Have you ever been through such a rough breakup that they messed up your mental health to the point of no return? Through my experience, I have dealt with one of the worst breakups I ever had and am struggling both mentally and physically.

Lyrics:

You built me up, you tore me down,
You said you cared but let me drown. 
You said it's love but showed me hate,
Was what we had completely fake. 

I never thought you'd ruin me,
But now I know, but now I see,
You never loved, you never cared,
The bond we had was never there. 

I was blind, I was used,
My heart is torn; my heart's abused!

So glad to see you're moving on,
While I am here still trying to fight,
All the pain and all the wrong,
That keeps me up at night.
It's hard to sleep when I'm alone,
Fighting battles on my own,
But now I've become, 
the monster that you know.

You only wanted me for fun,
You claimed you loved me but you lied,
You found another and said we're done,
And hoped someday that I would die.

I'm suicidal thanks to you,
You don't care that you broke me,
You refused to listen to what is true,
And made your own democracy!

I am gone, I am dead,
Screams all the voices in my head!

So glad to see you're moving on,
While I am here still trying to fight,
All the pain and all the wrong,
That keeps me up at night.
It's hard to sleep when I'm alone,
Fighting battles on my own,
But now I've become, 
the monster that you know.

You found someone, I'm glad for you,
But does he know how you abuse,
How you betray, how you destroy,
How you would treat him like a toy!

So glad to see you're moving on,
While I am here still trying to fight,
All the pain and all the wrong,
That keeps me up at night.
It's hard to sleep when I'm alone,
Fighting battles on my own,
But now I've become, 
the monster that you know.

End of Me

The Monster You Know

When a breakup gets so bad, sometimes you think it's the end of your life. My breakup has caused me to go through a severe mental breakdown and my inner demons taking over my life. Sometimes a painful breakup can be toxic.

Lyrics:
I once believed that we would never end it hard,
But now I see that you have dealt the dead man's cards,
You took me blind, made me thought we'd never end,
But now I see that we were never meant to mend.
I trusted you, thought you keep me free from hell,
But instead, you put me in a prison cell,
Feeding lies, making everyone believe,
That I'm worse than the image all has seen.


Never thought that we'd end this way,
Never thought that you'd cause me this pain!


This is the end of me
I will never be the same,
Myself I'll never be
for you have made me go insane.
I will never feel joy
I can't fight demons anymore,
I cannot destroy,
The depression I lost before.
You have taken my pride
You have made me see,
That this is it,
this is the end of me.

Now I live a life that everyone just hates,
No one knows the hell I have to overtake.
Wish I could just fucking end it all,
Knowing no one cares if I would take the fall.
Is my life over or am I overthinking life?
Now I'm wishing that I'd suddenly die.
Don't give up they say but no one knows my pain,
I just wish I could just take it all away!


Never thought my life would go this way,
Never thought that I would go through all this pain!


This is the end of me
I will never be the same,
Myself I'll never be
for you have made me go insane.
I will never feel joy
I can't fight demons anymore,
I cannot destroy,
The depression I lost before.
You have taken my pride
You have made me see,
That this is it,
this is the end of me.


Wish someone would simply take me out!
Wish someone would shoot me, end me now!
Wish someone would kill me, stop my pain!
Wish I never knew how much I'd go insane!


This is the end of me
I will never be the same,
Myself I'll never be
for you have made me go insane.
I will never feel joy
I can't fight demons anymore,
I cannot destroy,
The depression I lost before.
You have taken my pride
You have made me see,
That this is it,
this is the end of me.


End of Me (Single)

any vocalist out there, who feels addressed by this song?(looking for some kind of hatred driven scream/rap)
msg me ;)

_distPressive

Have you ever had your already damaged heart damaged more. even when the person you thought loved you made the pain worse? This song tells a story of a used-to-be loved one who breaks an already damaged heart which was damaged from last relationships that were as toxic as the last one. 

Lyrics:
I have a darkened heart,
bruised way before I met you,
Broken before we felt the spark,
You said you'd heal what I've gone through,
Though the pain was never shown,
you never cared what I once had,
Now I'm out here on my own,
bleeding, broken, always sad.

How could you make me bleed inside,
Everyday I want to die!

No surgery can heal this pain,
No love for me can remove this stain,
The scars you made tore me apart,
How can you break an already darkened heart?
You ruined me beyond repair,
The love you gave was never there,
You promised me,
you'd heal the pain I bleed.

The dark Inside consumed,
Made me believe we're made as one,
Instead I'm tossed and used,
You shot me down, you fired the gun,
I thought this pain would end,
The moment I laid eyes on you,
Instead you twist and bend,
The mangled heart that's black and blue.

How can you add onto the hurt?
How can you put me in the dirt?
How can you make me want to quit?
How can you make me feel like shit?!

Deep inside I want to die,
While you sit and watch me cry!

No surgery can heal this pain,
No love for me can remove this stain,
The scars you made tore me apart,
How can you break an already darkened heart?
You ruined me beyond repair,
The love you gave was never there,
You promised me,
you'd heal the pain I bleed.
WHY?!

I NEVER WANT TO GO THROUGH HELL,
I NEVER THOUGHT IT END THIS WELL,
I NEVER WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS,
I DO NOT WANT TO FEEL LIKE SHIT!
IS THIS HOW I WILL FEEL FOR LIVE,
IS THIS THE WAY I WANT TO DIE,
IS THIS THE PAIN I WANT TO FIGHT,
THERE IS NO HOPE, THERE IS NO LIGHT!

No surgery can heal this pain,
No love for me can remove this stain,
The scars you made tore me apart,
How can you break an already darkened heart?
You ruined me beyond repair,
The love you gave was never there,
You promised me,
you'd heal the pain I bleed!

Darkened Heart

Have you ever felt so messed up in the head that you can't take control of life anymore? This song tells a story about a fox who lost everything, no longer safe in his home because of inner demons constantly controlling him every single second of his life.

Lyrics:

I never realized how much I'll lose
until my life was taken away,
I swore that it would never be true
but here I am, my freedom gone astray.

My therapist says that I can't be helped;
that I am too far gone, that I'm too insane,
Why do I try when I can't save myself?
Last time I tried I failed in vain.

I am no longer safe in my den,
My demons take me all over again.

I'm a fucked up fox,
One who Went through too much pain,
My demon still talks,
Saying I will never be the same.
This den is cold,
Like a soul that never breathes,
These scars have told,
of the life you've given me!

I never knew how much it hurts,
until you made my life a hell,
You dug a hole, dropped me in it,
You took my heart and threw me in a cell.

I'd never thought you'd fuck me up,
Never thought you'd kill my love,
But thanks to you, I'm not the pup,
that anyone thinks I'm enough.

I am not the fox I see,
Is it worth the air I breathe?

I'm a fucked up fox,
One who Went through too much pain,
My demon still talks,
Saying I will never be the same.
This den is cold,
Like a soul that never breathes,
These scars have told,
of the life you've given me!

Is it now that I'm to far gone?
Or is it that did you did me wrong?
Where do I go now you took my life?
What can I do now to end this fight?

I'm a fucked up fox,
One who Went through too much pain,
My demon still talks,
Saying I will never be the same.
This den is cold,
Like a soul that never breathes,
These scars have told,
of the life you've given me!
OF THE LIFE YOU'VE GIVEN ME!


F***ed Up Fox

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A green fox who dealt with a ton of pain

My music is AI generated but the lyrics are hand-written by me! Made by my own inspiration!

this is me learning how to produce shit......
getting somewhere....isolated at least

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