LYRICS:
I can't rip this out my chest to give to you
So I hallucinate to feel something brand new
The fear is creeping in but I can just pretend
It doesn't keep me up at night so I can dream again

Every day I struggle, I wonder if it's worth the trouble
Isn't that divine
I put myself at the bottom, maybe that's the whole problem
I just tell myself it's fine

There's beauty in the void, my body feels destroyed
I'm scared to death, I'm scared to death
When the nightmare marches in
Will the sickness ever end, can you make me whole again
Lay me to rest, lay me to rest
When the nightmare marches in

The voices speak so loud they keep me up at night
They whisper doubts and I can never tell who's right
The fear is creeping in but I can just pretend
My heart rate's stabilized so maybe I can breathe again

Every day I struggle, I wonder if it's worth the trouble
Isn't that divine, this nightmare of mine

There's beauty in the void, my body feels destroyed
I'm scared to death, I'm scared to death
When the nightmare marches in
Will the sickness ever end, can you make me whole again
Lay me to rest, lay me to rest
When the nightmare marches in

I hallucinate to feel something brand new
I hallucinate so I can be with you


Pretend

A song about loneliness

LYRICS:
Do you see the face in the phone
The only way to feel alone
Waiting for an answer in these endless walls
Waiting for an answer but no one calls
Why can't I just seem to let this go
It controls my mind for hours so

I scream and shout
Not even God can hear me
I'd do anything to be free
I scream and shout
I've never felt so empty
I'd do anything to be free

I wake up in the morning cold
This repetition's getting old
Searching for an answer I don't want to know
Searching for an answer but nothing ever shows
Why can't I just seem to let this go
It controls my mind for hours so

I scream and shout
Not even God can hear me
I'd do anything to be free
I scream and shout
I've never felt so empty
I'd do anything to be free

You'll all find me in the roots beneath flowers
All alone in the dirt

Flowers

LYRICS:

Took it for granted, gambled the dream
Looking for comfort, wasted it seems
They said it'd be fine, just lives on the line
Oh happy days, oh what a life
The sun's always shining, but we're filled with strife
We blew it up like a flame to kerosene

Won't you tell all your friends
It's the start of the end
We perfected the art
Doomed from the start
Tell all your friends
This is the end

Don't drink the water, can't breathe the air
Flowing in my veins is endless despair
We had it all, oh well
Lock all your doors, turn out your lights
No help is coming, no hope in sight
We had it all, oh well

Won't you tell all your friends
It's the start of the end
We perfected the art
Doomed from the start
Tell all your friends
This is the end

We'll be alright
We'll be alright
In the end it doesn't matter wrong or right
We'll be alright
We'll be alright
In the dark you can always find the light
We'll be alright

What A Life

Produced: @saira17
Alternate/Original Cover Art: @zephyrelectronica
Mix/Mastered: @saira17

bloody valentine *demo*

untitled 2.0

dedgirlwalkin

Silt and gravel travel downstream
An uninterrupted carnal daydream

Nature rounds these pinnacles slowly
Sediment levels off peak and valley
Jagged rock underlies dry sand
Bygone fragments guarding reclaimed land

The current evens out detrital cavities
Ebb and flow, defining and defying gravity

Elements relegate iniquity to irrelevance in canyons bleak and misty
Infill carries out settled campaigns
Lush meadows give way to dusty plains

Psychlical Corpus - Live Demo

Everyone makes it up as they go along
Everyone doesn't have all the answers
Everyone feels the pressure to have it all together
Or at least appear to

Feeling out of balance on afternoons short of natural talents?
The wreckage of a written-off day, the laws of physics not going your way?

Here's a shortcut: 
Slide the door shut, draw a picture, cut out strips of paper
Glue them to the center in a sunray pattern
Channel playground saddened

The parameters of basic communication
Are criminally limited to a cryptic shorthand

Only so many words and facial expressions
To convey the summation 
Of emotion, thought, and action
Attention and distraction
Unity and faction
Addition and subtraction

Sorry in Advance - Live Demo

These cynics are nearly omniscient, but their clinics were clearly deficient
We came down from yonder hilltop, saw the chance, and squandered it full stop

Intent on indecision but hellbent on imposition of uneven cadences on a naive unshaken elision 

Sad sacks of frequencies projecting fears and anxieties with frenetic battle cries on apathetic passersby 

It finally came around and settled right there in the middle
Nobody heard a sound, and the acolytes cared very little
It finally came around and cast quite a shadow on the surface
The fantasy ran aground on yet another fad without a purpose

Hanging on a pattern, more tangled with every listen
We played on as the strategy flattened, autonomically imprisoned in willful repetition, predestined for a breakthrough
A default-induced volition
Triumphantly stumbled right into disarray

Disarray finds a way to overstrain
But disarray finds a way to right the train

It finally came around and settled right there in the middle
Nobody heard a sound, and the acolytes cared very little
It finally came around and cast quite a shadow on the surface
The fantasy ran aground on yet another fad without a purpose

Unrequited - Live Demo

Caught overthinking as usual, I found out the easiest way
I'd lost my connection to all those seemingly lesser things 

Show me again and I'll summon my will to ride out
The rising waters that constantly fill every channel
Call them what they are and release this persistent diffidence
Steer into the tide and learn to glide like the flotsam I am
Let the voyage unfold on its own

Kindly currents, see me on my way
Fleeting streams of debris, pass under, demanding attention
And it makes me want to fall in, but not like that

Pass through, gripping fear of the more than known
Mutations of a mutineer counting the steps to the plank
Ride them out
Ride them out
All those looming waves
The perils of presuming too much
Leave us just out of touch
With inborn access
To open passages
Closing faster than we can see

Mixed Like a Metaphor - Live Demo

I don’t recommend it, but I'd go back there
Before I'd go back to San Francisco
The architecture in the city is actually pretty cool – it’s the people. 
I don’t use this word like ever, but the best description that I can provide is "uncouth."
Never been, how the hell should I know?
Take him there! No!

To a certain extent, every single downtown looks exactly the same
It's probably cold a lot of the time
Probably lots of cracks in the pavement

Rolled into town in a '78 Trans-Am, rolled right back out in a hearse
Maybe try traveling before you judge
Travel before you judge
Never been, how the hell should I know?
Take him there! No!

Uncouth - Live Demo

This message brought to you by generational trauma
Sits right there in the center and blocks inherent mana
It’s all just one lane away, an apparition
We'll pick it up today – sympathetic vision

Sitting through the longest minute
The same old corridor in reverse
Wheels down in the wake of past limits
Try not to obsess about getting there first

There propped up on the corner, is it a window or a mirror?
Obscured by placement angle, setting sun, and neutral backdrop
 Delay the sight of the loudest hoarders' signifiers growing nearer
Take a moment to calmly wrangle the narrative toward greener blacktop

Circle around, circle around the block

This message brought to public courtesy of unaddressed offenses
Recurrently revisited through overreliance on false pretenses
The antidote to gridlock, introspection
It's right there on the sidewalk: literal reflection

Road rage, gone in 90 seconds
Indignation, gone in 90 seconds
Toxic shame, gone in 90 seconds

Circle around, circle around the block
Circle around, circle around the block

Love Sweat and the Redwoods - Live Demo

dawsy - love wasn't made for me
official audio
vocals produced, performed, engineered, mixed and mastered by dawsy
instrumentals produced by yami's sin
BANDBOY Records 2025

love wasn't made for me

“Don't Give Up on Me (Alt-Rock Version)” is a cinematic alt-rock anthem that blends raw emotion with powerful, orchestral intensity. The track unfolds like a confession, beginning in quiet vulnerability before building into a towering, defiant climax. Lush strings, bold brass fanfares, and sweeping percussion intertwine with gritty guitars, industrial drums, and ambient textures, creating a soundscape that feels both intimate and epic.

At its heart is a soaring male vocal, a gritty tenor that shifts from soft introspection to full-throttle passion, capturing the desperate plea of love on the edge of loss. The emotional arc moves from doubt and regret to strength and redemption, channeling the spirit of cinematic rock with post-hardcore energy. It’s a song about holding on when everything seems lost, a final stand for love, light, and forgiveness.

Don't Give Up on Me (Alt-Rock Version)

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Eyes wide, heart's a sledgehammer slammin’ through the static,
Spine feels the weight of a world gone erratic.
Brain’s a battleground, synapse grenades,
Awake in the hellscape my own mind made.

Walls closing in, neon pulse on my skin,
Every breath tastes like metallic sin.
Clock hands laughing, tick-tick-tick sneers,
F*** these hours, these goddamn years.


Awake, and I hate it—burn it all down.
Awake, can’t escape it—choke on the sound.
Regret’s a fist in my chest, no rest.
Awake, no peace, just unrest.


F*** sleep, it’s a thief, stole my calm, left grief,
Echoes in the dark—chaos chief.
Rapid fire thoughts, can't dodge, can't block,
Mind's a mosh pit, smashed against the clock.

Bloodshot pupils, reflections of despair,
F*** the sunrise, there’s no solace there.
Reality’s claws scrape my skull,
Awake in a nightmare, every second dull.


Build it up, tear it down,
Screams in layers, metal crown.
Fry the throat, scorch the air,
Regret awake? No one cares.

Spotify Link

Awake Can't Escape It

jukilop 2012 ( RARE ASF )

VERSE 1:
I KNEW IT WOULDN'T LAST
I KNEW SOMETHING WAS ALWAYS OFF
EACH WORD FROM YOUR MOUTH MADE ME WEARY


CHORUS:
KIND HEARTEDNESS IS MY BLESSING AND CURSE
I SAW YOUR HEART
I WANTED MINE TO JOIN
NOW I'M BLEEDING OUT

VERSE 2:
EACH THOUGHT ECHOES
WANTING AN ALREADY GIVEN EXPLANATION
CONSTANTLY TRYING TO STOP THE MEMORIES
WANTING THE CYCLE TO STOP

VERSE 3:
MY HEART SLOWLY RUSTS
SHRINKING EACH MINUTE
EXPECTING IT ANY MINUTE
WAITING FOR THAT ONE SENTENCE

CHORUS 2:
KIND HEARTEDNESS IS MY BLESSING AND CURSE
I SAW YOUR HEART
I WANTED MINE TO JOIN
NOW I'M BLEEDING OUT

VERSE 4: 
HEARING EVERYTHING MADE ME QUESTION
WONDERING WHY
I ALREADY KNEW THOUGH
I KNEW FROM THE START
I JUST WAITED

KIND HEARTEDNESS IS MY BLESSING AND CURSE
I SAW YOUR HEART
I WANTED MINE TO JOIN
NOW I'M BLEEDING OUT




MATTER OF TIME

#Metal, #post hardcore and #metal core inspired #rock

Tower View -  Collapse (Get the F*ck Up)

Most of the second half of this episode is a tribute to my friend JP Matte who was a local musican in such great bands as Selfmademan and the Diamond Sea.  We talk about JP, his great musical taste and some of the wonderful music he made in his life.  

We also talk about the Polaris Song Prize shortlist, premiere a great new political hardcore band from Boston called Cold Snap, and CJLO GM Lisa and PD Cam swing by to talk Pavement and sparkling water vs ice cream (?!) and the usual loud guitars and fuzzy pop songs. 

● Autolux - "23 Watt Apple Juice" (Intro)

*talk spot - heeeeere we gooooooooo*

● Sleater Kinney - "The Fox" (CJLO Classique '05)
● Wednesday - "Pick Up That Knife"
● Nothing - "Vertigo Flowers"
● How Much Art - "PR"

*talk spot - hxc will never die but you will*

● Propagandhi - "At Peace"
● Cold Snap - "Immolation"
● Raised Fist - "Breaking Me Up"
● IDLES - "Rabbit Run"

*talk spot - polaris song prize shortlist*

● Ribbon Skirt - "Wrong Planet:
● Alex G - "Oranges"
● Pavement - "In the Mouth of a Desert" (Track from Way Back '91)

*talk spot - lisa and cam come on to discuss pavement, ice cream, and sparkling water*

● Imperial Teen - "Water Boy" (Track from Way Back '96)

~hour break~

● Mustafa - "Gaza is Calling"

*talk spot - polaris song prize shortlist, ways to help gaza*

● Mumrunner - "Violet"
● Blankenberge - "New Rules"
● Karma Glider - "Love Bleeds"
● No Joy - "My Crud Princess"

*talk spot - RIP JP Matte*

● Jawbreaker - "Save Your Generation"
● Selfmademan - "Steel Toe Amputee"

*talk spot - RIP JP Matte*

● Diamond Sea - "Jailbreak Blues"

*talk spot - RIP JP Matte*

● METZ - "Light Your Way Home"

Jean-Pierre Matte - https://mountroyalcem.com/obituary/22455-jean-pierre-matte/
Diamond Sea - https://soundcloud.com/diamond-sea-1

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Hooked on Sonics - 2025-07-31 - Tribute to JP Matte

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Starting off as a Metal Rock Drummer, progressing into solo acoustic, Wil Luce now ventures into liquid Drum and Bass & Deep House

Yer weekly dose of indie rock, post-punk, power pop, shoegaze, math rock, noise pop, post-hardcore and anything with loud guitars...with some extras tossed into the mix. Hosted by Omar Sonics and a rotating cast of guests.

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