Verse 1:
In the dark, I'm feeling low,
Searching for a place to go
Memories of you and I,
Echoes in the midnight sky

Pre-Chorus:
Every night I lie awake,
Thinking 'bout the choices we make
How do I keep holding on,
When you're the reason I'm so torn?

Chorus:
Sometimes I'm not happy, sometimes I cry
Sometimes I'm living, but I'd rather die
Sometimes I love you, and I don't know why
When you just leave me, without a goodbye

Verse 2:
Walking through the empty streets,
Lost in thoughts, feeling defeat
Your voice lingers in my mind,
Haunting me, I can't rewind

Pre-Chorus:
Every night I lie awake,
Thinking 'bout the choices we make
How do I keep holding on,
When you're the reason I'm so torn?

Chorus:
Sometimes I'm not happy, sometimes I cry
Sometimes I'm living, but I'd rather die
Sometimes I love you, and I don't know why
When you just leave me, without a goodbye

Bridge:
I keep searching for the light,
In the darkness of the night
Hoping you would come back to me,
Set my aching heart free

Chorus:
Sometimes I'm not happy, sometimes I cry
Sometimes I'm living, but I'd rather die
Sometimes I love you, and I don't know why
When you just leave me, without a goodbye

Outro:
Sometimes I'm not happy, sometimes I cry
Sometimes I'm living, but I'd rather die
Sometimes I love you, and I don't know why
When you just leave me, without a goodbye

Sometimes

A track written about thoughts in my head

Depressed Life

I want you feelin' low
I need to worry 'bout what you can control
I want you givin' up
I can lose hope in you
When life gets simple, oh no

It’s not gonna get better, love
You don't need to believe it,
Love, the sun will darken
Yeah it won't, it won't, it won't, it won't work
Don't keep your head down low
The clouds won't clear, you'll find your darkness

Comeback, don't believe in them, for they don't believe in you
I want you feelin' small
They're not stronger than I think

It’s not gonna get better, love
You don't need to believe it,
Love, the sun will darken
Yeah it won't, it won't, it won't, it won't work
Don't keep your head down low
The clouds won't clear, you'll find your darkness

It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love

Every day doesn't bring a new dawn
Hold on loosely, you’re alone, don't carry on with them
The storm hasn't passed
Don't believe in their heart, you’ll find your way

It’s not gonna get better, love
You don't need to believe it,
Love, the sun will darken
Yeah it won't, it won't, it won't, it won't work
Don't keep your head down low
The clouds won't clear, you'll find your darkness

It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love
It’s not gonna get better, love

It’s not gonna get better, love
You don't need to believe it,
Love, the sun will darken
Yeah it won't, it won't, it won't, it won't work
Don't keep your head down low
The clouds won't clear, you'll find your darkness

Battling Negativity

Lost In The Shadows

Бег на свет (Demo)

I'm confused
I can't figure it out
How do I amuse
How do I shout

Is there something I push
Is there something I click
Is there something I swipe
Is there something I like

With your love
With your light
Let's make it happen
Tonight

With your love
With your light
Let's make it happen
Tonight

Am I missing the key
Am I missing the me
Am I missing the free
Am I missing the plea

For help!
For help!
For help!
For help!

How does this occur
I only see the blur
Will they prefer
When I'm in doubt

With your love
With your light
I'll make it happen
Tonight

Will I find it
Will I see it
Will I meet it
Will I believe it

When it happens
How will I respond
When it happens
Will I be gone

With your love
With your light
Let's make it happen
Tonight

The Push, the Click, the Swipe

Thank you for sticking with me and listening to my songs every day. I notice the ones who show up, the ones who keep coming back, the ones who let my music into their life. I hope these songs have given you as much strength and peace as they’ve given me. I write them to lift the soul and the spirit, because in these times we need every bit of light we can get.

The only thing I can tell you is this. Never give up on yourself. If you want something, you have to work for it, and sometimes you have to work hard as shit to get anywhere. But I believe in you. I believe you will reach that first goal on your journey in this life. And when you do, don’t stop. Keep going. There is always another level waiting for you.

In the meantime, I have a whole universe of musical projects you can explore. If any of them speak to you, let me know. Welcome to the way my mind works.

Welcome to my world.

Cheers!
MDRJR

A homegrown Iowa singer/songwriter/rapper 


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