hi this is the second song i've ever written & what i'm choosing to start my public songwriting journey....

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lyrics:

i'm not interested in waiting
for the day you try to "save me"
you are one in the same, you are both just so degrading 
did you even think i’d ever grow up, maybe?

i'm not interested in waiting
to hear i am all you gave me
you are one in the same and therefore, we're not relating
did i even think you'd ever grow up, maybe?

do you think of me when i'm not there in the room?
older than me, but no logic.  i assume
nothing to add; quite literally
young? certainly. still thinking critically 

an afterthought, again and again
playin' me like a rerun, on a loop that'll you'll defend
oh, i know... that you helped raise me
but that doesn’t mean you get to claim me

holdin’ each other; it's the only love you know
it's supposed to be us three, so why do i feel alone?
so that’s why this doesn't sit right
not mad, too tired to fight
we can be cordial but i'm just saying

i'm not interested in waiting
for the day you try to save me
you are one in the same, you are both just so degrading 
did you even think i’d ever grow up, maybe?

i'm not interested in waiting (if i don't ask the same)
to hear i am all you gave me (just know you're both to blame)
you are one in the same and therefore, we're not relating
did i even think you'd ever grow up-- (um, no, not really)

ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-woah-woah-woah
ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-woah-woah-woah-ah-oh
(ah-ah, ah) grow up-wah-wah-wah-up ooh-wah-ooh-up|
(grow up)

grow up (prod. inuyasha)

and here's the first song-a-sal song!!! i wanted to test the waters to see if i could write a song real quick and it seems like i can. this song parodies/takes inspiration from jonathan coulton's (my favorite musician) "i feel fantastic" and even references it in some lines. we can be depressing and silly at the same times #ilovemonkeys

SONG-A-SAL SERIES: inspired by musicians like they might be giants ("dial-a-song") and jonathan coulton ("thing-a-week" series), a beginner songwriter named sal tries to write a song every week in hopes of getting better at it. will he write about his day? relationships? or will he write about space and aliens? who knows. follow along on the journey.

(RECORDED DATE: JULY 29, 2025)

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lyrics:

Get up early, though my body is aching
Soothe it with some random pills I’m taking
I power on hard and I check my messages
But I don't have any messages
Can’t shut my brain off starin' at the wall
Lie in bed till I forget it all
I call my phone and I check my messages
But I don't have any messages

All these monkeys float around inside my head
(I feel fantastic, searching for validation but)
Maybe distract myself with her instead
My pretty lady loves me, and yet I pretend
(I know she's older, but at least I'm movin' on, cause)

I feel fantastic and want you to know it
So, sorry that you can't handle equal treatment 
I cannot wait to say goodbye to you
I don't know why everyone older than me has never loved me like they're supposed to, get a fucking clue, like

Get up early, though my body is aching
Soothe it with some random pills I’m taking
I power on hard and I check my messages (What's that?) 
But I don't have any messages (Oh...) 
Can't shut my brain off, staring at the wall
Lie in bed till I forget it all (Wow!)  
I call my phone and I check my messages (Yeah?)
But I don't have any messages (I didn't)

(I didn't)
(D-D-D-D-Didn't)
(That's right! I really- Didn't)

(I mean, the only time anyone texts me is every Thursday, cause... that's... my therapy appointment)
I feel fantastic
And I never felt as good as how I do right now
Except for maybe when I think of how I felt that day
When I felt the way that I do right now
Right now, right now
Right now, right now
Right now, right now, right now

no messages (prod. inuyasha x eli.yf x tilogo)

song-a-sal song 2 is FINALLY posted and tbh i think this is my favorite song i've written. fun fact, this concept was borrowed from two poems i wrote for my senior creative writing course. it started as one, then i wrote a response poem months later, and both became a pair... can't get the full perspective without reading them together. the difference between those poems and this one is that the two characters are actually talking back-and-forth while the poems were instead directed to each other. 

n ee ways... i'm gonna refer to these characters as "doc" and "the maniacal being" for now onnn

SONG-A-SAL SERIES: inspired by musicians like they might be giants ("dial-a-song") and jonathan coulton ("thing-a-week" series), a beginner songwriter named sal tries to write a song every week in hopes of getting better at it. will he write about his day? relationships? or will he write about space and aliens? who knows. follow along on the journey.

(RECORDED DATE: AUGUST 7, 2025)

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lyrics:

(Doc)
Even in all your grotesque glory,
I must destroy you
Shame rises from my stomach
I must claw, tear, stab, and cut it
My poor maniacal being, my twisted-tale story

(Maniacal Being)
That's me, I’m just your grotesque shield
Composed of what is hidden inside you
Built to function, not to feel --
Patched, sparked, doused, you made it real
Not me, it's you, Doc, you're the real monster

(Doc)
I stitched you limb from limb
I didn't mean for this to happen
It's not my fault that you're misunderstood

(Maniacal Being)
Perfectionist, you nitpick, rework all of my stitches
Once an original concept, ruined to please all those around you  

(Doc)
I gave you one chance, and you blew it

(Maniacal Being)
But you're the one who controls me, 
I don't care how hard you try, off-key, just please leave me be 

(Doc)
I'm sorry, I will not just ditch
My work of art, so I'll destroy you to fill my itch, cause
You're my creation, I'm your creator
Forget the rhyme, the reason
Die to end the story, what a pity

(Maniacal Being)
I'm your creation, you're my creator
As we'll brawl, I'll wonder who really holds control, cause

(Doc & Maniacal Being, layered)
Even in all your grotesque glory, (That's me, I’m just your grotesque shield)
I must destroy you (Composed of what is hidden inside you)

(Ah)

Shame rises from my stomach (Built to function, not to feel --)
I must claw, tear, stab, and cut it (Patched, sparked, doused, you made it real)
My poor maniacal being, my twisted-tale story (Not me, it's you, Doc, you're the real monster)

frankenstein (prod. inuyasha x eli.yf x syn.yas)

OKAY OKAY OKAY SONG-A-SAL #3!!! that's this week's song! goddd this song is def something else.... it's the tightest i've cut it on one of these since it's almost 12 BUT HERE I AM GRAUUGHAGHHGAHGH

we've got a lighter-toned (prob not a word) song in our forecast... probably because this is written right after mercury retrograde ended. it's a bit cheesy and stupid and slightly embarassing buut that's the point. we are embracing the silly. don't ask me about the rap-like portion. idk. again. SILLY!!!!!!!!!!!! 

fun fact: the "oh my god" was actually an adlib taken from me trying to record the demo while eating pesto pasta.... i started choking and laughing so. yeah. not sponsored, but pesto pasta is sal approved. maybe that'll be next week's song topic /j

SONG-A-SAL SERIES: inspired by musicians like they might be giants ("dial-a-song") and jonathan coulton ("thing-a-week" series), a beginner songwriter named sal tries to write a song every week in hopes of getting better at it. will he write about his day? relationships? or will he write about space and aliens? who knows. follow along on the journey.

(RECORDED DATE: AUGUST 15, 2025)

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lyrics:

(I don't know what take this is-)

Been a while since I've played
But my heart’s unafraid
Lonely life rearranged, so much to gain playin' these games, yeah   
Never thought I'd make it this far
Believe what you want to, babe,
One day, you'll be someone's superstar

Oh, this is all so brand new
Join in if you like, we’ll wait for you
Didn't expect to find you all so soon
I've finally shifted my worldview

Press start, my little superstar
Press start, my little superstar-ah-ah-ar
Star-ah-ah-ar 
(Oh my god-)

Didn't know what I was getting into
I know I was naive, 
But I logged in, jumped in way too fast
Burned myself too quick, and the thrill didn't last
Now years have gone by, and I took a leap of faith
Learned how to stand, the signs before the fall
With all the friendly faces, I finally trust it all
 
Press start, my little superstar
Press start, my little superstar-ah-ah-ar
Star-ah-ah-ar 

I logged back in today 
No fear to lose my way
Past quests left me scarred, but I’ve leveled up to guard my heart, yeah
Never thought I'd make it this far
Through all the pain, I have grown
I see a  path I have never known

Oh, this is all so brand new
Join in if you like, we’ll stand by you
Never thought I would trust so soon
Now I see my world in a brighter hue

Press start, my little superstar
Press start, my little superstar-ah-ah-ar
Star-ah-ah-ar 

Press start, my little superstar
Press start, my little superstar-ah-ah-ar (Press start, my superstar)
Star-ah-ah-ar (Just guard your heart, you'll make it far, yeah)

press start ★ my superstar! (prod. Kadenxe x Preston Day)

week four of song-a-sal!! i absolutely adore how this came out and am sooo happy to say it's not coming out as late as last week's LMAO..... i think im getting a better sense of how to do this. dunno if i'll be taking a break next week and mark a "every four weeks, i get a one week break" thing but we'll see.

there are so many layers to this song #real. it's a pretty straightforward song and i don't have much to say ab it besides that one fly was killed during its creation </3

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SONG-A-SAL SERIES: inspired by musicians like they might be giants ("dial-a-song") and jonathan coulton ("thing-a-week" series), a beginner songwriter named sal tries to write a song every week in hopes of getting better at it. will he write about his day? relationships? or will he write about space and aliens? who knows. follow along on the journey.

(RECORDED DATE: AUGUST 24, 2025)

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lyrics:
when you ask for more, i'll give you more 
when you say to fight, i will not fall, mhm

i know what to give when the world says i can’t be
always beyond my age
still standin' while the world dissolves around me
tired of standing, i need more

i was born to bring light into this world
chase every moment, running towards my call
don't wanna be stuck in this swirl forever
you can hate me for daring to break the chain
i will make it far 

(i'll make it far)
ah
stand where i always belonged
far (make it far)
far, far

when you push me down, i'll rise again
when you seek the flame, i'll light the way, mhm

i know where i'll be when i finally break free:
front-facing, center stage
carvin' the before me, can't you see?
my dreams are the ones that i cannot ignore

i was born to bring light into this world
chase every moment, running towards my call
don't wanna be stuck in this swirl forever
not a waste of space, i will sing out my name
i will make it far 

(i'll make it far)
ah
changing lives while mending mine
far (make it far)
far, far

far
i'll live on when i'm gone
far, far, ah

far
(watch me, i'll make it far)
far

far (prod. 6D6)

okay so no break LMAOSOPFGSGJ we're on week 5 of song-a-sal and we've hit pure chaos because this song has one of the strangest, most outlandish songs i've ever written. BUT MY STRANGE FASCINATION WITH MONKEYS CONTINUES

basically? it's about a zoo monkey that has been pinned, deformed, and trapped to a giant clock located in the center of the establishment, viewed by all to see. its arms are forced to twist and rotate like the hands of a clock. this awfully grotesque display attracts many curious human eyes, who interact with it in multiple ways, such as asking it questions or (mostly) laughing at it.

the title "monkey watch" is up to interpretation. you can interpret it to mean "monkey on a stopwatch," or reverse the words to mean "watch monkey" (caveman speak; ie joco's "code monkey," one of my fav songs), OR directly reference the rhythm heaven fever level. those monkeys are rather cute and... if you listen close enough, you can catch a reference to that level.

#yeah

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SONG-A-SAL SERIES: inspired by musicians like they might be giants ("dial-a-song") and jonathan coulton ("thing-a-week" series), a beginner songwriter named sal tries to write a song every week in hopes of getting better at it. will he write about his day? relationships? or will he write about space and aliens? who knows. follow along on the journey.

(RECORDED DATE: AUGUST 31, 2025)

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lyrics:
(...because in a second, i gotta fucking go!)

i don’t know what i’m feeling 
just working 'round and 'round, around the clock, yeah 
left swinging unwillingly
a thousand eyes are watching, their hunger is revealing, yeah

i don't know what i'm doing,
i move 'round and 'round,
'round the 'round, the round (yeah?)
if your laughter is my cage, then i can’t break it
if i had your answer, i wouldn't fuckin' say it

trapped in a ticking cycle
my arms aligning with hours
while they watch me on display, yeah
watch my life tick by me 

(aha-haha)

look at me, the hour is etched on my skin
pinned naked, nothing left to hide,
you can see me as a number, but when i run out,
don't forget about me

okay
okay-kay-kay
okay, okay, okay, 
it's okay

ha, ha, ha
fucking count 'em down
fucking count it down...

aha-haha
i don't know what i'm doing
don't wanna go 'round and 'round, around-and-around
monkeys in my head, they float 
'round the 'round, the round

trapped in a ticking cycle (hit with a triple-burn knife)
my arms aligning with hours
while they watch me on display, yeah
watch my life tick by me 

(aha-haha)
(please make me one in a million)

look at me, the hour is etched on my skin
pinned naked, nothing left to hide,
you can see me as a number, but when i run out,
don't forget about me

aha-haha (watching monkey)
aha-haha-haha (monkey watching)


monkey watch (prod. NOTURMOOD)

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