I know it rains
On top of my pain
There'll come a day
When it fades away

I'll prevent waking up on the street
Stop what I'm doing and all in between
Pick a flower
Then I'll see what you mean
I won't think I'm crazy if I still believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow

When I expose
Feelings under my nose
It's hard to let go
when my love's closed

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time

I'll prevent waking up on the street
Stop what I'm doing and all in between
Pick a flower
Then I'll see what you mean
I won't think I'm crazy if I still believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow


When I expose
Feelings under my nose
It's hard to let go
when my love's closed

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time
Believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow
It's hard to grow

Surviving The Struggle

I write songs every morning at 7 a.m. and I have been doing it for the past 36 years. Most days I play them around 4:20 p.m. in my home studio. Over the last year I finally found the courage to share them, and the support from people all over the world has been incredible. I am humbled to know these songs connect with so many of you, and someday I hope to perform them live.

I have been playing guitar, bass, drums, and synthesizers since I was 15 years old. Now at 51, I can honestly say music has shaped my entire life. I have played in all kinds of bands, from cover groups to tribute acts, and explored rock, metal, punk, alternative, indie, pop, post punk, and synthpop. I wrote my first song after being inspired by the bands I loved in the late 80s, and that spark is still alive today.

These songs come from my 51 years of experience on this planet, and I hope they give you strength and peace. Over the past year I have also been spoken to by a higher power who has guided me through the process. I am glad I found Him again. I have been saved, and I see myself as His warrior.

Sometimes the songs arrive while I am working outside, and other times they come quietly over a cup of coffee in the early morning. The music has a purpose and it is meant to be shared. I do it for Him, and I do it for you.

I create everything at home, starting with my voice and a simple melody of hope, love, and belief, then building with synth, guitar, bass, drums, and more. I record using Logic Pro, GarageBand, and Suno, and I mix and master each track myself until it feels right. What you hear is the real result of that process.

My music is more than sound. It carries my life experiences and is meant to bring healing, encouragement, and connection. My hope is that when you listen, you feel inspired and reminded that you are never alone.

Thank you for being part of this journey. It means everything to me. I believe in family first and music second, and being able to share both with you is heaven to me. I hope you continue listening and following along as the story unfolds.

Take care,
MDRJR

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