Better Days, December 13th

Lyrics:

I miss my family now even when I'm around them like I
Can't help comparing this life now to where we came from and I
Don't wanna sound like I'm trying to put them down it's just I'm
Starting to look back on my past a lot these days so I'm bound to

Be selective as I
Get retrospective like my
Prime objective is to
Gain some perspective but I

Seemed to have in sitting down and
Sifting through lost my directive
And even now I kinda don't know
Where I'm goin' with this record

It's just I'm feeling just a little bit expressive tonight
A fine turn away from being depressive but polite
Like the way that I used to be
Before I gained the confidence to call myself A.E

Each of our individual histories are laced with mistakes
And a whole list of tragedies
To revisit if you don't wanna go insane
Even if it all feels like lava in ya brain

I remain currently in that realm
But luckily passed the self maiming stage of this side quest
Got a vessel of rage I'm tryna helm
And I promise you I ain't bout to let this goddamn ship best these

Testes, test me, bestie
I promise you ain't got the same type of seething in your soul
Riding on yo whole damn essence
Consciously messy like an infant teething

Breathe in and out
Start the four count
Steady yourself
Don't pass the hell out
Know what you about
Recognize yo clout
Make the best a time
For yo clock strikes out said

Breathe in and out
Start the four count
Steady yourself
Don't pass the hell out
Know what you about
Recognize yo clout
Make the best a time
For yo clock strikes out said

Breathe in and out
Start the four count
Steady yourself
Don't pass the hell out
Know what you about
Recognize yo clout
Make the best a time
For yo clock strikes out

Breathe

Better Days, December 13th

Lyrics:

I got this tattoo on my back that's an RIP
To my peeps who died a truly insane story
And I feel so tied to the circumstances of that day
It's like there ain't no way to tell it casually

So I'ma take a moment to honor the honorees
Justin Morejon and his girl Karen Urbina

Should've seen her and him
Knew the brother from way back when
Till his cousin on a whim
Committed the ultimate sin

In ending their lives with a baseball bat
Like how the fuck his kin can do a thing like that
Like you lucky you in dawg 'cause if I catch yo' ass out back
Of any alleyway where I could get away
And yo' ass is a wrap

Shit I used to think about way back then
Back when I could close my eyes and still see they cracked skin
Blackened and distended
Yes your honor that's my friend
And that's my friend and that's their end
And that's the cat that did it on the defense

Been on the fence of stability ever since
But it ain't till recently I really realized how it all affected me
Like I was 18 and so was he
We both lookin' out at futures wide open as the sea

Distance of time pulls a philosopher out of me
And comforts of rhymin' make it hard for me to stay angry
And when anger starts to give all that's left's perspective
It's scary realizing dwelling ain't really healthy

So I started to see then that life is all about balance
And what's on one side of that balance is decay
Not to say I'm forgiving the universe for the calluses
Just tryna say
Acceptance is is the only way to make sure you see better days

Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me

Better days 'head of me
Can't get there without this shit bein' a little painful you see
And honestly RIP ain't been a phantom to me
An uncle 12 and a cousin back in 2016
Just also lost my sister recently to COVID-19
And for real man I ain't tryna be overly obscene
I'm just explainin' why the hell I be the way that I be
And also tryna make y'all see the only reality
Relish yo' moments dawg 'cause they tend to be momentary

Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me
Distance of time
Pulls a philosopher outta me

Cronos

Better Days, December 13th

Lyrics:
Right after ten and I turn
To a specimen who ain't learned
How to live by normal people's time
Might be a cause for concern

But I earned the right to the night
Ain't giving it up with no fight
Comes with the occupation
Pour it up this drink tastes a little light

Well alright
It's morning now wakin' up feelin' like a clown
Who up and tried to sit down
Right in front of a Brightline

What's the time?
It's early and I'm feeling extra surly
Coffee's flowin', soon I'm knowin'
By tonight I'll be just fine

Standing in line to get some food
I'm in a mood
And the sun's being extra rude
And I don't wanna go to work

Only perk I get's
A couple shots on shift
Give myself a little lift
As the sun starts to lurk

On the horizon I'm despising daylight
Come catch me rising out the darkness
Harking on some fright night shit

Ain't right for me to clown my mental breakdown
But I've found
It's easier to drown it out
With some liquor lubricant

That's why I'll be

Tequila Sunset

Better Days, December 13th

Lyrics: 

I'm out here dampening my neck and my collar with night sweat
While my breath's rapidly jetting out of my chest
You best believe there's no rest til high's achieved
Come too close to feeling blessed a demon starts ingesting my psyche

Some might say I'm in need of therapy, we'll see
Meanwhile I'ma push on head and make sure all that y'all see is smiles
Standin' trial against myself with no representatives
Your honor it's been a while since I felt the will to live

But I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running 'til I figure out my next move

Coughin' my whole damn face contorted
Nose snortin', I think I'm bout to pass
Outta this dimension, apprehension
Takin all my attention, I wish I could just crash

On a bed or a lane whichever spot contains
The lameness in my brain, I gotta deal with my past
Speakin crass is formal, I'm tryna be normal
But this here ain't hormones

My self esteem is vastly nasty
Like I keep on underestimating who I can be,
But I'm also contemplating dastardly Fantasies,
Make it hard for me to ever really feel any sort of complete

And left the city for a city
Fell in pits of self pity
And the walls is slippery
So i can't seem to get no goddamn grip

But I'm at the lip of escape
And ain't no capin' for a brother like me
So I'ma run shit my own goddamn way

Like I'm goin keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running keep on running keep on running through
Yeah I'ma keep on running til I run my ass right past you

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