(prod.sickboi)

LYRICS:

I don't wanna be your toleration
I don't wanna be your toleration  
listen to what I be, conversatin'
I swear I don't mean no hate, all against ya'
I just got way too much, all on my plate
now I just feel replaced, all in your tension
I be feelin' mental, in all of yall's place
I feel disassembled, don't try reassembling
played with all of my heart, and it's 50 strings
I don't wanna be your toleration 
I don't wanna be your toleration 

tolerated

(prod.66smokey)

I just want you to go kick rocks
I just want you to go kick rocks
I just want you to go kick rocks
just stick yourself where the sun don’t shine
go take yourself on a hike
where I can't see you in my life
cause you're the grout for my grime
can we talk one on one
wait just lemme say before you run
I'm sorry for what I've done
I'm don't want no complications
no drama 
I just wanna
just me and you
can we talk in the same room
and listen to some tunes
can we talk things out between me and you
I'm sorry for tryna ruin what we had
I'm sorry for causing drama
and now all I feel is like an expat
tryna make a us once upon a
I'm sorry for all the dram-

seperation

(prod.bowsa)


LYRICS:

bitch, I know I'm mentally sane
don't tell me nothing, okay
I didn't mean to overstay
I just wanted everyday to be the same
yet I only got myself to blame
putting myself to fuel an invisible fire
all I wanted to do was entice her
and now I'm all alone writing these silly songs
I wish I didn't do any fuckin' wrongs
I just wanted a place I could belong
and now I myself extinguish in shame
and now I myself extinguish in shame
and now I myself extinguish in shame 
don't tell me nothing, okay
bitch, I know I'm mentally insane

total fucking werido

(prod.sickboi)

you're in my way
you're impeading in my place
please disappear and go away
you're in my way
you're impeading in my place
please disappear and go away
cause you're in my head and in my brian
causing every bit of hate
and I just wanna escape
wake up baked every minute
tryna forget about you
i'm at my limit
I'm without my process due
you're an imposition on my life
blinding my vision whenever you lay upon my eyes
I just want you to dissapear like the sun in the sky
don't come back like the sun that's about to arise
you're in my way
you're impeading in my place
please disappear and go away
so I can be my own day
you're in my way
you're impeading in my place
please disappear and go away
won't you just g-

infliction

late night (interlude)

"Jaane Tu Kahaan" is a powerful and emotional Hindi rock ballad that explores the depths of loneliness and heartache. The song takes the listener on a journey through a night filled with darkness and solitude, where memories of a lost love are inescapable.

Beginning with a melancholic and atmospheric melody, the track builds into an anthemic chorus driven by poignant vocals and soaring electric guitar solos. The lyrics speak of broken dreams, the pain of separation, and a desperate search for someone who is gone. With its heavy-hearted verses and a powerful, crescendoing bridge, "Jaane Tu Kahaan" is a must-listen for fans of heartfelt indie rock and anyone who has ever felt the profound ache of missing someone.

Lyrics:
रात है, अंधेरा छाया है 
सूरज ने भी, मुँह छिपाया है 
तनहा मैं यहाँ, तनहा जी रहा 
याद तेरी क्यों मुझको आती है 
नींद मेरी क्यों लेके जाती है 
रुसवा ये जहाँ, रुसवा आसमाँ 
जाने तू कहाँ, तू है कहाँ 
तू है कहाँ

सपने मत देखो, सपने टूट जाते हैं 
अपना है कौन, अपने रूठ जाते हैं 
दुनिया में तनहा आये थे हम सभी 
दुनिया से तनहा हम लौट जाते हैं 
तनहा मैं यहाँ, तनहा जी रहा 
जाने तू कहाँ, तू है कहाँ 
तू है कहाँ

ख्वाबों के आईने में तुझको देखा है 
यादों के आशियाने में तुझको पाया है 
गुमसुम ये समां, गुमसुम मैं यहाँ 
जाने तू कहाँ, तू है कहाँ 
तू है कहाँ

सांसें हैं भारी, आँखें हैं नम 
बढ़ता ही जाए, ये मेरा ग़म 
अब तो आवाज़ दे, या सामने आ 
मिटा दे ये दूरी, ये फ़ासला 
ये फ़ासला…

तनहा मैं यहाँ, तनहा जी रहा 
जाने तू कहाँ, तू है कहाँ 
तू है कहाँ 
तू है कहाँ... तू है कहाँ…


English Translation:
The night has fallen, shadows start to creep,
And even the sun has hid its face to sleep.
Alone I stand here, in this lonely haze,
Why does your memory haunt my waking days?
Why does it come to steal my sleep away?
The world has turned its back, the skies are grey.
I don't know where you are... where are you?
Where are you?

Don't dare to dream, for dreams are meant to break.
Who can you call your own? They'll leave for goodness sake.
We come into this world completely on our own,
And from this world, we'll go back all alone.
Alone I stand here, in this lonely haze,
I don't know where you are... where are you?
Where are you?

In the mirror of my dreams, I've seen your face,
In the shelter of my memories, I've found your trace.
A silence fills the air, and silent I remain,
I don't know where you are... where are you?
Where are you?

My breath is heavy now, my eyes are filled with tears,
This sorrow in my heart just grows throughout the years.
So give a sign to me, or stand before my eyes,
And erase this distance, built on our goodbyes.
This distance…

***
This track uses Generative AI Vocals and Instruments.

Jaane Tu Kahaan

A difficult Journey between a Father and Son.

BEYOND the BEND

[Verse]
Another morning!
Another endless night behind me
Woke up happy but i can feel the drain
Got that FOMO browsing insta
but it's triggering my jealousy!

[Verse]
Saw the story you posted
Decided i'll be on my best behavior
Try to act with grace
Congratulate you - hashtag bless
Been a year since we seperated
hashtag stressed, slightly depressed
I'm bad at pretending that i moved on, i guess

[Pre-Chorus]
I should be happy 
That you're gone gone gone
I should be happy
That we're done done done
But somehow
Somewhere deep within me
I still miss you
I still miss kissing you
But than i remember
(What a bitch you are!)

[Chorus]
THANK FUCKING YOU!
YOU'RE GONE GONE GONE!
THANK ALL THE GODS! 
OLD AND ANEW!
WE'RE DONE DONE DONE!
WE'RE DONE DONE DONE!

[Post-Chorus]
Uuuhoh oh'oh'oh'oh
THANK FUCKING YOU!
THANK ALL THE GODS! 
We're done!

[Instrumental]

[Verse]
I burned all the pictures
Yeah i still got em all on my phone
Still wear that shirt you bought me
(You're like a ghost haunting my home)
Your perfume still lingers
Your playlist's still on my radio
Every song hits hard
Yeah.. you set the bar... 
You set the bar

[Pre-Chorus]
I should be laughin'
That you're gone gone gone
But i'm still crashing out
When i hear our song
But somehow
Somewhere deep within me
I still miss you
I still miss kissing you
But than i remember
(What a bitch you are!)

[Chorus]
THANK FUCKING YOU!
YOU'RE GONE GONE GONE!
THANK ALL THE GODS! 
OLD AND ANEW!
WE'RE DONE DONE DONE!
WE'RE DONE DONE DONE!

[Post-Chorus]
Uuuhoh oh'oh'oh'oh
THANK FUCKING YOU!
THANK ALL THE GODS! 
We're done!

[Instrumental]

[Bridge]
No more fights at 2 A.M.
No more tears i can't defend
No more checks of who i'm with
No more poison from your lips
No more...
No more...
NO MORE!

[Chorus]
THANK FUCKING YOU!
YOU'RE GONE GONE GONE!
THANK ALL THE GODS! 
OLD AND ANEW!
I'M DONE DONE DONE
GOD KNOWS I'M HAVING FUN!
BYE BYE BABY I MOVED ON!
THANK FUCKING YOU!
I'M GONE GONE GONE!

Thank You

Freedom is strange concept in some ways. For example, I find it much easier to write a poem with a fixed rhyming structure, than the freedom of writing with none. Discipline actually free’s me to write. Its one of the most complex subjects in human history, invading politics, philosophy, law and everyday life. There is negative freedom, where there is an absence of constraint. Then there is positive freedom , which is where you can release your own potential. There’s also inner freedom which comes from self control. I guess my rhyming poems are a bit of the last two. In most societies freedoms are institutionalized i.e. civil liberties (freedom of speech), political rights ( right to vote) , economic freedom (right to own property) and social freedom ( no discrimination). With no holds barred, freedom can also be a source of friction. Freedom versus equality, freedom versus security, the individual versus others and finally freedom can self destruct. Unlimited free speech can for example destroy a democracy. There are rules about what you can and cannot say. There are many examples of historical battles fought to gain freedom such as the abolition of slavery, decolonization, women's rights, civil rights etc. The modern world sets new challenges in this area with regard to the internet, poverty restricting freedom and addiction and mental health limiting freedom. Karl Marx critiqued capitalist freedom as ‘illusory without economic freedom’. There has been some classic songs written about freedom. Such as Blowing in the Wind ( Bob Dylan) , Freedom ( George Michael), Biko ( Pete Gabriel), I can’t get no satisfaction ( Rolling Stones and I will survive ( Gloria Gaynor).Ther have also many anthems such as The Star-Spangled Banner, America the Beautiful and Born in the USA ( I've seen Bruce three times).In the poem Invictus, Willam Henley recites, ‘I am the captain of my fate. I am the captain of my soul’
My song ‘What if I am set free’, is really asking , ‘will I be better off when  I am free ?’ In the case of my non structured poems, the answer is no. The male singer raises the question in the first verse by singing, ‘What if I am set free, no more you, I'm just thinking of me'. This is an interesting take on events, or he is trying to make the most of it ? It turns out his partner has been unfaithful and wants to leave. She wants her freedom in order to get more. ‘She begged me to forgive her. Leaving after so many years. I was locked in a tug of war. She told me, she wants more’. He wants everyone to know how much it hurts , ‘Nothing ages you faster. Now with her new partner’. We all know how it hurts to lose someone. I like the line ; ‘nothing ages you further.’ Turning to the immediate future he devises a plan to get over her, ‘The sadness of losing a lover, I need a break up makeover. My dreams need some work. I gotta get up and fightback. It's a chance to turn the page. My tough guy image, is just rage’ I guess we all act tough from time to time , what else can you do ? He hasn’t met anyone yet ( its early days) so sings , ‘I’m not dating, it’s so tragic. But still a die-hard romantic’ He is probably being a bit hard on himself or even feeling sorry for himself. He probably needs to take a breath and give it time ! He is not in a good place currently, singing ,’ ‘Hopeful’, but no feelings, Emotions, leave me weeping’ - again its probably too much too soon with his new found freedom. To help he takes a cold shower every morning, so he feels alive and then slips up by sending a message to his ex, which is not a good idea, ‘Cold showers start my day. To feel the freeze, oh yea.If I panic, I send a message. Old love is still my hostage ‘. His solution is ‘I guess now we can all. Take steps, however small.’ This is what happens when you set fee !


Pod 47 What if I am set free

The effect of divorce on children can be profound, causing them emotional distress, a conflict of loyalties, regressive behaviors, academic and social issues, anger and rebellion. I in 4 children in the UK live in separated families, that 4m children or 30% of the total.
The long-term effects on children when they become adults is mixed. Some thrive. The outcome is down to how their parents handled the divorce, and if there was on going conflict between the two partners. Eg when the child is a pawn or a messenger or even a spy !Kids need consistency, love and stability. They must also be encouraged to maintain a strong relationship with both parents.Mimimising change is the key, like keeping the same schools, home and social network etc. Open communication should seek to re assure the children that the divorce was not their fault .Finally they most have access to all their family and their friends for support at any time. Generally, its thought that a good divorce is better than a bad marriage , but I have my doubts about that. Yes, if its in an environment of chronic hostility and abuse. Parental behaviors is the biggest factor, both during the divorce and afterwards. The children need to be the priority, full stop. The children need to be the number I priority, there I've said it again. A healthy relationship between the two ex partners can buffer their grown-up kids against further harm. Holidays and in particular Christmas can be very difficult for example when there are two or in some cases 4 families involved ( i.e. both kids are from divorced parents, and they have both remarried).It also means potentially 4 houses to visit and lots of step fathers, step grandads, step grannies and so on. It’s a minefield. Where you spend Christmas, with who and in what order of rotation is fraught with difficulties. Parents should spare the kids any conflict.eg unequal treatment, lost traditions, logistical stress, financial tension and so on.
This is my song ‘Just Relax’. Its about gown up children ( like mine ) who are from divorced parents. Apologies for the long introduction but I need to get the point across early in  the song, without any hesitation. It starts ,’It’s Christmas baby, a time to share. A time, to bring down the temperature’. The key phrase for me ( not sure where I got it from) is ‘bring down the temperature.’ Thats what everyone involved should focus on in my view. The song then adds a bit of detail,’ Should Santa Claus come to both of us, We’re not together, living at one address’. So, humour at last. The point is let's not over complicate things. Keep it simple and low key. The song goes on ,’ Years later. We don’t want the stress, of crazy, new family chess. Need to put the past behind us, to all be grown up too.’ I like the phrase ‘crazy chess’, i.e. everyone is trying to predict the next move. Don’t do this, just go with the flow. 
Then the children come up in the song, ‘Our kids have a lot to think about, don’t want see us falling out. Families, and Christmas comes in many sizes and guises. Can't assume they’re with you. Dont matter, just stay cool’. So, its back to the stay cool message of in the case of my song title ‘ Just relax’ . The song talks about potential  logistical problems by commenting , ‘Hard to plan around separation, have that difficult conversation. Parent guilt is tough. I’s not your turn, I know it’s rough.’ The phrase it's not you turn is one worth remembering. The kids are not operating to a rota ! We then get a bit more specific, ‘If the kids can come, then the kids can come” Its Christmas baby, a time to share.’ Thats right if they want to come, let them come, stuff the rota system ! Finally, ‘When the kids can’t make it, they’re not trying to hurt. Make room for new partners. They turn the past into calmness.’  Next ,’Do what makes you happy and enjoy it. You’ve earned it! Its Christmas baby, a time to share. A time, to bring down that temperature.’ A time to JUST RELAX !


Pod 50 Just relax

I found writing lyrics a new outlet for my creativity. As such, you all will have to suffer through the thoughts that go through my brain. Travel safe.

While i'm responsible for the lyrics and the general end result, i should emphasize that the actual sound is created with generative AI. I chose the sound, the voice, the genre and delivery and the general guidance of song structure and instrumentation. Build Ups, Instrumental breaks, Drops etc. are all placed by me and given input as best as the AI can handle it. With more granular tools and a better control over the generated audio my personal input will grow as well.

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