lyrics:
I'm sick of living this way
Lighting up cigarettes from the ashtray
Just to go and lie to your face
Some kinda dick i am
Id cry my heart out if i wasn't scared of the truth
Hitting you
Whiskey in my throat can't get it down
Throwing up on your nightgown
Are you proud that i quit i didn't quit shit
It's hard to admit to myself
I'm the problem im the reason it’s toxic
I wasn't made for a relationship
Robbing the ashtray
Like i'm robbing your heart
I wanna go get a job a brand new start
Id just buy drugs i know that
But it's fun to lie to yourself
It’s fun to give yourself hell
It's fun to say you need help
The cigarettes say i'm not doing too well

ashtray robbery

KNOTS

tomorrow is monday.
let it be friday already
and repeat
and repeat

Self Torture

DIE ALREADY

ใครที่มักมีความรู้สึกว่า ทำอะไรก็ยังไม่ดีไม่เป็นที่พอใจสักอย่าง รู้สึกแย่ ชอบเอาตัวเองไปเปรียบเทียบกับคนอื่น มีแฟนก็ยังรู้สึกว่าไม่เหมาะกับเขาหรือเขาดีเกินไป เขาควรได้คบกับคนที่ดีกว่านี้ ฯลฯ ระวังให้ดีนี่อาจกลายเป็น ภาวะเกลียดตัวเอง (Self-hatred)อาการและความรู้สึกต่าง ๆ ที่เกิดจากการคิดว่าตัวเองนั้นยังไม่ดีต่อสิ่งใดสิ่งหนึ่งหรือหลาย ๆ สิ่งจนนำไปสู่การเกลียดตัวเอง ทำไมยังทำไม่ได้ ทำไมยังไม่ดีพอ ในทางการแพทย์ยังไม่ถือว่าเป็นโรคทางจิตเวช เป็นความรู้สึกส่วนบุคคลเท่านั้น แต่ทำไมเราจึงมีความคิดความรู้สึกแบบนี้ ปรับหรือแก้ไขอย่างไร รายการ โรงหมอ

โรงหมอ 2024 EP. 1047: คิดว่าตัวเองยังไม่ดีพอ จุดเริ่มต้น "ภาวะเกลียดตัวเอง"

free direct dl.
v1. 1st version. free ver. idk.

https://www.instagram.com/vortexisanidiot?igsh=YXZkdTYzaGNtcGJz
https://www.instagram.com/vortexisanidiot?igsh=YXZkdTYzaGNtcGJz
https://www.instagram.com/vortexisanidiot?igsh=YXZkdTYzaGNtcGJz

i know you understand (1st “you really gotta hate yourself to death to listen to this” ver.) [free]

My little brother sent me a sample, and I record my least distorted vocals ever over what I did with it.

Do You Really Want More Cops?

when someone comes along and hates you as much you hate yourself it is a kind of relief

song: https://soundcloud.com/willixbeats/carving-your-name-into-my-skin?si=2a0bbf345766497096b9738b05eda1b6&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

dark souls

For our eighth episode of the Bklyn Combine Podcast we had an illustrious braintrust of master strategists. We tackled a number of topics that impact us on a daily basis from the concept of ownership to the idea of scarcity and self hatred, and let's not forget our beloved NY Knickerbockers!

We are the Brooklyn Combine, a non-profit community organization. We work with schools, community organizations, and dedicated city officials to help provide mentorship, critical education, leadership, and social support programs to youth and young adults in low-income and underserved communities.

Book
1. Sky Full of Elephants: A Novel by Cebo Campbell

Music
1. Pac Blood by Danny Brown
2. Sweepstakes by Gorillaz
3. Never Catch Me by Flying Lotus ft. Kendrick Lamar 
4. Afro Blue by John Coltrane Quartet at Birdland (1963)

Episode 8 Combine Pod members: Keith White, Kenneth J. Montgomery, Mali X, Kenji Summers, Stan Lumax, Felton Brown, and Phillip Shung.

Nation Building

Talk me down

not really anything here is new just reused sounds most of them since i don't know what to add anymore so i don't expect any likes from it and i have no ideas really so don't expect uploads every 2 weeks

(Alone) I'd stay forever x mix idk

i’ve been feeling unworthy and disgusting
and now i feel even worse
am i paranoid
why am i feeling like this
i need to stop overthinking
our empress will be fine

life in the mud_

sasha_bag x purvgurl - life in the mud_

this constant feeling of being completely alone and having no real friends makes me wanna be alone for rest of my life no one understands me and i can't never fully express how i feel, never knew how to talk to people thats why my English overall sucks

(All Alone) mix x Vapor Drunk - Old Coke

(Filler post)
honestly i don't even know why i made part 2, mind couldn't leave me alone at all, wish i didn't feel this empty void and this unbearable hatred toward my flesh (all my life i let my own flesh control me and follow everyone else that i have forgotten what made me as person)

(All Alone part 2) mix x the rodents discussions

(going insane) mix x life imitates life

Aloysius Radio Kollective (ARK):
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J 4BNDZ (J4 Prod.)
kasahitdifferent (kasa)
indamejonge (dame)
mosixno (sasha_bag)
lazzrdgawd (lazzrd)
purvgurl (shitgurl)
fkson (shIcvnt)
Yo!Ru! (yourue)
arums (apadrums)



BunnyGirlHouse (BGH):
BunnyGirl (girlgaeə)
Jes Mary (skabkid)
AHMP (kid down the road)
As[s]h (rmnts)
Dan Flywer (DF)
Sayko Siyren (songtrap)
myndlxst (sol.dol)
Marless G (Emgee)
Savvagardian (Savvagardian)
HUSHZI x onevilegirl
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Arsent (Arsentinel)
eveldev (eveldian)
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n o a c  (no1cares)
qay.qirl (alesbian)




Watch Aloysius's Channel If You'd Like:
https://www.youtube.com/@TheKyotanitsa

"We are all one... and in one... we all are..."
-difhxr

✝

alt account: AlloyedGravel


pretty mid stuff here

just posting for fun nothing else

prbly gonna post on alt account when i can’t post anymore on this account since im not planning on wasting my money on premium thing

awful at communicating with people

alt acc: @hrtstringz
we'll win somehow
she/they

square / id / dj tool / madness riddim maker.
dm me for tunes lmao.

Thai PBS Podcast : View the World via the Voice
พอดแคสต์ (Podcast) รายการสื่อเสียงออนไลน์ หลากหลายด้วยสาระและความบันเทิงทั้ง นิทาน ข่าว ผู้บริโภค สุขภาพ หนังสือเสียง ต่างประเทศ สารคดี วิทยาศาสตร์ ที่มีให้ฟังมากกว่า 30 รายการที่ www.thaipbspodcast.com

A stripped down, noisy drum & bass combo that spits out nasty, fuzzy thrash punk as hot as a flaming bag of dog shit on your asshole neighbor's porch

A podcast coming from the planet of Brooklyn that examines critical thought and community, while searching for solutions to some of our most challenging issues.

Make noise, enjoy noise. I do not know what I'm doing, and I will not let that stop me.

Stresscore
This whole page is nothing but a vent archive
dont bother

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