Sucks being the shy guy....
I Turn Back To The Wall   by songwriter Edwin H. Balder

just looking for some kind of sign 

too shy to ask so I stay behind 

music's loud the room moves fast 

I catch a glance but never ask 

she laughs with friends hair in flame 

I shrink before she knows my name 

I think of steps I never take 

then tuck my hands and walk away 

i turn back to the wall 

like I've done every time 

a shadow in the light 

a name without a line 

i dream the dance i feel the call 

but my feet stay still 

i turn back to the wall 

they flirt like language comes with ease 

i speak in silence aching knees 

i wonder if shell notice me 

or see just space where i should be 

been the background all my life 

a quiet hum the silent type 

but sometimes hope just slips its chain 

and i almost speak but fade again 

i turn back to the wall 

like I've done every time 

a breath away from brave 

but still not crossing lines 

i dream the dance i feel the call 

but my feet stay still 

i turn back to the wall 

where do you find the brave 

when the fear holds tight 

where do you build the will 

when the dream don't feel right 

what gives you movement 

when you're stuck standing still 

how do you learn to trust 

when you never think you will 

is courage quiet is love blind 

can i be seen when i don't shine 

she looked once i swear she did 

a smile that reached beneath my ribs 

but i froze up like i always do 

so close to more then lost the view 

but maybe next time i won't fall 

back to the silence back to the wall 

i turn back to the wall 

but not as far this time 

a heartbeat closer now 

to stepping.. past.. that.. line 


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I Turn Back To The Wall   by songwriter Edwin H. Balder

Convenient by    Edwin H. Balder

missed the train by two full steps 

the kind of moment memory collects 

coffee slipped missed her call 

said she was fine wasn't fine at all 

how convenient 

how convenient 

they said it's better not to fight 

better to sleep than burn all night 

he bit his tongue she closed her eyes 

they stopped saying what was on their minds 

how convenient 

how convenient 

saw his father's hands in his own 

same silence same heavy tone 

always thought he'd break that chain 

until he felt the pull again 

how convenient 

how convenient 

friend moved on made a start 

posted smiling from his broken heart 

the kind of joy you fake online 

so no one calls and that's just fine 

how convenient 

how convenient 

bought a ticket for a plan he made 

never used it just watched it fade 

told himself he didn't care 

but looked for answers in the air 

how convenient 

how convenient 

he said someday so many times 

he lost the taste of crossing lines 

and every step he didn't take 

stacked like bricks he couldn't fake 

how convenient 

how convenient 

every dream had just one gate 

every no disguised as fate 

every pause each deep inhale 

a softer way to choose to fail 

how convenient 

how convenient 

so he stands feet to the floor 

knowing less but wanting more 

and maybe now he starts again 

but wont excuse the where and when 

no more endings dressed as grace 

no more silence taking space 

no more quiet used to stall 

no more echo down the hall 

how convenient 

how convenient 

how convenient 

no more quiet 

no more echo 

how convenient convenient convenient 

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Resonate by American K-Pop Boys
Written and Produced and all rights reserved by
Edwin H. Balder
We walk through realms the ear can't see 

where rhythm bends reality 

a beat becomes a boundary crossed 

a lyric found when all feels lost 

chords like rivers shape the land 

truths laid down by trembling hand 

where silence waits, the notes ignite 

and sorrow hums itself to light 

we live in lines that rise, then fall 

where voices echo through it all 

not made for maps or worldly law 

these realms are stitched in awe and flaw 

in every bar, we leave behind 

a ghost of heart, a spark of mind 

we don’t just write—we resurrect 

the pieces pain forgot to protect 

this music we write—it builds the door 

between who we were and something moreWe walk through realms the ear can't see 

where rhythm bends reality 

a beat becomes a boundary crossed 

a lyric found when all feels lost 

chords like rivers shape the land 

truths laid down by trembling hand 

where silence waits, the notes ignite 

and sorrow hums itself to light 

we live in lines that rise, then fall 

where voices echo through it all 

not made for maps or worldly law 

these realms are stitched in awe and flaw 

in every bar, we leave behind 

a ghost of heart, a spark of mind 

we don’t just write—we resurrect 

the pieces pain forgot to protect 

this music we write—it builds the door 

between who we were and something more 

We walk through realms the ear can't see 

where rhythm bends reality 

a beat becomes a boundary crossed 

a lyric found when all feels lost 

chords like rivers shape the land 

truths laid down by trembling hand 

trembling hand.... trembling hand...

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Resonate by American K-Pop Boys

Left On Read  All Rights researved by Edwin H. Balder
You said, “Don’t wait up,” but I did anyway,
Watched the steam fade off my second cup of gray.
Your name still lights my screen like it’s breaking news,
But the silence hits harder than the words you’d choose.
I rehearsed what I’d say if you ever replied,
But the dots never danced, and the truth never lied.
I was left on read, but I still read into it,
Every pause, every breath, every half-written bit.
You moved on like a song that I never got to sing,
Now I’m stuck in the verse where you pulled out the string.
We were more than a trend, more than hearts on a thread—
But I guess even ghosts leave you left on read.
Your hoodie’s still hanging like it’s waiting for air,
I tried to wash it, but the scent’s still there.
My friends say I’m better, that I dodged a fall,
But they don’t know I still sleep on your side of the wall.
I scroll through the past like it’s breaking a code,
But the punchline’s the same—just me on my own.
I was left on read, but I still read into it,
Every pause, every breath, every half-written bit.
You moved on like a song that I never got to sing,
Now I’m stuck in the verse where you pulled out the string.
We were more than a phase, more than words never said—
But I guess even ghosts leave you left on read.
Maybe you typed, maybe you cared,
Maybe you stared at the screen and just left it there.
But I’ll never know, and maybe that’s worse—
To be haunted by silence instead of a curse.
I was left on read, but I still read into it,
Every pause, every breath, every half-written bit.
You moved on like a song that I never got to sing,
Now I’m stuck in the verse where you pulled out the string.
We were more than a trend, more than hearts on a thread—
But I guess even ghosts leave you left on read.
 on a thread—
left on read.
left on read.
on a thread—
left on read.
left on read.—
left ...on.... read.
left ......on ......read.
on a thread—
left ...on..... read....


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Left On Read  by Americn K-Pop Boys

Pulse Between Us    by Edwin H. Balder
Walking through the crowd tonight
Something in the air ain’t right
You don’t say a word, don’t try
But my heart’s in overdrive
Every little move you make
Draws a line I want to break
Can’t fake calm when you’re this close
Every second’s pulling close
Feel the pulse between us now
Beating fast, I don’t know how
Every look you throw my way
Takes my breath and makes me stay
Can’t escape it, won’t pretend
That I don’t want this to begin
You’re the question I can’t lose—
There’s a pulse between us, and it’s truth
Music melts into a haze
But you’re sharp in all these shades
People blur and time moves slow
Only you I want to know
Hands not touching, eyes don’t lie
Something’s speaking in this quiet
I’ve been good at walking straight
But you’re the kind of twist I’d take
Feel the pulse between us now
Beating fast, I don’t know how
Every look you throw my way
Takes my breath and makes me stay
Can’t escape it, won’t pretend
That I don’t want this to begin
You’re the question I can’t lose—
There’s a pulse between us, and it’s truth
Feel the pulse between us now
Beating fast, I don’t know how
Every look you throw my way
Takes my breath and makes me stay
Can’t escape it, won’t pretend
That I don’t want this to begin
You’re the question I can’t lose—
There’s a pulse between us, and it’s truth
Maybe you don’t see it yet
But your silence feels like a silhouette
One move and this whole room could spin
Will you reach, or fade again?
Feel the pulse between us now
Beating louder, breaking out
I’m not scared if this gets deep
I just want to know you see
There’s no hiding, no excuse—
When the pulse between us feels like truth
Like truth...Like truth...
(Like truth...)
The pulse between us feels like truth
Like truth..(.Like truth)...Like truth...
 feels like truth (Like truth...)
Like..... truth...

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Pulse Between Us   by Hot Cookie

The Easy Way Down   by Edwin H. Balder
The easy way down ain’t built to last,
It trades your future for your past.
So I’ll climb alone, barefoot and proud—
But I’ll never go
The easy way down..
I packed my strength with my last goodbye,
Hung it next to coats I swore I’d never try.
Felt the pull when the bottle clinked,
Passed your street, but I didn’t blink.
It’s funny how a song, a scent, a sound
Can drag a healed heart back underground.
The easy way down’s got a velvet feel,
Whispers sweet lies you want to believe are real.
It shows up soft like a second chance—
But leaves you cold with empty hands.
It don’t ask much, just one small slide—
You blink and you’re back on the wrong side.
You texted “Hey”—and I just stared,
Like my backbone suddenly wasn’t there.
I counted reasons like they were beads—
But none of ‘em fed the part that needs.
Sometimes it’s not about being strong—
Just sitting with silence when the night feels long.
The easy way down ain’t built to last,
It trades your future for your past.
So I’ll climb alone, barefoot and proud—
But I’ll never go
The easy way down.
The easy way down don’t raise its voice,
Just hands you comfort like it’s still your choice.
And you fall so slow, you think it’s flight—
Till you hit the ache you swore felt right.
I’ve walked that trail too many times—
This time, I’m drawing the line.
I lit a match to the door you left,
Watched it burn like the words you kept.
You wanted casual, I gave you core—
And I’m not offering that anymore.
I don’t hate you—I just know
There’s a difference now in how I grow.
They say rock bottom makes you brave—
But I learned more from what I didn’t save.
You don’t have to break just to heal—
I found worth in standing still.
The easy way down ain’t built to last,
It trades your future for your past.
You think it’s comfort, but it’s a trick—
It pulls you back in, fast or slick.
This time I paused, this time I stayed—
And watched that danger slip away.
The easy way down ain’t built to last,
It trades your future for your past.
So I’ll climb alone, barefoot and proud—
But I’ll never go
The easy way down.
The easy way down used to call my name,
Now I hear it, and I don't play the game.
I want something earned, not something cheap—
Love that builds, not one that bleeds.
So I’ll climb alone, barefoot and proud—
But I’ll never go
The easy way down.
It don’t scream, it don’t shout—
Just opens the door,
And walks you out.
The easy way down ain’t built to last,
It trades your future for your past.
So I’ll climb alone, barefoot and proud—
But I’ll never go
The easy way down.
The easy way down.
The... easy ....way ....down.....


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The Easy Way Down   by Hot Cookie

Dancing Solo By American K-POP BOYS
All right held by Edwin H. Balder
I'm dancing solo tonight
Started out with friends around me, music loud and feeling free
But one by one they disappeared, now it's just the beat and me
Mirror ball keeps spinning round, casting patterns on the floor
Used to need somebody close, but I don't need that anymore
(I don't need that)
Turn it up, turn it loud
I'm the king of this crowd
Every step that I take
Is a move that I make for me
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Better on my own though, on my own though
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Used to think that being alone meant something must be wrong with me
But now I see the rhythm clear when there's no one else to please
Spotlight finds me in the dark, and I own this space tonight
Every heartbeat syncs with drums, everything just feels so right
Turn it up, turn it loud
I'm the king of this crowd
Every step that I take
Is a move that I make for me
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Better on my own though, on my own though
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
They said I'd never make it dancing by myself
But look at me now, I don't need nobody else
The music flows through me like fire in my veins
I found my freedom in these disco chains
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
(Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Solo, solo, solo
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
Dancing on my own
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Better on my own though, on my own though
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
(I'm dancing solo)
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Better on my own though, on my own though
I'm dancing solo, dancing solo
Solo, solo, solo
(Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Dancing solo tonight
Solo, solo, solo
(La-la-la-la-la)
And it feels so right
Solo, solo, solo
(I'm dancing solo)
Solo, solo, solo
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
La-la-la-la-la
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Dancing solo...


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Can't Contain This  BY American K-POP BOYS
All Right Held by Edwin H. Balder
Can't contain this
Can't contain this
Something's stirring deep inside
Can't contain this
Can't contain this
Something's stirring deep inside
Started slow, started small
Just a flutter in my chest
Couldn't tell, couldn't call
What was coming, what was next
Building up, breaking through
Every wall I used to know
Can't deny, can't undo
What's already set to flow
Rising, rising, can't come down
Pounding, pounding, what I found
Racing, racing through my veins
Nothing's ever quite the same
Feel it all, feel it all
Let it crash, let it fall
Feel it all, feel it all
Breaking barriers, standing tall
Feel it all, feel it all
Answer when the moment calls
Feel it all, feel it all
Feel it all
Moving fast, moving free
Can't remember being bound
What I was, what I'll be
Lost between the sight and sound
Pushing past, pushing through
Every limit that I set
Making new, making true
What I never could forget
Rising, rising, can't come down
Pounding, pounding, what I found
Racing, racing through my veins
Nothing's ever quite the same
Feel it all, feel it all
Let it crash, let it fall
Feel it all, feel it all
Breaking barriers, standing tall
Feel it all, feel it all
Answer when the moment calls
Feel it all, feel it all
Feel it all
Used to hide behind the silence
Used to fear what might unfold
But the fire burns too bright now
And the story must be told
Every beat becomes a battle
Every breath becomes a cry
Can't contain what's been awakened
Can't contain, won't even try
Feel it all
(Feel it all, feel it all)
Feel it all
(Let it crash, let it fall)
Feel it all
(Feel it all, feel it all)
Feel it all
Feel it all, feel it all
Let it crash, let it fall
Feel it all, feel it all
Breaking barriers, standing tall
Feel it all, feel it all
Answer when the moment calls
Feel it all, feel it all
Feel it all
can't contain this
Can't contain this
Something's stirring deep inside
Can't contain this
Can't contain this
Feel it all, feel it all
Feel it all, feel it all
Feel it all


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Can't Contain This  BY American K-POP BOYS

Control by American K-POP BOYS
All Rights Held by Edwin H. Balder
These strings won't stay in tune tonight
But I keep playing anyway
The mic's been cutting in and out
Still got something I need to say
Every note I've ever hit
Every beat that's made me whole
Living in the frequency
This is where I lose control
In the waves and the vibration
This is where I lose control
In the rhythm's conversation
This is where I lose control
(Control, control)
Let it go, let it flow
(Control, control)
The damn reverb is way too loud
My voice cracks on the high parts
But when the bass line kicks back in
I remember why I start
Every chord that's ever rung
Every harmony I've known
Living in the frequency
This is where I lose control
In the waves and the vibration
This is where I lose control
In the rhythm's conversation
This is where I lose control
(Control, control)
Let it go, let it flow
(Control, control)
Four voices finding their way
Through the mess we make each day
When the speakers start to shake
Every mistake's a chance to take
The sound we've been searching for
Behind every closed-up door
In the space between the beats
Where the magic always meets
(Always meets, always meets)
Now the feedback's singing back
And the crowd is singing too
All the static disappears
When I'm feeling something true
This is where I lose control
In the waves and the vibration
This is where I lose control
In the rhythm's conversation
This is where I lose control
In the endless fascination
(Control, control)
This is where we lose control
(Control, control)
Let it go, let it flow
This is where we lose control
Vibrance
Vibrance


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Control by American K-POP BOYS

Viva by American K-POP BOYS
All Rights Held by Edwin H. Balder
Started from nothing, pequeño in the barrio
Dreams bigger than the block, corazón full of fuego
Mama said "mijo, reach for the stars"
Papa worked two jobs, showed me how far
(How far we can go)
Seventeen with a guitar, singing on the corner
Every rejection made me stronger
Now you see me rising up
From the ground to the top
Esta es mi historia
(This is my story)
Dale, let me tell you how
This is the life of a dreamer
From the streets to the stage, sí señor
Dancing through the pain and the fever
Esta es mi vida, this is my vida
(Mi vida, mi vida)
Every step that I take
Every move that I make
This is the life of a dreamer
Esta es mi vida, mi vida
Twenty-one in the studio, grinding every night
Learning every language, harmony so tight
Seoul to San Juan, taking every flight
Four voices as one, reaching new heights
(We rise up together)
Critics said we'd never make it
But our passion couldn't fake it
Now you see us rising up
From the ground to the top
Esta es nuestra historia
(This is our story)
Dale, let us show you how
This is the life of a dreamer
From the streets to the stage, sí señor
Dancing through the pain and the fever
Esta es mi vida, this is my vida
(Mi vida, mi vida)
Every step that I take
Every move that I make
This is the life of a dreamer
Esta es mi vida, mi vida
Started with a vision, now we're living it
Every scar and every tear was worth it
From the barrio to the world stage
Every page of my story, every age
(Tell them who we are)
Late nights, bright lights, we earned this
Stage fright, but we learned this
Four brothers, one dream, we burned this
Into our souls, now the whole world heard this
You see the glamour, but you don't see the grind
You see the success, but you don't see the climb
This is my testimony, this is my time
From nothing to something, one note at a time
This is the life of a dreamer
From the streets to the stage, sí señor
Dancing through the pain and the fever
Esta es mi vida, this is my vida
(Mi vida, mi vida, mi vida)
Every step that I take
Every move that I make
This is the life of a dreamer
Esta es mi vida, mi vida
(This is my life, my life)
From the barrio to the stars
Esta es mi vida, mi vida
(This is who we are)
Mi historia, mi vida
(My story, my life)
Esta es mi vida


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Viva by American K-POP BOYS

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In the shadows of Apache Junction, at the foot of the majestic Superstition Mountains, sits a weathered hacienda. This desert oasis is home to an enigmatic figure, a songwriter whose journey reads like a long, dusty road of honky-tonk bars and college cafeterias. He wasn't chasing fame or glitter; instead, he chose the soul-crushing beauty of music for music's sake.

Years spent hunched over sticky barroom tables and scribbling lyrics on napkins earned him a reputation—not in the spotlight but in the back rooms where deals are made. He wrote melodies that found their way into the hearts of stars who had lost their own muse. He sold his creations for cash, with no recognition, but the whisper of his songs carried the weight of his soul.

Finally, he bought this piece of desert paradise—a stable income from his timeless songs allowed him to live comfortably, if anonymously. Here in this hacienda, with his family beside him and the mountains as his backdrop, he found the peace to write hits under his own name. He chuckled at the irony that now, without chasing fame, he could create music that brought him joy.

In the end, it was never about the spotlight. It was about the journey, the stories, and the songs that wrote themselves through his life. As the sun set behind the Superstitions, casting long shadows over the hacienda, he strummed his guitar and sang—content, unknown, and unburdened by the world's gaze.


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I may be dead when fame comes but my real glory was always JULIE & The Kids. Thank you for such love

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