The existential crisis some/most/all confront at a point in life. The discrepancy between our desire for a meaningful life; and the meaningless and indifference of the world we live in. 
Confidence; Anxiety; Self Belief; Self Esteem; Self Destructive; The Facade; The Real; Raw; Brutal; The Lies; Honesty; Bittersweet; The Beautiful; The Questions; The Unanswered; The Mirror

Sort of Life

Welcome to Villain Arc the EP. In this song, and throughout the EP, I talk about trust issues, struggles of faith, and feeling lost.

Instrumental produced by MubzGotBeats and Eibyondatrack.

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Lost (Prod. by Mubz Got Beats and Eibyondatrack)

Two people who love each other, but have no idea.

Puppets

socraice

SELF DESTRUCTION

written, recorded, composed, mixed, mastered, coverart, all by me.
I own all rights to this song. 
As I do this sickness,
come listen to me cough,
ask for medicine
come listen..
actually don't listen you probably don't want to

sick

Sabotage (feat. Haptic)

january 2023
Prod. by chapito (NoKief) , ive used quite a bit of his work check him out.
Written Recorded Mixed Mastered by me,
coverart by me 
idaho

my own private colorado

Subtracted a few elements and added some new parts compared to first 3 mixes. This is a much more complete track than the previous 3 versions. 

Recommend listening on decent headphones:)

Terra Mater (angelic mix)

This is a song about some of the worst shit I've ever done. 

Self Destruction Blues

Lyrics:

Shadow stained walls
Echoed voices sound
I call out for help
But no one's there to help me back up when I fall
Made an enemy of all 
those I'd ever hoped for
Don't lift me from where I crawl
I belong in my hole
Help me
I cannot bare my own company
This pathetic waste cannot be me forever
With any luck I'll fuckin cut short my endeavor 
I don't wanna live like this
But I don't wanna die
There is no escape 
So why do I try?
Intoxicated on romanticizing empty life
Self destruction is my needle that I crave at night
that I crave at night
My addiction is depression, makes me feel alive
Why the second I get better do I wanna die?
Mind of paradoxes, optionless, i cannot hide
This prison I reside, I've locked myself in from the inside


Write another letter to myself and then I
Pretend to feel better while I'm tryna not kill myself
What a vicious cycle
Where I just recycle 
Coping mechanisms and call myself the victim
Vital details I left out
To justify my actions 
To justify recovery I don't deserve to happen
How could I?
When I know my soul is blackened
Or is it just imposter syndrome
How would I know?
My back bends backwards avoiding people
To save them all the misery of knowing me
Heh, clearly I don't know me
If I'm out here advertising that I'm lonely
How could i be lonely when I got friends saying I'm not alone
So I'm not alone am I?
So, show me home
Show me where I can recover
Show me where my water stone
I know I may never find closure for the trauma I been through
That's why I cope with all this falter
By letting it run over me
Stampede on my dome piece
Givin' in is how I'm coping
And still I wonder how I always end up broken
Maybe I should focus more on finding where the rope is
I'm hopeless

Teratoma (Prod. numb)

Mr Blue

Vibe: Angsty / Battle-Ready / Fed Up

Short Summary 
The centerpiece of the album. This one’s about chasing temporary highs, trying to buy happiness with drugs, and realizing none of it brings peace—just more pain.


Hook 
I'm not happy I have no peace 
I keep asking what's wrong with me 
Think I need more i'll be better
If I have more I'll be happier x2

Verse 1
Chasing my thrills I have no peace
Theres an empty space 
where my heart should be
I cut lines of cocaine but also molly
I take 'em together when I do 'em off her body
Will I feel better uh, probably
How long will it last uh, momentary
I should get clean but i'm living a dream
I feel like i'm free so everything is secondary
I like sippin' henny huh Ion like to worry
I like pourin' syrup cause my minds in a hurry
feel all thee effects my entire body hurting
I gotta stay lit so my demons won't hurt me

Hook
I'm not happy I have no peace 
I keep asking what's wrong with me 
Think I need more i'll be better
If I have more I'll be happier x2

Verse 2
I sent her away bad habits taking over
find me DOA cause I never got sober
never got closure that is what I told her
sorry for my ways that's the pain spillin' over

all I wanna be is happy
doctor doctor can you help me
why do I feel so empty
I can't find no remedy

Off and on drugs see I go back and forth
Know I'm not alone I need your support
Are we the ones that are left with no choice
Speak for the ones that've lost their voice

Hook 
I'm not happy I have no peace 
I keep asking what's wrong with me 
Think I need more i'll be better
If I have more I'll be happier x2

No Peace

PRETTY CORPSE

A cold dive into betrayal, heartbreak, and self-destruction.
“Blood On My Wrist” is a raw confession over haunting female vocals and heavy 808s.
Toxic love, trust issues, and the pain that never fades – this track hits where it hurts.
Dark. Emotional. Real.

#BloodOnMyWrist #NewDrop 

Blood On My Wrist

how can you love me

Когда слова не помогают, остаются только кулаки и стены.

self harm well done

real.m4a

Lassa Fever blend industrial, experimental, country, Americana, electronic  and pop leanings with an altrock foundation. Lyrical concepts hark back to the 80s/90s with a focus on introspection, dark hyper-romanticised ballads, social and political dysfunction and discontent.

The focus of Lassa fever as a creative entity is on flux. Defying genre stereotypes and embracing the freedom that comes with the ethos that there's no such thing as a guilty pleasure.

I write song lyrics and occasionally perform them.

“I create then disappear. I lost everything, but I’m still here.”

I’m not here to make waves, I’m just trying to keep the light on.

This music is for the ones drifting… the ones caught between the shore and the storm.
I know how wild these waters get, sharks circling, tides pulling, strange creatures below.

I built this lighthouse not to be seen by everyone, but to be found by those still swimming.

Welcome back to Earth. You’re not alone.

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Genre: Smogwave
Post-apocalyptic soul.
Built from grief, survival, and spiritual fire.
This is what the end sounds like when you’re still here.

This guy makes music and hopes that people listen to it.

Brillman has been an electronic online musician during the last 20 years using many different names: Brillman, Controlfreak, freakcontrol, Red Karma, Atmosphere, Zero Loop, Pan64, Randomcontrol, geometric delay and Superfreak! Brillman mainly creates original sounds from hardware synths but also uses guitar, samplers, vocals or even poetry. He primarily utilizes a 4 to the floor approach. The aesthetics behind the music is about finding a balance between minimalism vs. depth & improvisation vs. programmed.

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Influences: Eno, Tangerine Dream, Kraftwerk, The Associates, Joy Division, Roxy Music, Bowie, Chemical Brothers, Frank Zappa, Hendrix, ELP, Polygon Window, G. Mahler, A. Bruckner, L.V. Beethoven, E. Satie, FSOL, The Orb, Laurie Anderson, Vangelis, Underworld, Led Zeppelin, Jeff Beck, Rory Gallagher, Miles Davis, Massive Attack, Black Sabbath, Prince, Sade, Etienne de Crecy, Daft Punk, Plastikman, Monolake, Japan, Pink Floyd, Resistance D, Talking Heads, Hawkwind, Gary Numan, J.M.Jarre…

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Synthesizers used (past or present):

Kawai K4
Korg Wavestation
Korg Wavestation SR
Kawai K3m
Kawai K4r
Yamaha AN200
Yamaha DX-7
Yamaha TG-500
Oberheim Matrix 1000
Roland SC-55
Roland JV1010
Roland JV1080
Roland JV2080
Korg M3r
Korg MS-20 mini
Roland D-110
Roland D2
Roland MC-505
Roland MC-09
Roland MC-808
Roland TB3
Korg ER-1
Korg MS2000r
Korg microkorg
Korg Kaossilator
E-MU Mophatt
E-MU Planet Earth
E-MU Proteus 1/2
E-MU Proteus 2000
Vermona DRM-1 mk iv
Waldorf Blofeld
Waldorf Pulse 2
Moog Subharmonicon
Moog Labyrinth
Moog Mavis
Freebass FB-383
Behringer TD3
Behringer Neutron
Behringer model D
Behringer K2
Behringer Syncussion SY-1
Arturia Microbrute
Arturia Minibrute 2s
Arturia Microfreak
Elektron Cycles
Elektron Digitone
Behringer Crave
Behringer Edge
Novation Mininova
Clavia Micro modular
Clavia Nord rack 2
Access Virus Snow
Twisted Electrons MEGAfm

I make music on all platforms under the name GoodSleeper

Loyal member of
"WatchThemDemons"
&
"The Blank Space Mafia"

watch my music videos and lyric videos here:
https://youtube.com/@goodsleeper_official?si=z7UUBSoNVZ3T8nIu



This is my Villain Arc... Is This What You Wanted? and more from the EP now streaming

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Diro
Singer/rapper, Songwriter, Mix Master and Producer
I'm also on Apple Music and Spotify.

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