waltz for c-d (alt mix 2)

This is a demo that I made in 2022. I tried to finish it this year but im really bad at producing, and to be honest i have no idea how i mixed all of this (i don’t even know how to play the piano correctly lol) but the whole idea was in my head, so i tried to make it and it worked :) 

I’m not a big fan of sad songs (or slow songs in general) so i know this is kinda unexpected from me, but a friend encouraged me to upload this, so I hope you like it! 

Lyrics, instrumental, vocals and all arrangements by Asicnar
Recorded in one take
Made in Bandlab
Please, don't use this song without my permission, and don't post it as yours.

LYRICS: 
I lost my mind
Trying to feel your hands in mine now
 I lost it all
i cant find your footsteps in this path and

I dont wanna feel alone 
I wanna find you somehow
I stare at the door waiting for you 
 But I know that you're not coming home

No, don't leave me, no
I said when you decided to let go 
now im all alone
And i can't take this  

I'm scared, scared of my end
but how can I change that?
how can I learn from my mistakes?
when I was younger
everything was
better with you by my side

deep inside, in my mind
you and i, lived a life 
side by side, where we died
both together
its a lie, we’re divided
i still cry, every night
i let you die, i think i died
when you said goodbye
oh-oh-oh-oh


I lost it all
Tell me, how can I live with all this mess?
memories from,
my past mistakes,
missing every piece of you in my head
i cant go back
losing you broke me apart
oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

I'm scared, scared of my end
but how can I change that?
how can I learn from my mistakes?
when I was younger
everything was
better with you by my side

deep inside, in my mind
you and i, lived a life 
side by side, where we died
both together
its a lie, we’re divided
i still cry, every night
i let you die, i think i died
when you said goodbye
oh-oh-oh-oh

Lost It All (DEMO)

Oeuvre sonore originale par l’artiste Mona Pillow.
Entre piano et texte poétique, l'artiste vous amène dans une œuvre poétique courte. Le Montage audio d’une durée de 00:60 secondes immerge les auditeurs et auditrices dans une ambiance sonore extérieure où viennent se mêler la mélodie du piano et la voix de l’artiste au premier plan. Audio se dote d’une esthétique naturelle avec un fond sonore de pluie et d’orage pour une ambiance mélancolique et rêveuse. Mis de l’avant dans l'œuvre, le texte de poésie et la musique au piano par Mona Pillow se présentent comme une pause réconfortante par leur lenteur, leur musicalité, les bruitages et la voix calme près des sensations du ASMR. Le bruitage, bien plus qu’un simple fond sonore, permet de sentir l’orage venir. Mémoire est une ode à la contemplation.  

Paroles : 
Même inscrit sur les chars
Personne ne se souvient
il reste dans les chairs
le cumule de nos vies
Des années de fatigue
qui ont creusé nos nuits
Des années de fatigue
qui ont creusé le lit

Et au manque de mémoire
 nous y appliquerons
toutes les brèches d’espoir
de la révolution
Des pelleteux de nuages
en guise de garde-fou
à vivre des utopies
pour ne pas virer fou


Musique & Paroles originales par Mona Pillow 
Septembre 2025

MUS1010-Projet1_DeryMona

Ouverture miniature
Marche
Danse de la fée dragée
Trepac, danse russe
Danse arabe

Through a piano roll from Eugen d' Albert's performance of works of Peter Ilich Tchaikovsky, a MIDI file was made by a process, of converting images of the piano rolls into MIDI files, summarized in a paper at the International Society for Music Information Retrieval’s (ISMIR) 2019 conference in Delft, The Netherlands.  This file I rendered to an audio recording (that is) of a piano instrument.   Which I created via PIANOTEQ virtual instrument software.

The MIDI file I took directly from the research portal for piano rolls digitized through the Stanford Libraries’ collection of piano and organ rolls. As of November 2019, that includes 456 Welte-Mignon T-100 rolls (colloquially called “red welte” rolls as they typically use red paper).

Casse Noisette Suite Op. 71, Part 1

Chris'Gallery Presents: "NeoFuture". Please enjoy this album composed by Chris, inspired by the rigorous power of locomotive, mechanical beauty made by mankind, and everything dystopian. Allow yourself to be immersed in a foreshadow of our possible world in the future, would you want to live in this kind of world?

Architecture that is Grey

Virtual Revenge

Perfect Utopia

Crystal Eyes

Sanctuary

im a heckin visionary i swear, jazz and classical aint the only cool music on earth

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