felt like floating

shadow in the hallway

maybe drowning

the sky looked wrong that day

i sleep with the door open now

she said it would stop hurting

don’t wake her

Written, produced and performed by Nathan Castiel

Nathan Castiel • vocals, guitar, bass, synths, programming
Griffin Kisner • drums

Mixed by Jeremy McLennan
Mastered by Greg Obis

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The CRT glow
The start-up chime
Oh I remember when

The CD-ROM twirls
I’m in control
Even if it’s pretend

I drown my Sims
Out in the pool again

How’d I get so cruel?

If only for a second
I was bolder
I got too old to be
A prodigy

It’s getting colder
And I’m addicted to
Technology

And I’m a dick to
everyone I meet

How’d I get so cruel?

I turned my phone off
For the first time
I think in 30 years

I called my own bluff
A mammals hardwired
To live in fear

And maybe that’s
Why I’m so cavalier 

But how’d I get so cruel?

Cruel

Acoustic demo of “ENM” single, target release date late 2025. 

For anyone whose love was infinite but time and energy was finite. ;)

#shoegaze #indie #acoustic #altrock 
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song: ENM
release date: coming late 2025

written by: Miriam Heath & John Kowite
lyrics by: Miriam Heath & John Kowite
vocals: Miriam Heath & John Kowite
guitar: John Kowite
bass: John Kowite
drums: John Kowite

recorded: July 2025 in Phoenix, AZ
produced/recorded by: John Kowite
mixed by: John Kowite
mastered by: John Kowite

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ENM Acoustic Demo [Full Song!]

https://soundcloud.com/stillvanishing

thru gritted teeth, chest stifles
i breath deep, check my vitals
two limbs stretch, towards infinity
ten toes, know i'm breaking cycles

i ponder often what i'm doing here
its melted wax, deep in the fear
as sihlohettes shift amidst fissures of mind
oh, near the wings of morning water i find

still i force a rest
my spirit calls submission
exhale every dread
and i welcome death..

"and i welcome death" [prod. stillvanishing]

intrigued by things dark, weird & strange - so I make music & art accordingly<3

Perfect World is songwriter and filmmaker Nathan Castiel.

Experimental, avant garde shoegaze. Who are we and what do our songs mean? It's personal. x

CALEB777 of FEARxWONDER is a prolific underground phenomenon, whose catalogue travels light years ahead of his peers.  Wielding a very gritty but eclectic production style inspired by the likes of Bon Iver, My Bloody Valentine, Spaceghostpurrp, and lyricism evocative of Kid Cudi and The Devil Wears Prada, abounding tastes are explored just to get a glimpse of what his consciousness represents.

New tracks tagged #Slowcore