Love hurts—but without self love, there's only self harm.
Every heartbeat’s a bruise, every memory a blade turned inward.
For those who crave the ache as proof they still exist… call 1-800-GOD-PAIN.
Because sometimes, loving too hard is just another way to bleed.

Self Harm (Poete Maudit)(Prod. By Lilac Beats)

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Drake x Gordo - Healing Elijay Taylor Extended Mix

Overview
Released: 2024
Artists: Drake, Gordo
Album: DIAMANTE
Genres: Dance/Electronic, UK R&B

Healing - Elijay Taylor [Extended Mix]

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Saddest tale on land and on sea
David slayed the man of Bethsheeba
And I sinned, I done did the deed
Oh regret, I did myself in

Stages of change, precontemplated
Now understand, I am thy servant man

Wherefore I go, you shan't come with
This is what I learnt on Christmas Eve
Maybe the certainty, the knowing I'm of him
Maybe it'll cleanse me from my disease
No more pain, there will be peace in the valley

Cheat and I stole and I cheated
'f I confess, I won't be convicted

Never to be, so much anguished
Teophany, blues of the vanquished

Wherefore I go, you shan't come with
This is what I learnt on Christmas Eve
Maybe the certainty, the knowing I'm of Him
Maybe it'll cleanse me from my disease
No more pain, there will be peace

Wherefore I go
This is what I learnt
On Christmas eve
Oh no (Oh there will be)
Na na na na na na (In the valley for me)
Na na na na na na (In the valley for me)
Na na na na na na (In the valley for me)
Na na na na na na (Glory Hallelu)

(this is what i learnt) on christmas eve

“Dark Mind” is a heavy emotional track that dives straight into the thoughts you try to escape. It’s about battling the shadows in your head, the fear, the numbness, and the memories that won’t stay buried. The song captures the feeling of being trapped inside yourself with no clear way out.

Haunting vocals and a cold atmosphere make this one hit deep for anyone who’s ever felt their mind turning against them.

#darkmind #sad #emotional #dark #pain #raw #real #depressing #mentalhealth

Dark Mind

You Are A King In His Garden - Du bist ein König im Garten.

König im Garten

“The Only Way to Love You Now” is a heartbreak confession from a man who realizes too late that love isn’t about holding on—it’s about stepping aside so the person you hurt can finally heal.

Over a slow-burning alt-country/Americana backdrop, Kade Merrin walks through the wreckage of a relationship he couldn’t stop breaking, owning every scar he left behind. This song lives in the space between apology and acceptance, where you’d “burn every bridge… just to unburn one with you,” but know deep down that the kindest thing you can do is let them go.

If you’ve ever watched someone you love finally find peace without you—and had to learn that real love sometimes means disappearing from their story—this one’s for you. Turn it up, sit with the lyrics, and let it hurt in all the right ways

© 2025 Kade Merrin (Mark Beegle). All rights reserved.
Written by Mark Beegle Registered with ASCAP.
Unauthorized reproduction, distribution, or use of this recording is prohibited.

The Only Way to Love You Now

God in the Mirror

#stayrealstaytrue. 
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I am an artist shaped by real life using reality to master what's  not—heartbreak, redemption, and the long road back to truth.
I started writing music as a way to make sense of the world around me: the people I’ve loved, the mistakes I’ve owned, and the hope I still chase. Every song I create is built on honesty—raw stories pulled from the deepest parts of my life. From dark piano ballads to acoustic confessions, my music is where regret meets healing and where the human heart finds its voice again.

I’m not trying to be perfect—I’m just trying to be real. My journey hasn’t been easy, but it’s given me something better than perfection: perspective. If my songs can make someone feel understood, less alone, or brave enough to face their own truth, then I’ve done what I came here to do.


Haunt is an artist built from pain, honesty, and raw emotion. His music dives deep into heartbreak, trauma, and the shadows most people hide from. Every song feels like a confession vulnerable, heavy, and real. Haunt blends haunting melodies with dark storytelling, creating a sound that hits straight to the soul.

His lyrics speak for the broken, the lost, and the ones who feel too much. Nothing is sugar-coated. Nothing is fake. Haunt is the voice of the thoughts you hear at 3AM when the world goes quiet.

This is music you feel, not just listen to.

☎️1-800-GOD-PAIN💾💽🛋

Contact/Booking: zaneden@gmail.com 
Links Below!

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