🔻 Song Insight – “John Doe” by 4Me2BeFree
“John Doe” is a haunting and emotionally cinematic piece that explores the unbearable weight of waiting for the call that confirms what your gut already knows — that someone you care for deeply is gone. It's a meditation on loss, helplessness, and the quiet violence of addiction and detachment. With its slow-burning rock arrangement, deep male vocals, and minimalist yet devastating storytelling, John Doe captures what it feels like to lose someone who was already fading before the moment they left. It isn't just about death — it's about being powerless in the face of it, and carrying the ache of what you couldn’t stop.

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[Intro]  
Echos are the only thing left  
Empty dreams just memories  

[Verse 1]  
Unmistaken shadows that last  
Stuttered images that will never pass  
Every life that no longer breathes  
Leaves dust trails with a hollow breeze  

[Chorus]  
I wait on that call that ends this all  
A fatal pause that keeps me stalled  
Nothing will make this a cure  
A place awake and always unheard  

[Verse 2]  
I see your eyes with falling tears  
Muscle memory shaped by fears  
Six feet under, you disappear  
We unfold you now with silent years  

[Chorus]  
No screams are heard, no fists must fight  
Just another night you fall from light  
Like a star now turned to gray  
No longer ours — just yesterday  

[Interlude]  
No answers come, no angels show  
Just the sound of a door... closing slow  

[Bridge]  
No prayers, no gods to call  
Empty skies where we all fall  
No promises, no deals to plea  
Just loss, just names, just you and me  

[Verse 3]  
No matter the number, no amount will do  
Just a green trail left behind for proof  
They stack the stats like coins in piles  
But the ones who die are lost in files  

[Refrain]  
All we do is hope for signs  
Some shimmer breaking through the lines  
But we hang our heads and hold what’s true  
Next time we see you, life is through  

[Final Refrain]  
Fought like hell — I fell  
Reached inside to scream and yell  
Please make this just a dream, I’d plea  
I slammed my fists on Heaven’s door  
With all the might I had before  
But no one answers, no reply  
Just a dead track looping by  
And it’s you — it’s you I lose  

[Outro]  
*silence*

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John Doe

I asked AI to create a song using the best lyrics from the last 14 tracks I’ve written — welcome to my Devil era 🤪
My heart’s been spilling onto the page, and this track is the poetic chaos that poured out.
Think Paradise Lost… but make it sexy 😘
Not my voice — but my words, my world, my spiral.
Hope you enjoy the descent 🥰🔥

The Devil Era (Lyrical Megamix)

🔻 Song Insight – It’s Always Been You
Some songs don’t just tell a story — they seal a memory in amber.
“It’s Always Been You” by 4Me2BeFree is a slow-burning, emotionally cinematic ballad written from the perspective of a man standing at the edge of forever — not asking for love, but finally accepting that he’s already found it.

What begins as a casual night together unfolds into a full-circle realization: the quiet glances, the awkward tension, the long walks and long silences — all pointed to one truth he wasn’t ready to name until now. It's not a fantasy. It's not perfect. It's real. And it’s him.

This track blends nostalgia with vulnerability, mixing humor and heartbreak like only lived-in love can. It speaks to anyone who ever walked away thinking it was over… only to look back and realize he was the one staring all along.

[Intro]  
Come on boy, you know it's all right  
It’s you and me, even if it’s tonight  

[Verse 1]  
Hold on tight, never let us go  
Wanted to be your friend till the end  
Even when we’re old  
I promise you know I will never let this go  

[Verse 2]  
Watching you, the way you play  
That smile that lasts for days  
If it's my time to go  
I had you my love— forever  

[Pre-Chorus]  
The way you look at me  
Got me locked up   
your suit cuts right  
It’s you and me, forever after tonight  

[Chorus]  
It was you — always and forever   
From the moment we met, I knew  
I take your hand, I take your name  
It’s wild, but I’ve never felt the same  
It’s you, boy — all the way  
Yeah, it’s you  

[Verse 3]  
Didn’t need your name, just your hand  
To hold you like this, because I can  
No one needs to understand  
I'm here by your side, forever your man  

[Verse 4]  
The day I fell — hard, no mistake  
Smiled so much, my cheeks could break  
You talked like I wasn’t there  
But boy, don’t think I didn’t catch your stare  

[Verse 5]  
Walking away, I looked back  
And saw you staring at my ass like that  
You blushed, turned, played it cool  
But I knew, yeah, I knew the truth  

[musical interlude]  

[vocal Interlude]  
I was done with this town  
About to jump on the next gray hound  
walking, throwing stones  
I just didn’t know what to do...

It was you — saw my name  
Walked on down, sat at my side, said:  
“You’re not gonna leave,”  
I said, “Why not?”  

[Bridge]  
The sun’s going down, crickets so loud  
Could wake this town  
But you — you were my wave of silence  
And that’s when I saw your eyes  

“Because of me — that’s why you’re not gonna leaving.”  
You smiled, popped that gum  
Swung in and kissed me  
Like when we were young  

Everything stopped  
And I saw you for the first time  
Like I’d always known  
It was supposed to be you  

[Chorus – Refrain]  
It was you — it always had been you  
From the moment we met, I always knew  
Standing now before   
I take your hand and give you my word  
It’s you, boy — and all that I am  
Yeah, it’s you  

[Outro]  
It’s you  
It’s always been you  

🔻 Personal Reflection
By Īan / 4Me2BeFree
There’s a strange clarity that hits you when you realize the person you almost walked away from was always home.
I wrote this song during one of those late-night loops — replaying every conversation, every small moment I didn’t know was love at the time. The gum pop. The glance. The half-smile when he thought I wasn’t looking. It wasn’t loud — it was steady. And I almost missed it.

This song isn’t about fairytales. It’s about real love — the kind where timing sucks, where doubt gets loud, but somehow… you still show up.

Writing it helped me stop running. Singing it helped me feel proud of us.
And sharing it? That’s me saying: if you're still wondering whether it was him — it probably was.

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It's always been you

🔻 Song Insight
“Silence Inside” is a haunting journey through identity collapse, emotional ruin, and the ache of self-recognition. It’s a track that doesn’t ask for attention — it demands reckoning. Through distorted echoes, sonic wobble, and a broken narrator’s voice, the song captures that moment when memory no longer feels like your own. It's for anyone who’s ever looked in the mirror and thought, “I don’t know who I am anymore — and I’m terrified I never did.”
The lyrics unravel in a ghostlike procession — dissonant yet poetic — as if the speaker is trying to trace themselves through static, only to find fragments. The pain isn’t just heartbreak; it’s spiritual vandalism, left behind by someone who stole more than love. They took belief. They took you.
And this is the sound of fighting to reclaim it.

🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]  
You said I was the worst, but booked me first  
Talked of better class, but kept me rehearsed  
Thought I’d last forever, then turned and fled  
Now I’m walking down the aisle of regret  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Your excuses flow like rivers run dry  
Eyes wide open, but they never cry  
A shadowed maze behind your smile  
I slept in your hell for a little while  

[Chorus]  
It’s not my reflection staring back at me  
Just a ghost of what I used to be  
Every broken part, every lie you fed  
Now lives in the silence inside my head  
You take and twist, you run and hide  
But you can’t fake love in eyes that never cried  

[Verse 2]  
The stories you told were tunnels to fall  
Spun like a widow from a red-threaded call  
Your gaze was hollow, your touch was thin  
A darkness so loud I mistook it for sin  

[Pre-Chorus]  
You annihilate dreams like they owed you pain  
Blame the world, rinse, then start again  
But I was the canvas you scraped to the bone  
Now I sit in the wreckage, cold and alone  

[Chorus]  
It’s not my reflection staring back at me  
Just a ghost of what I used to be  
Every broken part, every lie you fed  
Now lives in the silence inside my head  
You take and twist, you run and hide  
But you can’t fake love in eyes that never cried  

[Bridge – spoken]  
I used to understand.  
Felt the world had space for me.  
Now I drift in memory fog,  
Holding pieces I can’t name.  
The child’s gone. The man’s still lost.  
And nothing feels the same.  

[Outro – falsetto]  
Don’t let go of what you had  
Before it fades, before it’s ash  
Before it’s gone... and it already has  
Before it’s gone... and it already has  

🔻 Personal Reflection (From Īan / 4Me2BeFree)
This song didn’t come from a place of heartbreak. It came from the ruins left behind when heartbreak becomes identity theft.
For a long time, I didn’t understand what I was grieving — I thought it was a relationship. But it wasn’t just the love I lost. It was myself. The self that bent to survive. The self that kept trying to rewrite the story to make someone else the hero. The self that disappeared quietly.

“Silence Inside” was my reckoning. It started with anger — a justified fury — but the deeper I went, the more I found confusion, shame, and a strange kind of numbness. Like looking in the mirror and realizing the reflection has no center.

The spoken part? That was the first thing I wrote. It wasn’t lyrics — it was confession.
The rest of the song came later, layered in with the realization that the damage was designed. That love, in the wrong hands, can be used like a weapon disguised as shelter.

I don’t know if I’ve fully reclaimed myself yet. But this song helped me name the silence. And now that it has a name, it doesn’t own me anymore.

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SILENCE INSIDE

VERSION : DOLBY ATMOS REMASTERISEES  
LANGUE : ENGLISH VERSION  
FIXATION : 2025  
ISRC : FR-9W1-25-41361  
ARTISTE : PHILIPPE JOUMARD  
SITE : www.philippejoumard.fr

« Rainbow Heartbeat » est une chanson vibrante et engagée portée par Philippe JOUMARD, artiste gay. À travers des paroles poétiques et des rythmes lumineux, elle célèbre l’amour universel, la liberté d’être soi, et la beauté des identités multiples. Entre les lumières de la ville et les battements du cœur, ce titre est un hymne inclusif, une invitation à danser sans peur, à aimer sans limites, et à briller fièrement..
Ce morceau a été généré avec Suno AI. 
Licence d’utilisation commerciale détenue par l’auteur. Déclaration signée disponible ici :
https://philippejoumard.fr/Licence_RainbowHeartbeat_PhilippeJoumard_2025.pdf

RAINBOW HEARTBEAT (DOLBY ATMOS REMASTERISEES)

🔻 Song Insight – "Sun Soaked" by 4Me2BeFree
“Sun Soaked” captures the golden glow of a perfect summer day — not just the weather, but the warmth between two people who finally stopped running and chose to live in love. It’s a track that radiates with carefree affection, laughter on a river, and hearts that found safety in each other.

But behind the charm is something more layered — the quiet acknowledgment that these moments don’t just happen. They’re chosen. Fought for. The song reflects on a time when love could’ve slipped away, but didn’t — when someone made the decision not to let happiness pass them by again.

Every line glides like sunlight over skin — nostalgic, giddy, and alive. Whether you’ve lived this moment, lost it, or long for it, “Sun Soaked” feels like a memory you didn’t know you missed until now.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
Mmm, yeah...
[softly]
Mmm, yeah...

[Verse 1]
River soaking in time
Rafting, laughing, you're by my side
Lazy days drift, hearts collide
Floating along, just you and I

[Chorus]
I knew it then — your eyes, that smile
The kind of love that stays a while
You thought I was dreaming, maybe high
But I planned this life under open sky

[Verse 2]
You thought I was joking, maybe smoking
Token thoughts from days unspoken
But I saw us here, way back when
And swore I wouldn’t miss my chance again

[Chorus]
It’s this kind of life you shouldn't pass
Sun on our skin, toes in the grass
I'm not gonna lie — this is bliss
Don’t let it go, don’t miss this kiss

[Bridge]
So give it a go, give it a try
Love wild, love true, don't question why
Floating on hope in the summer sky
We gave this life a try — you and I

[Chorus]
It’s this kind of life you shouldn't pass
Sun on our skin, toes in the grass
I'm not gonna lie — this is bliss
Don’t let it go, don’t miss this kiss

[Outro]
Yeah…
This is the way love feels alive.

🔻 Personal Reflection
This one came from a rare place — not pain, but peace.

Sun Soaked was born on a quiet day, floating down a river with someone who made everything feel easy. There was no fight, no past tension — just the joy of being right where I was. That’s a feeling I had spent years chasing and, more honestly, years sabotaging.

I wanted this song to be a reminder — to myself and anyone listening — that love doesn’t always arrive with fireworks. Sometimes, it shows up in the way someone laughs beside you. In how they hold your hand when you're not asking for anything. I’ve missed too many chances before. This time, I didn’t.

And if you’re reading this, wondering if it’s too late — it’s not. Float toward what’s real. Even if it scares you.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
For 4Me2BeFree, Sun Soaked is a bright chapter in a catalog often filled with shadows. It’s not a departure — it’s a moment of light peeking through the same lens of introspection and honesty. The project is about storytelling, transformation, and raw truth, whether that truth breaks you down or builds you up.

This song is a celebration of presence — of finally being in the right place with the right heart. It's for anyone who’s fought hard to be free and finally found someone worth slowing down for.

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Sun Soaked

🔻 Song Insight
"These Streets" is a slow-burn confessional set against a cinematic jazz-soul backdrop with a haunting urban undertow. Blending 1950s cool jazz textures with smooth hip-hop phrasing and reverb-laced spoken word, the song explores the emotional residue left behind in places where old versions of ourselves still linger. It’s not about crying in the moment — it’s about realizing that the cry never came, and maybe it never will.
Lyrically, the song traces physical streets as emotional markers — each block, each intersection holding memories that used to comfort, now just echo. Over layered female vocals, deliberate rap phrasing, and a vinyl-crackled outro, “These Streets” walks through grief not as a breakdown but as a quiet, cinematic acceptance.

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[Intro] [Female Vocals]  
Feeling cracked like these streets...

[Verse 1] [Female Vocals]  
Where nothing wants to meet  
Parts gone missing — it’s a forfeit  
No messages, no orbit  
Just broken scripts, I can’t absorb it  

[Verse 2] [Female Vocals]  
It creeps in, slow —  
Not green, not growth  
Just static under my skin  
Can't decode where I begin  

[Hook] [Duet] [Vocoder]  
Cracked like these streets we never meet  
Faded lines, broken beats  
Truth don’t speak, but it repeats  
Still ridin’ solo on dead-end heat  

[Verse 3] [Female Vocals]  
Faces drift in a sea  
Images still haunting me  
Tiny moments in a well of time  
Stuttered blinks, jagged lines  
A frame I still rewind  

[Bridge] [Male Rap] [Echo Trail]  
Got cracks in my soul like the pavement split  
Talkin’ past lives I can’t admit  
Used to grip tight, now I let it slip  
Life hit hard and I didn’t flinch  

Took the long route through memory lanes  
Street signs bent, still spell my name  
It’s a shame — he played the game  
But I’m still here, not just the same  

Six feet deep in metaphor  
Breathe that in, then close the door  
But every chord still rings with war  
Every step still keeps the score  

[Verse 4] [Female Solo] [Heavy Reverb]  
City lights don’t blink back  
Clouds sit heavy, skies fade black  
I try to hold it in —  
But what’s the point  
When you don’t win  

[Hook – repeat] [Duet] [Vocoder]  
Cracked like these streets we never meet  
Faded lines, broken beats  
Truth don’t speak, but it repeats  
Still ridin’ solo on dead-end heat  

[Outro] [Male Spoken Word] [Vinyl Crackle] [Echo Trail]  
Feeling cracked like these streets  
Where they no longer meet  
Parts broken, stolen — it’s a forfeit  
No longer a conversation, no longer legit  
...  
Each turn, a winding road  
Alone, I ride  
Farewell to these parts  
That no longer spark  
A fire turned inward...  
Igniting the freedom  
That you set free.


🔻 Personal Reflection
I wrote “These Streets” after a drive through Richmond — the place where my past used to breathe beside me. What hit hardest wasn’t what I remembered — it was what I didn’t feel. I knew exactly where the emotion should've lived. I even had the moment queued in my mind: “And this is where you cry.” But it never happened.
The streets still held the echoes, but the comfort was gone. There was no cinematic breakdown — just a quiet realization that the version of me who used to belong there… doesn’t anymore. And maybe that’s healing. Or maybe that’s just time doing what it does.
So I took that numbness and laid it down like track marks. Beat by beat. Verse by verse. “These Streets” is the result of that drive home — no longer looking for closure, just acknowledging the distance.


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These Streets

Country Chilled Vibe That You Can Relax And Chill And Drift Away With Your Thoughts 100% Gay Artist LGBTQ ✌❤

I Will Change For You

🎵 Song Insight: “Not Today”
🔻 Song Insight
 “Not Today” is a quiet act of defiance. Told in hushed tones, drawn-out hums, and emotionally restrained verses, the song becomes a eulogy for voices too often ignored — those misnamed, misgendered, displaced, erased. Each vignette tells the story of someone forgotten not because of what they did, but because of who they were. It’s not loud. It doesn’t scream. Instead, it asks listeners to sit in the silence… and finally hear it.
This isn’t just a protest song — it’s a cinematic memory wall, a concrete lament textured with vinyl crackle, rain, and raw human breath. The “mmm” motif is more than a hum; it’s the sound of being told to be quiet — and choosing not to.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro:
MMM—MMM—
MMM—MMM—

Verse 1: Powerful:
 Once there was a boy who
 Crossed out every label he didn’t choose
 And when he spoke the name he knew
 The silence wasn’t something new
“he spoke his name”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Verse 2: Powerful:
 Once there was a woman
 Who thought the papers meant she could belong
 But when the knock came late that night
 The flag outside no longer stood strong
—”no longer”— “longer”
 —”stood”— “no no no” 

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Verse 3: Powerful:
 Once there was a student
 Who asked a question no one else would say
 And when the cameras came around
 They took her sign and walked away
“Away- away- away” — “walked away”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”
“Un—til” — “to—day”

Bridge: Powerful:
A home built from borrowed names
Hands held tight through sleepless nights
Morning sun ignites the dark
Shadows run — but leave their mark
“Sha—dows” “ru—n”  “leaving their mark”

Chorus:
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— it’s fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
— we’re fine
ahhh—MMM—
ahhh—ooo—
they’ll say
It’s fine. 
“It’s fine”. —
You’re fine.
“You’re fine”— 
Until  today.—
“To-oda-ay”

Outro: Powerful:
 By being silenced—
 By being shunned—
 By being erased—
 Because of name—
 Because of body—
 Because of love—
 Because of borders—
 Because of books—
 Because of fear—
 Because of flags—
 Because of a history they didn’t make—
 Still, we are here
“ Still, we are here”
“Here– here– here–”
MMM—MMM—
MMM—MMM—

🔻 Personal Reflection
 This song began as a murmur — not a melody, not even a line. Just a gut feeling.
Two years ago, I lost everything I thought was permanent. On July 4th, when most people were celebrating, I was learning how quickly silence can take over your life. That kind of silence doesn’t just come from grief. It comes from being erased.
“Not Today” came from nights of thinking about the people who never got to speak up — those who were named incorrectly, misgendered, dismissed, or quietly pushed out. People like me. People nothing like me. People who still deserve to be heard.
I didn’t want this to be polished. I wanted it to feel real. That’s why I kept the breath. That’s why we leaned into restraint. That’s why the hums linger longer than the words. Because sometimes the sound that stays with you is the one you couldn’t say.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
 With “Not Today,” 4Me2BeFree continues our mission: to take the unspeakable and give it voice — quietly, cinematically, and unapologetically human.
This track is part of a broader creative arc that blends memory, protest, and personal transformation into immersive soundscapes. We don’t write to follow genre. We write to follow feeling.

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Not Today

🎵 The Day the Thunder Fell
by 4Me2BeFree

🔻 Song Insight
This song is a quiet collapse—one that doesn’t scream, but sinks. The Day the Thunder Fell captures the stillness after a devastating moment, when life shifts and you’re left holding something that was never given the chance to be. It’s about loss at its most personal level, wrapped in echo, memory, and unspoken grief.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
rain
The thunder rolled
It was after the show
No lights came down
Just another soul

[Verse 1]
Hope lingered
And then we were told
The ending held back
A life we couldn't grow

Trouble broke this silent ground
Union cracked with iron sound
Loops no longer held
Just truths were found
With stillness
An echo rang
We bowed out
Of what we couldn’t bring

[Pre-Chorus]
We stared at the screen
It no longer moved
Where our future lived
Now only stillness proved

[Chorus]
Leaving us
Together, alone
Each with a knowing
Of what was gone
Eyes streamed pain
You could see
This ending
Built inside our chests

[Verse 2]
Pacing floors
Worn and torn at the seams
Under falling skies
I fought through guilt—not dreams
Slammed doors
Fired screams
Desperate sounds
From collapsing beams

[Pre-Chorus]
Static love, resting underground
Confusion rising
From the walls all around

[Chorus]
Leaving us
Together, alone
Each with a knowing
Of what was gone
Eyes streamed pain
You could see
This ending
Built inside our chests

[Bridge]
Walking away with one less
A hollowness we can’t suppress
This loss became our home
We each carried the stone

Putting weight on backs that break
A heart that held all we could take
His life
Her earth
Now both are gone
A mother, father
Brother, son
This place inside
Now undone

[Verse 3]
A darkness falls in every drop
Tears from a broken lott
Black and shamed
Alone, we sleep
Mouthing a name
That didn’t get to be

[Pre-Chorus]
Cold walls, falling ceilings
In this bed we try
To forgive what peace once was
And say goodbye

[Chorus – Final Refrain]
Leaving us
Together, alone
With memories carved
Into bone
What never lived
Still made its mark
A silent child
In a world gone dark

[Outro]
rain
As we drift
To a place
That never will exist

🔻 Personal Reflection
There’s not much I want to say beyond what the song already does. This was a day that never left me. A choice. A hope. A silence. And a goodbye that didn’t come with words. I don’t share this to be understood—I share it because it’s mine. And maybe it belongs to someone else out there too. If you’ve ever carried grief that had no beginning or end, you’ll know what I mean.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track represents what 4Me2BeFree is about—telling stories that are too heavy for everyday words. The project exists to turn emotional truth into music that feels lived-in, not polished. This isn’t pop for playlists. This is sound for the soul, shaped by real pain, real love, and real memory.

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The Day the Thunder Fell

🔻 Song Insight
"Within the Maze" drifts between emotional fragmentation and unexpected clarity. It captures the moment when you're lost not just in your mind, but in the quiet wreckage of a relationship that used to ground you. Each lyric feels like turning a corner without knowing what you'll find—love, fear, memory, or escape. There's no map. Just the rhythm of two souls trying to feel their way back to something real. This is vulnerability rendered in distortion and echo.


🔻 Personal Reflection
I wrote “Within the Maze” during a time when I couldn’t tell if I was healing… or hiding. The maze is real—it’s your head, your heart, your past. Sometimes you think you’re getting closer to peace, only to hit another wall made of doubt or memory. This track wasn’t about resolution. It was about staying with the feeling long enough to find something true inside it. The lyrics aren’t meant to explain. They’re meant to echo.

This one came out fast, but it hurt in slow motion.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
For 4Me2BeFree, this song represents the in-between space—where clarity is just out of reach but you keep walking anyway. Every track we make is layered with rawness, noise, and memory. “Within the Maze” leans fully into that instability and still dares to sound beautiful. That’s what we’re about: cinematic imperfection, emotional truth, and music that doesn’t need to resolve in order to matter.

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Within the maze


Jeter son dévolu sur un set qui débute dans les méandres d’un hôtel d’un autre genre. Ce décor un peu kitsch et flou 🎞️ nous entraîne vers la piscine, où résonnent des sonorités plus estivales 🌊 – jusqu’à peut-être croiser nos amis G-boys de la circuit party. Puis, cap sur Berlin, pour y retrouver mon cœur, probablement échoué sur le sol sale d’un club quelconque 🖤.

Setting my sights on a mix that starts in the winding halls of a hotel of a different kind. The slightly kitschy, blurred vibe 🎞️ pulls us toward the pool, where warmer, summery sounds ripple 🌊 — maybe even crossing paths with our G-boy friends from the circuit party. Then, it’s off to Berlin, to find my heart, probably lost on the dirty floor of some random club 🖤.

Der Fokus liegt auf einem Set, das in den verschlungenen Gängen eines ungewöhnlichen Hotels beginnt. Diese leicht kitschige, verschwommene Atmosphäre 🎞️ führt uns zum Pool, wo sommerliche Klänge erklingen 🌊 – vielleicht treffen wir sogar unsere G-Boy-Freunde von der Circuit Party. Dann geht’s weiter nach Berlin, um mein Herz wiederzufinden, vermutlich verloren auf dem schmutzigen Boden irgendeines Clubs 🖤.

THL

TAT-AHM-THL @ KAURI (GE) 29/05/25

🔻 Song Insight – Chambers Loaded
By 4Me2BeFree

“Chambers Loaded” is a slow-motion collapse. It’s a track that paints the fragility of identity when image becomes armor and self-worth gets traded for designer labels and synthetic highs. Lyrically, it’s a walk through a city built from denial — where each streetlight flickers above a foundation cracking from the inside.

There’s a sense of watching someone in freefall while pretending they’re ascending. The verses glide through fashion and facades, but the pre-chorus hits like a shot in the dark: “It’s a revolver playing roulette.” And you know the chamber’s loaded — not with bullets, but with regret, addiction, and the weight of choices never claimed.

Musically, it's built like a dreamscape unraveling in reverse — each section adds density, distortion, and emotional decay. The final moments are unnervingly calm. Not peaceful. Just... inevitable.

[Verse 1]  
You can wear the buildings  
Put the streets on one leg at a time  
It doesn't change you —  
Doesn't change the man within  

Lips plumped and eyebrows plucked  
Hair prepared while none down there  
Shoes shimmer and shine  
Gucci and Louis Vuitton  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Brands trace a silhouette  
It’s a revolver playing roulette  
Chambers loaded — a cloak of regret  

[Verse 2]  
Picking colors to blend  
Shades to mask what’s within  
Just a charade  

Layers built a scaffold  
Of what you knew well  
Bring me in —  
Make the way —  
It’s hell you pick, you chose today  

[Chorus]  
What’s condemned, broken within  
Walls fall — no structure to stall  
What once stood tall  
Just papier-mâché  
A fragile shell  
Crippled as you fall  

[Bridge]  
Sinking down, folded  
A self-built town  
A fortress of deceit  
Now lays at your feet  

Streets pour like blood  
Empty emotions and drugs  
A zombie land you walk in  

[Outro]  
Passed-out motions, mechanical actions  
Subtraction habits, distraction attractions  
You bend  
Sinking in  
A graceful escape —  
The end was your only friend  

🔻 4Me2BeFree
“Chambers Loaded” continues 4Me2BeFree’s mission to tell stories that cut beneath the aesthetic. Our music isn’t just sound — it’s emotional architecture.

We build with distortion, vulnerability, layers, and space. Every song is a scene. Every lyric a line of dialogue. This track is part of a bigger arc: one that dismantles illusions and walks through what’s left behind.

It’s not clean. It’s not comfortable. But it’s real. And that’s what matters.

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Chambers Loaded

🔻 Song Insight

"Redemption In Shadows" is a raw meditation on betrayal, emotional decay, and the fragile line between healing and collapse. It unfolds like a whispered confession from the ruins—where memory isn’t just haunting, but poisonous. The song lives in the tension between silence and eruption. Each verse spirals inward before collapsing into stark, echo-laced refrains. This isn’t about forgiveness; it’s about naming the wound so it stops festering. For anyone who’s ever survived the gaslight, the overdose, or the slow erosion of truth, this track is your mirror.


🔻 Lyrics

[Verse 1]
You wrap me
inside out
tethered fear
battle torn
spilled and worn

[Verse 2]
Forsaken now
tokens of blood I shed
leaving whispers
trails in your dredge

[Chorus]
Earth pulled beneath my feet
What began in love ends in grief
I lay here bare
A history I keep

[Verse 3]
Dark night clouds
A world left undone
Thunder rolls
Forever alone

[Bridge]
Eyes alight
Forsaken and drowned
Clipped closed, broken
A voice never spoken

[Verse 4]
Redemption in shadows
Past a place not embraced
No trace of love or guilt
With nothing felt

[Chorus 2]
Slow motion life
Tracking your lies
A history never owned
Your truth: a darkness
It's death you postpone

[Outro]
No grave could hold your shame

🔻 Personal Reflection

There was a time when I thought love could survive anything. That if I just stayed long enough, quieted myself enough, maybe they'd come back to the version of them I first met. But instead, I watched myself unravel. "Redemption In Shadows" came from a place of clarity that only arrives after the collapse—when you finally see how much of yourself you gave up trying to keep the peace.

Writing this wasn’t catharsis. It was documentation. A forensic memory of the lies I swallowed and the parts of me that died in silence. The dredge is real—the emotional sludge left behind when someone poisons your sense of self. And still, I kept chasing closure from someone who had already left emotionally years before they physically disappeared.

This track is me refusing to let that kind of erasure happen again. It doesn’t forgive, but it reclaims.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

At 4Me2BeFree, we don’t write songs to fix things. We write them to witness them. "Redemption In Shadows" is a sonic autopsy of emotional abandonment. It’s jagged, unstable, and intentionally unpolished—because that’s how grief feels. Our work exists in that cinematic tension where the story doesn’t wrap up cleanly, but still leaves a mark. This track is part of our ongoing mission: to turn lived experience into layered soundscapes that reflect real pain, survival, and eventual reclamation.

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Redemption In Shadows

💪🔥More than muscle, more than rage — this is a body built to fight back.🎧 ‘Muscles for a Reason’ is not just a dance track, it’s a war cry. 🏳️‍⚧️ A trans man's anthem against toxic masculinity, forged in sweat, truth, and defiance. 🔊 Turn it up. ✊ Take space. 💥 Own the floor
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💪🔥 Plus que du muscle, plus que de la rage — c’est un corps construit pour résister.
🎧 “Muscles for a Reason” n’est pas juste un son pour danser, c’est un cri de guerre.
🏳️‍⚧️ Un hymne trans contre la masculinité toxique, forgé dans la sueur, la vérité et la révolte.
🔊 Monte le son. ✊ Prends ta place. 💥 Fais trembler le sol.

Muscles for a reason

🔻 Song Insight
“Past-Life” is a raw emotional reckoning wrapped in alt-rock and rap-rock grit. It captures the psychological aftermath of a toxic love—the kind that doesn't just leave you, but embeds itself in your nervous system like a ghost with a key to your triggers. The song moves like a confession in reverse: distorted guitar swells mirror inner chaos, while sharp rap verses detail a mind unraveling under betrayal and abandonment. Each chorus is a collapsed heartbeat—a scream into the silence left behind. It’s a sonic filmstrip of pain, stitched with the thread of self-resurrection.

Lyrically, it speaks to survivors of emotional abuse, those who’ve been gaslit, left behind, and made to question their own worth. The metaphor of a sweater unraveling into a noose is not just poetic—it's personal. "Past-Life" isn’t just about what happened. It’s about what you carry long after, when love has turned into a prison you still can’t fully escape.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro – Rap flow, lo-fi beat under vocals]
vinyl crackle
deep inhale
Pulled from the back seat, cold hands shake
Didn’t let go, didn’t know it was fake
Promises gone like fog in the night
Left again—gotta relive the fight

[Verse 1 – Rap continues, heavy guitar stabs]
List full of ghosts that I can’t resist
Why I can’t tell when the lie gets kissed
Saw it in your eyes—I froze, dismissed
You took my past, made it your hitlist

[Pre-Chorus – Shift to sung, tension builds]
Pulled from hell, you enlisted
Seeing truth you thought unseen
Scars a record, scorn a war
Pain torn and trapped in walls

[Chorus – Soaring and melodic]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Refrain – Echo effect possible]
Call me desperate—it’s true
My fault for ever loving you

[Verse 2 – Back to sung, emotional tension]
Can’t say I’m ready—it’s been years
I can’t trust, it’s just built-in fear
I know I’m worth more than this
I give my heart a history—it fits

[Pre-Chorus – Softer, more internal]
Lungs hit and bleed, no air
Feeling parts of me now not clear
The pain I used to feel—yeah, it's real
And it owns me still

[Chorus – Return to full energy]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Bridge – Distorted, delayed vocals]
Energy seeps from my pores
Falling down across the floors
I see chaos in my midst
Echoes of a life I don’t miss

A truth that gets stuck and pulls
This sweater I wear — it unwinds
As it loops it binds
A noose killing me in time

[Breakdown – Stripped vocals, wide reverb]
My voice... rip-torn from this world
Closed—I’m trying to let this go
Splintered but needing a spine
These growing pains stop in time

[Chorus – Final repeat, vocals stacked]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Outro – Slow fade, heartbeat & feedback]
Can’t explain what shouldn’t be said
A past life lived, a version of hell
You’ll never see what I had to feel
My own worst prison...
These bars I still keep sealed

heartbeat fades
guitar feedback lingers



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past-life

🔻 Song Insight – “Walmart Superstar”
“Walmart Superstar” is a spontaneous love story set in one of the most unlikely places ..... the fluorescent-lit aisles of a Southern Walmart. 

This song was born from something real .... a brief but beautiful moment between two guys who finally met after months of online connection. We didn't have much time. We didn’t meet in a candlelit café. We met in a Walmart in the middle of a Southern town on a hot ass day!
I was in cut-offs and a black tee, nervous as hell. He dropped a pin. I got an Uber. And for thirty minutes, everything around us faded. We walked, talked, kissed ...... not caring who stared. That moment reminded me that connection doesn’t have to be perfect or polished. Sometimes it just has to be real.

This song is my way of immortalizing that short, messy, beautiful night — and maybe reminding someone out there that they deserve to be seen too, even if it’s in aisle nine.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
Phone Notification
 Dropped a pin in the parking lot
 Said, “I’m fifteen out” — I Ubered on the spot

[Verse 1]
You’re my Walmart superstar
 I didn’t drive — just called a car
 Cut-off shorts, black tee — not tryin’ to play smart
 I knew I’d know your face, wanted to know your heart
Uber rolled up, driver knew the deal
 Took me faster than time could feel
 My hands were shaky, mind on blast
 One shot moment — could it last?

[Chorus]
Down the aisles we strolled real slow
 Talked like no one else would know
 Your lips said more than words could try
 One kiss in and I touched the sky
 You're my center, you're my spark
 You lit me up in that Walmart dark

[Verse 2]
You tracked my fumes, not just a game
 Not a plot or trick, you felt the same
 Every glance was heat, every move—alarm
 Couldn’t resist your lips, your arms
I kissed you once, you kissed me back
 Felt like lightning, no holding back
 We laughed in lanes where people stared
 Didn’t care, 'cause love was there

[Chorus]
Down the aisles we strolled real slow
 Talked like no one else would know
 Your lips said more than words could try
 One kiss in and I touched the sky
 You're my center, you're my spark
 You lit me up in that Walmart dark

[Bridge]
It's a teaser, wild heart’s dream
 Escaping this old masquerade scene
 Lay new roots on solid ground
 A love worth more than markdowns

[Rap Section]
No flashing blue light — that’s Kmart, babe
 I ain’t on clearance, I’m the whole damn wave
 White gold plated, not turning green
 This Southern heat got me feelin’ seen
I don’t need leather or a gag and ball
 Just low-cut cotton — I’m ready to fall
 Ankle socks on, had me weak in the knees
 That boy’s got me beggin' like “please and cheese”

[Pause – beat drops low]
 This ain’t no hook-up, it ain’t that cheap
 Ain’t classy either, but it runs real deep
 Two dudes kissin’ by the freezer aisle
 Got these rednecks squintin’ like it’s X-Files
Aisle 9 cleanup — someone spilled the tea
 Mop and bucket ain't enough for me
 I’m all aglow, lit like a sign
 We makin' love in a Walmart line
We kissed by the planters and bug spray display
 Country boys passed but had nothin’ to say
 Sun hit his face like a clearance light
 Felt low-key wrong but it felt so right
Stockroom dreams and country heat
 Love don't ask for a velvet seat
 If this is wrong, we still showed up
 Barcodes be damned, go ring this up

[Outro]
Your arms were soft, your kiss a fire
 A moment real, not some satire
 Stocking love on every shelf
 No barcode needed—just be yourself
Didn’t know if I could hold it
 It’s a moment — won’t you know it
 It showed both of us all aglow
 Could make it an aisle clean


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Walmart Superstar

🔻 Song Insight
Some stories aren’t written to be understood—they’re lived, endured, and eventually sung. "Worth Telling" unfolds like a whispered memory, unsure if it should exist out loud. It wrestles with truth, fear, and the unspoken tug of something fragile becoming real. This isn’t about clean endings or perfect arcs—it’s about what lingers between the lines. A heart at the edge. A hand almost reaching back. The weight of maybe.

With textures of emotional contradiction—yearning, restraint, defiance—the track invites listeners to step into a mind caught between undoing and becoming. It’s not meant to answer your questions. Just to echo the ones you're still afraid to ask.

🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I close my eyes—I hear your sound
Heartbeat echo, in sync with mine
Your warmth wraps me, full surround
A moment caught I won’t erase

[Pre-Chorus]
It was you who cracked the truth
The way you stayed, that subtle proof
Phone screen lit—I write, then erase
Drafting words I’m scared to say

[Chorus]
I don’t want to let this go—it’s taken hold
I see the cracks, all the ways this could fold
But I still want to be something worth telling
Something that stays—cut loose from the past we’re shelling

[Verse 2]
I’m not broken—but I’ve got breaks
Still tied down by old mistakes
Feelings flood—I can’t slow them down
If I leap... will I hit the ground?

[Bridge]
Wrap me tight—let the fear take flight
Break down these walls
I’m screaming inside but I don’t show
Please—just tell me you know...

[Breakdown]
I’m lost at sea—no compass, no map
Blindfold on, heart in a trap
Break this / make this / be this
I’m tired of truths that contradict

[Chorus – Repeat]
I don’t want to let this go—it’s taken hold
I see the cracks, all the ways this could fold
But I still want to be something worth telling
Something that stays—cut loose from the past we’re shelling

[Outro]
When wishes become plain
When kings lose crowns in rain
When skies fade from blue to gray
And wealth dissolves without a name

I hope you know—this isn’t gold
It’s just a home
A place to lay your head, be warm
A wish come true—to feel, and not perform

🔻 Personal Reflection
There are parts of me I’ll never write out loud. This song brushes up against them.
Worth Telling isn’t about confession. It’s about the tension of wanting to be seen, but not fully. Of knowing that something real is possible—but only if it survives all the quiet tests we never admit we’re giving.
Some lyrics are just placeholders for fear. And some moments, no matter how small, feel like they’re screaming with meaning. This song holds a few of mine.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
Every 4Me2BeFree track walks the line between cinematic soundscape and journal entry. Worth Telling continues that path—unpolished, real, and emotionally suspended. It’s not a perfect narrative. It’s a feeling frozen mid-fall. This is what we do: make the unspoken visible, the unsayable melodic.

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Worth Telling

🔻 Song Insight
MOIST is a sweaty, neon-lit fever dream — a glitchy, erotic carnival ride where desire, power, and performance collide. It’s a song that doesn’t seduce politely — it throws you onto the dance floor, dares you to watch, and demands that you obey. Wrapped in the cinematic grime of 70s adult cinema and queer nightlife, MOIST explores transactional intimacy, fetishized control, and the freedom found in roleplay and release. Every line throbs with tension — between pleasure and vulnerability, dominance and consent, watching and being watched.

This isn't about love. It's about spectacle. About the raw, unfiltered mess of lust and longing that can feel more honest than tenderness ever could. MOIST refuses to be palatable — and that's exactly the point.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
I want his sex for free
They want her sex for free
He wants their sex for free
Them... yeah... sex for free

Token accepted—press—my—button
Choose—your party—
Accepted.
Enjoy the ride.
Know your status and buckle that condom

[Verse 1]
Drops and you drip, watch me drown
These streams run, sweat by the pound
Smell your skin, I touch myself
Can’t help this—you get me stuck
Yeah, all I want to do is f**k

"Look into my eyes"
"Boys don’t cry—they beg"
Fall down into me, on your knees
Lip out pouting, innocent tease
And yes, you may proceed
Grab that leash, pull you in

"Sit back. Watch how this is done...sun."
Your head leans back
Eyes that cannot see
Fabric thick, tactile world
Trust me bold, hold it tight
Make you beg, make you bite

"You like to watch me... don't you?"
Let’s see tonight
How far will you go?
Take that off...
Slowly...
Don’t f**k up the show...
Now arch that back
Now slap slap that ass

"What's my name? What's my name?"

[Verse 2]
It’s hard to see your needs
While I’m stuck on mine
Come calm my nerve, make it shine

"You act like you know... but you don’t"
Call me daddy if you’re ready to go
Jump on top, I’m ready to flow
Hold those arms back, can’t reach
It’s me you need, now say—
"Oh Daddy—pleeease!"

"I’ll be your bitch tonight"
"I’ll be your bitch for free"

[Bridge]
Focus our passion in motion
Don’t look back, drink my potion
Your world spins, feeling a need
On cruise control, pulling on your leads

"I caught you watching"
"Stared a little too long"
Fireworks hold no flame
Fast tearing up the night
Keep that ass just like that
Make me bite, make me fight
It’s you I want, oh so tight

[Outro]
"You wanna shake it? Hah—baby, it ain’t gonna shake itself."
"It’s the dance floor, not a damn waiting room!"
"Can I help you, Sir—or are you just gonna stand there lookin’ confused?"
"People always up in my business like I asked for a co-star."
"Boy, if you don't drop it low in the next 3 seconds, I’m rebooting your whole personality."


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SEX for FREE

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

🎧 Électro queer pour danser, penser, casser les murs.

🧊 LaPolèr – Le son du froid qui brûle.

🔊 Trans, techno, vérité. DIY et déterminé.

💥 Grenoble, basses & revendications.

💡 Pas de genre, que du son.

"Danser,c'est résister" ou c'est peut être penser,je sais plus trop



Welsh singer and songwriter in Scotland just processing his shit through music 😉

Instagram: @_benphilpott

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