prod. kinsei

lyrics:

(intro)
Suddenly you want it back
I'm not calling you up
I feel I'd overreact
Cause' I'm a loser
And you're so far
In someone's arms

(chorus)
I'd end it if I found out
You pretended to love me
The way you behave
You really feel you're above me
Sickening, to the core
Nose dive, you want some more

You're just a fxxking whxre
With no innocence,
You come crawling back,
Take my innocence,
Kinda want you back
Do I need it?
Baby, not anymore

(bridge)
Self medicate, 
Can't think straight
Am I to blame

Oh
You hit me hard

Self medicate
I don't want to fake
I'll make it fade away

And it's the same
(as it was yesterday)

(chorus)
I'd end it if I found out
You pretended to love me
The way you behave
You really feel you're above me
Sickening, to the core
Nose dive, you want some more

You're just a fxxking whxre
With no innocence,
You come crawling back,
Take my innocence,
Kinda want you back
Do I need it?
Baby, not anymore

I’m so sick #shoegaze

Catching Up w/ Michael Gibbon: 18th February '25

Haze

Ethereal Journey

Ethereal Journey, Red Dust (红尘)

LYRICS : 

The sun sets red on a smog-filled sky  
A world once vibrant, now asking why  
The forests whisper, but we don’t hear  
Their silent cries drawing near  

Can we turn the tide before it’s too late?  
Or will we drown in the weight of our fate?  

Fading horizons, a world in decay  
But hope still lingers in the break of day  
From the ashes, we’ll find our way  
Fading horizons, but we’ll stay  

The Earth still breathes beneath our feet  
A fragile heartbeat, steady and sweet 

The Green Rebellion

Fading Horizons

Fading horizons

Regentage

Produced by KCVoid

i wont ever understand 
the fact that u said that u had to go 
and leave me behind
because i try so hard
to get it how i needed it to be
baby
u said
“u look like a deer in ur eyes”
and i said that it’d be alright
i know its important to u
so i cant hold that from u
i’ll never hold that from u 
because i love

i dont ever understand who that ur tryna be
i wont ever understand the messages 
that u send to me 
and all the lines in between
i do not know what they mean at all

i dont ever wanna run away
i dont ever wanna play that game with u
ever again because i thought we were friends
be we weren’t bro
so im gunna hold u to that message u sent
years ago
i wanna see if u can hold ur end of the bargain 
like u said that u would
but i dont think that u could
even if u tried 
even if u tried
i dont wanna know
where it is that u go
when ur on ur own

i dont ever understand who that ur tryna be
i wont ever understand the messages 
that u send to me 
and all the lines in between
i do not know what they mean at all

understand

suburbia (demo)

🖤 The Miracle Syndicate — “Was I Clear?”

You wrote your name
On the back of my hand — it faded.
The ink ran through
Like everything you said — sedated.
I let you in
Even though the room was haunted.
You never lied to me,
But the truth was all I ever wanted.

Aah!

I kept your pills in the drawer,
Next to your voice.
I still sleep on your side,
As if I had a choice.

Tell me—
Did we die or disappear?
Was I noise, or was I clear?
Did you burn it all for love,
Or just to feel?

The ceiling drips,
Like it knows what we did — every hour.
Your sweater still
Smells like fear and aftershower.
I wear your shame
Like a second skin — too tight.
And speak your name
When I turn off the light.

Aah!

You said never again,
But I’m still here.
I draw you in the steam
When the mirror clears.

Tell me—
Did we die or disappear?
Was I noise, or was I clear?
Did you burn it all for love?

All the rooms still know us.
The bed still creaks our names.
I’m the ghost who loved you,
But never learned to stay.

Love!

You said never again,
But I’m still here.
I draw you in the steam
When the mirror clears.

Tell me—
Did we die or disappear?
Was I noise, or was I clear?
Did you burn it all for love,
Or just to feel?

Aah!

Did we die or disappear?
Was I noise, or was I clear?
Did you burn it all for love?

Don’t answer.
Don’t come back.
I just needed to ask.

Credits:

Nayeli Astra: Vox, Guitar, Synths, & Dreams
Brad Astra: Guitars, Bass, Percussion, & Soundscapes

Special Thanks:
To the ravens who guided our melodies, the universe for its endless inspiration, and to everyone who has been part of this journey. This music collection is dedicated to those who dream with their eyes open.

In Loving Memory:
To Rio, who always listened.

Recorded at:
Nude Studio · Calgary, Alberta

Artwork + Photography:
Brad Astra

Label:
Painful Records Ltd.

© 2025 The Miracle Syndicate · All rights reserved
Produced by Brad Astra

Was I Clear?

you don't even notice it anymore

Sugar High

super duper

вечно страшный сон #2017

Thunderstorms all weekend. ⛈️

All mistakes are intentional.

Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Published by Painful Records Ltd.

I think, therefor I am
A little insight of me, growing up I have always loved music, love songs were my go to, bit of a romantic I guess, in time i learned to play really basic keyboard and followed by the electronic age, fell in love with rhythm thus ended up with a set of drums of which I haven't played in some time, as technology came to pass I started playing with PC studio mixing desks, lets jump 15 years to today and now we have AI, before you throw all your toys out of the cot because of AI for me it has enable me to create the sounds I love, the message and the feel, there are a few listeners whom are adamant that AI is bad, then if that's the case then throw away your phone, PC, TV or maybe you or a loved one in hospital etc, nearly basically anything electronic, so please don't  condemn me for creating my music, most of what I try to make pallet able music  to the ear, there are some crazy stuff but it just me experimenting, all in all I just got tired of listening to the radio and decided to create me own, I thank you to all my listeners and followers, lov ya all.

Stairgaze: heavy yet pretty noises born out of sadness, blurring the line between the outer world and the complexities of a troubled soul within, natural entropy and artificial dissonance. I do music that makes me feel something, sometimes with friends. Amateur producer out of Luxembourg with a love for ambient, shoegaze, black metal, post rock, witchouse, gothic and noise rock.

After so many years helping other musicians and creating alone (in reality ghoswriting for others), I have been suggested to show my work, and so  you will see that I have ecclectic inspirations which goes from pop, dark ambient, classical, folk chinese, shoegaze, mandopop, R&B, trap EDM, hybrid trap, hip hop, ambient, from dark to new age, electronic, phonk !, chillout and lounge (I did many albums). I work with 2 chinese singers, tenors Tian and Liang who also have an heavenly male voice. I was here on Soundcloud already  but deleted my account by mistake, so  I hope the many ex-followers will come back soon. I am also on Spotify with short videos (and YouTube, Deezer, Tencent, IheartRadio, Amazon Music,)

Willkommen!
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Just my feelings in audio form.

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