Thought the years would grind me down, leave me on the floor
Mistakes stacked high like dust behind the door
Every scar a story, every bruise a spark
A stubborn heart still shining in the dark

Time took shots, tried to steal my name
But I’ve still got fight in these veins

Stand me up—don’t let me fade away
Stand me up—help me find my way
Every fall, every cry, every tear I’ve shed
I’m still alive—stand me up instead

Years of doubt tried to cage my soul
But I’ve walked through storms I couldn’t control
Found my voice in lessons wrapped in pain
Rising up like thunder after rain

Time took shots, tried to steal my name
But I’ve still got fight in these veins

Stand me up—don’t let me fade away
Stand me up—help me find my way
Every fall, every cry, every tear I’ve shed
I’m still alive—stand me up instead

Every wrong I’ve made
Every vow I’ve failed
Every night I prayed
Just to tip the scale
Stand me up…
Stand me up…

Stand me up—don’t let me fade away
Stand me up—help me find my way
Every fall, every cry, every tear I’ve shed
I’m still alive—stand me up instead

Stand Me Up

Woke up wearing someone else’s frame.
My name was in it…
but it didn’t fit.
The mirror didn’t crack.
Still…
it hit.

Every breath drags
like a rusted chain.
Joints grind slow—
bone to brain.
Can’t show it.
Can’t name it.
Can’t trace where it starts…
but it ends
in everything.

Everything hurts—
but nothing’s broken.
No bruise to explain
the words left unspoken.
I move through the fire
like it ain’t mine…
Still wear the pain
like a second spine.

Used to heal fast.
Now I stall in place.
Used to hold weight—
now it holds my face.
The nights scream quiet,
the mornings accuse.
Even God looks tired
when I light the fuse.

Everything hurts—
but nothing’s broken.
No limp, no cast,
just heat unspoken.
Still lift the mask,
still fake the climb…
Still say I’m fine—
but I know I’m lyin’.

Ever scream and nothing moves?
Ever feel your hands…
but lose the use?
That’s the quiet hell
that wears my name.
Can’t scream it loud—
can’t shake the shame.

Everything hurts—
but nothing’s broken.
Pain with no shape,
hope left half-spoken.
I drag this weight,
still keep the form…
The body stays
but the soul feels worn.

Still walking.
Still aching.
Still ain’t done yet.
Still here.


Everything Hurts, Nothing's Broken

Keep the receipt.
Keep the ring.
Keep the house and the goddamn dishes.
I paid what mattered.
And I paid it in full.

First of the month, hit send like clockwork.
My name in bold, the rest in red.
Court calls it duty—
I call it what’s left
of the promises I meant
when I said what I said.

Diapers, shoes, field trip forms,
Christmas lists and braces due.
You don’t see me in the pictures,
but you see what I do.

I paid in time, I paid in truth,
I paid in nights I gave to you.
I paid with pride, I paid through pain,
and I never missed a due date.
Don’t need a thank you, don’t need a name—
just know my love ain’t overdue.
Call it child support if you want…
I call it paid in full.

Left my heart in the backseat,
right behind a booster chair.
Watched ‘em wave through tinted glass
while you stood there
with that look
like I was late to being a man.

But I showed up—
every check, every week.
They don’t need to see the receipt.
They’ll feel it
when the shoes fit.

I paid in time, I paid in truth,
I paid in nights I gave to you.
I paid with pride, I paid through pain,
and I never missed a due date.
Don’t need a thank you, don’t need a name—
just know my love ain’t overdue.
Call it child support if you want…
I call it paid in full.

They won’t see the bank app.
Won’t hear the calls I didn’t make.
But one day they’ll know—
I showed up
even when I couldn’t stay.

I paid in time, I paid in truth,
I paid in nights I gave to you.
I paid with pride, I paid through pain,
and I never missed a due date.
Don’t need a thank you, don’t need a name—
just know my love ain’t overdue.
Call it child support if you want…
I call it paid in full.

Never missed a due date.
Never missed a chance to love you.
I call it paid in full.


Paid in Full

There’s dust on the boots I couldn’t fill
Scars on my knuckles from the life I tried to kill
Mirror shows a man who almost disappeared
But steel in my spine says the mission’s clear

Days I lost, nights I bled
Voices saying I should just play dead

I’m not gone—I’m reloading
Mind’s reset, heart’s exploding
Past can burn, bridges foldin’
This ain’t the end—I’m reloading

Carved a grave in every wasted year
Buried my purpose under doubt and fear
But discipline’s the hammer breaking rusted chains
Tomorrow’s target’s mine—I’ll take the reins

Days I lost, nights I bled
Voices saying I should just play dead

I’m not gone—I’m reloading
Mind’s reset, heart’s exploding
Past can burn, bridges foldin’
This ain’t the end—I’m reloading

Reload the discipline
Reload the mind
Reload the love I almost left behind
Reload the mission
Reload the plan
Reload the man I know I still am

I’m not gone—I’m reloading
Mind’s reset, heart’s exploding
Past can burn, bridges foldin’
This ain’t the end—I’m reloading


Reloading

Born in San Antone, back in a hot May
Raised in the Valley, dust storms and hay
Mom held the house down, Dad drifted through—
one gave it all, one barely stood… but both raised me Texas built.

Made in Texas—just tryin’ to be a good man in this here world
Raisin’ kids, payin’ dues, fightin’ battles most won’t ever know
Standin’ tall when the hurt runs deep—doin’ all I can
Scars and grit, heart and hands—that’s the fight in the blood of a Texas man

Moved to Corpus, new wife, new life, a baby too soon
Singing “You’ll Be In My Heart”, like you still are.
She drifted off, found someone new, walked out… took our baby too.
Staring at a pack of smokes I never touched—still Texas built.

Made in Texas—just tryin’ to be a good man in this here world
Raisin’ kids, payin’ dues, fightin’ battles most won’t ever know
Standin’ tall when the hurt runs deep—doin’ all I can
Scars and grit, heart and hands—that’s the fight in the blood of a Texas man

Ten years in the Navy, storms and steel
Eighteen years married, four kids in my world
But I broke what we had, carry the shame
Learned fatherhood’s the best, even with my name… still Texas built.

Made in Texas—just tryin’ to be a good man in this here world
Raisin’ kids, payin’ dues, fightin’ battles most won’t ever know
Standin’ tall when the hurt runs deep—doin’ all I can
Scars and grit, heart and hands—that’s the fight in the blood of a Texas man

Now I’m in Dallas, house quiet every night
The kids are grown and gone, out living their own lives
So I’m looking in the mirror, fixing what time’s tried to kill—
it ain’t easy starting over… but I’m still Texas built.

Made in Texas—just tryin’ to be a good man in this here world
Raisin’ kids, payin’ dues, fightin’ battles most won’t ever know
Standin’ tall when the hurt runs deep—doin’ all I can
Scars and grit, heart and hands—that’s the fight in the blood of a Texas man

That’s the blood, the bone, the stand
That’s the fight in a Texas man…
That’s the blood, the bone, the stand
That’s the fight in a Texas man…

Texas Built

I’ve worn regret like an anchor at sea
Drowning in memories that won’t set me free
Chased every shadow of who I used to be
But silence whispers: forgive what’s in me

Let it go… forgive… let it go… forgive…

Mirror cracks reflecting every wrong
Nightmares screaming in an endless song
Hands still trembling from what I’ve done
But dawn reminds me healing’s never gone

Breathe again… forgive… breathe again… forgive…

Forgive the voice that told you lies
Forgive the fear behind your eyes
Forgive the man who lost his way
Forgive yourself—live another day

Release… forgive… release… forgive…

Can’t erase the echoes of my past
But every heartbeat says I’m not the last
To learn forgiveness starts inside
To breathe again, to lift my eyes

Forgiven… forgiven… forgiven…

Wash the sins, release the blame
Shatter chains of guilt and shame

Forgiven—every scar I own
Forgiven—I am not alone
Forgiven—this I say to me
Forgiven—I can finally be free


Forgiven

Colorado, you’ve been on my mind tonight
Can’t shake the way your eyes outshined the starlit sky
Life pulled us apart, but you’re still my truth
I’ve walked a thousand miles, but they all lead back to you

Colorado, do you remember the plans we made?
Talking ‘bout forever as the world slipped away
I’ve kept those nights tucked close through every year
Your name’s the quiet prayer I whisper clear

Colorado, you’re the love I can’t outrun
Every sunrise tells me you’re the only one
If your heart’s still open, I swear mine is too
Colorado, I’ll spend my life coming home to you

Colorado, I’ve tried to find someone new
But no one sees me like you always do
I’ve built up a life, but it don’t feel right
Without your love waiting in those mountain nights

Colorado, you’re the love I can’t outrun
Every sunrise tells me you’re the only one
If your heart’s still open, I swear mine is too
Colorado, I’ll spend my life coming home to you

Colorado, if you still believe in me
Know my heart’s been yours endlessly
I’ll find my way through every storm and trial
To the place I see your smile

Colorado, you’re the love I can’t outrun
Every sunrise tells me you’re the only one
If your heart’s still open, I swear mine is too
Colorado, I’ll spend my life coming home to you


Colorado

[Verse 1]
I missed the call but saw your name 
at a smoky bar with a tied up game
Stumble home to a plate 
you must have just left out
With a note that said
you better figure it out
You must have gone to your mom's
 cause your purse is gone
Now it's just an empty house
 and it feels so wrong
It's hit me harder 
than I thought it would
You're hanging on longer 
than you probly should but
{Pre-Chorus]
I know I can give you so much more
And I know you've heard it all before
{Chorus}
This time I'm gonna mean it
This time girl I can feel it
I know that maybe you can't see it
Cause this time it's for real girl
We've come too far for you to leave it
I'll write it down and you can read it
You know you better believe it
Cause this time I guarantee it
(Yeah) this time I'm gonna mean it
[Verse 2]
I've got a black belt in drinking cold beer
A PHD in really dumb ideas
But I'm trying so hard to leave it behind
I know I'm a lucky man when you're still mine
You left the light on just in case
But here I come a few beers too late
I know I asked for you to give me one last try
And I know I left you sitting here just wondering why now
[Pre-Chorus]
You're the only one worth fighting for
I know you've heard it all before
(Chorus)
This time I'm gonna mean it
This time girl I can feel it
I know that maybe you can't see it
Cause this time it's for real girl
We've come too far for you to leave it
I'll write it down and you can read it
You're gonna make you believe it
Cause this time I guarantee it
(Yeah) this time I'm gonna mean it
(Yeah) this time I'm gonna mean it
Bridge
 I swore last time would be the last
But that promise came in so fast
You know some old habits die slow
But that's no reason to let go
(Half Chorus)
This time i'm gonna mean it
I'll write it down and you can read it
You know this time I guarantee it
Cause I'm gonna make you believe it
(Yeah) this time I'm gonna mean it
This time I'm gonna mean it

This Time I'm Gonna Mean It

"Let's Try Again" - Edeltraud Trncik feat. Viktor Trncik

A song about second chances, originally written in 2010, 
now remastered and reimagined in 2025 with full orchestral arrangement.

When a singer-songwriter and an engineer-musician create together,
magic happens. This is our invitation: Let's Try Again.

🎹 Piano, Strings, Guitar, Bass, Drums
⏱️ 3:14
📍 Freiburg, Germany
💙 For everyone who believes in second chances

Lyrics:
How do I know that I've loved you all this time
Does it surprise you all that we turn around and smile
And I've been waiting for an invitation to your life
I've said what's now in this note that I leave on your pillow
So why don't we try again
Why don't we try again

And if they could see us
They might say what you said last year
And if we could change them
We'd be lovers again not friends
Well I've been waiting for an invitation to your love
I said in this note I left on your pillow
What now
Why don't we try again
Why don't we try again

Yes tonight I can hear you whisper
The words you would say if we were honest
Tonight I could feel it when you were next to me
And baby it's so clear to me that we can go back
And I've been waiting for an invitation to your life
So why don't we try again
Why don't we try again
Darling take my hand I promise you it won't be like before
But darling baby we can try again

And just pretend nothing happened
Let me look into your eyes
Then we'll kiss and take it slow
But I always knew that I love you

Let's Try Again

Close your eyes. You know that moment - mirror foggy from the bathroom light that's been on too long, fluorescent hum in the background, and suddenly you're face to face with every path you didn't take. This track lives in that space.

Picture broken neon signs flickering in the desert night. Each buzz and electrical surge marking time like a metronome of regret. That 60hz hum becomes your heartbeat. The dying bulbs become your rhythm. Somewhere between vaporwave's nostalgia and desert rock's endless horizons, there's a sound for everyone who's ever wondered "what if?"

This is music for the night shift. For the ladder climbers fixing what's broken. For anyone pushing through another day while carrying dreams that feel heavier each year. The warped casino organs aren't just sounds - they're every jackpot you didn't hit. The steel pedal guitar cries like every goodbye you should've said differently.

Mixed at 72 BPM - the pace of deliberate work, of careful repair, of slowly rebuilding what fell apart.
Question for you: We all have that one moment we replay at 3 AM. What broken neon sign are you still trying to fix? Drop a comment - sometimes the first step forward is admitting where we've been stuck. 🌃

"The lights may flicker, but they haven't gone dark yet."

COULD'VE BEEN (Last Night at the Neon Graveyard)

I work with machines the way some people work with memory—shaping what’s already there, not to control it, but to understand it. The tools I use are made of code, but the intent behind them is completely human.

R.U.D.Y. began as a fictional band. A name I could hide behind. But over time, that fiction became the most honest expression I had. It stopped being a mask and started becoming a mirror—a place to reflect the moments we don’t have words for, the spaces between emotions that feel too raw or too distant to name.

I call what I do synthwrighting. Not because it sounds futuristic, but because it feels accurate. I don’t write songs—I uncover them. I collaborate with algorithms the way a sculptor chips away at stone. Sometimes the machine surprises me. Sometimes it just listens. But what emerges is always shaped by instinct, memory, and feeling.

These songs aren’t performances. They’re echoes. Sonic fragments of questions I don’t always know how to ask. I’m not here to offer answers or compete with noise—I’m here to slow things down enough that something deeper can be heard.

R.U.D.Y. is not a band. It’s not even really a name. It’s a signal. A reminder. Something you’re meant to feel before you understand.

And if you’re still listening, that means you're not done yet.

Can you hear me now? The time of being quiet is done.

Initiate a Convo in the Comments, then we'll go from there. I'll follow up with everyone.

Eric Blossman: Award-Winning ASCAP Producer, Songwriter, and Arranger

Eric Blossman is an accomplished ASCAP producer, songwriter, and arranger with over 250 licensed songs featured on numerous major TV channels, including Netflix, BET, MTV, FX, NBC, CNBC, ABC, Paramount, PBS, TruTV, VH1, Bravo, The Discovery Channel, Animal Planet, and The History Channel. His versatile compositions have graced the soundtracks of popular shows such as MTV's "Teen Mom," Animal Planet's "Amanda to the Rescue," TruTV's "Impractical Jokers," MTV's "Catfish," Bravo's "Housewives of the Potomac," VH1's "Love and Hip Hop Miami," VH1's RuPaul's "Drag Race Untucked," MTV's "Ex on the Beach," MTV's "Becoming a Popstar," History Channel's "Blood Money," Netflix's "The Perfect Match," The Science Channel's "Unexplained and Unexplored," and Paramount's "Behind the Music with Huey Lewis and the News."

Eric's work extends to multiple episodes and seasons of "Shah's of Sunset," Bravo's "Married to Medicine," Nickelodeon's "Nick News," MTV's "Revenge Prank," CNBC's "American Greed," and PBS's "Nova." His diverse portfolio showcases his ability to craft music that resonates across various genres and platforms.

Blossman's talent has been recognized with numerous awards and accolades. He won the 2016 ASA Songwriter Award Grand Prize for all categories with his song "End of Our Rainbow." He was also the runner-up in the "Song of the Year" competition for "Hard Landing," and a finalist in the Great American Songwriting Contest. Eric was a double finalist in the UK Songwriting Competition for "Corner of My Eye" and "It Must Have Been the Whiskey," and the runner-up in the 2017 Mid-Atlantic Song Competition. Additionally, he was a semi-finalist in the 2017 International Songwriting Competition for "Take a Wild Guess" and received the 2018 Award for Outstanding Achievement in Songwriting from the Great American Songwriting Competition for "Bulletproof."

Eric's accolades continue with his win in the 2018 Hollywood Songwriting Contest for Best Country Song for "Bulletproof," and as a finalist for "Corner of My Eye," "Stuck Here in Paradise," and "It All Means Nothing." He was a SongDoor finalist in 2018 for "Different Story," a 2019 finalist in the Hollywood Songwriting Contest for "Different Story" (multiple categories), and the 2019 winner for Best Soul/R&B Song from The American Songwriter Awards for "Different Story." Eric was also a finalist in the 2021 Great American Song Contest for "Bad Choices" and a 2023 finalist in the UK Songwriting Contest's Adult Contemporary category for "Somewhere Up in Fayetteville."

Eric Blossman's exceptional songwriting and producing skills have established him as a significant force in the music industry, continually pushing the boundaries of creativity and excellence.

Hello, I'm Edeltraud Trncik, a songwriter who's been weaving melodies and lyrics for a long time. Music has been my faithful companion throughout this journey, inspiring me to create a diverse collection of songs that reflect my personal experiences and the world around me.

My passion lies in crafting heartfelt ballads. I pour my emotions and stories into each composition, striving to create authentic connections through my music. However, I always make sure to leave room for intuition and personal expression in my songwriting process.

I've been making music as a hobby alongside my husband. This partnership has been a source of joy and creativity, allowing us to grow together both personally and artistically. The synergy we've developed over the years shines through in every song we create.
Until now, I've primarily written songs for my own enjoyment and expression.
My songwriting draws inspiration from my own life experiences and current events that touch me. I believe that music has the power to tell stories, evoke emotions, and create connections. 
Through my songs, I invite listeners to see the world through my eyes - a world filled with melodies that speak to the heart and soul

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