moral of the story; dont try to date hello kitty girls no matter how normal they seem

@rewund
@5tare

lyrics:
she got the same marks but they dont hurt the same
we sat on a bench after walking just to talk shit all day
it was a minus outside but i just wanted her to stay 
because of what her eyes told me when i saw them in full grey
they told me i dont love you and i fucking mean it even if you fucking need it
all my tears were falling down along with all my bigger reasons
and my stupid ass thought she could fix me free me from diseases
but all she ever did was a lie the whole time i was played with and fucked with i had go smoke up my pack

1 by 1 emptied the whole fucking box i cant breathe
think again had to sit it outside heads bout to seethe
maybe one day ill be on my own all alone ill be shown to a world without hope and no knowledge for solace a thing i cant get thats a promise
i can make 
a truth that i mentally cannot take
ill still be thinking about you wishing i knew you that you didnt love me so i didnt have to go through 
a lesson that i didnt want but you still tore my heart apart 
and now i dont know where to start
just waiting for my heart to stop

i know youre hurt i feel your weight
but my shits deeper, cant relate
baby im all ears i can wait
ill help you fix this and your fate
i know things havent been that great
but ill help you with what youve faced
although its getting kinda late 
just meet me at my crib at 8
yeah
my scars match her's but mine are deeper
she got light and i am weaker
baby fix this fucking fever
just dont leave me, know ill miss ya
but you did it anyway
now im writing my last message and i dont know what to say

Regret and Relapse

my scars match her's, but mine are deeper (prod. REWUND, 5TARE, star)

having a kind heart has done nothing but made me look like a fool

4h 58m worktime

how could she love me if I don't even love myself?

i dont understand what the fuck is your problem
you act like im the one whos been creating all these problems
i got too many of em and at least we got that one in common
when you know its your own fault dont act like youve forgotten

if you dont want me why the fuck would you steal my heart
you know its your own fault girl dont even start
you came back to my life like you didnt tear me apart
now you want my attention again aint that what you want

i laid it all down thought youd be the one to stay
but you played me like a game and now i only feel this way
leaving u on seen, uh, i dont fucking care
u left me in despair so i guess i gotta share
that feeling to you just so we can be all fair and square
and youre still sending texts to me like how do you even dare
after everything you've done you come back like nothing happened
this aint really nothing like how i imagined

i don't want to talk to you anymore, i'll miss you though

but would you still pick me if I were in a room with the people you once adored?

she didnt get it, i guess shes not a fan
some of you might.

she asked me if im loyal i told her im as loyal as i am to my cowbell

sorry for not dropping, im never motivated

montagem lunar diamante but less boring

found a gem deep in my disk so i gave it a lil extra and fixed the mix, if the bass aint loud den ionnn likeee ittt

so high (2020 star exclusive reprod)

had a cool idea
og: https://soundcloud.com/neko_19222/001a
@neko_19222

but i gave it my all

THE FACE OF DEPRESSION

I WILL SOON FORGET THE COLOR OF YOUR EYES, AND YOU WILL FORGET MINE w/VIBXS

FORGIVE ME BUT I NEVER WANTED TO WAKE UP w/VIBXS

JUSTICE NEVER MADE IT PAST MY GRAVE

@cloudyplay
@cloudyplay
@cloudyplay

star:

i cant cry no more, ive been bled out dry
every tear i wrote the text saying ill be fine
but is it really true now?
is it true now?
is it true now?
i begged the sky for someone to care
but all it did was sit and stare 
i carved your name in every song
but silence told me i don’t belong

the world moves on but here i stay
im slowly slipping away
the scars that you left behind
and the thoughts of you and i
why'd you have to lie?
every night that passes by, a tear shreds from my eye
and so i look up at the sky
remembering my goodbye

"theres not a second that goes by where youre not in my mind"

hellgrown:

opened journal 
grabbed my pen
wrote that shit inside my head
if all they want is problems 
then ill come up with solutions here
saw my boys saluting for the ruthless cant be stupid
i just sat down give a break cause ill break more than two on lucy
remember its just me and my mind at this time
i feel fine im alright i wont fight cause youre right
i dont care, call me fake. go and play me like my date
stupid fate, stupid ache. im recovering my state 

hanging down, with my roots still fallin
got my hopes up you dont wanna be warned yet
all the eyes on me, its a moment
not so grown yet, 
hanging out with myself

i dont wanna be someone else
yet my tears still falling from hell
ive been saying ive been getting my help

remember its just me and my mind at this time
i feel fine im alright i wont fight cause youre right
i dont care, call me fake. go and play me like my date
stupid fate, stupid ache. im recovering my state.

i wear your absence like a scar (ft. hellgrown)

I WROTE MY WILL IN BLOOD BUT SUICIDE BURNED THE PAPER

How could I be mad that the wind made a mess? I was the one that opened the window, but the breeze did feel nice though.

Everybody Loves Somebody

lit Jisatsu beat. star

i do a little bit of everything

aka. knife
2019

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