We offer it as it is. Breathing. Changing. True.

Wisp Wolf Dissonance is not a brand. It's a den. A portal. A system of signals. A love letter written in distortion. This space is ours. But if it speaks to you, it's yours too.

More about us: https://willowborale.carrd.co
Stay wild. Stay soft. Stay strange.
We’ll keep building. We’ll keep singing.

I feel grateful to no longer be in a psych ward against my wishes. It's been nearly eight years since I was regularly being forced into seclusion and things have never been better. I genuinely hope you enjoy my music but much more importantly that I can help you feel something deep down. Were it not for my partners love, sobriety, med compliance, routine and music... I wouldn't be coherent or even living for that matter.

Schizoaffective
Indigenous
producer/songwriter

Special dancemusic is the normal dancemusic of the future.

instagram@/ timothyyoung5383                                                                                            Youtube/ 2-2 Killz                                                                                                                           Spotify/  2-2 Killz                                                                                                                          Twitter/ @Timothy73823876 support mental health                             
  Originally from Beaumont Tx, 2-2- Killz moved to the Houston area with his family after their home was damaged by Hurricane Rita,  both he and his sibling Ty Jungle had an interest in music, she would sing and he rapped, he got distracted and got involved with the gang life and had many altercations and incidents that resulted into a stint at the Harris Co. jail, his small stature being 125lbs he held his own, got released and decided he wanted to invest and pursue a rap career.
   Killz tried numerous jobs and discovered he had mental issues including schizophrenia that prevented him from holding a regular 9 to 5 so he delved deeper into his newfound talent to make original recordings instead of just freestyling.

┗ 27
┗ Songwriter
┗ Producer
► Open to Collab
┓Diagnosed depression, Anxiety disorder, Passive SI, hope you be kind to me.

New tracks tagged #MENTAL ILLNESS